Betrayed By Everyone, Loved By Four
Betrayed By Everyone Loved by Four Chapter 86

Something is off with Atlas. Well, was. He seems to be his normal self again now though.

After we had mind blowing s*x in the equipment room, we met up with our others to eat lunch. Milo made jokes about how all of them are getting their time alone with me lately. Oliver smirked the entire time.

I can't keep my mind off of the way Atlas was though. The things he said when I asked him what was wrong.. The way that he f****d me in that room..

Does Atlas not think I love him? Have I not been giving to them as much as they give to me? Do all of them feel that same way, and are just afraid to tell me?

I know that they had a lot to make up for after the Holly situation, but.. It's different now. I don't feel angry at them anymore. Honestly, if Holly were to come back, I would probably laugh in her face at her lame attempts to take my men. So, am I still being too sefish?

I know that things have been different since the whole James thing. I've been leaning on them a lot. After my talk with Milo this morning, I'm feeling better, but now.. I don't know. I'm not ready to give up their comfort. Milo had a point that I am just trying to deal right now. I'm not ready to give up the secruity they give me.

Does that mean I should be doing more for them though? Should I be showing my appreciation in some other way? Other than s*x? What can I even do?

I need to figure out some way to show them all how much I appreciate, and love them. I'm just not sure what to do. Maybe I should take them on date?

"What are you thinking so hard about princess?" Leo whispered in my ear.

My eyes snapped up from my food. Everyone else is talking with each other. No one heard Leo asked me that.

I looked up into Leo's deep green eyes. Should I ask Leo for help? Wouldn't that defeat the prupose of me wanting to do something for all of them? Leo would know the perfect thing to do though.

"Just about how much I love, and appreciate all of you." I said.

Leo raised a brow at me. "That all?" He asked.

He knows I'm not telling the whole truth. Leo reads me like a damn book. It's completely unfair.

"Mhmm." I hummed out my lie.

Leo chuckled lowly, and bent down to get in my face.

"That's two." He stated.

All the hairs on the back of my neck stood on end.

"I'm telling the truth." I said.

"Not the full truth. Something else is going on in that head of yours." Leo called me out.

"No, that's really all." I lied.

"Three." Leo stated.

Shit.

"Leo." I whined out.

"That's four punishments." He said.

My jaw dropped.

"All I did was say your name." I grumbled.

"Yeah, but I want to punish you." Leo said with a shrug.

I gave him a flat look.

"So, tell me." Leo demanded.

"Why should I? I'm already getting punished." I grumbled as I looked away.

Leo grabbed my chin, and forced my eyes back to his.

"Keep it up, and I not only will punish you, but I won't let you c*m either." He said dangerously.

I frowned.

"Am I not allowed to have secrets?" I seethed quietly.

Leo smiled, making that lip ring pull up.

"Not from me, not from us." He said.

I pouted at him.

"Doesn't work on me love." Leo said amused.

I frowned.

"Neither does that. Just tell me." He ordered.

I sighed. "I don't want to." I admitted.

"Why?" Leo asked.

"If I tell you that, then I risk telling you everything. I.." I trailed off.

There's really no way for me to be honest. If I tell him that I can't tell him because I want him to be surprised, then that tells him I'm planning something. I don't want Leo to be mad, but I don't know what to say. "Millie-" Leo said, but I interrupted him.

"Please don't be mad at me." I whispered.

Sadness is working it's way up my throat. How am I ever supposed to plan something special for them if I have to tell one of them about it? And how can I keep it a secret knowing Leo would be angry with me?

I don't want any of them to be mad at me. I hate it when Leo is the most. Not that they have ever really been mad at me, but Leo has a way of ignoring me when he's upset. He keeps me at arms length. Always keeping an eye on me, but never touching me. Almost like he teases me with his presence. I hate it.

"Just tell me what it is love, and I won't be." Leo cooed.

F**k.

My eyes fell, but Leo still has a grip on my chin. My punishment's are going to be rough later. But if I want to really surprise them, really show them that I care, I have to keep it a secret. It'll mean more that way. "No." I stated.

Leo's grip on my chin tightened. I stared at him defiantly, and Leo narrowed his eyes at me. Leo leaned in until he'ss only an inch from my face. He opened his mouth to say something, and then the bell rang. "This is not over Millie." Leo stated.

Great, he even used my name instead of my nickname.

"Let's get to class." Leo said.

Leo stood up, and turned away from me. Atlas helped me up, and we followed behind Leo. I think I really made Leo mad this time.

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"Why are we sitting at a different table than your boyfriends again?" Evie asked.

We are in the library for our last hour like normal. I think this is the most seniors having a free last hour ever. I made the girls come over to another table on the opposite side of the room.

Leo didn't talk, or look at me for our entire hour together. Even when he walked me to my locker, and walked here with me, he refused to look, or talk to me. I feel like I might cry. This is not what I intended when I decided to keep this secret. Still, I need help, and who better than my best friend, who also grew up with my boyfriends. And another girl, who I also know will have our best interests at heart. My girl crew. Perfect.

Except, all of my boyfriends are very sad, or angry. Atlas thinks that this is his fault for how he acted in the equipment room. He didn't say it, but I know him enough to know that's how he feels.

Oliver looked confused, and hurt. His eyes have been flickering over here nonstop. I know he doesn't understand, but I did try to reassure them as much as I could.

Milo is equal parts confused, and angry. I think he might be a little hurt as well. I mean, I just told him this morning how I thought I should be more independent, and then did this. He probably thinks I'm pulling away to prove how strong I am. Then there's Leo.

When I announced that us girls were going to a different table, his deep green eyes snapped to me for the first time since lunch. You'd think it would have excited me, and it would have.. If he didn't look so damn angry.

I'm starting to think maybe none of this is a good idea. Maybe I should just tell Leo what I want to do, and let him help me. But then he would be left out of the surprise. Ugh, I'm so confused.

I rested my head on the table, and groaned.

"Are you guys fighting again?" Evie asked.

"Please say no." Lila said. "Leo is such an ass when you guys are fighting." She said.

Great. We are fighting. I think?

I looked up at the two of them.

"I just... I wanted some help with something, but now I'm starting to think this was all a bad idea." I said.

Lila, and Evie shared a look before turning their eyes back to me.

"Did you do something?" Evie asked.

Lila scoffed. "Please, there isn't much Millie could do that would run off those four."

I frowned. Then I groaned.

"So, uh, I, uhm, well, okay." I stuttered out. "Atlas was acting really weird earlier when we had s*x in the equipment room, and-"

"You had sex in the equipment room?" Evie interrupted me to ask.

I rolled my eyes.

"Yes. Back to the point." I said. "He was acting weird. He wouldn't really tell me what was wrong, but I'm pretty sure I'm doing a shitty job at being a girlfriend." I rushed out. "Why would you think that?" Lila asked.

"Yeah, you fucked one of them at school." Evie chuckled. "Can't get better than that." She said.

"Yeah... one.. of them.." I said awkwardly.

Evie snorted. "Oh wow, that's great. You really are a good girlfriend." She said.

I gave her a blank look.

"Millie, why would you think you aren't being a good girlfriend?" Lila asked amused.

"I think that they don't think I feel the same way about them, that they feel for me. I have just been taking and taking, never giving anything back." I said.

"You fuck them." Evie stated like that was all that needed to be said.

I rolled my eyes.

"They need emotional reasurance." I agrued.

Evie snorted. "I'm pretty sure they all know that you love them Mil, relax." She said.

"No, I want to do something to show them." I said.

"Like what?" Lila asked.

"I don't know." I groaned out.

"Awh, poor baby." Lila teased me.

"I just want to show them that I appreciate everything they do for me. I mean, it's not like I've made it easy for them to just be my friends. Then everything that happened with Holly, and then James.." I trailed off.

"Two of them sneak in my room late at night, and leave early in the morning. Just so I can sleep. They walk me to all of my classes, and spend almost every second of my free time with me. Just so that I feel safe. They reasure me when I feel like I'm weak. They love me when I feel sad. They give me confidence when everything else tries to bring me down."

I looked up at the two of my friends.

"They do so much for me. I know that I've been through a lot, and that I'm just trying to deal with what James did, but.. I just love them all so much. I want them to know that." I said.

"But I have no idea what to do." I groaned again.

Evie rolled her eyes, and Lila giggled at me.

"Well, none of them are very flashy. It won't take much to show your appreciation." Lila said.

"I was thinking maybe taking them on a date, but I don't know. Leo might not like something like that." I said.

"Well, you guys have that secret spot. Why not set something up there for them. Kinda like what they did for you before." Lila suggested.

"You think taking them on a suprise picnic will show them how much I love them?" I asked her a bit unbelievably.

Lila shrugged. "I think it will show them that you've been thinking about doing something for them. Knowing all of you... They'll ask why you wanted to do it. You'll tell them everything. And then they really will know." She said.

I narrowed my eyes at her.

"Okay, that's fair." I said.

Lila and Evie laughed at me.

"Maybe we can think of some other things to add to it though. Like personalized things of each of them. Small enough that it proves you love the little things, but it still makes a big impression." Lila offered.

"That's a great idea." I said.

Now, time to plan.