Betrayed from Birth – Alpha’s Unvalued Daughter
Betrayed from Birth – Alpha’s Unvalued Daughter Chapter 125

Cheryl's POV

I feel like I am having a panic attack. Seeing Blake again, I can feel it all come back to me. All my anger, sadness, hurt, and pain comes flying back at me. His handsome face makes my heart jump at seeing him, as I still love him. But after all that he has done to me, to our son, I just cannot be with him again. I warned him for years, and for over 6 years I told him to not go too far. Once he does, that is it, I warned him over and over again. I cannot continue to love someone who shows me with every act and deed that words are just that, words. But actions, tell the true story. He may have loved me, he may still love me. But clearly the love he feels, and the love I feel, are not on the same level.

I would never have been able to hurt him like he has hurt me. It is probably why Graham focused on Blake to do his dirty work. Because he knew that there was no way that I would have done the same to Blake, it just wouldn't have worked. My love for him would have prevented me from doing it. Clearly, his love for me would allow it. I stiffened at hearing the threat in Blake's tone as he warned my doctor to stop trying to keep me calm, and my anger at Blake comes roaring back up from where I had locked and tamped it down inside me.

I put my hand over Max's to prevent him from picking it up off my shoulder, I will not let my mate threaten a man who has been nothing but kind to me. I open my mouth to reply, but before I can speak I heard Max tell him, "You have no power here. You are not my Alpha, and you need to know this. I will bring Cheryl fully back to health. It is only by the Goddess helping her that she even made it this far. You almost killed her, and I can assure you that you will not get another chance at her if I have anything to say about it." I turned in my chair to look at him. He is acting as if he likes me. Like he like likes me, and I have never got that vibe from him before. He is a very handsome man, but right now, I have to recover from all I have been through. I do not want to rush into anything with anyone. I have my own mental health, and Kevin to think about. I just cannot rush into anything, I will not rush into anything, but I know that if I ever were to get involved with someone again, Dr. Max was the perfect fit for me. "She is MY mate, and she will be coming home with me and her family. I am here to pick her up. To beg for her forgiveness, and to ask her to please come home. I know I messed up. I have changed. I changed the moment you left the front of the packhouse before I found out you ran away. I cut it off with everyone. It is only you, Cheryl. I am sorry I allowed Graham to twist everything up. I never saw it coming, I love you baby, and I never meant to hurt you. Graham is locked up in the cells right now. If you will return with me, I will make him admit his crimes to the pack, and then you can kill him. Please, I won't be able to make it without you. I need you, the kids need you. We all love you, mistakes were made, but I am so sorry. It is breaking my heart, and all I want to do is make it right for you. I want you and Kevin to come back with me, right now, so we can continue to live together. We were a happy family before, we can be again if you will just give us a chance" Blake said to me, and I have never seen him this humble in his life. It was a shock to me. He never admits to a mistake. He may actually feel bad about what he did too. But it is too little, too late. Now that he knows everything was Graham's fault, he is willing to listen. Where was that man when I was begging him to listen to me? Now that I have been proven correct, he is all about letting things go and moving forward. He never gave me any grace, even when I begged for it. I will not allow him to come waltzing in here and tell me "Oops, I screwed up, but forgive me anyway." That is not going to happen. He demeaned me over and over again. Multiple times in a day sometimes, shaming me for things I never did. Allowing both me and Kevin to be mentally, and physically abused because he was positive that I had cheated on him. I can fear the same helplessness I felt before sliding into place. I feel the tears come to my eyes, and I cannot stop them from sliding down my face.

Blake is happy, he sees the tears and thinks that I am overcome with love for him again. But he murdered the love I had for him. Every time he slept with another. Every time he came home from sleeping with them, and while I am still trying to recover from his cheating, trying to sleep with me too. Why? You just slept with them, why would you possibly need me to? It was disgusting. Those acts were the worst. I might be able to get over the awful things he said, eventually, with him showing me that he didn't mean it each day. But him deliberately sleeping with other women, and the awful women he chose to sleep with. I am sorry, I will not be able to do it, I cannot forgive that. I can close my eyes and see him letting them sit on his lap, at the dinner table and shame me in front of the whole pack, and my children. Those memories cannot go away. The rest of his slut squad sitting at just the next table over waiting to try to catch his eye. Blowing kisses at him when he glanced over at them. They would do anything to make him happy. I feel the bile rise up and I fight to keep from throwing up. He has me so upset, I now wish that I had listened to Raven and let her give him a piece of her mind before kicking him away. I may not be strong enough for this today.

My eyes slide to my children. I see tears in Casey's eyes as she looks at me. I see she feels bad now, but she has been a spoiled brat for the last two years. Blake is making her into another Reagan, and I did everything in my power to stop him. I see Robert and he is upset, he is clearly looking for Kevin, but I don't want Kevin here. He is doing so much better, and I don't want him to have a setback by seeing the rest of his family, especially his father right now. I see Forest and he is looking upset at the sight of me in a wheelchair. I guess they were so busy with what they wanted to see, that they ignored me and my health. They really didn't care that much for me for the last few years, since Graham had everyone take sides. I was just their mother, who cooked, cleaned, and took care of them. But their dad was able to give them the money that they so desperately wanted.

Now that I am gone, I am sure that the evidence of all that I did for them is now a lot more obvious to them. I can see that Blake is losing it, and the pack should be concerned about it. But maybe they should have thought of that before I was condemned by all of them. I had no support from anyone, not even my parents. Only Cassandra had been kind to me, which brings the guilt I felt over killing her right back. I have to tell him, as I see the hope in his eyes, and he brought the children closer to the gate to try to manipulate my feelings into feeling enough guilt to try to come back with them. I do not want to drag this out. I am already exhausted and want to go back to my room. I felt weak and upset, I feel like an elephant is sitting on me, and I can barely breathe correctly right now. I am overwhelmed, and I made a mistake. Raven was right, I was not ready for this, so I need to clarify my position for him.

"I am sorry Blake. I will not be returning to Black Moon with you today, or ever. I will be staying here, with Kevin. He is happy here, he has friends now. I can trust the people in this pack to not hurt us. I loved you, and I love my children, but you poisoned them against me. They believed you, over me, and left me and Kevin all alone together. Only able to depend on each other. So even though I will always love them, they will want to stay with you, after all, you are the one who can give them what they really want; things, stuff, and possessions. I gave them love and took care of their every need, but that was never enough. I learned that lesson just as well as I did the one you kept giving me. The one where you said you loved me, and then kept cheating on me. Speaking so horribly to me. Put your hands on me, and did things that you should never have done to me. The thing that I actually get from you, is anger, and hate. You might think you love me, you probably did at one time, but you do not, not anymore. Almost half the time we have been together I have been punished for loving you. For providing you with 4 pups" I told him and shock crosses his face.

He really thought I would just fall into his arms and be happy to come back to him. I spent almost a year thinking of how to get myself, and Kevin, out of that pack. I didn't do it on a whim or as a joke. It was life and death. Kevin's life and I took it seriously. Deadly serious. I see him look down at the children, and then they all started to beg me to come back. That is an even bigger slap in the face. If they really wanted me back they would have done it on their own. They would not have needed him to encourage them to do it. I started to cry harder from seeing that. Blake sees my crying increase and gives me a soft smile like he is glad that I am willing to reconsider after turning him down. He thinks the tides have changed, but he just made me even more adamant about my decision. "Do you think that is going to work?" Raven stepped forward closer to the gate and spoke. She saw it too, and I am glad she is about to lay it out for him because I am crying too hard to do it.

"You need to mind your own business. You are not involved in this" Blake tells Raven, and gets down on his knees to look me in the eyes. Brandon and Justin both growl out to let him know that he went too far, but he is ignoring them both. He is humbling himself in front of me, and that is another thing that he has never done before. He is obviously willing to do anything to get me back, if only he had been willing to listen to me when I was begging him to. I told him over and over again that when I hit my limit, there would be no coming back from it.

"Oh, you are literally on my doorstep. This is my business. I am speaking to you for Cheryl. We are both mothers, and Lunas and I see and know far more than you think I do. You disgust me, you bring the children with you, knowing that they are not here to actually beg her back. They may know the whole story now, but I see what has been happing to her there. The children picking your side over hers, you bought their love and affection. They are spoiled and believe me when I tell you I can tell spoiled. My sister was spoiled, I see her in your own daughter. She may miss her mom a little, but I see what she is wearing. She is my sister Reagan all over again. I believe you are already familiar with her work, or so I have heard. You are creating another generation of spoiled, entitled, brats. Who cares only about themselves, Kevin is not spoiled. He has worked for the last few years to try to get a sliver of approval or affection from you. But you withheld it from him. Now that you are not totally blind from wearing the blinders that Graham put on you, you are suddenly wanting to make it right? Well, tell me, Blake. How can you make this right, for Cheryl?" Raven asks him, and I want to hear his response.

"I will work every day to be the man that she fell in love with. I will hold a town hall again, as I already had one, and told them all what happened. But I will hold another so they can see, and she can see, how much she means to me. Yes, I f****d up, repeatedly, but I thought she had cheated on me. I was overcome with jealousy and wasn't thinking straight. I will work every day to make it up to her, every day until she realizes that it is only her in my heart. I messed up, but I want to fix this. For me, and for her, for Kevin. I want our whole family to be together again" Blake said and I wish I could believe that it would work.

"Blake, I heard what you said, but I remember that I begged and begged for you to listen. You refused to listen to my defense. If you had listened to me for even a moment, we could have stopped this at the beginning of this whole thing. You refused to listen to me. In my heart, I think that you knew the whole time. You just liked how things were going. You had the whole pack eating out of your hand, taking your side, and still sleeping with me. You had the best of both worlds. You knew my bottom line, I had warned you several times as I knew where Graham was going. I recorded it. I knew the timeline I had to work with. So why would I forgive you, Blake? When you knew where my point of no return was, and you crossed it anyway. Numerous times, with the pack sluts? What would possess me to allow you to sleep with me ever again after you did that?" I asked him.

"Graham said that you were still too strong, and needed to be broken down. That you would not admit your wrongdoings until you got to that point. I didn't want to, but I needed you to admit what you had done. For me to be able to forgive you, I needed that closure. I had no idea that it was a lie from the start. I wish I knew that he was so willing to let it go so long before he put his plan into motion. I messed up. I feel terrible about this. Please just let me make it up to you" Blake begged me, and he did look sorry about it. But if he really meant it, he wouldn't have done it in the first place.

"Blake, You had the five of them with us, at the dinner table. You rotated them out and sat one of them with our family to eat. You didn't care how disrespectful that was to me. How it made me feel to see them with you, sitting in your lap, mocking me. The fact that they were being treated with the same respect that I was. Considered to be a Luna too. It was the highest form of insult. Just go back, let them continue to help you, and they can take turns being the Luna. You chose them specifically, for a reason, so let them continue to take my place. I learned a lot about you in the last 6 months, Blake. None of it pleasant. None of it is good. I was sicked to know what you really thought of me, and no amount of words or kissing up now will fix it. Yes, you made a mistake, and it is much bigger than you thought it was going to be. The gall that you have to come here, and ask me to come back. Are you delusional? Because I told you in the letter I left you that I am done. I told you in the text, that after you crossed my bottom line, there was no coming back from it. You were warned, and yet you did it. Over and over again. Do not lay this at MY feet, when you were 100% invested in it with your tongue down another she-wolf throat at my dinner table. In front of the pack. In front of my pups. In front of the very son of a b***h who led you there. You may have drug your feet in getting there, but you sure as hell walked across the line when you wanted to. Do not come here now that reality has set in, and want me to forgive you. Because I will not. Not now, and not ever" I told him.

"But Graham said," Blake started. I held up my hand and looked him dead in the face and said, "Then go ask Graham why his brilliant plan didn't work out for you. Oh, that's right, it did. His brilliant plan was never to help you, Blake. It was always to tear me apart. So go back to Black Moon, and you two can celebrate together the success of your endeavor. You both won, and Kevin and I lost. Congratulations" I sobbed out the last of it, and said, "I want to go back to the hospital, please."

Max leaned down and unlocked the wheels to take me back to the SUV. Blake started screaming, "No! I won't let you go. I will go mad without you. Is that what you want? Do you want the whole pack to suffer because of the plan that Graham had? That is not fair to them, Cheryl. Mistakes were made, big ones. I made them and I am so sorry about it. I will make sure that from now on, I only listen to you and my ranked wolves. No one else. I need you to come back. You were their Luna for 15 years. Please, I swear to the Goddess that I will make this right for you. I will do whatever you need me to do to fix this, to fix us. I swear I didn't realize that I had messed up so badly. Just give me another chance, and I will be the mate that you fell in love with. I want you and Kevin back with me. I want you both to come back and see that I am telling you the truth. I promise that if you do this if you do give me another chance, I will not fail you again. I am begging you, Cheryl, please. For me and our pups, please give me another chance." "Do not include me in your "pups" anymore Dad. Go away and do not come back here. There is nothing for you here. You had your chance, you had more chances than you ever deserved, and you didn't use them. You kept making the same mistakes. You wanted to hurt us both, and believe me when I say that mom is right. You were highly successful for someone who now says that he didn't mean to. I cannot count how many times mom told you that you were making a huge mistake. That she never cheated, and yet you had the pack do your dirty work for you. So why should we give a damn that the very pack who was completely on board with hurting us both, gets what is coming to them? Seems to me, they signed up for this very thing. They all took your incorrect side in this, let them suffer the consequences for it" I look up at the road toward the packhouse and see my son, Kevin, coming from behind the SUV.

He is closely followed closely by Jax, Liam, Chase, and Dex. This is not going to be good. I wanted to protect him from this, and I failed. I didn't want him to know that they were even here. I didn't want him to feel bad about my choice to bring him here but from the looks of it. He is glad to be here and glad to have the support of his friends in it. I wonder how long he has been standing there, I hope he hasn't been here for long, but I have a sinking feeling that he has been here for much longer than any of us knew he had been.