Falling For My Playboy Boss
Chapter 72

Collin's POV

I had her back, and I can pinpoint when I lost her. She asked an innocent question, and I didn't have the heart to tell her what had happened. I felt her stiffen in my arms when she figured it out. I was fully expecting her to start yelling or asking me to put her down, so I had tightened up my grip, but she didn't. It was actually much, much, worse. I saw my mom biting on her bottom lip to try to keep from saying anything, and then I saw Ava stiffen up when she figured it out and I waited for her to yell at me, but she didn't, she was watching Cora, and Ava looked upset. I tilted my head a little and watched a lone tear slide down the side of her face and that was way worse than any yelling or cussing that I could have received. Cora's heart was being broken again and I wouldn't be there to comfort her tonight as she cried herself to sleep over me and my actions. I wish the video were from when we were together, but I can't change what I did, no matter how much I wished I could. What was worse was how calm Cora was in my lap. She didn't fight me, but I knew when I let her go, that it was going to be forever. That she let me in again and I stepped on her heart again. No one was speaking and that made it even worse. I feel like I need to explain myself, but it won't matter now. Cora is hurt, and I did it. I decided to tell her anyway because I cannot lose her like this.

"Cora, please. It wasn't intentional or deliberate. It was the date of the first fashion show, back in May, when I first saw you. I was a little overexcited about seeing you and, yes, I planned on dating "Shae" next after I got caught back up with work after I had broken off with Maddie. I was really horny after the show, and I was hurt by everyone taking your side and me being left with Maddie while I had been staring at you. I wasn't even listening to what anyone was saying. I left to take Maddie home and she invited me up, and I was horny after seeing you on the runway and I figured we were together just a week ago. What could be the harm? So, I had s*x with Maddie and then took a shower at her place because I felt so dirty afterward. It wasn't her that I wanted. It was you, well Shae, but you are Shae. I am sorry baby. I was thinking about you when I had s*x with her. I am sorry baby. I made a mistake", I told her, and I can tell by the expression on everyone else's face that I should have kept keeping my big mouth shut.

I saw my mom close her eyes like she couldn't take seeing the expression on Cora's face. My dad put his hand over his mouth, and he looked mad, and I remember thinking my d**k got us all here in the first place. Cora's not trying to hide the fact that she is crying harder, but I refuse to let her go. I need her, I love her. I felt a hand on my shoulder, and it was Michael. He nods towards Cora, but I shake my head. I will not let her go. No one here is going to make me let her go, she will leave me, and I can't let her leave me. I see Dalton and Nicolas get up along with my dad and head for my chair. I saw my mother step over to Ava and start speaking in her ear and Ava nodded. My mom picks up her cell phone and exits the office. I know that they plan to take her from me, but I won't let them. She belongs with me, I love her, and I need her. Can she not understand that?

"Son, you have to let her go, she wants to leave. You cannot hurt the babies, you are causing her stress, which gives the babies stress too. Please just let her go so she can process what you said. Let her get up without us having to hold you down to do it because Cora and your children will end up being the ones that are hurt by all this. Please just think of Cora and the baby's son, you messed up and you have to bear the consequences of your actions", my dad said, and I loosened my grip a little, as I didn't want to hurt the babies or Cora.

I cannot let her go without pleading with her one more time. "Cora, I am going to let you go, but please listen to me. I wanted you, and I didn't want her, but she was available, and I got carried away. It was a mistake. After we were together in Paris, I realized that I wanted no one else but you, ever again. It has only been you since Paris. I haven't slept with anyone else. Even when Maddie picks the lock on my bedroom door and gets into my bed naked, I do not want her, and I haven't touched her since the afternoon of that first show. You are the woman for me. This is the longest time I have gone without someone to sleep with. I want you, and only you, for the rest of my life, Cora. I made a huge mistake, I admit that freely, a huge mistake. But please don't let it cost me you and my babies. I will do anything to prove myself to you. Just don't leave me. Please tell me that you are willing to think about how much I love you when you consider if you will give me another chance, Cora", I told her, and I released my arms from around her. "I have given you so many chances, Collin. So many, every single time that you hurt me and made fun of me, I still loved you. I would do anything for you. I gave you my heart and my virginity. I asked you not to crush my heart, but you did. You need to grow up and realize that every action has a reaction. I cannot allow you to do it again. I listen to your words that say what I want to hear, but just like when you swore to me that you wouldn't have s*x with Maddie in the office again, you did. You lied to me, and it didn't even take 24 hours for you to do it in. You swore that you and Maddie were finished, yet you escorted her to the fashion show. You lie to me all the time and I am supposed to take it, and just forgive you and let you back in Collin. I cannot keep doing this. The emotional distress that you are causing me, hurts the babies too. It was one of the top three things that my doctor said to be careful of. I came here, I saw your car. I didn't want to be here, around you. You charm your way in again. I actually didn't want you to know about the babies yet, but here we are. I will allow you visitation with your children, but not if you are married to or with Maddie because I won't take the chance on one of my babies being hurt by the psychopath you have for a fiancé. You try to block any man that has any interest in me, for your own selfish reasons, and at this point, I am almost positive that you were jealous enough of Michael, that you found Sadie and Reed, to keep him away from me because that is how you are. A greedy and selfish person. Don't get me wrong. I am glad Michael found his love again. They are a cute family, and I wish them all the best. But I think you deserve Maddie. You have made your bed, so feel free to lie in it with Maddie now, Collin. I am done. Please don't call or text me. My lawyer will be in contact with you but don't think I won't play dirty when it comes to my babies. I love them both and I will fight you for them. I will not allow Maddie to get her hands on either one of them, Collin" Cora told me. Cora heads for the door, but I try to get up and go after her. Michael, Dalton, and Nicolas all dogpile on me to keep me down and I am struggling to get up.

"Alderidge, please let me know when you have your plan is complete. I will help you as I know you and your father built the business and I know Collin loves it as well, so I will help you to save it. Just let Marlowe, let me know when you need me and what I need to do. I don't need any further contact for a while with anyone else please, thank you", Cora tells my dad and walks to the door.

"Cora, please, I will do anything. I will never lie to you again. It wasn't intentional. Maddie came on to me and I should have said no, but I didn't. I am sorry Cora! Please, baby! Please don't leave me, I love you!" I keep calling out to her, but she just turns back and gives me one last look, and leaves with Ava. I continue to struggle and fight but I can't break free to follow them. The guys stayed on me for five more minutes to allow them to have plenty of time to leave. But I am not worried, I know she is staying with Ava, and I am going to go there as soon as they let me up. So, I did just like Cora did and just waited for them to decide to release me like I had given up.

They were still on me when I heard my mother speak to me, "Collin, I love you, but you would have done better to keep your mouth shut and not say anything. I was disgusted by your actions, and I am your mother. There is nothing that I cannot forgive you, and yet you opened your mouth and told her the story you gave her. She is really hurt Collin, and you might have cost yourself this whole relationship. What were you thinking, when you basically told her "Well, I couldn't have you, so I screwed this slut over here". Because that IS what you just told her. It was neither romantic nor loving what you just told her. If you think it is bad for you right now, just think of this son. Another man raising your children and married to Cora, and her having his children next. She is a beautiful and intelligent woman. She can have her pick of men, and yet she chooses you. Because she loved you, even when you put her down and I saw the show son, you were disrespectful and insulting to her. I was watching and I could tell that you were jealous of Christian at the office, so I watched. I knew you were attracted to her, but you kept making bad choices, bad decisions. You never gave her the benefit of the doubt, but you want her to do that for you. I hate to be lied to. You apparently lied to Cora quite frequently while she was your PA. I truly hope what she just implied about you only finding Sadie to block your own brother wasn't true, but looking at your cohorts' expressions over there, I would say that she nailed it. You should have made better choices. You will be leaving her alone for a while now though because the girls are gone. You may think that you are so smart, Collin, but they are gone, and I left strict instructions for no one to tell you where, or I will fire them. Cora needs a break, and Ava is going to go with her. I called Thomas to go with them and watch over them. I will not allow any harm to come to my precious grandbabies. Cora needs a break from all that she has been doing for work, for her parents, and for everyone else. She is a sweet little thing, and I won't have you corrupt Cora. Collin, you need to decide exactly what you want in your life. You think about it and then do what it takes to make it happen, because thinking with your little head, instead of the one on your shoulders got you into this mess. Show me that you have changed. You have a month before she comes back. But I need to see some real change, Collin. Or your whole future of watching another man kiss the woman you love, take care of her, hold her in his lap, and raise your children could be a real reality for you son, and I would hate it for you, but it would be all your fault for it happening to you.