Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 54

We stepped inside the restaurant, Asian, my choice and I could already see people staring at us, standing there holding hands, me looking like a damn pervert with Jonah, just great.

I wanted to go when a teenage girl came out to greet us, her eyes was on Jonah and she blushed making him grin and me frown, even more great, now I would have to deal with her getting any chance she had to come over and talk to him, triple great. We walked after her and she seated us right in front of the kitchen, where the whole place could see us, my mood was getting even worse, every part about me feeling happy about going out with him was gone. I felt drained after him breaking and hurting me, fighting.... I just wanted to start to cry when I was seated, and he frowned at me like he didn't understand why I was acting like someone had run over my dog.

"Andrea.... Why are you looking like that? I told you, you're not fat." He said it a little too loud for my taste, earning a small snicker from the table behind us that heard him making me feel even worse.

"Why the f**k are you two laughing about, this is a private f*****g conversation, just shut your damn mouths and eat like you are supposed to!" I made a deep breath of feeling even more embarrassed when he growled at the two women that had heard him, making gasped breaths from his rudeness, Jonah not giving a shit and I knew it.

They didn't answer, just mumbled something about him being rude and got back to eating making me smile a little, well he was rude, he really was, but so was they for listening to our conversation. "Jonah.... just.... take it easy...." I made a tired smile when he just crossed his arms and smirked, he like being rude and I knew it, but I didn't have the strength to deal with more shit, not today at least.

"Just correcting bitches' baby, nothing you have to worry your head about." He smirked more when the women behind me gasped again and I made a sigh, oh he was going to get us kicked out, I was actually thankful when the blushing cute Asian girl came back and giggle the slightest when Jonah gave her a full smile making me mad, he really couldn't help himself couldn't he? I glared at them when she took his order, talking way to long for it to be necessary when he said something that I didn't understand and her face lighted up like she was a kid at Christmas morning, well she was a kid I guess, just like him.

"that's very good, have you been to Japan?" she smiled even more when he shrugged, if he had I wouldn't have been surprised, then again, I didn't know him, I didn't and I felt like shit, not even being able to hide it, jealous like always, I just wanted to get back home and die.

"Naw just Anime, that's all, but I'm a fast learner." He winked at her making the cute girl giggle again and I made a deep loud sigh that finally caught the attention of the guy that was supposed to be my boyfriend and the lazy waitress.

"Oh hi, what can I get you?" she smiled at me, but not like she did at him, and I just rolled my eyes when he smirked at me, knowing I was jealous, I was, I really was.

"Nr 11." She just nodded and scribbled it down, not a word more than that, well looks like I wasn't tipping her shit with an attitude like that.

She finally left to get our drinks and I just slouch down in the seat I was in, this was a horrible idea, and I hated it, every f*****g second.

He just watched me, looking annoyed that I wasn't having a good time, with him flirting and people laughing at me, I wish I was like him, indifferent to people opinions, but I wasn't, I was just me.

"Andrea, are you really going to be like that?" he looked at me serious all the sudden when I looked up, arms crossed and just looked sad, be like what? Depressed over the fact that I was the joke of the whole f*****g world, me dating him being f*****g pathetic. "Like what?" I fiddled with my hands and blinked, I really, really wanted to cry but I didn't want to draw anymore attention to us then what I already had, it was embarrassing.

"You are ashamed of me, of us dating, aren't you?" his eyes were piercing me, and I held my breath, no I wasn't, he was for f**k sakes flirting with everything that had a p***y, not me.

"No! that's not true, all my job and strangers know, thanks to you." I glared at him when he leaned back and gave me this stare down that made me nervous, fuck, like I said, I didn't want to deal with more shit today, I was hurting, hungry and tired.

"You are fucking funny talking about commitment, wanting more then just what we had before, and here we are, and you are the one that sitting there, fucking ashamed over me, that I am the one that makes you scream of pleasure, that f*****g loves you." He didn't scream but his voice was hard, and I flinched at every word he said, like he was cutting me deep in the heart every time he spoke, f**k.

"Jonah... please no more...." I looked around, I really just wanted to get back, why was that so f*****g hard for him to understand, I wasn't this nice bubbly teenager that he liked to talk to, I was just me, old and boring, we sure as hell wasn't the same personality type at all.

"No more of what? Me telling you the fucking truth, that you are the one of us that is ashamed, its fucking ridiculous Andrea, you telling me to commit and you are the one that keeps pulling away. not wanting to be seen together, don't you think I noticed you acting in the store either, you were holding your breath walking inside, afraid people would judge you!" he was getting angry again when I was shaking my head, no. no that was not true, I wanted to leave because he just kept flirting with everything that had a skirt! "I wanted to leave because you can't stop being a fucking asshole trying to get your dick into every girl you meet!" I snarled it back making him laugh back mockingly, oh fuck, he was going to say something hurtful and true, I just waited for the impact of his hard deep voice.

"I didn't flirt and even if I did, what the fucking difference between you and that fucker you stayed at, he makes you laugh and you love spending time with him, I seen it with my own eyes, and don't f*****g try to deny it!" I made a small, offended gasp when the girl that was our waitress came back, put the drinks on our table and left, seeing that the whole f*****g restaurant could hear us fighting.

"James and I are just friends, that's all!" I was pissed too, him accusing me to spending time with James, he had helped me, when nobody else wanted to give a shit about me, not even him!

"Yeah, sure you are, friends that want to fuck the other one, I'm surprised that you hadn't flipped over and giving into him seeing that he works you fucking hard every time he gets the chance." He just looked amused now, but it was mocking, and I wanted to start screaming at his stupid smirking face, f**k him and f**k every girl he had ever f****d, he did, and I didn't!

"You fucked other girls so why the hell are you complaining about, me being friends with James, he had been nothing but kind and nice to me, understanding! he didn't even get mad when I left him, for you!" I was getting up when I didn't want to do this anymore, he was so f*****g jealous of me and James, it was ridiculous, we were just friends!

"Where the fuck are you going?! sit down, I'm not paying for you to just barge out and collapse on the fucking street not eating!" I stopped from getting up and sat down again making him smirk again, f**k him, f**k him so much right now!

"Oh well then, if he so f*****g perfect, by all means, lets break up and you can be with him, go and live your happily ever middle age life together!" I really didn't like that way his smirk was showing how much he was despising that, that lifestyle and everything that came with it, fuck he really was just nineteen wasn't he?

"You don't get it; you are to fucking young to get anything! I don't want to have the same life as you, I did all that shit in your age Jonah, and I'm done, call me fat and middle age, but guess what? I am." My voice was cold at the end making him lose his smirk, why would I lie about it, he and I.... we were to different, today had proven that if anything.

I got up, this time not caring if he was stopping me and started to walked out to the exit determined, my tears already falling down making my face even more puffier then it was, f**k him for telling me all that, accusing me of wanting to f**k James, I never ever saw him like that, but you know what, I was going to, I was going out there and calling James, telling him that we should fuck, right now just for the hell of it!

I was having my phone out on the street when I felt it being snatched from my hand and I looked up at the angry guy behind me and I just started to cry even more, why the fuck didn't he just leave me alone, I hated him right now!

"Give me my phone back, I'm going to call James and I'm going to fuck him, just like you said!" I was holding my hand out just crying mad as hell when he just put it in his pocket making me even angrier, he told me one thing and did another one, f*****g a*****e! "You honestly think I'm going to just stand by and watch my girlfriend f**k some other guy, I'm not into that shit Andrea, not at all." He just smirked at the end when I didn't answer, what the f**k was he talking about now, that idiot!

"Why not!? I've seen you fuck another girl, lets make it fucking fair!" I sneered back at him when he frowned, oh thought that I had forgotten about that part did he? Surprise, I would never forget that!

"We weren't dating then, and second, you do that, I'm going to kill him, and I'm not kidding, I'm f*****g killing precious James for even touching you." I gasped at his words, serious and heavy when his eyes where dark and dangerous from saying that making me feel even more despair, I didn't want anything to happen to James, he didn't deserve getting Jonah's wrath, just because he was a f*****g psychopath, and I was in love with him.

"You are fucking insane; you know that right!? I'm not some goddam property you own Jonah, I fucking hate when you act like this, I hate it!" I didn't care if people were staring at us, giving us concerned looks and some smiles thinking it was funny to enjoy the show, well I had it! he was f*****g mental and I knew it, but I was stupid enough to keep coming back for more, I always did.

"I show you how fucking insane I am!" I made a small yelp when he grabbed me and kissed me hard and I struggled for about two seconds before feeling his tongue slipping into my mouth and his hands on my ass, making me feel my pussy start to throb hard from the ache of his hands grabbing me, feeling me up made me just melt like the hot mess I was, sinking into his arms and chest even more, still feeling his magic tongue and lips against mine.

"I told you baby girl, you are mine and I'm not letting you fucking go, I love you and you love me so why the hell are you telling me some shit I know isn't true." We had pulled away, his hands still on my ass and just out of breath my lips swollen and my pussy aching from not getting to continuing this, f**k he was right, and I hated it, I really did.

People around us had been started to smirk at us and some even had there phones out, great now the whole fucking world would know I was dating Jonah.

"I hate you...." I mimed the words now wanting people to hear me and he just laughed teasingly at me and pulled me closer, and I just surrendered into his chest and let everyone that wanted to see him and me together do that, he was right, I was embarrassed, but how could I not be, he was the hot one and I was the old desperate one, he didn't get it.

"I love you Andrea... fuck you are just the perfect girl, submissive and just the right amount of struggle to keep me interested...." He chuckled when I raised my eyebrows, wow that was one way to described me, I guess... I didn't smile back, he was a d**k, no doubt about that.

He saw me not liking what he just said and made a small sigh like I was being impossible, caressing my short hair behind my ear and just looked at me warmly, like he didn't seem to look at anyone else, but I could be wrong about that.

"I'm saying that I love you, even if you are a pain in the ass, and I have to fucking fend off guys all the time from you." He smirked when I didn't get it, just stared into his cunning eyes with my own innocent, what the f**k was he talking about, I didn't attract men, that was bullshit.

"Oh, you don't know.... fuck and I'm not telling you...." He smirked more making me just even more curious, what the hell was he talking about, when the hell did he fend of guys like he said?!

"I never seen you do that?!" I sounded surprised when he squeezed my a*s again a couple of times making me bit my lips and feeling hot again, oh I hated him so much.

"Don't have to, I got my guys for that, and they usually get it when I grab you like this." He did another go at my b**t making me laugh, so he was jealous at guys hitting on me, good to know.... I smirked at him teasing him back, he was so going to regret telling me that.

"Hey, don't you go all fucking cocky on me just because I told you that, you are still mine and I'm going to do whatever I need to keep you that way, you got that Andrea?" he sounded serious again when I made a small sigh and nodded but I smiled, hating that I did it, I got it.

"Yeah, I understand Jonah, but if I ever see you f**k another girl, I'm going to get that steak knife you should be thankful I didn't have in my hand the last time, and then I'm going to f*****g cut your d**k off." He flinched at my serious dark voice, he was just as much mine as I was his, and he could forget about me turning the other cheek if he ever did something like that to me again.

"I'm officially scared and turned on at the same time...." He chuckled when I just grabbed him by the nape, pushing myself back and kissed him again, fuck I wanted to have him, right now if I could.

"Let's just go home, I want you to f**k me." he just smirked when we started to walk back to the car, leaving the nosy people behind us.