Arranged To The Alpha
Chapter 56

Blake:

“What the f**k do you mean she filed for a divorce?” I asked my lawyer, my eyes widening in Surprise as I processed what he just told me. She had sent her lawyer here earlier, but the last thing I expected was for her to do something like this.

“She sent the papers that needed signing, boss.

Her lawyer says that there is nothing for us to worry about when it concerns the business partnership, she is more than willing to keep it running; but she does not wish to proceed with the marriage” His eyes avoided mine as he handed me the divorce paper with her signature on it. And staring at the papers, I felt like my heart dropped to my stomach.

“Get out” I said, not bothering to look up from the sheet of paper, now realizing and understanding how much damage a small paper could do to a person. My world itself felt like it was breaking apart, and I couldn’t even bring myself to accept or believe that she would do such a thing with everything that the two of us were going through.

“Boss.”

“I SAID OUT!” I said, making the man’s heart race before he rushed out of the office. I ran my fingers through my hair before trying to call Natalia for the tenth time in the past few hours. She was either avoiding my calls, blocking my number, or turning her phone off. I couldn’t even reach her at her office’s landline.

My hand shook as I threw my phone on the wall, smashing it. And walking out of my office, I was thankful for the fact that I chose to stay at home and try to get a few things done; but when my láwyer came home with the paper, I literally lost it.

I have been doing so for the past few days, hoping that she would come back to her senses. I knew that she was at her office, and I chose to give her some time to cool off, but this was the LAST thing I expected as a result.

The fact that she left was understandable. This time, I had crossed every single line by shifting on her, but for her to file for a divorce, now that was something that I couldn’t accept. Especially not since the two of us were mates, and especially not since we chose to complete our mating. If she thought that it was that simple, then she was very wrong, and I was going to prove to her that she was.

“Get the f**k out of my office” she said, glaring at me. I slammed her office’s door shut, thankful that it was already the end of the day and that her employees left a while ago.

“You filed for a f*****g divorce”

“You should be considering yourself lucky that I ONLY file for a divorce” she said, snapping at me as she glared at her shoulder. The shoulder that I hurt when I shifted “now, get the f**k out of my óffice, sign that f*****g paper and just get this over with. The two of us have never fit and we never will, that is that, just f*****g accept it”

“You are acting out of anger, Natalia, and that is not good for the two of us. It wouldn’t lead us anywhere, and I can assume that you are already aware of that” I said, wanting to approach her. Her father, who has been staying at the house for the past few days, has been wondering why she left the way that she did. I couldn’t bring myself to tell him that the two of us got into such a bad fight, therefore, I simply told him that the two of us needed a small break.

“I am acting out of anger?” She asked, shaking her head at me. I tried approaching her only for her to build up a barrier of wind between the two of us, stopping me “I do not want you around me, Blake”

“Natalia, the two of us are going through hell, you can’t just leave like this” I said, looking at my mate who raised an eyebrow at me. Her eyes studied mine for a few seconds before she crossed her arms over her chest, waiting for What I had to say. I sighed and shook my head “I know that I hurt you.

“I do not want to hear it, Blake. My problem is not you physically hurting me either, and if you are failing to realize it…”.

“Can I ask why you’re so jealous of Myla?” I asked,

catching Natalia off guard. Her eyes were fixed on mine for a few seconds as she processed my question before shaking her head “I know you well enough to know that this is all drawn out of jealousy. So, I want to know, Natalia, why are you jealous of Myla”

“I am jealous of no one” she said and raising an eyebrow, I took the chance and took a step toward her, placing the divorce paper on her desk as I did.

“Really?” I asked as I walked around the desk to tower over her body. I pushed her back on it and made her sit on the desk, spreading her legs as I settled between them “so, you brought her up despite knowing that her topic was a sensitive one to me. You asking random questions, getting in my head, seeing the memories that I had with her; all that is not drawn out of jealousy?”

I placed my hands either side of her, caging her between my arms as I looked her in the eye “I do believe that I know my mate well enough to know when she is jealous and when she is not. And therefore, you do not need to lie to me about it. But what I understand is why you are? And I want you to say it out loud because the two of us know for fáct that I can easily get in your head and find out.

If I am asking, it means that I want YOU to hear yourself saying it.

Tears left her eyes before she could stop them, and sighing, I cupped her cheeks and wiped them for her “why are you scared, Natalia?”

“You don’t look at me the way you look at her portrait, Blake” she said, making me smile. I kept my eyes on hers as I listened, letting her voice her thoughts out “you take me to dates that you took her to, you compare the two of us, and at times, I just find myself scared that I would lose you because of it”

“So, you chose to want to end things between the two of us by filing a divorce?” I asked, shaking my head in question. Natalia’s eyes avoided mine as she looked down at my chest, and waiting for her answer, I took a step back and crossed my arms over my chest “you do realize that it could have been solved if you had spoken to me…”

“I do, I do speak to you…”

“Natalia, you are aware that the accusations that you make when it comes to Myla are ones that are far too selfish for me or anyone in my shoes to simply accept” I said, stopping her “I understand your insecurities toward it, but you have to respect that Myla died a year before I married you. You also have to respect the fact that I was deeply in love with her when she died. The two of us grew up together and it literally only natural for me to still love and cherish her. Why? Because I still cherish Mason, and he died. Him dying does not mean that I would be forgetting him, otherwise, was I really his friend? Or was I truly in love with her?”

“I don’t expect you to understand me now, and I don’t expect you to listen to a word I’m saying without thinking that I am choosing her over you.

But what I do expect from you is the respect of the fact that she was my mate until very recently, and simply forgetting about her would mean that I was never true to her” I said, my voice softening another thing that I need you to understand, Nat. me respecting and appreciating her would only mean that I would never harm you as a person. It would mean that I would value you more and more; however, if she was easy for me to forget, don’t you think that it would be the same case for you?”

I took a step toward her and leaned into her cheek, kissing her gently “I am sorry for your shoulder. It was out of my line, and I should have been in more control of my reaction”

My voice was above a whisper as I spoke, and looking her in the eye, I gave her a gentle smile before turning to the door, leaving the divorce paper on her desk “you can burn the paper, I won’t sign it if my life depends on it. Plus, you’re my mate and the bond we have is more intimate than that stupid paper Would ever mean”

“Blake…”

“I’ll be waiting for you at home, Natalia” I said, stopping her “and we can talk when you’re back and have set your mind straight about what I just told you”