Betrayed By Everyone, Loved By Four
Betrayed By Everyone Loved by Four Bonus Chapter 27

"You're pregnant?" Milo asked me.

All I can do is fiddle with my hands. I just want to disappear. To run back to my bedroom, and hide under the covers. I don't want to deal with this.

I have no idea how my boyfriends are feeling either. Leo is staring at the test in his hand, like if he stares at it long enough, it'll change. Milo is waiting for me to answer his question, even though the answer is right in front of his face. Atlas and Oli are just staring at me, like the news of Milos question hasn't set in their brains yet.

"I.. I.. I'm sorry." I whispered.

I'm not sure why I feel the need to apologize. Afterall, this was a group effort. Still though.. I feel like I ruined all of their lives. If I would have just remembered to take my birth control on time, then we wouldn't be going through this right now. "Sorry?" Atlas asked.

Before I could answer him, Leo turned his eyes to me. There is nothing but anger in his deep greens. I knew that this wouldn't go well. That Leo wouldn't take it well, but.. I didn't think he would be angry with me. "How did this happen?" He asked angrily.

My bottom lip trembled.

"!." I trailed off.

I don't know if I can speak right now. Not with that look in Leo's eyes. I knew that this would be a big diaster. They re all going to leave me.

"What kind of stupid a*s question is that?" Milo bit out.

"Never thought we would have to have the birds and the bees conversation with our Dom." Atlas added.

"Especially now." Oli chimed in.

Okay, wait. This conversation seems to be going in a direction that I was not expecting. Milo didn't sound too happy, but Oli and Atlas are making light of this situation.

Leo didn't take his eyes off of me. The longer he looks at me with that angry look, the more sick I feel. Actually, I feel.. extremely sick..

"Millie are you okay?" | heard Oli ask, but he sounds kind of far away

My breathing is starting to come our harsher. Oh no. Am I hyperventilating again?

"I just. 1. 1 didn't mean to.. I forgot.. I. I.."

I can't form a full f*****g sentence.

"Cupcake, you need to calm down. You're having a panic attack." Milo said softly.

"I. I.. I. I. can't.. I."

Tears streamed down my face as I stare back at Leo. I can vaguely feel arms wrap around me from behind. My vision blurred, and another figure moved in front of me.

Hands cupped my cheeks. I can tell, even through my blurred vision that it's Milo. He rubbed the pads of his thumbs across my cheeks lovingly.

"Baby, I know you are freaking out, but you need to calm down. You're breathing is erratic, and it's not good for the baby. You have to try to calm down-"

"Not good for the baby!" Leo shouted interrupting him. "Do you hear yourself right now Milo?" He asked incredulously.

Milo let go of my face to turn and face Leo.

"Yeah Leo, I do. Millie is pregnant. We're having a baby. I know you're freaking out right now too, but chill." He bit out.

"Chill? Chill!" Leo asked incredulously. "This could ruin our entire lives Milo. Were still in school. We have a lot more to go 100! What the hell are we supposed to do now?!" Leo shouted

"You can start with caring about how Millie feels!" Milo shouted back. "Look at her Leo! You are not the only one freaking out right now!"

I started to back up as my crying became worse. I feel like I can't breathe at all. I backed into the man behind me. A small sob fell from my lips as I try to breath normally.

Milo and Leo stopped yelling at each other at the sound of my sob. They both turned to me, and I shrunk back more. I turned around to find I'm in Oli's arms. I buried my face in his chest as I continued to cry "I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry. I.. I didn't mean for.. I trailed off unable to finish a sentence.

"Shh, shh. It's alright angel. You have nothing to be sorry for." Oli whispered.

Oli wrapped his arms around me. One rubbing my head soothingly, while the other rubbed my back. I nearly melted into Oli.

What if this is the last time I get this with him? What if he's just doing this to calm me down before telling me this isn't what they want?

I squeezed onto Oli tighter.

"Please don't leave me." I whispered

I was met with silence. Which only made me feel more validated in thinking they don't want this. I mean, who does at our age?

Leo is right. We're still in school. He and Milo have so much more to go. Atlas is trying to open up a buisness.

This could ruin everything. Just like Leo said. And it's all my fault.

"Do you hear that Leo? You f*****g asshole." Oli said.

Leo said nothing.

Arms wrapped around me from behind. A kiss was placed to the top of my head. Then the lips stayed there.

"We are not leaving you babygirl." Atlas said softly. "This is a blessing. Don't you see that?" He asked.

Atlas thinks.. this is a blessing? Really? He's.. happy?

"A blessing?" Leo asked with a scoff. "This is a damn nightmare."

My heart shattered. I squeezed Oli tighter as another sob broke free. Atlas hugged me tighter.

"Leo!" Oli scolded.

"What? Do you all really expect me to just think this is some joyous thing? Do you not understand how hard having kids is? How difficult this is going to be for all of us? How many sacrifices we're going to have to make?" Leo asked I can't take it anymore. I can't listen to him be so upset with me. My heart just can't do it.

I pulled away from Oli, and Atlas to turn to Leo. Tears are still streaming down my face. Leo still looks pissed off.

"Then don't." I stated

Leo raised an angry brow at me.

"Don't?" He asked.

"Yeah. Don't." I said.

Leo shook his head as he gave a hollow laugh.

"I don't think you're understanding Millie. I can't just-" He started, but I interrupted him.

"No!" I shouted. "If you don't want this, then don't! I can do it! On my own if you don't want to be here! You don't have to do anything. Ever! You don't have to worry about anything that'll happen! I'll do it all! I don't need you!"

By the end of my rant, I'm a sobbing, yelling mess. My tears are coming so hard that I can barely see. I'm still breathing harsh, but not as bad. And my f**kg head is spinning.

Everything I said was a lie. I can't do this. Not alone. Not without them. I need them. All of them.

"Y-y-you told me th-that i-it would be okay if." I whispered.

"That was when I thought it would happen after we graduated college." Leo replied.

I just stared at Leo through blurred vision.

"It was just all what I wanted to hear, wasn't it?" I asked.

"What?" Leo asked back.

"That night that we spent on the phone talking about having a family. You promising me that we would get through everything together, even a baby. Marry me. It was all just what I wanted to hear. Just to make sure I stayed with you all." I said shaking my head. "Millie-" Leo tried, but I don't want to hear it.

"You never wanted kids. You never planned to actually marry me. Did you even think that this relationship would last this long?" I accused.

"Now you're just being ridiculous Millie." Leo said.

"Am I?" I asked.

I looked around at all of their blurry faces. I backed away from them until my back hit our hallway wall. Has all of this been a lie this whole time? Have they just been filling my hopes because they love me? With no real intention of making those hopes come true? "What the f**k is wrong with you Leo?" Milo bit out.

"Yeah, why are you acting like this?" Atlas asked.

"Because I'm the only one not coddling our girl over this?

Im freaking out! This is a big f*****g deal!" Leo replied.

I had to drown out their arguing. I just can't listen to Leo go on and on about how much I f****d up. I can barely even breath right now. I'm feeling..

"Millie?" Oli said my name softly.

I tried to look at him, but black dots spotted my vision.

"Cupcake? Are you alright?" I heard Milo ask.

Why does he sound so far away? Like he's in a tunnel or something? Wasn't he just a few feet away from me?

I tried to look at any of them, but then the room starting to spin. I can vaguely hear more voices, but they sound so far away. I swayed on my feet slightly as I tried to open my mouth to speak. And then everything went black.