Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 61

The doors were closing on me when I saw his entrance fly open and I held my breath seeing him come out and he was going for the stairs when our eyes met and he looked surprised that I was in the elevator and so was I when I looked around and realize that I was going to be alone inside, f**k! "Jonah!" I was shouting after him when he stopped dead in his tracks hearing my desperation, I didn't want to go alone! I was still afraid, and I saw the pain in his face when the doors closed just before him and I made a small sound of crying when it started to move and I realized that I was all alone in here, just waiting when I backed into the end of the wall, hand over my mouth trying not to start to cry. It was fine, it was going to be fine! I had been in here with him so many times before, it was not going to break down now, I was going to be fine!

I was holding my arms around me, just scrunching my eyes hard, waiting for the bell to go off, that sweet sound of freedom when I was whispering to myself over and over again that I would be fine, I was going to be fine, and Jonah was not going to leave me in here, he said he never would do that, not like Ryan had done, oh f**k.... Why the f**k was I going to that f*****g wedding!? I didn't even like heat or the fact that people where happy for that fucker, leaving Jonah behind, no, no I didn't want to go anymore, I refused, f**k mom and dad and their paid ticket! I wasn't going!

I heard the doors open and made a big gasp of relief, the anxiety leaving my body when he was inside, here with me and just scooped me up, didn't even wait for me to say anything and I snuggled closer into his hoodie. I was never leaving him, f**k I was so stupid just screaming at him when I needed him, more than anything, more than anyone!

"I got you, I got you...." He was walking slowly back into the apartment and just laid me back onto the bed, like I never had left him, rushed away mad and we screamed like we hated each other, when I f*****g loved him with all my heart.

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry.... I'm not going, I'm calling my dad, saying that he can go to hell if he tells me he paid for that shit... I'm never leaving you...." God I was desperate looking up at him by my side, leaning on his elbow just watching me with calm eyes and a small smile that looked like a smirk when I was finished speaking.

"We are going to go to that wedding, Andrea, I fucking love you and let's face it, isn't this shit couples do? Unless I'm still too fucking young for you?" He has a small gleam of laughter when I started to smile too, yeah, he was, he really was too young for me...fuck.... I wished I had been ten years younger, five even, not having fourteen years between us, f**k I had been fourteen when he was born, that was mind-blowing.

"You really want to come along, see my parents? That's some serious shit for a guy that didn't even want to tell me what he felt just a while ago..." I was smirking back, the slightest fear in my heart when I was done, scared that I might have made him realize that it was just like that, serious. You just didn't meet the parents of a girl you f****d, not in my world.

He raised his thick eyebrows like I was challenging him making me start to laugh. Oh thank God that was the reaction I wanted, not that he would start to panic and just pull back from me again, I would die if he did now that I had gotten a taste of him, his words and feelings, it was almost as addictive as his d**k.

"Why not? I know what I want when I see it and since I already told you that I love you, I don't see any reason not to?" He looked so confident and sure making my mouth go dry, oh god he was talking like this was serious making my heart go faster, my thoughts racing away not being able to stop them, he loved me. Did he want to stay with me forever? Was it like that? What would happen when he realized that I was boring as hell, and he just wanted to have fun?! Going out and all that I was not as fond off anymore these days...

He looked at me funny when I realized that I was almost panting from my mind racing, calm the fuck down Andrea, one step at the time, he just wants to go to the wedding! that's all, he was not getting down on one knee and asking me to marry him, stupid girl! I was cursing making him chuckle from my face mouthing small curses that he didn't even ask about and I looked up suddenly, like I had forgotten he was there for a second, oh shit he did really love me, didn't he?

"I love you." He lost his smile when I said it heavy and serious, but I did, every time I looked into his eyes, every time when I was with him, I was already drowning, not wanting air if he didn't give it to me and nobody else.

"Oh I know you do babe, You never been good to hide what you are feeling, I known that even before you said that to me..." He looked calm again, like he had it under control when I just nodded, it was just hard, feeling so much and not knowing where to put it, my heart not being enough for it, spilling out everywhere for anyone to see.

"You want to come with me, tonight?" He smiled at my shocked face, he wanted me to come along to whatever the hell he was going at night?! I was still not sure what to answer. one, I didn't know what that the hell he was doing and two, he was right, I was still feeling bad for being older, and people would ask questions, or just stare. I didn't know if I wanted that.

"Andrea, please don't tell me that you have lost your words again, because you know what I will do..." He chuckled, sounding more playful then serious when I woke up from my state of horror, he really just asked me to tag along, out. Wherever the hell that was?! "Jonah... what does that mean? What do I wear, what do I do? What exactly is going to happen?!" He smirked and pulled me closed, my eyes shifting from one eye to the other ones of his blue green eyes, being confident against my unsteady ones. "That a surprise, and don't worry, I get you something to dress that sexy body of your with..." He was having his hand on my boob making me start to smirk, was that so, I didn't know whether to be afraid or scared, both.

I was just about to start kissing him when my phone was going off and my mind went into panic mode when I saw who called, James! Oh fuck I was an hour late, an hour! he was going to kill me, friends or not!

"James, please don't fire me! I'm already on my way, I missed the alarms, I swear!" I was already up and walking towards the door to the bedroom when I heard the annoyed voice on the other side, oh he was pissed at me, he hated when people was late, James was not an easy-going guy, and I was not in his good graces right now.

"Andrea, this is not good for that leave you wanted, that is the end of this weekend, how the hell are you going to finish up before you act like this?!" He was snarling at me, making me feel even worse, fuck he really was pissed off at me and I was just trying to get my shoes on being bend over feeling two warm hands on my a*s when I made a small gasp from the surprise from being stroked from nowhere.

"I'm sorry James, I'm going to stay overtime, unpaid, I promise!" I was up when I felt the phone being snatched from my hand and I turned around, my heart going faster and blood freezing over when I saw Jonah was holding my phone and he didn't look happy at the way James was talking to me, oh f**k this was not going to end good!

"Listen here you old fuck! you better not be fucking talking to my girlfriend like that! Have some goddam respect or I am going to come over and show you how to fucking act around women!" I was speechless, and so was James on the other side when Jonah just hanged up, giving me back to the phone looking like he was good for it, going over and doing something bad against James, f**k that was hot!

"Jonah... omg, fuck he is going to fire me... "I just stared, ashamed that I was turned on, he was being ridiculously jealous and protective, and I loved every minute of it.

He just smirked like he didn't care, and I knew he didn't, well I did, I had told him that it was embarrassing having him pay, and if I got fired, that would make me even more depended when that's not at all what I wanted.

"No, he won't, he wants you, Andrea babe. I know guys, even if they are old and dying, he wants to fuck you, and he is pissed that I am the one doing you and not him, that's why he needs some fucking lessons about backing off, I'm not fucking sharing and you are mine." He just said that, like it was some known knowledge that I was supposed to be aware of, trust me, I wasn't.

"Just, wow...." I didn't know what to say back when he came closer and just pulled me against him, smiling at me with that charming smile that he could make anyone do anything for him, I was already looking back up, lost in his handsome face and playful eyes, he was the worst and the best thing in my life.

"If he gives you more shit or fucking tries something, you call me, right away, okay?" He looked worried when I just shrugged at his worry, it was just James, he was all bark and no bite, he was a sweetheart if you got under that hardass.

"I can handle James; don't you worry baby." I was leaning more making him see that I wanted him to kiss me and giggled when I felt his lips against mine, he tasted so good when I pulled back and sighed, this was it, off to my execution and walk of shame, combined, on my workplace, great.

"Remember, call and if I can't get there or answer, call Tom!" He was shouting in the hallway to me that on my way out, making me roll my eyes. oh god he was being dramatic, making it sound like James was bad news when he was one of my best friends, he was and I had accepted that, no matter how pathetic that was.

"Yeah, I got it Jonah, call or snap if James tries to fuck or kill me!" I was shouting it back when I snickered, he was acting crazy, James was a bit hard and maybe needed to have some counseling about his mom, but he still was a good man, just lonely and Jonah was jealous.

I was just about to turn the handle to the stairs, not wanting to use the elevator again when I felt him behind me, making me shriek when he picked me up and I looked surprised at his determined face that was holding me up against the wall, in the freaking hallway, my core started to beat when I saw the hunger in his eyes, he wanted to f**k me.