Divorced Heiress
Chapter 80

The sun rays that filtered through the window hit directly on my face, causing me to wake up from the most comfortable and relaxing sleep I had ever had in my life. I had slept like a baby, I didn't even want to open my eyes. If it hadn't been because someone left the curtains open, I would stay in bed all day.

I shifted in bed, searching for comfort, and it wasn't difficult to find it when my arm wrapped around a pillow that, although very hard, smelled wonderful. I took a deep breath and searched my memory for that familiar scent, but I was still half asleep and it was impossible for me to guess it.

-Good morning, Sarah.- I heard that whisper very close to my face, and even though I was more asleep than awake, I knew who was speaking. Or maybe that was it, since I wasn't fully conscious, I started hallucinating about that man.

I slowly opened my eyes, finding a pair of honey-colored eyes that were observing me closely, examining my face as if he wanted to engrave it in his memory. The corners of my lips curved into a smile involuntarily, as my mind continued playing tricks on me, but this time it was as if I was back in those times when I felt so fulfilled, without worries, waking up next to the man who made me his wife.

I watched him without erasing my smile for a long time, and he also smiled without removing his eyes from mine. That's when I realized that this wasn't my imagination, or a dream, or my mind playing a trick on me.

I had just woken up in the same bed as Alexander Lancaster, and what I was embracing wasn't a pillow, it was his body that was very close to mine, filling me with warmth. And I immediately remembered that the wonderful scent I couldn't recall a moment ago was his.

I wiped the smile off my lips and sat up, remembering how I had ended up in that bed, in that room, and waking up with my ex-husband. The images immediately rushed into my head, making my cheeks blush with embarrassment.

Yesterday, I had completely lost control of myself and did things that I would never do in my right mind. I remembered every word I said to Alexander, and the feelings that surfaced within me before and after passionately kissing him. And if I woke up in the same bed as him, it was because I had asked him when he stopped before going further than a simple kiss. No, no, no. No.

That tea, that cup of tea made me lose my mind, made me look like a complete idiot, as if I had been drunk. And honestly, I would have preferred to be drunk, then I would forget what happened yesterday, or rather, what I did. Now I didn't know where to hide my face out of embarrassment.

I cleared my throat while rubbing my temples, not knowing what to say or how to escape from here. But that would be very cowardly of me, there was no other way than to face the consequences of my actions.

-Um, Alexander, I... I'm sorry for putting you in this situation. I shouldn't be here.- I started apologizing sincerely since I didn't know where to begin. Alexander didn't move from his place, he remained lying on the bed with one arm supporting his weight to look at me better, and in his eyes, I could see a hint of amusement.

-Anna brought breakfast. Let's eat first, then we talk, does that sound good?- I fell silent when Alexander ignored what I had just said and changed the topic abruptly. I didn't object because I was very hungry.

Yesterday's tea, besides relaxing me more than necessary, had also dispelled any negative feelings and thoughts. I no longer felt angry at Alexander, it was as if he had taken all the bad with him, leaving me relieved and serene. Although perhaps the conversation with Rachel had a lot to do with it.

At the moment, shame was overwhelming me.

What kind of miraculous tea did I drink?

After a long silence, I nodded in response, and Alexander smiled satisfied before getting up from bed and bringing the breakfast tray that Anna had left I don't know when. I just hope that the food didn't have the same effect as the tea.

Alexander placed the tray on my lap and sat next to me with his own tray. I bit my lower lip while thinking about the strange situation; I was in Alexander's house, in his room, in his bed, having breakfast together like we used to.

-Thank you.- I said, dispelling those thoughts that made me feel like a fool, and he smiled in response before tasting his food. Breakfast passed in complete silence, which I appreciated, as I took the opportunity to clarify my thoughts and make the embarrassment of what I did yesterday completely disappear.

However, bite after bite, I couldn't help but remember the moment I threw myself into Alexander's arms to passionately kiss him, openly showing him that I was willing to go further. Fortunately, he was very respectful and stopped me, otherwise I would be regretting it at this moment.

When I took the last sip of my orange juice, Alexander took the trouble of removing the trays and after leaving them on the table, he returned to the bed and sat down beside me, staring at the ceiling. I didn't know what was going through his head at this moment, and the nerves starting to bubble in my system prevented me from starting a conversation with him. I didn't even know what to talk about, although there were many pending topics.

-You talked to Rachel.- He said next to me. It sounded more like a statement than a question, and of all the topics, he started with the one I didn't want to touch at this moment, but we owed each other a conversation and it was better sooner rather than later. With my gaze fixed on the ceiling, just like Alexander, I replied, -I spoke to her.- Although inside I was a bundle of nerves, I felt comfortable speaking civilly for the first time with Alexander without an insult towards him passing through my mind. -And, what do you think about it?- He asked beside me, crossing his arms over his chest, and a sigh escaped from my lips.

I thought many things about it, but the words that were most difficult for me and that Alexander deserved to hear came out of my lips. -I've been hard on you all this time, I've let myself be carried away by anger because every time I saw you, I saw that man I found with my friend, and even though now I find out that nothing happened, it is inevitable to think about it. I paused as I remembered the conversation with my father. Both made wrong decisions under the pressure of knowing that danger was near, both had the sole intention of protecting me, putting their peace and happiness at risk.

I was about to continue saying what I thought, but Alexander interrupted me, looking away from the ceiling and adjusting to look at me from the side. -Sarah Doinel is accepting that she was tough on me. That tea has done you good, do you want more?- He said in a playful tone, and I couldn't help but laugh without looking at him, as I didn't want him to notice the embarrassment still reflected in my eyes when I remembered my actions from yesterday. When my laughter ceased, I looked at Alexander, who now had a serious expression.

-No, thank you. I don't want to lose my sanity again. Yesterday I wasn't thinking clearly. I apologize for what I did, I feel embarrassed.- I said, as I settled on the bed just like he did a moment ago, so that we were facing each other.

-You weren't thinking clearly? I would say you've never been more sane. Do you know why? Because you broke down that stone wall that you built over the years, because your heart is starting to thaw, because it's the first time you say and do what you feel without the anger you've accumulated stopping you, because you put your pride aside. Can't you see it? We're talking without you starting to scold me. Do you really not want any more tea?- A smile appeared on his lips after his question, and I couldn't help but admire his curved lips and how well he looked when he smiled.

An impulse took hold of me, and this time I was fully aware when I closed the distance between us, pressing our lips together and taking him by surprise. Alexander didn't react until I moved my lips over his in a deep but gentle kiss that made me tremble. His hand traveled to my cheek, and I ran my tongue over his lower lip, asking permission for our tongues to touch. I was very aware of what I was doing now, and it was what I wanted since the moment I opened my eyes, but I didn't want to admit it.

Alexander kissed me softly, and a sigh escaped from my lips when his teeth caught my lower lip. It was very characteristic of him to do that, and I didn't know that I missed it until this moment.

In the next second, I found myself breathless and separated my lips from his, but our foreheads were still together. I didn't want to open my eyes for fear of seeing his reaction to my unexpected kiss, as a moment ago I was apologizing for acting without sanity, and now I was doing it again, fully aware of my actions.- Alexander, I... - I was about to apologize again, but Alexander hissed, silencing what was about to come out of my mouth, and gave me a fleeting kiss before speaking.

- Don't apologize, I'm the one who should apologize - He whispered against my lips, with no intention of separating his forehead from mine, and I remained in that position, listening word by word, my heart beating strongly.

- I know there's no justification, and I was unfaithful to you from the moment I gave in to Rachel, even though we didn't go far. But the feeling of knowing they could shoot at any moment... God, I remember it and my hair stands on end. If I've made bad decisions, it's because I wanted to protect you. If something happened to you, my life would have no meaning. I wouldn't do it just because I wanted to, no, because there was no room in my mind for another woman, only you. Rachel told you, I didn't work out, you know why? It's because you're the only woman I desire, the only one who makes my body react, the only one who makes my nerves jingle and my heart race. I don't want to talk about us because you're right, our failed marriage was built on lies. I hid Alexis from you, and you hid your true identity and your family from me. We both had our reasons, but hey, there shouldn't be any secrets in a marriage. That's why I'm asking you again to forgive me, to start over, this time being honest. Give me a chance as a person, let me show you that I'm not what you've thought all these years, despite the mistakes I've made and the bad decisions that pushed us to this point. Give me a chance as the father of your child. Let's start again with a friendship where you can tolerate my presence without attacking me in the next second. After all, we'll be working together for a long time, and don't forget that we're together to bring down the people who want to harm you and your family. I'm asking you for a second chance. - His request made me move away from him and look into his eyes.

Naturally, distrust still lingered in my chest. Despite many things being clarified, I couldn't change overnight. I felt defensive when it came to Alexander and the harm he had caused me in the past, how much I had suffered because of him. However, I was being selfish, thinking only of myself. This didn't mean that we were going to resume our romantic relationship, but it meant a lot for the life of our child, who was the most affected by the problems between us. For my child's sake, I could risk giving him a vote of confidence and improve our relationship as parents, as partners, and as individuals.

I let out a tired sigh and nodded my head.

- I hope I'm not making a mistake with this, Alexander. We both made mistakes. I lied to you about my identity and my family for many years. I also accept that I was wrong to hide Tristan from you. I've been selfish, only thinking of myself. Let's start over, this time being honest from the beginning. Don't disappoint me, don't make me feel like a fool for trusting you again. - I agreed after a few hesitant seconds, the little voice in my head repeating over and over again. You could not make a mistake, Sarah. A half-smile appeared on Alexander's face upon hearing my response, and his eyes shone even more. I silently admired how beautiful they looked with their long lashes and how they narrowed when he genuinely smiled.

- I won't disappoint you. I'd be a great idiot if I let you down again. If I do, I'll distance myself from you. I'll be a better person for my son and for you. He said, taking my hand in his, and I couldn't help but feel relieved to leave behind a stage that had been torturous for me. Now that we'll be honest, do you really think my eyes are beautiful? - Alexander blinked more times than he should, and I hid my face in my hands, feeling my cheeks flush with embarrassment as I laughed nervously.

- I said it without thinking, let's not talk about that now. - Alexander chuckled, and the next second I heard the ringtone of my phone, bringing me back to reality.

I hadn't checked my phone since yesterday when I called Vincent without any success. I completely forgot that I had to stay in touch with him.

I picked up the phone from the nightstand next to the bed, and of course, it was Vincent. In fact, I had several missed calls from him. He must be worried because I haven't given him any sign of life.- Hello, Vincent. Sorry, I didn't hear the calls... - Before I could continue, he interrupted me, leaving me frozen with the news he gave me next.

- Come back to Paris right now, your parents had an accident.