Alpha of Doom
CHAPTER 16: SCREAM LILY, SCREAM

My lips quiver, my heartbeat rises, tears blur my vision and a scream bubbles in my throat.

He smirks not realising the emotional pain he's causing me, he never does.

"You're a slut Lily. A worthless slut, why would I want to be with you?" The tears fall one after another.

"W-why are you saying this?" I stutter.

"You know what would be great?" He doesn't give me time to reply "if you killed yourself" he smiles smugly and I gasp.

Seeing my emotional struggle he smiles "scream Lily, scream" Luca whispers.

And I scream, big, loud and scary. The Windows smash, photo frames crack.

I scream and scream, that's all I can do.

I gasp for breath looking around 'it was just a dream Lily' right. That's all I need to remind myself.

It was just a dream 'a nightmare' my wolf whispers.

A nightmare

I look next to me at Luca and roll my eyes, of course he slept through my screams.

I wipe my eyes to get rid of any fallen tears and steady my breathing not wanting Luca to know that I'm crying.

Just like yesterday when I came home from Storms and Tyler's

Flashback

I open the door and look around with wide eye, glass is smashed, couches are torn, tables are flipped.

I gasp when Luca walks out from the living room with dark eyes, hands in his pockets.

He looks at me, his eyes completely black "where were you!?" He roars and sniffs the air "YOU WERE WITH A MALE!!" He shouts angrily and I whimper. "I-I made a friend."

"A guy friend?! And what did you do with this guy friend Lily?!" He roars once again.

"I-it was a girl" I say tears slipping down my cheeks.

"It was a girl? Then why can I smell a man on you, Lily stop crying for gods sake!" He says angrily and I whimper.

I cannot help that he upsets me

"I-I went to her house, her name is Storm" my lips quiver "and her mate was there" I say honestly.

"Really now?" He asks with dark eyes "I don't do well when someone touches what's mine." "I-I know."

"Good. Now stop crying."

Flashback over

He got mad at me because I cried, he always hurts me then tells me to stop crying.

He's completely oblivious, he doesn't realise he's the cause, not just some random reason.

He's not a very understanding man, I've learned that.

But I can't get accustomed to that, my mate not being a very understanding man. Why can't he be like a normal mate, kind, loving and compassionate?

I hear him groan and an arm wrapping around my small waist, he pulls me to his chest and I sniffle.

"What's wrong?" He whispers.

"I-I had a bad dream, but d-don't worry I'm fine" I lie.

"Don't lie to me" he replies.

"I-I'm not" he sighs nuzzling his head in my neck and my eyes widen.

"He can't bear it" Luca says and I scrunch my eyebrows together in confusion.

"Who's he? And what can't he bear?" I ask.

"My wolf- Tane can't bear seeing you without a mark and walking around in front of perverted males" he growls.

I frown "since when have you cared?" I ask.

He shrugs "I don't, my wolf does. He's the one that wants you" he gruffly says and I push away from his grip.

"Let go of me" I say when I can't get out of his grip, he shakes his head no.

"No can do sweetheart."

"Please" I whisper and he sighs releasing me.

I squirm away and turn the opposite direction from him, I don't want to look at him. That hurt me a lot, words are more worse then actions.

And those words hurt a lot, do I deserve this sort of pain? I've done nothing wrong and I've been given this.

I close my eyes and let sleep take over

~~

Lucas pov.

I watch as my mate curls into my arms, the tingles spreading around my arms.

I never wanted a mate, they make you weak. Then enemies go after your mate and you break, my father was a bit of a weak one.

I cannot afford to be weak, that's one thing I cannot be.

I was always taught that if you have a weakness your enemies will go after it to try and break you, but I was also taught that I should love my mate and family and fellow pack members. But I can't, it's simply impossible for me to do so.

I cannot risk Lily being hurt more, she's broken. She thinks that I can fix her but I cannot, I'm a demon myself.

So I can't help her with her demons if I am too one, how could I do that?

She's been bought up with the idea that mates are loving, kind, caring and compassionate towards their mates but I'm not.

When they got my mother I realised that you're enemies are gaining knowledge about you so they can hurt you.

My mother was killed by my fathers passionate and loving love towards her, the sky fall pack came and took her because they wanted power over father.

Dad went crazy, he stopped doing pack work all he did was search and search for her.

When he found her she was tied, silver chains around her burning her skin and blood everywhere.

She died.

Soon after dad died, I never killed him. Who kills their own parents? I may be cold, ruthless and cruel but one thing I wouldn't do is hurt family.

I especially wouldn't hurt my mate

But I would hurt anyone who hurts her, somehow no matter how much I try to block the bond it never works.

She crawls her way into my heart making it so much harder to stay away from her, how can I?

Her strawberry blonde hair, green hazel eyes, pale skin and thick pink lips have my full attention always.

I just simply cannot stay away from her

Lily's pov.

"Hey Lils!" Storm grins waving at me, I give her a small smile.

"H-hey."

"You okay?" She asks and I nod, she crosses her arms over her chest.

"Tell me" I smile and shake my head.

"Honestly, nothing's wrong" I reply.

She scoffs "and I have a penis" I look at her weirdly and she waves me off. "You don't get it."

"Yeah, I don't and I don't think I wanna know."

She shrugs "I don't think you want to know either, don't worry" she winks and I shake my head.

"What do you like about having a mate?" I ask sighing.

The biggest smile flashes across her face and she sighs dreamily "honestly, it's the best thing in the world. Waking up to butterfly kisses everywhere, cute compliments, cooking together and having food fights, I love the play fights- they are the best. But what I really love is the way he looks at me" she smiles softly.

"How does he look at you?" I ask.

"Like I'm the only one for him, he doesn't look at other girls. He looks like I'm his first love and the only girl in his life, he makes me feel special " I smile.

"well that's great for you!" I say when I feel like hitting my head against a brick wall.

"Tell me about you and alpha" she says and sits down on the swing on the kids play ground.

I sit down on the one next to hers and move back and forth slightly, I sigh. It's not good at all.

"He looks at me like I'm a disappointment, the cold eyes and hard stares always make me feel self conscious. I just always feel like he's judging my every mood because it's him, he's not loving or caring he's a monster. He kissed me then left me believing that he only did that because another male was there, to make our 'relationship' seem real. He calls me weak, he's one the strongest alphas in the world- he simply can't have a weak mate. It puts 'pressure' on him" I sigh sadly. "He's stupid if he doesn't accept you for who you are, Lily you are a gorgeous, kind, caring and loving woman. You don't need no man to make you feel worthy! He honestly doesn't deserve you, next time he says anything like you're weak or worthless just say I will shove my hand up your ass so hard that you won't be able to poo for the rest of your life. He obviously kissed you out of jealousy because look at you! You're like a freaking super model" she whistles and I blush. "You are worthy enough, you are loved and you are strong. You survived what most people can't, but Lily- you did it!" She grins and I smile.

"You really are good at heartfelt speeches."

"I am pretty good" she nods to herself proudly.

Someone coughs and we awkwardly look away when we see Luca with his arms across his chest.

"Alpha knight! Good morning" she sheepishly grins.

"It's afternoon" he grumbles.

"Morning. Afternoon. Same thing!" She waves him off and I giggle, I haven't seen anyone do this to Luca.

It's funny actually

I smile and Luca looks at me, something flashes in his eyes but disappears as fast as it came.

"Who's this?" He asks.

"My name is Storm alpha Knight" his mouth opens in understanding.

"So you're storm."

"Indeed" she says smiling, when does this girl not smile?

"And your mates Tyler?" She blushes and nods shyly.

"Good afternoon alpha Knight" speak of the devil and he shall appear.

Tyler wraps a muscular arm around Storms waist and kissed her temple, I look away not wanting to get jealous.

Tyler reaches his hand out and Luca shakes it firmly and seriously, what the hell?

Luca stands next to me and pulls me to his chest, I place my hands on his torso and he swallows.

"I... Uh... I'm.... Sorry about last night" he sighs in relief and I stare blankly at him. He groans "I'm sorry about last night" I pat his chest sympathetically and stand on my tippy toes. "You're not forgiven" I whisper in his ear then step back stomping my way inside like a child.

"Bye Storm and Tyler!" I wave.

"Bye!"

I stomp up to Lucas room and sit on the bed, Luca comes storming in with a furious face.

"How dare you? I said sorry and you didn't even forgive me! I rarely say sorry Lily, you should know that by now!" He shouts "and how could you embarrass me like that!?"

"It's because I can't forgive you Luca! You call me worthless, weak and last night that just snapped everything. Everything. Do you know how it feels to be called all those names by your own mate, no you don't!" I shout.

"I do know! You call me a monster, cold, cruel, ruthless, merciful, unloved. So stop being a hypocrite" he says and sits down on the chair in the corner.

I hadn't realised, I do call him that and I am being a hypocrite.

Now I'm going to be really brave and do this with much courage, even though it's really weird and he still hates me.

I stand up and walk over to where he's sitting, he looks up at me with emotionless eyes. I plop down on his lap and his eyes widen, I curl into him and I see him gripping the chair containing himself. "What are you doing?" He asks.

"I'm sorry, I forgive you and I hope you can forgive me" I know we are just going to go back to fighting tomorrow.

"I forgive you" he whispers and looks at my lips.

His cold eyes return and he looks away pushing me off, I fall on my knees and look at him with wide eyes.

He walks to the bathroom tense and I whimper standing up, I was right.