Betrayed from Birth – Alpha’s Unvalued Daughter
Betrayed from Birth – Alpha’s Unvalued Daughter Chapter 101

Cheryl's

POV

I see Blake heading my way, and he is angry again. He is angry all the time now. I already know why, it is always the same reason, over and over again. He is a very jealous man, and instead of staying glad that he was my first, and only. He has been on a kick for the last 3 years, over Brandon. He will not let it go, I mean we have been together for almost exactly 10 years now. I have loved him, and only him, for 10 years. I also know who is behind it, it isn't rocket science. There is only one person here that is willing and able to get people to do what he wants and is willing to cause problems doing it. Ever since Reagan told Blake about me waiting and holding out to be Luna for Black Adder, he has had a problem with Brandon. It was fine for years, and then all of a sudden, four years ago, Blake just started up about Brandon.

He even went to Black Adder for free training there, to see Brandon in real life. Imagine his shock when he got to meet Raven there too. He completely forgot that Reagan had a twin, and actually called Aaron to make sure that Reagan was still in his pack as soon as he left Black Adder. He liked Justin during the training and felt bad as he realized that he was the one who Reagan had drugged first. He wanted to speak to him about Reagan but didn't want to let them know that he knew who she was. Blake and his pack had had no interaction before her disappearance. if he had mentioned it, they would have figured out eventually that he had knowledge of where she had gone. Travis was the one to go to Black Adder next as he liked going and learning new fighting techniques. Thankfully, Blake had warned Travis about Raven. But unfortunately, Travis instantly thought that Raven was a stunner too the moment he saw her.

He had had such a crush on Reagan, that he became a little enamored of Raven very quickly. I heard what had happened there that day accidentally. Even though Travis was fully mated, he kept trying to flirt with Raven while he was there. It caused a problem. He was kicked out of the training for a comment he made to her, and now they have a problem with Justin too. It happened two years ago, but they are still mad at how Justin took Travis down while sparring with him over his vulgar comment. Travis had never heard of someone having two mates, and said something that he shouldn't have in front of Justin. When he got home and was clearly beaten up, Blake and his ranked members were pretty pissed off.

Travis' mate, Paige, was also mad because she could read between the lines. Travis had been there for three trainings already with no problems. She had heard about his little crush on Reagan, as he had admitted it when they first met and got to know each other. When she overheard Travis telling what actually happened there at Black Adder to Blake. She was pissed at him and wanted to go and kick Raven's a*s herself for attracting Travis. Why she didn't get angry at Travis for being over the top and flirting with Raven in front of one of her mates, is a mystery.

Paige felt that Raven must have flirted with Travis or done something to have caused that to happen. She hated Reagan too but knew that she was being properly punished at Blood Tracker. We had to talk her down from going to Black Adder to fight Raven. I remember firsthand, what a big mistake that would have been for Paige to try to attack Raven. I already knew why it was a problem for him. He had real feelings for Reagan. If Reagan had stayed here, and not done what she did, they would have probably taken each other as chosen mates. He just drug his feet about it, as Garrett and Marc couldn't stand her, from day one. I was pissed at her as well, but I started feeling guilty about what we had done to her the last few years. Did she do wrong? Absolutely, but she was a spoiled diva, who had been given everything she ever wanted in life. Bar none, she always got what she wanted, no matter what means she had to use to accomplish it. She had done a lot of wrongs in her life, but honestly, I had too, just not as many as she did. I had just excused mine, as I thought I was doing it out of love. I just was obsessed and had a massive crush on him. I love Blake, and he is the only man that I have ever loved.

I heard about what happened to her at Blood Tracker that first day, and I shuddered at the thought of it. That would have been horrible for anyone, but I heard Garrett when he relayed that Michael had called and bragged about basically r****g her, I almost threw up when I heard it. It was disgusting that they thought that was OK. Then Marc mentioned to Blake that he and Garrett had added a few things to what they told Michael, to get him to cause her more grief there. It came to a head when they found out what all Michael had done to her. He believed everything that they had said about her, all the embellishments, and a few made-up things. He accepted all of it as the honest truth, and he felt that she needed to be punished. I think that he allowed himself to do his worst with the excuse of her "deserving" it, whether she did or not. It gave him an out, and I bet he thought if it ever came back on him, that he would push his actions back onto Garrett, and Marc, as the reason why he had done it.

They were stunned when they had been notified that he had been killed. They did feel pretty bad for what happened to her. She got badly injured all because of what they did. But they would never be getting punished for it. Blake was still furious at her for what she had done. He was angry about the lies she told, and for causing me to almost lose our firstborn child from the pain of his betrayal. That in itself was the most unforgivable part of her plan, and he truly doesn't care what happens to her. But the clear fact that shows up, over and over again here, is that women are secondary. Even as their mates, we are still women, and therefore not as important as them. That is not a very good message to be sending to our children. I still think that they should be getting in a lot of trouble for trying to manipulate Michael into punishing her.

Knowing what all happened to her, and seeing a picture of all of her injuries was hard. I won't lie, seeing what had happened to her, was just disgusting, and I almost lost my lunch. I have heard that she has changed a lot these days and that she has become a model pack member. She finally learned to train, and Clive dotes on her. I believe that he really loves her. She had been dealt with, and I know who needs to be dealt with next. Graham, as he is the one starting a problem between us. The c***k in our relationship has grown with each passing year. Blake wants to compare himself to Brandon in all things. From the size of our packs, to who is a physically strong Alpha. He is acting crazy these days and the possessiveness is not cute. It is unreasonable and frustrating to me. He keeps acting like I am waiting for an opportunity to run off, so I can be with Brandon.

The truth is, I love Blake, very much. I was never planning on leaving him or cheating on him. I know how badly that hurts, I still remember the pain of it when Blake cheated on me, to punish me for "my" actions when Reagan tricked him. For such a smart man, that was completely stupid on his part. I can hear him coming down the hallway now before I can even see him.

"Where are you, woman? Cheryl, answer me, right now. Where are you?" I hear his booming voice ringing through the corridor.

It is ridiculous for me to even try to answer him. He doesn't stop talking for me to even be able to answer him anyway. He does this every time he can't see me when he wants me, calling out for me as he heads for our room. There is no point in it, but it is a daily occurrence. I just wait for him, as I don't live in the corridor, I live in our room. I am not going to go out there into the hallway and encourage his behavior. He acts as if he can never find me when I have not left this pack in 10 years. I wonder what the pack members think of it, but I say nothing about it. That is where I am with our children. We are all sitting at the table and waiting for him to arrive, to be able to eat our dinner. Every once in a while, I enjoy cooking our meal, instead of us going to the dining room. Usually when one of the children, or I, is craving something specific to eat. Blake is very easygoing, he will eat anything that I put in front of him.

With the exception of his jealousy, he really is a perfect mate. He smiles as he sees all of us at the table and immediately comes to the table to sit at the head of the table. He is happy now, all is right in his world, but he needs to calm down a lot. He needs to just let his jealousy of Brandon go. I haven't thought of Brandon since I got with Blake. Blake is my everything, and I am glad that I found him. But no matter how many times I tell him that, he ignores my words and my actions. Now that I have been dealing with it for over 3 years, it is very stressful for me now. If he can see me, it is fine. But if he can't see me, he honestly thinks that I have run off to be with Brandon. I had no idea why, until he slipped up the other day and admitted that he had been told "accidentally" about what all I had done to try to get with Brandon. Including me losing my true mate, and my second chance mate, just to have him.

He doesn't care that I only love him now, or that Brandon has a true mate that he absolutely loves. It is all about what Blake's perceptions are about it. The doubt that plagues him, despite me telling him constantly how much I love him, concerns me. It is like he is losing control, of his actions, and his mind. All for no good reason. I wanted for us to go somewhere on vacation, just the two of us, and leave the kids behind for us to strengthen our bond, and reconnect. I was even going to let him pick the destination. He then immediately accused me of wanting to do this as a plan to get away from Black Moon, to be able to meet Brandon somewhere for us to hook up. Blake is getting worse and worse in his paranoia, and I reached out to my parents for help with trying to talk to him. I told dad the whole story of the fact that Graham is behind this. He is sabotaging my relationship, deliberately. I know that this is his payback for what happened with Reagan, but I was the victim in that too, and so was Blake. She drugged him, she got what she deserved from it. graham had wanted her to live, she is still alive. Dad tried to talk to Blake, but it didn't work out. Blake is pretty much delusional right now when it comes to me. Even when his ranked wolves vouched for me, that I have never left the pack since I got here 10 years ago. You would think that he would acknowledge that it was absolutely impossible for me to have been able to cheat on him, but you would be wrong. Every night after we got to bed, he checks my phone, or during dinner, as he said he didn't want me to have time to delete any suspicious texts. He has never found any suspicious texts, in the last 3 years, and yet he just keeps looking and checking my phone. It is upsetting to constantly be accused of cheating, especially when he knows he has never felt the pain associated with it. That doesn't factor in for him either. It is real in his head, so I have to be cheating.

Living like this is causing stress for me and our children. It is not fair to any of us to have to go through this. When I asked Blake to not listen to Graham, telling him that he is trying to set him up. Blake tells me that I am being difficult. I know that Graham blames me and Blake for everything that has happened to Reagan at Blood Tracker. We never wished for any of that to happen to her, and we never knew that Garrett and Marc had an agenda against her, but Reagan is not blameless. He needs to take his own head out of his a*s and realize that she is the apple off of his own tree. He created that monster. He covered for her, protected her, and made her think that she could do whatever she wanted, with no penalty for her actions. I thought after we had to run away from Silver Blade, she would wise up, but she didn't. She still stayed just as cocky as she ever was.

She only appreciated me for protecting her from being attacked by Sierra. She didn't appreciate me for anything else. She has always been a "what have you done for me lately" kind of girl in the short time that I knew her. She only helped me try to get Brandon because she absolutely hated her sister, Raven, and Brandon was Raven's second-chance mate. Not because she felt bad for me, or wanted to help me out in any kind of way. Always expecting others to bow and defer to her. That is just not how real life is, and I hope to the Goddess that she is a better mother than she was a person. I honestly worry about her babies. I was glad that she had Clive, as she was basically alone there.

We make it through dinner with each of the kids telling Blake something funny about their day. I like to do this as he has a stressful enough time as the Alpha of our pack. I try to keep him calm, and he appreciates that very much. He loves our babies, we had three boys, and our Forest will be the next Alpha. Forest is 10 years old now, and Kevin is nine. I really wish he was nicer to Kevin than he is, but he is so much tougher on him than any of our children. Robert is 8 years old, and a very happy kid. He doesn't get into the competition against each other like Forest and Kevin do. He goes at his own pace, and our baby girl Casey is 5 years old. She is a sweetheart, and she is me made over. We just had her birthday last week, and she is daddy's girl. When he is super stressed out, he will come to play with her. They will play with dolls or have a tea party, it helps him to calm down.

I hope tonight will go smoothly, but I can tell that his smile doesn't reach his eyes. It will not be a good night for me. He pretends to be happy for the children. He has Forest and Casey right next to him, and Kevin and Robert are at my end of the table. I know that it hurts Kevin how hard his dad is on him. He is a very competent, and strong kid. He is smart and respectful. He is just as good at fighting and sparring as Forest is, and yet Blake will never acknowledge him. It is like he can only see Forest as qualified to be his replacement. Leaving the other two boys with me, and they are not needed. It is hurtful to both of them, and I can feel Kevin's pain. It is going to come to a head one day, I already know. It is going to be bad when he does c***k. Kevin is very angry for a kid who is only 9 years old. He is getting to the point where he literally hates Forest. Forest taunts and teases him, and it is not endearing him to Kevin at all. I think that Forest is just as cocky as his father is. Maybe that is why they are so connected. Forest looks a lot like Blake. Kevin doesn't, he looks like me, as does Casey.

I am going to have to talk to Blake about how he treats Kevin, again. It is disappointing how much he wants his father to love him, and Blake just completely refuses to acknowledge him. I don't know what his malfunction is, but he is ruining his relationship with his own son. It will come to a head soon enough, I can already feel it. My father did the same thing with my brother and me, he doted on Leander, but never on me. He doesn't mention it now, but he is still heartbroken over my brother refusing to leave Black Adder with us. Leander has pups now of his own now, but my parents will never get to see them. Leander made his own decision. Just like dad and I did. I was willing to do what dad said, and dad wanted me to be the next Luna for Black Adder, even if I was never meant to be the Luna there. It didn't matter that Brandon and I were not mates. Dad picked a chosen mate for himself, and he felt that mom was perfect for him.

I see Blake looking at me, and I know that look. He wants me tonight, and I am fine with it, but we will need to speak after that. Once he found out that I planned to leave him, over what Reagan did, he has been paranoid ever since that one day I will be leaving. Even though I have never left the pack in the last 10 years, he still thinks it. I love being close to Blake, I still think that he is one of the most handsome men that I have ever seen. I wish he would calm down about me leaving him, if I hadn't done it already, I probably won't be doing it now. He just needs to calm the f**k down, and love me and the kids. Unless he pushes me to do it, I will never leave him.