Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 211

Jonah was standing beside me at the parking lot, having Tom wait by himself like he was itching to get his hands on Sophia. Tiny twitches, checking his phone every thirty seconds when Jonah was holding my hand, looking at the blue truck with rust on that was driving slowly down the street, coming towards us. I made a small squeak at seeing Kira, that had started to wave at me when I was waving back, already crying over finally getting them home; it had been so long, even with Jonah, this had been f*****g killing me!

"Oh, thank god!" I was letting go of Jonah's hand when the truck stopped. I didn't want to wait for another second when I was running towards the truck, not giving a shit about my ankle hurting when I tore the door open, seeing the most beautiful children in the world. I swear to God, they were all smiling like they had seen the sun for the first time in their lives, just like me!

"Mommy!" Kira struggled with her seatbelt when I was kissing and hugging Jamie and Noah. Not sure who to start with. They looked like they had grown so much under these two weeks, making me never want to let them go again, never!

"Kira, my baby! I missed you so much!" I was leaning over the boys, pulling my hair, but I didn't care. I wanted all of them to come home and never leave me again!

"Alright, princess, let me help you out, and you can see mommy...." I looked up from Noah, smiling at him, kissing him, realizing that Buck was there; for a moment, I had totally forgotten that the rest of the world existed, and right now, it was me, Buck, Jonah, and Tom on a parking lot with my kids in the middle of it all.

"Hey..." I said it trying to smile when Buck didn't smile back, helping Kira down, running around to hug Jonah, that looked happier until she went for Tom, where she stayed, making my heart drop. Yeah, this was going to take time for all of us.

I wanted to take the seats out when I felt Jonah behind me, helping me, smiling at him, looking like he didn't want me to lift out the chairs of two seven-month-old babies.

"Thanks, baby..." I made a genuine smile, trying to cheer him up when Buck was giving us a blank stare like I couldn't see that he hated this; every minute of me being with Jonah was killing him, and he had no way of fixing that when Jonah had each carrier in one hand, holding Jamie and Noah to Buck calm face breaking from seeing that.

"I will take my sons." Buck was serious when Jonah made a scowl at my intense fear of them starting a fight right here in the parking lot. It was funny since Jonah had paid him, but they hated each other, and nothing could change that.

"Jonah...." I had my hand on his shoulder when he did a sigh, relaxing the tension he was feeling from Buck's hostility, both acting more like they were in a fucking war than standing in a parking lot holding my children.

"You better fucking watch that tone Buck; remember that you still had my daughter for two weeks...." Jonah walked up, and he gave the twins to Buck, which made a smirk like he wasn't scared of Jonah when he should be; there wasn't a doubt in my mind that both of them could do anything when someone pushed them.

"Oh yeah... what are you going to do, kid? Heard you got exiled from your mommy and...." I made a scowl at Buck, shaking my head like he was not going there. To my relief, he did listen when Jonah clenched his jaw, looking like he wanted to kill Buck for even saying that to his face.

"Still made more money than you did... and since I can't fucking pay you anymore, I guess that failing contracts you are taking are getting fewer...." Jonah made a smirk back when I switched my eyes back to Buck. What was he talking about? Failing contracts!? I thought his business made good money, and he had been paying for the house all on his own!?

"That is none of your fucking business! I see you for what you are, even if Andy was kindhearted enough to forgive you!" Buck was looking at Jonah like he was disgusted. He hated him for leaving me, leaving Kira maybe more when I wasn't sure what to say, standing between the two men that weren't going to make peace for anything.

"Dad, stop that! Let's try to get along!" Sophia was dragging Tom behind her, still holding Kira, her eyes sweeping over us adults. It was breaking my heart that she knew that there was trouble around.

"I am behaving since I haven't ..." Buck was looking at Kira, fading out. He was going to say kill him. Kill Jonah, and we all knew it when he smirked back like he was amused now, making me sigh since he was the only man in the universe who smiled at hearing someone wanted to take him out.

"Okay... I want to get inside with the boys since it's cold and...." I stopped when they all stared at me. What? It was f*****g cold, and I didn't care if I was the only one wearing a jacket; it was!

"Andrea, baby, it's not fucking cold...." Jonah stared at me like he didn't understand why I was the only one freezing my ass off when everyone else seemed fine. Sophia had a dress on that made me have a freaking heart attack; seeing her bare legs, I would die! "Whatever, let's just get inside now!" I was sick of standing here, my toes freezing and Kira smiling when Tom was going to give her over to me, Jonah making a frown when I was still hurting my ankle, cursing at Tom for being stupid.

Jonah was taking her from me to my whimpering, my Kira... I was sniffling and didn't care when Kira stared at me like she was used to me being crazy. Jonah, too when he sighed and started to walk inside, making me cry even more seeing Jonah holding her; it was so beautiful. There was no way around it, my baby being with her dad, her real one.

"Daddy!" Kira looked sad when Buck looked like he wanted to die, still holding the carriers, not letting Jamie and Noah go. He really was hurting, the same as me. I couldn't live without my kids, and neither could he when he walked in front of me, taking small steps and going after Buck in the elevator.

Jonah had taken the stairs for once in his life when I was standing next to Buck, not knowing what to say, his big body still stiff like he was trying so hard not to start losing control and leave again, taking Jamie and Noah with him, knowing that I would kill him if he did.

"Buck...." I was trying to speak when the doors opened up. He walked out, not giving a shit about me stammering like I wanted him to get that I was happy with Jonah and that going around being pissed off about it wouldn't change anything. He had made his choice with Sarah, and that was it.

"Don't, fucking don't." He said it like he was choosing every word, and I made a slight nod, sure. He didn't want to talk about it, still hurt that I was back with Jonah, whom he hated, and always would.

Buck was putting down the boys, picking them up one at a time, and looking like this was the worst day of his life. He had seen death and destruction and killed people, and this was what was breaking him, leaving Kira, Noah, and Jamie here with me, their mother. "Jamie threw up when he tasted pumpkin, so don't give him that. Noah has been trying to stand up, and Kira has a scratch on her right leg when she fell down from the railing while playing...." Buck stopped when I didn't say a word looking at him, standing tall and f*****g proud like he wasn't about to crack at any given moment.

"I swear, Buck, I'm not going to keep them from you. Let's just see what we can do when Christmas comes around..." I was sighing; that was going to be complicated. I didn't want them to be with him at Christmas. I had never been away from Kira until now. Jamie and Noah weren't even a year old. They needed me.

"Sure.... Sure..." he was nodding like I couldn't see that he was shaking. Putting my hand on his arm, wanting to comfort him. I did love him no matter what; that would never change.

"You're a great dad, always will be one, okay?" I stroked his arm when he looked at me, giving me a slight grin like he knew that too. He was, and I didn't care about the rest; he was just the best.

"...and my favorite ex-husband..." He grinned more, hearing that when I was laughing, still feeling like shit having my hand on his arm, he was so f*****g great, and a part of me wanted nothing more than to make him happy, but I couldn't. There wasn't any way we would ever be what we had been before.

"Exclusive membership..." Buck was chuckling when I snorted; it sure was, I didn't want another one, and if Jonah did something stupid, I wasn't going to divorce him, more kill him.

"Okay... I need to leave and.... Yeah..." He looked at me like he wanted to say more when I smiled back, patting his arm. Yeah, I got it.

"You call me when you get home and... well... you know... call me anytime, anytime, Bucky..." I was trying to show him that I cared, and I did... that hadn't changed, and I had no doubt he was going to Sarah the second he got back, but... yeah... I still loved him. "God, I just wished... you know... I just wished it was different..." he sighed, seeing Jonah standing in the doorway and looking like he was close to getting that gun he was stashed in his trunk like I didn't know about it. I wasn't that stupid. If he kept it locked away from the kids.

"Kira! Daddy is going to leave now. Come say goodbye!" I was trying to sound like this was nothing, that Jonah didn't flinch hearing me say that or Buck's smile slipping when he realized that he had to leave, that he was not staying with the kids and me. "I don't want you to leave daddy, mommy, please!" Kira was begging me already, running past me and clinging to Buck, making Jonah lose the last color on his face. He didn't like this. None of us was happy, Kira, the least of all, being picked up by Buck, blinking a few times, adjusting the cap like I couldn't see the watery eyes, and making a big smile towards her, just trying to make this less painful when nothing would.

"Hey, it's alright, princess, we talked about this, mommy is here, and I'm back home, and you can come anytime you want...." Buck made a natural smile when Kira looked like she didn't like that. Buck was going away, and me being here, with Jonah... shit, I hadn't even told her that part yet, Jonah staying here with us... that felt.... Strange, for some reason, now that the kids were back, it would be interesting, to say the least.

"Yeah.... Yes.... You are going to see daddy soon, I promise...." I smiled too, when Kira wasn't buying it. I knew that seeing that she was making the same scowl as the guy in the doorway, shit, this was going to really be interesting, two hot heads and babies that needed me around the clock, oh and my fucking job... shit!

"Okay, princess.... take care of your brothers, alright? What do we don't do?" Buck squatted down, his big body before Kira that made a pout when she was singing like she knew what he had been telling her and thought it was annoying to repeat them. "Don't be mean, help mommy and.... "she looked at me when I was standing there, watching her when she made a smile like she just remembered that she had missed me too, damn kid.... I smiled when she beamed back, Buck looking happier too; the only one that still wasn't happy was Jonah.

"Take care of your brothers...." Buck hugged her when she giggled, forgetting for a second that he was leaving, making my chest hurt. I was a lousy mother, wasn't I? she felt safe when Buck was around because I got f*****g crazy sometimes, and she had to see me.... Oh god.... I looked sad when Buck picked up the boys, making them laugh and making me feel worse. They seemed happy around him, didn't they?

Buck was at the door when Jonah was still in the living room, sitting on the floor like he couldn't take it seeing me with Buck anymore, and I didn't blame him; it was just as hard to see him with Shailene. Kira was hugging Buck for the hundredth time when he got up and grinned at her and me, standing close, my arm around her shoulders before running off to Buck and mine relief.

"Andy, I need to talk to you about the house... the kid wasn't lying. I'm not doing that good, and... I hate to say it, but it might be better if we just sold the place since you're not coming back...." I nodded, still feeling like I didn't want that. I didn't want Kira to stay in Sarah's house, even if she treated her well.

"I can pay, Buck... I earn more money and .... If I'm honest. I don't want my kids staying at Sarah's. That's not an option with Mitch." Buck looked surprised, like he hadn't expected me to fight back. Still, it was true. I did make more, not to make me a f*****g millionaire like the grumpy guy inside the living room... but enough to cover the expenses, and I didn't want him to go back to Sarah.

I wouldn't say that to his face, but maybe he could meet someone and.... I sighed... well I didn't fucking know...but he was not moving back to her.

"Alright.... I'll call you about that.... Okay... so princess, I want to hear that you are on your best behavior.... And I love you...." Buck kissed Kira once more when I made a smile and watched him take a step outside the door, hating every second of this. I was too. "Goodbye, Bucky..." I smiled more at him when he did a chuckle and put his cap back on, going for the elevator.

"Bye, Andy..." he grinned more when he winked at me, making me giggle. Shit, he really was the best.