Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 88

I was banging on the door, hard and determined. I knew he was here since the stupid car was outside, trying to ignore the hard stone that was on my chest when I knew that the last time I was here, I had been living here. Under the same roof as him, and now he was a f*****g user that wanted my money to support his habit, no way! "Jonah, open the f**k up, I know that you are in there!" I was banging harder when I heard curses behind the door and my hurt made a fluttering move when the door suddenly flew open and there he was. Jonah.

I made a sharp intake seeing that he was shirtless and just dressed in a pair of shorts, making me stare at him not being too able to say a word more.

I knew that body. Knew what it felt like onto of me, my fingers still remembering everything, and I was just about to reach out and touch him when he made a sneering sound like he saw what I was going to do, and he didn't like it.

"Cut that shit out right now!" He was using his dark voice when I made a surprised whimper from not being prepared for the full force of Jonah even if I was the one that had been the one to come over here and demanding that he stop acting so f*****g immature. He saw me and pulled back more, making a big sigh like I was being difficult and breaking my heart in the process when he just seemed annoyed that I was around him, like I didn't die every second that I wasn't in his company.

"Jonah... please... just please... stop this, whatever you need, I want to help you baby, you know that..." I didn't even know why I was begging when he looked up from the floor and just gave me the hard stare that made me freeze to ice, every muscle of my body tensing up from seeing him act so f*****g cold at me, he wasn't cold he was just angry, like he always was. Read more novels at FindNovel.net.

"You want to help me? then fucking pay back what you owe me, and after that Andrea, I don't want to ever fucking see you again, you got that?!" He sounded so calm and serene like he didn't want to blow up on me, his face being a scowl and the fire that was burning in his hard eyes, he still loved me, and I knew that. he was just too f*****g stubborn to admit it!

"I'm not fucking paying." I felt myself getting angry too, he had no fucking right to ask me to pay back. He had fucking money and I needed mine, he was just being an a*****e to me and using my weak points, me being broke was one of them. "What the fuck did you say to me?" He had this deep dark voice that he only used when he really was mad at someone, and this time, it was me and I hated that I got scared when my strength just abandoned me, made me weak and vulnerable to his hate that was burning right now.

"I'm not paying...." I was backing up, not even thinking about it when his tall body was getting tenser, every part of him just waiting to explode and I knew that this was stupid, but I needed to stand my ground, he was not going to scare me away, not this time! "Andrea, you have two fucking seconds to get the hell out of here, or I am going to make you wish you never knocked on my door." His eyes were pinning me down when my heartrate was drowning logic and wanted to run away from the big scary man he was, fucking hell he was terrifying as f**k when he wanted to be!

"Or what? You will hurt me? kill me?!" I crossed my arms, not giving him an inch when he clenches his jaw, grinding his teeth like he wasn't expecting me to put up a fight and just run, well I wasn't. not this time.

"Jonah, tell me? what the fuck are you going to do to me? make me cry, fall in love with you and get my heart broken? Feel like I want to die, be mean to me? hurt me? you did all that already, there is nothing you can do to me, that you haven't already done." I was standing there, having my arms crossed, just as him when he made faces of hurt and longing, I told you, so fucking proud, always.

"Just get the f**k away from me, just like you did when I told you the f*****g truth and you couldn't fucking take it!" He was growling the words to me, backing up, ready to slam the door in my face when I followed, confused and lost by his words. What the fuck was he talking about?!

"You fucking snapped Jonah! It had nothing to do with me knowing the truth, I have always loved you, no matter what!" I was pushing myself into his apartment and I saw that it looked like shit inside, he didn't seem to clean these days and the smell was rank and made me want to puke, this wasn't him. he was tidier than me, far more organized too.

He just made a mocking face like he didn't believe me when I slammed the door shut behind me, he was not chasing me off, no fucking way! he fucking owed me an explanation, for everything!

"What the fuck are you doing, this is my home and you are not fucking welcome here anymore, I don't fucking date traitors!" He was staring me down when he said that I was the traitor, me?! the one that had taken everything and still loved him, what a f*****g joke! "I don't date drug dealers but here we fucking are, you and me." I smirked at his face getting sterner, his jaw clenching, not being able to tell me what he wanted to, coward.

"Fuck you!" He actually flipped me off when I just smirked more at that, so f*****g childish when I just answer him back putting up my finger too, well fuck him back.

I gasped when he just took the last step between us, fast and determined, not even waiting for me to understand what happened when he pushed my chin up and kissed me hard.

I couldn't help it, the taste of sweet mint was faint, and I just moaned feeling myself being lifted by his hands that was on my a*s, already squeezing them hard and I tilted my head back more, opening my mouth and let his tongue inside, not even thinking about it when my hands found his long hair.

oh god it was so long these days, I made a hard pull when he grunted from the pain, biting my lip back hard and only stopped to look at me with his hard challenging eyes that was burrowed into mine, waiting for what was going to happen.

"I told you that you were going to fucking pay back in some way or another Andrea, and this is f*****g it. I'm going to f**k you so hard that you are never going to ever think about that p***y you are staying at." I just stayed silent. Watching him with my begging eyes, f**k yes that's what I wanted. let him use me, I wanted to be close, even if it was just for f*****g me, I didn't care!

"I'm all yours Jonah..." He made a small flinch hearing the same words I had been using before, when we were together. What the hell we were right now, I had no idea. I just knew that I was never going to be able to let him go, no matter what he did too me, I was trapped in his eyes that was locking me down and he knew that just as much as me.