Coming Home For Christmas
Chapter 108

(Trigger Warning: This chapter includes talks about alcoholism, suicidal thoughts and child abuse/s****I assault) Lacey's P.O.V.

"U..uncle M..Mario's friend...he wanted you, Lace...you were only five and I was six but I s..stopped him...I protected you and he pu..punished me" "H..how?"

I asked not wanting to know the answer but I needed to know it.

H..he r..r..raped me"

Oh my god.

"You were...you...you were what?"

"You heard me, Lace, I was raped"

"Oh my god"

I said barely above a shocked whisper.

I can't believe this.

Luca was molested.

Oh god, I think I'm gonna be sick.

"Please say something, Lacey"

Luca's weak voice pleaded with me.

"I erm...I'm sorry, I'm just trying to process everything, Luc"

I said as I looked up at my brother who looked so broken and pitiful.

"You were molested as a child?"

I ask him and he nods his head.

"Yeah, I was"

Oh god.

"I can't believe this...when? how long? does anyone else know about this?"

I ask him and he shakes his head.

"No one knows really, Lace except for our parents and Dylan"

What?.

"Why didn't you tell anyone else? why didn't you tell me?"

I ask feeling hurt.

"We always told each other everything, Luc, why wouldn't you tell me about this?"

I ask him and he rolls his eyes.

"It's not exactly an easy subject to bring up, Lace"

Luca said with a sigh.

"Besides, I already told you that I did this to protect you and keep you safe, I also didn't want you to know what had happened to me because I didn't want you to feel guilty or feel bad and I for damn sure didn't want you to blame yourself for it which I knew you would've done"

"No, I wouldn't"

"Yes, you would, Lace"

Luca said with a smile as he cupped my face and gently caressed my cheek.

"It's the type of person you are, kid, you feel guilty and blame yourself for things, even when it's not your fault and you're not to blame"

Ok, maybe I am like that.

"You're a beautiful and kind-hearted girl, Lace, you're also innocent and you don't deserve to have any ugliness living insi of your head or in your heart, that's why I never told you about this because I wanted you to remain innocent and pure an not have any darkness living inside of you like I do"

"But...can you tell me now?"

I ask him and he closes his eyes while sighing.

"Lace..."

"Please"

I pleaded with him.

"I don't wanna know all of the ins and outs, Luc...I just wanna know enough so that I can understand what you've been through and what you've had to suffer through for all of these years but most importantly, I wanna know so that I can full understand why you're the man that you are today because the Luca I've always known would never have hurt his family, especially his kids the way that you have" I tell him and he nods his head while sighing.

"Ok, fine but if Logan ever finds out about this, remember, it was your idea, do you hear me? I'm not looking to get my ass kicked by your husband because you've ended up disturbed by my life story" He says and I chuckle.

Luca briefly smiled at my chuckle before grabbing hold of my hand and kissing the back of it.

He then led us over to the kitchen table, so that we could sit and talk.

We sat in silence for a few minutes as I waited patiently for Luca to tell me his story.

I knew I had to be gentle with him and be as patient as possible because this wasn't going to be easy for him to do and he didn't need to be pressured into speaking.

"Take your time, Luca, we've got all day to talk about this"

I tell him and he nods his head.

"Before I tell you anything, I just wanna know if my kids are ok?"

Luca asks me and I smile at him.

"They're fine, I sent them back to my place with Logan and their nannies"

"Good"

He sighs with relief.

"But they almost weren't, Luca, I mean, poor Melissa was standing outside in the snow in just her pyjamas when we got here...the poor girl was shivering like she'd been out there for a while"

I tell him and he looks at me with a horrified expression.

"S**t"

He groans as he runs his hand through his hair.

"I never wanted this life for them, Lace"

"I know you didn't"

I say while gently gripping his hand to give him some comfort.

"Ok"

Luca lets out a breath.

"Like I said, I was six years old when everything started, at first...at first, I noticed uncle Mario's friend Nico looking at you weird, he wasn't looking at you like how dad or gramps or our uncles looked at you, no...he was looking at you in a way that no grown man should ever look at a kid" Luca paused to control himself before continuing.

"Nico, he was...he always found a way or a reason to touch you or pet you like you were a little dog, he would also always try and get you to sit on his lap but thankfully, our dad would never allow it, he always said a little girl shouldn't sit on a strangers lap and if he had it his way then you'd only ever sit on his or grandpa Dukes lap"

Thanks, dad.

At least, I can be grateful that my dad didn't completely hate me enough to leave me at the mercy of a predator. "Nico also made a lot of disgusting and offhanded comments that many people laughed off or thought he was joking about but I didn't... Some paragraphs are incomplete if you are not reading this novel on FindNovel.net. Visit FindNovel.net to read the complete chapters for free. I may have only been six but I wasn't dumb and I knew that it wasn't right when a grown man talked about seeing a five-year-old little girl's panties under her short dress even though your dress wasn't short, he was just a sick bastard...I didn't like how he was acting, Lace, I didn't like it at all"

Luca sniffed before continuing.

"When did his attention turn from me to you?"

"It was at grandpa Antonelli's birthday party"

Luca said whilst staring off into the distance.

"We had gone to Sicily for a couple of weeks to celebrate his birthday and the big finale was his birthday party, it was black and gold themed and mom had made you wear a gold dress, do you remember?"

He asked me and I nodded my head.

"Yeah, mom and dad had insisted that I wore it to match the theme but I hated it"

"That's because the mesh on the underskirt made you itch"

He said and we both chuckled.

"Anyway, during the party, mom took you to the toilet and when you came out your skirt was stuck in your panties and it was showing your entire backside off to everyone who was in the hallway which was only a couple of people but what none of you knew is that Nico was standing there watching you, he was rubbing his hand over his d**k and he had a look on his face that at the time I didn't understand but now as an adult, I know it was l**t...the dirty old bastard was lusting after a little girl"

Luca said through gritted teeth as he shook his head.

"I didn't like how he was looking at you, princess, so I blocked his view and I stopped him from looking at you...he didn't like what I did, in fact, he was livid with me... he said I had to be punished"

"What did he do?"

I asked in a timid voice.

Luca looked at me and my heart broke when I saw the broken look in his eyes.

"He dragged me into a spare room, he pulled down my pants and hit me several times on my bare ass...he said if my parents weren't gonna discipline me then he would"

Oh my god.

"After that...things got worse, he raped me at any chance he got, he'd always offer to take me to the toilet or swimming o just make up some bullshit bonding excuse so that we could be alone and he could touch me...he..he..he violated me in ways no child should ever be violated and he made me do things that no child should ever have to suffer through...he stripped me of my innocence each time we were alone and he didn't care, he didn't care that he was destroying a young boys life, Lace" Luca whimpered.

"I was a little boy...I was a little boy and I didn't deserve this"

Luca said as he burst into tears.

"Oh, Luc"

I said as I wrapped my arms around my brother and rested my head on his shoulder as he rested his head against mine.

"Nobody deserves this, especially not an innocent child"

I say as I tried my hardest to comfort my distraught brother.

"What erm...what did he make you do?"

I ask nervously as I watch tears stream down Luca's face.

I don't know what made me ask this question, all I know is that my mouth had already said it before I had even realised it.

"Well, let's just say that for the longest time, I hated giving guys blow jobs because they'd always make me gag and not in a good way"

Huh.

"What do you mean? do you...

I looked up at Luca who was giving me a you know what I mean kind of look.

Oh my god.

I think I'm gonna be sick.

"Lace...are you ok, Lacey?"

"I'm fine"

I say in a faint voice whilst holding my stomach and trying to resist the urge to vomit.

"Are you sure? you look really pale"

"I'm fine, I just...oh god"

I said as I jumped up and ran over to the sink, hurling my guts into it.

"s**t, Lacey, are you ok?"

"I'm ok"

I say while panting as I swill my mouth out with some water and spit it out before taking a huge gulp of it.

"I knew I shouldn't have told you about this"

Luca said with annoyance and regret in his tone whilst rubbing his hand up and down my back.

"No, it's fine, it's just..."

My heart was racing as I looked up at my brother because I had a question that I needed to ask him but I was dreading hearing the answer to it.

"How long did this go on for?"

I ask him and he looked away from me.

"Look at me, Luca"

I said as I gripped his chin and forced him to look at me.

"How long?"

I asked again.

My brother looked hesitant to answer me but did anyway only his voice was so low, I couldn't make out what he said.

"How long, Luc?"

Luca closed his eyes and sighed angrily.

"Three years"

He growled and I gasped.

"What?"

"You heard me, Lace...I said I was being sexually abused by Nico for three long, torturous years"

Holy s**t.