Dominant Alpha
Chapter 28

I went to sleep after that meeting silently instead of putting up a fight with Christian. It took some time, but I was perhaps too exhausted from all the emotional issues and tears that I had to go through so eventually, I did fall asleep without realizing when. I was not aware if

Christian had come back to the room or not, but when I woke up after a few hours at night, the bed beside me was empty.

After getting freshen up in the washroom, I walked down the hall. Everything was loud, and everyone was chattering with each other. I took a deep breath as for some reason, seeing everyone being normal did not make me feel awkward for coming down here after all the drama from yesterday. My stomach growled in a low voice, making me realize how much hungry I was. The hunger was now killing me.

I walked down the hall and took a seat at the dinner table. The amazing aroma of delicious food hit my nose immediately, making me lick my lips in craving before I started to fill up my plate with a little bit of everything. Just as I started to put a spoonful of soup in my mouth, the hall went silent.

I closed my eyes in annoyance.

Not. Right. Now!

I felt the chair beside me get pulled, and then someone settled in the seat. I knew who this 'someone' was already so I ignored the wavering tension in the hall and continued my dinner like nothing bad had happened in this whole century.

The loud chattering voices started once again. I felt Christian's hand come into my lap to hold my hand, but I quickly pulled my hand and placed it on the table to eat dinner from both hands. I heard an audibly loud sigh from beside me. The hand stayed in my lap. After finishing my dinner, I stood up and went into the kitchen to put down the plates in the sink. No one was there. I grabbed a Dairy Milk from the freezer and tried to exit the kitchen.

Key word - 'Tried'

As soon as I turned around and started to leave the kitchen, Christian came striding inside the kitchen, blocking my path. I tried to sidestep him to clearly avoid him, but he grabbed my hand in a gentle grip and pulled me close to his chest in a hug. I did not argue nor squirm. I just watched and endured his actions without a word.

"Look... I did not..." he started.

"It is okay." I stopped him in the middle and replied in a blank voice. I really, really did not want to talk to him at that moment. He had ruined everything for me. Each moment that he had spent to build up the trust for himself in my heart. Now, I could barely feel anything except anger upon remembering the words he had said to me in the afternoon.

"What?" he asked, perplexed.

"I said it is okay. You do not need to say even one word. I don't want to hear anything. Now, will you please excuse me?"

"Ava, no, please, just listen..."

I did not let him complete his words. I pushed at his chest to get free of his hold, turned around, and walked out of the kitchen without giving even a glance in the direction of his face.

It was all cold, frigid inside me. The feelings, the pain, everything had balled up and become a numb ache. I was tired of fighting him and trying to please him. I hated this place and I hated that I had to go through all these bad experiences just because of one man who spoke something while his actions conveyed something else.

I walked into my room and got changed into my night dress. When I walked out of the washroom, my mind turned even more sour and sad when I saw him roaming in the room.

I did not give a second glance to him and walked towards the bed without saying anything, but as usual, I was grabbed my shoulders and turned around. I sighed but did not say anything, just closed my eyes in irritation for a moment and looked up in his eyes with a hollow expression.

"Ava, just listen to me for once. I did not want to insult you and say all those things to you." He said eagerly as soon as he had me facing him.

"It is okay, Christian!" I removed his hands from my shoulders and turned away from him to face the bed instead, "I am getting used to it now. You do not need to apologize for anything. Please, just let me get some rest."

Christian could perhaps see the coldness behind my words. Even though I appeared as calm as a river, the emotions swirling inside me were colder than ice. I was completely filled with nothing hatred for the man that stood behind me trying to explain the reasons behind his actions. Again.

"No... I mean all this, Ava. I know I... I ruined everything." his voice was desperate at that point, making me realize that he had somehow understood that his actions today had crossed the limits to my patience. I was not sure if he truly felt guilty or if all of this was a trap once again to make me melt. He just kept continuing to say the words of apology, but I could not make myself believe even a word that came out of his mouth anymore,

"I really am very sorry about what happened today," he murmured. His chin came to rest upon my shoulders, his words were above a whisper as I felt him speak in a guilty voice, "Don't behave so coldly with me. It is killing me from inside."

"I just said that I am not angry with you." I repeated coldly, "just please give me some alone time. I will come whenever you want, I promise."

'Like a dog.' were the words that I held back from coming out of my mouth.

"Stop it, Ava!" He shouted in frustration. But then he lowered his voice down and clenched his eyes hard. He seemed to be struggling to find the words to say to me as a few moments passed before he spoke again, "Shit! I did not mean to upset you."

Even though I tried to control all the emotions that were storming inside me, I could no longer hold back my words. My voice came out choked as tears of deep pain escaped from my eyes when I tried to suppress the anguish I was trying SO HARD to bury under my coldness,

"You are breaking my heart, Christian." I whispered.