Betrayed from Birth – Alpha’s Unvalued Daughter
Betrayed from Birth – Alpha’s Unvalued Daughter Chapter 64

Raven's POV

I was almost too upset to eat dinner tonight. Just knowing that I was going to have to have heart-to-heart talks with Brandon and Justin made me feel nauseous. I do not like confrontation, I would rather not do this at all. But I know in my heart that it has to be done. I needed to put what I feel out there, and see what they say. I can feel my dread of doing this as the night progresses. I know that several of the people around me know what we have to do, I had mentioned it in the SUV on the way to Silver Blade earlier today. I remember Randolph looking at me in the rearview mirror and nodding as he knew why I needed to do it, they all did. He didn't raise Justin to be like that. In his family your true mate is special, and I know it wasn't on Randolph. Now that I can see memories, I saw that Justin was telling the truth. To be perfectly honest, I think she had dosed his drink back then too. He had been adamant about waiting for his mate before Reagan focused on him. He had the respect of a lot of the pack members because of it. They all thought he had waited, as he and Reagan had told the pack that they were true mates. The pack only found out later, that had been a lie in the video we put out in response to Reagan's video. They all knew that my mates were going to want to stay in the room with me tonight. Once you are marked by your mate, it is almost a compulsion to be with them. I did want to be with them, both of them, but it is hard for me to get past the horrible words, and actions that they have both said, and done. I feel like if I don't do this, then my voice will be lost, shuffled back as we move forward. I need to let them know what I felt, and as much as I hate to have to hurt them to do this, for my piece of mind, I have to.

As soon as I stood up to go upstairs, they both hopped up too. They were waiting for me, scared to leave the room, in case I went upstairs without them. I am glad that we are still here at Blood Walker. Just knowing that my parents and brothers were here to protect me, helped me feel better about this. We all walked to the elevator without speaking. When we got to my room I see that Olivia, or dad, had the Omegas bring Justin's bag to my room. Well, I guess this is it.

"I am going to go take a shower and wash this day off of me. We can all take turns using it before bed" I said, and then grabbed a set of cami PJs from my dresser, and headed into the bathroom. I know they knew I was anxious, and they probably knew this was coming, as they were both anxious too. I took my time in the shower, going through what I wanted to say, and how I wanted to express it. I dried off finishing up in my head what I planned to tell them both. I was still not happy about it, but glad that come the morning it would all be out there. I got dressed and came out, and they were both sitting there, looking at me, with interest. They can hang that up for now. I crossed the room, but I still hadn't spoken to either of them, and Brandon finally said, "Justin, you can go grab your shower first."

I can see the desire in Brandon's eyes, I know why he was suggesting Justin shower first. He thought that by getting Justin out of the way that he would have a chance to charm me out of my PJs, and I was going to let him know he was wrong.

I can see Justin hesitate, I can tell he sees the same thing that I did and didn't want me to be left alone in here with Brandon. He knew what Brandon was wanting, and he was getting jealous about being sent away for us to have s*x. "Justin, you don't have to worry about that. No one in here will be having s*x tonight." I can see the disappointment on both their faces and Brandon gets up to angrily grab his lounge pants from on top of his duffle bag and stomp into the bathroom. I guess he will be working out his new problem there. Justin is still watching me but said nothing. We sit in comfortable silence until Brandon comes back into the room with just his lounge pants on. Brandon is in great shape and to say that he was drool-worthy would be accurate. Justin gives him a look and then heads to grab his stuff before heading into the bathroom. I see him give me a look before he closes the door. I guess he thought that we would try for a quickie while he was in there, but sorry for Brandon, that is not the case.

I know Justin believed it though, because he did a quick shower, and came back out only half-dry with his lounge pants sticking to his legs in places and water still running from his hair down his body. He seemed to relax when he opened the door from the bathroom and rushed into my room. He thought he was going to catch us in the act and was happy to prove himself wrong. He went right back into the bathroom and dried his hair with the towel and then dried his chest off, with the door open. He also chose to sleep with just his lounge pants, and I know it was because he was no slouch either. His sharp V-cut was enough to hypnotize, but I knew I had to look away. Brandon was getting upset, and this is not going the way I needed it to. I am hurt, and they really need to know how much hurt I have hidden from them both.

Justin motioned to the light on the wall as he came back from the bathroom, and I nodded. I would rather speak to them in the dark, it would be easier to say what I was thinking without seeing their hurt expressions. It is bad enough to feel it through the mate bond, but I haven't let them feel what I am feeling yet. Emerald is a strong wolf and has borne a lot of our pain throughout this. It is time that they realized how their words and actions have affected me, and that was the first thing that I was going to do tonight. We all settled into bed. I had my back to Justin, and he was already ready for it. I can't help it, of the two of them, he HAS hurt me the most. I know better now that I was privy to his memories, some of what happened to him in the first place, but he still slept with her a few more times, including knowing that I was his mate. Chapter 64

Raven's POV

I was almost too upset to eat dinner tonight. Just knowing that I was going to have to have heart-to-heart talks with Brandon and Justin made me feel nauseous. I do not like confrontation, I would rather not do this at all. But I know in my heart that it has to be done. I needed to put what I feel out there, and see what they say. I can feel my dread of doing this as the night progresses. I know that several of the people around me know what we have to do, I had mentioned it in the SUV on the way to Silver Blade earlier today. I remember Randolph looking at me in the rearview mirror and nodding as he knew why I needed to do it, they all did. He didn't raise Justin to be like that. In his family your true mate is special, and I know it wasn't on Randolph. "Whenever you are ready Emerald" I linked her.

"Are you sure? I can just give you half of it, or 60%, just so they can feel it" Emerald linked back anxiously.

"No, I can bear it. You can rest for once. I can carry this, they need to know. If I don't carry it, how can they feel it to know what I am feeling" I linked her back.

Brandon held my hand when we settled down. He was facing me, and I did want to kiss him. I loved him, but we will be doing nothing at all until we muddle through this. Justin was giving me space, he hadn't touched me yet, but I could tell that he wanted to, badly. It was coming off of him in waves, just wanting to touch me. He also knew there was a reason my back was to him.

Emerald gave me the pain back slowly. It was just a little uncomfortable at first and then increased. I felt them both stiffen in the bed about a minute into it. I had been at about 25% of carrying our pain, and we were at about 50 or 60 percent now. I felt Justin put his hand on my waist to comfort me. He didn't know what was happening, but he wanted to help me. Brandon's hands tightened on mine, and as the pain increased, I was having to really focus on breathing through it. Emerald knew what I needed, to carry as much as I could, for them to be able to feel it. For them both to know what they did to me. Emerald also knew at what level to stop, neither of us wanted to hurt the baby, but you would be surprised to know the amount of pain that you can carry with you, and not hurt the baby.

"What, what is happening, Raven?" Brandon asked as he realized that he could not comfort me, and was not able to take any of my pain away.

"Tell me what you need me to do, Raven" Justin said from behind me.

Right now I could not speak, I was just managing to bear the pain. I want them to start feeling it themselves. I think that they are deliberately ignoring what is going on. Emerald took it out of my hands and told them in her deeper, huskier voice, "Feel it, feel what you did to Raven. She needs you both to know what you have done to her." I can see snippets behind my closed eyes, snippets of each instance that have hurt me. Justin speaking so nicely to Reagan. Justin slept with her after he knew we were mates. Brandon "assisting" the girls with their training. Brandon not shutting them down when they flirted with him and touched him on his arm or chest. Justin calling Reagan the better sister. Brandon calling me a w***e. Brandon telling me that our baby was someone else's. Justin not wanting me because I was without a wolf. So many things happened to me in the last two months, and I stayed quiet as the memories swirled through my head, playing on replay as they repeated over and over again. There were other things in there too, Brandon not trusting me when I have never given him a reason to not trust me, and then calling me a liar. Justin fought with himself over accepting me, or deciding to be with Reagan because he wanted the easy life that came with it.

I was fighting off crying out in pain, as it started to settle back down. Emerald decided that I had had enough of carrying the pain, and was taking it back onto her strong back. I had been so focused on trying to bear the pain in my heart, and in my head, as I tried to deal with those horrible memories that I hadn't focused on Brandon or Justin. Brandon was hugging me fully into him with his arm around my neck pulling me tightly to his chest. I can feel the wetness on his chest from my tears. He bent to kiss me and I felt the tears that he had cried, on his lips. I felt Justin pressed against my back, his hard body holding onto me with his arm fully around my waist. I felt the tears he had cried for me, for us, on my back and in my hair. I couldn't feel them for the time frame she allowed me to carry the full weight of the pain, but I felt them now. I cannot continue to carry it, the weight of it is just too much. The pain of it is too much. I have to put it down today, or we will all be destroyed by it.

"I am so sorry, angel, I am. You are my mate, and I was so very wrong. I made the wrong choice, and allowed myself to be led, and tricked by Reagan. I know I cannot take back the hurt you felt, and still feel. But I swear I will work every day for you to know that I love you, and only you. You have been the only love I have ever held in my heart. I am so sorry for the pain that I caused you. I just want to be with you. However long it takes you to forgive me, I am good with it. I earned it, I allowed her to put me in a situation that no good could come from. I knew she was bad, but I never expected her to be the level of evil that she clearly is. Please, just give me a fair second chance. I swear to you, Raven, I will not let you down again. I will be faithful and love you, and our pups until the day I die" Justin whispered to me. I don't know if I even need to dare to dream that it could be true. I have cared for him for over two years, he was my idea of perfection for so long, until he broke my heart into pieces. My anger sustained me to try not to focus on it, but now that the anger is gone, only the pain remained. It has set up shop in my heart and I don't know if I can fully forgive him, especially in the time frame we have been given.

"Baby, I am so sorry for hurting you, both intentionally with my words, and unintentionally with my pulling my arm away. I am so sorry that I allowed myself to put the anger and mistrust I had for Liza, onto you. You have done nothing wrong, and yet I punished you as if you had. I said things that were vicious, and untrue. I never looked at my actions with other she-wolves as bad, as I only love you. I don't care about any other women. I didn't realize that my not stopping them, and making it clear to them that I was off-limits, upset you. I thought I had when I introduced you as their Luna. I didn't think of any of them as attractive, so I wasn't aware that it would hurt you to see me helping them. I have already made plans to fix this the minute we go back to Black Adder. I will find the mole, and they will be dealt with. I am sorry for my actions when I was out of my mind with anger and jealousy. I would have never forgiven myself if something had happened to you or our baby when I pulled my arm away from you. I want you to know this, I never ever thought about rejecting you. I was angry and upset but letting you go never entered my mind. You are mine, and I will never let you go." Brandon told me.

"I kept my pain hidden away, so you couldn't feel it. I have tried to put it all behind me. I have, and I don't know if I will be able to forgive two of these shameful acts. Justin sleeping with my twin, and being called a w***e by my mate. You never felt the betrayal pains Brandon and were so quick to throw me out. Not allowing me to defend myself at all. Justin every single time I close my eyes I can see you together. That was even before the video. I want to be clear here and tell you both, I love you. I do, I love both of you, and have deep feelings for each of you. But you two have hurt me, with words or actions. I can only pray that I can work on it, and with our bond growing together, be able to get past this" I told them.

"I kept my pain hidden away, so you couldn't feel it. I have tried to put it all behind me. I have, and I don't know if I will be able to forgive two of these shameful acts. Justin sleeping with my twin, and being called a w***e by my mate. You never felt the betrayal pains Brandon and were so quick to throw me out. Not allowing me to defend myself at all. Justin every single time I close my eyes I can see you together. That was even before the video. I want to be clear here and tell you both, I love you. I do, I love both of you, and have deep feelings for each of you. But you two have hurt me, with words or actions. I can only pray that I can work on it, and with our bond growing together, be able to get past this" I told them.

"I understand, I failed you. I know when you fell out of that tree I was shocked. I hadn't sensed anyone there, and Reagan kept trying to have s*x with me. While we were in the packhouse I could scent you, and I didn't want her, I couldn't even get hard for her. I only wanted you, but I had already signed my life away. I was stupid and didn't realize when I signed it, that I would meet my mate so soon after that. I was sick over the fact that I was willing to give up my mate, for a position, and to keep the peace with Graham and Reagan. But when I scented you, I was changing my mind. I was trying to figure out how I could get you out of the pack for us to run away together, for me to keep you safe from your family. I was not going to stay and watch you be hurt daily. I didn't expect to find you out there, let alone for you to see that. I don't even want to imagine Brandon sleeping with you, it would break my heart to see it, even though he is your mate too. I know that the Goddess placed us all together and that she took your opinion out of the equation. I feel upset for you about that, but I would be lying if I wasn't ecstatic about getting a second chance to right my wrongs. For you to bear my pups, for me to hold you in my arms, for me to wipe away your tears, and bring a smile to your beautiful face. I cannot wait to see you bear this child and then maybe one for me too. I know that the goddess has plans for our family. I swear to you, and the Goddess right now, that I will protect you and all of our pups" Justin tells me and I can hear the truth in his words. He means every one of them. I believe him, and I hope that he will follow through on what he said.

"Baby, I agree with Justin. I only want you. To be honest, I am not thrilled about this forced three-some either, but I know that we can make this work for us. I will make adjustments for us at Black Adder. We spoke while you were in the shower, and we both decided that it would be easier on us, especially at first, for you to spend time alone with us. Like a night with him, and then with me, and so on. I can have the former Luna suite on the other side of my bathroom redone and designed how he would like it. We could all sleep together when you are near the time to give birth. So you will be protected and safe. I also felt the pressure of it being forced onto us. Like we didn't have any choice in it. I understand that the Goddess knows more than we do, but I had just wanted it to be me and you in this. For you to just bear my children, to be just my mate, and I know that is selfish, but it was how I felt at the time. I will work on this too. I know that we all have a long road ahead of us before it gets easier. But I too vow to protect you, and all of our pups. To train them all up, and to treat them all equally. This is difficult enough for me, I can understand your being so upset too. I know that our fighting hasn't helped with this stressful situation. Our actions, mainly mine, haven't helped either. I know how upset you were earlier today in your old room at Silver Blade. I vow to you now, I will strive for you to know that you are my one-and-only. You are the most important person to me, and to know that all you have to do is tell me if you have a moment's doubt about me or any of my actions. I will make it right, and I will make sure they know not to put their hands on me, ever again" Brandon told me.

"I love you both, and I will work on building our trust up. They wanted me to go back to the pack hospital tomorrow and make sure I am where I need to be with my fluids, and do some bloodwork to make sure I am better from the incident. They were also going to do an ultrasound as well. Do you both want to go with me?" I asked them, and as I spoke my words got a little lower. I don't want to be shot down with my first olive branch.

"I will of course be there to see my baby," Brandon told me and the excitement in his voice made me smile.

"I will be glad to go anywhere with you, Raven" Justin told me, and he was excited about the invite as well.

We all got comfortable and fell asleep with all our scents bound together in the room. I thought I would have the best sleep ever, but the Goddess had other plans for me.