Betrayed By Everyone, Loved By Four
Betrayed By Everyone Loved by Four Chapter 60

Millie P.O.V.

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The last couple of weeks have been awful. F*****g awful. I can't seem to pull myself out of this funk, and most of me doesn't even want to.

Over the summer I promised myself that this year would be different for me. I would be happy. Even if I had to force myself to be. I wasn't going to let anyone get to me. School came first, but I was also going to come out of the shell I built around myself.

All of that ended the moment I walked into the firm that day. I can't stop playing the events in my head. That stupid Holly girl haunts my dreams. I keep seeing her face, laughing at me.

Every day Lila picks Caleb up for school. She tries to talk to me. They both try to get me to let her take me to school. I ignore them every single morning.

For the first week, not one of the guys would leave me alone. I ignored them the best I could. They would get in trouble for pestering me, but they didn't seem to care. I wasn't even staying for my last period of the day anymore.

It became too much the second week. I asked all of my teachers to move the seats around. I was vague about my reasoning, but said that I didn't want to be around the people that sat beside me any longer. Because of my troubled past, all of them agreed. Which is a bit sad honestly.

That didn't stop the guys though. I would have to run off from every class to avoid them trying to stop me. I hid in different places every day at lunch so that they wouldn't find me. I don't want to hear what they have to say.

Caleb is worried about me again. Along with my parents. Mom and Dad had let me know that they are always around if I need to talk, but Caleb is different. He keeps pushing me to talk to him. Apparently, Lila told him the majority of what happened.

I stil refuse to talk about it with anyone though. Caleb is growing more frustrated with me. Personally, I think it's bullshit. He's supposed to be on my side.

At least last year when I was going through it I had Caleb. Now, he's pretty much a traitor. Those fucking jerks stole the last person I trusted from me.

I still can't believe that Caleb gave Milo a key. Forgot something for baskeball practice my ass. Stupid traitor was setting me up.

It's only been one day since Milo had came to my house. It's now been three weeks since the incident with the guys. I can't stop thinking about what Milo told me though.

When he reached out, and pulled me to his chest, I fought. I didn't want to give in, no matter how good it felt to be in his arms. My fight was short, and weak. In the end, I was gripping Milo's shirt, and sobbing.

Milo was so gentle with me. No matter what I said to him. And I tried so hard to push him away with my words.

Then he had to go and call me special. Milo's soft words were getting to me. I couldn't fall under his spell again. I pushed him away, even though I didn't want to.

When I slammed the door in his face I thought that he would leave. I mean, why would he stay? I told them I didn't want them anymore, and they have that Holly girl. I don't understand why they are still pushing me. Milo's words still play in my head over, and over again.

All four of us are deeply in love with you Ameila Holmebrook.

It didn't feel like Milo was lying. How am I supposed to trust myself though? What if that was just want I wanted to hear, to believe? I don't want to be tricked again.

Milo's other words played in my head as well. I hate to admit it, but I have been thinking about that day. Was Milo telling the truth?

It was clear that Holly knew them. Is she really just an ex? I mean, if she wasn't why would the guys all come rushing after me?

Thinking back to it now, Milo looked absolutely digusted when I first walked in. The look of pure fear, and shock on everyone's faces when they saw me, was also strange. And Milo did turn around to Holly, and told her that he wasn't her boyfriend. Not to mention calling her a psycho to her face, and in front of me.

If I am just some other girl to them all, why do they care so much? Why are they still trying after three weeks of me ignoring them? What would they gain from me now?

It doesn't seem like they have been enjoying my suffering. They don't even seem to be slightly happy actually. I've caught glimpes of them here, and there. I tried to ignore them, but sometimes it was hard. I saw how sad they all looked.

Oliver's eyes had dulled, something I hated deeply. Atlas just seems angry all the time. Milo looks lost constantly, like he's here, but not here. And Leo.. Leo just stares at me so intensely sometimes. It's so intense every time I catch his green eyes. I never know what to make of him.

All of them seem different. Sad. I wasn't sure what to make of it before. Maybe I just thought they were faking it, but now...

With what Milo had told me, now that I look at things.. It just all seems different. I jumped to conclusions immediately. I didn't give anyone a chance to explain. I just assumed that they were all out to play games with me.

Has what Vanessa, and her friends done tramautized me? If it weren't for them I would have heard the guys out. Am I still letting their bullying ruin my life? It feels that way.

I'm just not sure anymore. About anything. I want, so badly, to believe Milo. To run to all of them, and let them take away all of my worries. I want my friends back, and I want to be happy. But what if it is all a lie?

What if it's that hopeful side of me just convincing myself to believe them? And then this happens all over again? I'm not sure I could handle it again. I can barely handle it now.

I sighed heavily. This is so hard. My brain is mush.

"Hey, you mind if I come in?" Caleb asked from my doorway.

I frowned at him. "That depends, are you still a traitor?" I asked snarkily.

Caleb walked in, and sat on my bed next to me.

"I just want to see you happy again Mil." He said.

"So you send one of the people who hurt me here?" I asked.

Caleb shook his head. "If you would let them explain-"

"Still a traitor." I mumbled. "Why are you even here? Don't you have a girlfriend to see?" I asked.

It's Saturday. I'm sitting in my room staring out the window, doing nothing like always. Caleb is usually gone on the weekends, with his friends, and girlfriend.

"Why don't you just ask what you really want to Millie." Caleb called me out.

I narrowed my eyes at him. Then I sighed. Stupid little brother, so perceptive.

"How is she?" I asked softly.

"Lila you mean?" I rolled my eyes at him. "She's alright I guess. Misses her best friend." He told me. "She isn't doing as bad as the guys though."

I rolled my eyes again. "Does nobody care about how I am?" I asked no one in particular.

"We all care. You just won't let any of us show you." Caleb said.

"No, I won't let them show me. You just chose them over me." I stated.

Caleb shook his head. "I did not, and you know it. Millie, do you really think that if they hurt you the way you think I would just stick around, and be on their side?"

I shrugged. "Kind of."

"Just because I love Lila, does not mean I would choose her over you. All I did, was listen to their side of the story. I think if you did too that you would feel differently." He told me. "Whatever." I mumbled.

"Come on, let's go out for some food."

About an hour later, and Caleb and I are finishing up some pizza. I actually feel a little bit better. Maybe I just needed to be around some people. Yeah, that's it. Nothing to do with all the things Milo said yesterday. Caleb and I were chatting when someone came to stand next to our table. I looked up to see James standing next to us. He looks... rough.

James has a busted lip, black eye, and some bruising around his nose, and left side of his jaw. Did he get in a fight?

"Hey Millie, can we talk?" He asked with a smile.

"No thanks." I stated.

"Come on Mil, I just want to-"

"Talk, yeah I heard ya the first time. I said no thanks." I interrupted.

Caleb is trying to hold in his laughter.

Just when James opened his mouth again, in walked Leo. His eyes met mine, and my breath caught in my throat. I quickly gathered myself, and frowned.

Leo started making his way over to me.

I looked up at James. "Actually, I'd love to have a chat." I said as I stood up.

"Uh, you sure about that Mil?" Caleb asked.

"Yup." I lied.

"I'll wait for you." Caleb told me.

"I can always take you home." James said.

Leo is now standing next to Caleb. He took a seat as he glared at James. Great, now he's going to wait until I come back.

"James can take me home." I said, and then turned on my heel.

James and I walked to the park across the street. It's actually pretty late. The sun has gone down. The park is pretty much empty. James walked over to this hidden corner in the playground.

This is where we always used to come around this time of night, when we were dating. Mostly everyone is home, and the stores are closed down. It's quiet, and peaceful.

I crossed my arms over my chest.

"What do you want James?" I asked.

"Just to talk." Was all he said.

I raised a brow. "So talk."

"Ya know, you're pretty bitchy for someone who got me beat up." He said.

"Excuse me?" I asked. "How did I get you beat up?"

Did this have something to do with the guys?

"One of your boyfriends did this." James said gesturing to his face.

I rolled my eyes. "I don't have a boyfriend. Whoever hit you had nothing to do with me." I said.

James reached out, and wrapped an arm around my waist. I put my hands on his chest, and pushed. He didn't budge.

"Let go of me right now. I want to go home." I said.

James chuckled. "No way. I finally got you alone after weeks of trying."

What the fuck did that mean?

"I think you owe me Millie." He said.

"Owe you?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.

James nodded, and sucked on his bottom lip as his eyes scanned down my body.

"That's right. You got me beat up. You're little noodle of a boyfriend, kicked my ass good." Does he mean Atlas? "I need you to kiss me better." James said as he leaned down.

I put my hands in front of my face to stop him, and made a disgusted noise.

"As if." I said. "Have one of the cheerleaders do it."

James moved my hands from my face. He pushed my back into the wood of the playground roughly. Then his hands started to move up my sides, up my T-shirt. My body froze for a second before I started to push him away. "Come on Mil, don't be like that." James brought his mouth down to my neck. "It's not like we haven't been together before."

He pressed a kiss to my skin, and I cringed.

This is not happening right now.

I kept pushing James away. He grabbed both of my wrists in one hand, and pinned them above my head. Pure panic coursed through me.

"James what are you doing? I said no." I rushed out.

"Awh come on Millie. You have been giving it up to four guys. You can handle one more." He told me.

I started shaking my head, but James still kept kissing the side of my neck. Tears stung the back of my eyes. There isn't even anyone around to hear me scream. I'm sure that Caleb left already. "This is r**e James. You will go to jail." I tried.

James chuckled. "It's your word against mine Millie. And we all know how that goes for you. So, just let me take what I want."