Arranged To The Alpha
Chapter 62

Blake:

“Are you sure that you want to handle seeing him, baby girl?” I asked Natalia who smiled as she put her shirt on.

“I can’t keep hiding here from him. Plus, we have to start with this stupid training; otherwise, we are in deep hell when Drake decides to pop up” Natalia said, looking at me. I wrapped my arms around her waist, pulling her to my chest, feeling thankful for her being by my side. She didn’t even know how happy I was that she was actually giving me a chance to fix things between us, but the last thing I could think of right now was asking too many questions that could make her nervous about us being okay now or not.

One thing that I knew for sure, I was thankful for the fact that the two of us managed to share a bed for the first time in weeks, OUR bed, and that is something that I couldn’t have been more grateful for. The night was the first peaceful night in the many nights of us either being in a fight, of us staying at the hospital. The warmth that we felt, and the sense of being in our home was something that I wouldn’t change for the world.

Funny how situations like this showed us the blessings that we have. Our laughter, cries, anger, fights, and cuddles, everything that we have been through within these walls are something that I wouldn’t change for the world, and knowing that she was there to share them with me only made them more special. It sickened me that I had to go through all that we have gone through for me to realize it, but I was also glad that things worked out in the end.

“If he puts you under too much pressure, just let me know, okay? I’ll be sure to put him in place” I said, making her smile. She stood on her toes and kissed my lips, her k**s more gentle than it has ever been. The two of us pulled away from one another, and looking down at her, I ran my finger over her cheek as I smiled at my beauty.

“Don’t worry, my love. I’ll be fine” she said, making me smile. Just the fact that she was as calm and happy as she was made my heart skip a beat, and seeing as I knew that the two of us just came out of the storm of our lives only made this a whole lot better. I knew that we were nowhere near the end of the hurricane that we were going to deal with, but I knew that we would eventually find our rainbow after them. All we had to do was get past whatever our fate held for us, but seeing as we both knew what we were going through, I knew that it would be a whole lot easier.

I smiled and wrapped my arm around her waist as the two of us walked out of the bedroom.

It has been a while since the two of us have walked as confidently as we have. And looking at Myla’s picture which was hung on the wall, I couldn’t help but regret the feelings that Natalia got, knowing that she would have to look at it whenever she walked through the house. The portrait was the first thing anyone did see when they entered the house and looked at the staircase. I had it made specifically for her when she told me about the pregnancy, hanging it on the wall to have her and everyone know who my queen was.

I knew that I wouldn’t have accepted it if I were in Natalia’s shoes. Knowing that she had an ex would be something, knowing that she lost him was another, but knowing that she was still keeping a picture of him in the middle of her house for everyone to see, for ME to see with every step I took around the house was something that I knew I wouldn’t accept. Therefore, putting myself in her place, I stopped, making her frown in confusion as I looked at the picture. I could read her pain in her eyes as she grew insecure; however, extending my hand toward it, my chest ached, but I knew that I had to respect the fact that I had a wife, a mate, and that woman had feelings too. And those feelings mattered to me more than I could ever describe.

She looked down at her feet, avoiding my eyes as she crossed her arms over her chest. Her heart raced, and smiling at the portrait, I raised my hand to touch her face gently before lowering it to the bottom of the portrait, taking it off the wall.

I put it on the floor, making Natalia frown in confusion as I turned to face her. Her eyes met mine, and I smiled, cupping her cheeks as I approached her.

“Blake…”

“Never, in your life, think that I would love anyone more than I am in love with you” I whispered, making her eyes tear up “yes, Myla will forever be my first love, and her memories will live with me until the end of time…”

I took her hand and put it on my chest, right over my beating heart as I looked her in the eye. Her tears fell from her eyes as she kept them on mine “but I want you to know that YOU, my beautiful Natalia, have settled in here, and I don’t want you leaving. If my heart is beating right now, it is beating for you, and if I am breathing right now, it is because of you, and if I am willing to fight to live. I never want you forgetting that, baby girl”

My voice was above a whisper as I spoke, and looking down behind her, my eyes met Jordan’s whose eyes were wide in surprise at the fact of the portrait being on the floor by the wall. It was something that even I didn’t expect to have the courage to do, but I knew that to ensure that I kept my relationship with my beauty, and to ensure that I built a healthy home, that I had to do this. It was a start of something, and no matter what the outcome of it would be right now, it was something that I knew would be good for both of us.

“How about we go down for breakfast before the family comes out to look for us?” I asked, making her laugh. She nodded as I wiped her tears, and kissing her forehead, I wrapped my arm around her shoulder, pulling her closer to my chest. She laid her head on it for a few seconds, getting lost in my touch before letting out a sigh of relief, one that I knew she has been holding in for a while now.

The pain that she has been in for a while made my heart ache, especially since I knew that neglecting her as much as I did was the main reason behind it. I ran my finger over her shoulder before looking down at her. My heart racing, and my mind getting lost in my thoughts. I knew that I wanted to do more than just a little to satisfy and please her. If anything, I now wanted to lay the whole world at her feet to simply see a beautiful smile on her face, and that was exactly what I was going to do.

I give you my word, Natalia, I will make up for the pain that I made you go through. I will be proving to you how much I am deeply in love with you. All I need from you is a chance, and since I currently have it, if only a spec of it, I will not be letting that go.