His Blue Moon Princess
His Sunshine Baby Chapter 40

Sipping my coffee, I still think this is the shittiest idea ever. Daniel spent half of last night trying to convince me before we both fell asleep, exhausted. And he's at it again this morning. The only difference is that while I was away and busy with the training, he brought reinforcements. Caught in between us and standing in the kitchen, Bobo is looking at me, a bit surprised and confused after we explained a lot of things he probably didn't want to know in the first place.

"So... The man you were seeing..."

"Was Nathaniel Black," I sigh, repeating myself.

That's right. Boyan didn't know anything about my relationship until now. For starters, Daniel and I had agreed it would be best to keep his boyfriend out of it, especially since their own relationship was already complicated enough. Moreover, we thought it would probably be better for him not to know his boyfriend's flatmate was having s*x regularly with his Alpha's little brother. Who also happened to be his Boss, somehow.

But now, the poor guy is totally at lost, trying to bring the pieces together.

"And you want to stay on the Velvet Moon's territory because your... Ex-boyfriend is returning here?"

"No, that's Daniel idea, but yes."

"Daniel, who has very great life-saving ideas," adds my best friend, humble as usual.

I ignore him. Boyan is frowning, his eyes on his huge cup of coffee. I thought he would side on Daniel's side right away, but I might have been wrong on this one. After a while, he raises his head to look at me. "What's the deal with your ex-boyfriend? For you to elude him?" He asks.

I don't know how to answer that... I leave the barstool to go on the couch, a bit annoyed. That's why I didn't want to involve Bobo... From behind the kitchen counter, Daniel explains first.

"He is a bastard, good-for-nothing a*****e. About everything's wrong with him, Baby bear, that's all you have to know."

Baby Bear? Damn, Danny as used almost every existing cheesy pet name by now. At least he's moved on from Pumpkin or Sugar... Boyan glances at me, a bit confused.

"I don't wanna talk about him, Bobo. The guy's a mythic jerk, that's all you have to know, okay? I don't want to see him again, ever." "Okay, but can't you just ignore him?" Asks Bobo.

I shake my head at the same time as Danny.

"No, Baby Bear. That dirtbag will definitely come after Elena. It's already a miracle that he respected his five-year ban, trust me."

You don't want to tell Boyan about the baby?

Hell no, Danny.

Got it...

I don't want to talk about it to anyone, at all. Even among our pack, very few people know about what exactly happened back then. Aside from Daniel's family, Reagan, Clark and my uncle, we didn't let anyone know. I am not even sure Isabella or my cousins know about it either. It's such a sensitive topic, everyone was relieved when it was settled.

Moreover, I didn't want people to pity me. I just wanted to get better and move on. Hate Diego all I wanted and regain my freedom.

"I still think it might not be a good idea..." Sighs Bobo.

"Why?"

"I think Damian knows about you."

Daniel and I froze. Damian? Does he mean the King, for real? How would he know? Nate told me he didn't talk about it to his siblings! Only to his Beta, and only because the guy was the nosy type! So how the hell would his older brother know I even exist? I exchange a glance with Daniel. "Is that bad?" Asks Danny.

"Not Really... But my older brother is the King's Beta. He's the one who told me Nate was seeing someone and he had to look into it. I never thought it would turn out to be you..." He says with an apologetic face. "He didn't say anything," I sigh.

Nate was long gone when we got home last night. It feels a bit odd to think about everything that happened in one day yesterday... There's still the cold pizza in the fridge, and some leftovers ingredients.

Daniel clicks his tongue. I guess going to the Velvet Moon's territory is out of the question now... I don't feel too good about it, either. Getting on the King's radar is never a good thing. In my case, I'm even starting to be a bit worried. I peek at my phone. Should I call him later? I did throw him out a bit meanly last night...

"Don't you have anyone else who could help out? I thought you were close with the Alpha?" Asks Bobo.

I shake my head.

"Clark is my godfather, but the Opale Moon is part of the White Moon. He can't hide me, and he can't really interfere either. If he wanted to, he should have done it earlier. That's why Reagan was so mad."

"Maybe you should leave. With Reagan."

I glare at Nate.

"Seriously, Danny? I should run away from my territory because that a*****e is coming back? No f*****g way."

"There isn't a big difference with..."

"He should be the one to leave in the first place!" I growl, annoyed.

"I know that, babe. But I'm not taking any chances of having you near him. We're running out of ideas here. We can't keep him out, and we can't think of a place for you to go to! Once his ban is lifted, there will be no place that you could go where Diego can go too!" Damn it. I know Danny's right, and it's painful to hear.

"It's that bad?" Asks Bobo.

"Yes, it is that bad, Boyan. If my ex comes back, I'm going to be in big trouble, trust me. He won't leave me alone. So, I have two weeks to find a solution, or else I'm going to do something I'll regret."

With that, I get up and head to take a shower. I'm so mad I don't even know what to do. I tried to exhaust myself with training this morning, but I only managed to scare the younger ones, while I didn't calm down even one bit.

I pick a new outfit from my wardrobe, something boyish and practical, and head to the kitchen again. Danny just finished preparing breakfast, and I grab a burrito for myself. He clicks his tongue at my lack of manners when I just walk past the counter with my mouth full to grab my shoes.

"Where are you going?" He asks.

"To grab some fresh air."

"Where, Elena?"

"I'll text you. Can I take the car?"

"Not when you're mad like that, babe. Text me later."

I roll my eyes and exit the flat promptly. I know Danny's just worried about me, I don't hold it against him. We've been friends for so long, he knows I'm mad at pretty much anything and anyone right now.

Walking down some familiar streets, I'm in no mood for chit-chat. I decide to ignore the main road and walk through more deserted alleys. The weather is still clouded, with light rain. I put my sweater's hood over my head, and grab my phone and earplugs. A few seconds later, some adequate music is echoing in my head.

The singer's voice calms me down for a while, and I decide to head for the hospital. I didn't visit my dad yesterday... I miss him. My visit to the hospital is only a couple of hours, but my gloom is back again when I leave my dad. I stay at the entrance, a bit lost. Where to go now?

I don't want to go home yet. For a while, I stare at my phone. Should I call Nate? The fact his brother knows about us is seriously worrying me. I probably should leave him alone for a while, right? Seeing an Opale Moon girl probably isn't any good for him, right? Nate always acts as if he controls everything, but I feel like it might not be the case once the King is involved...

When I'm about to press that call button, I stop. I know I said I'd call, but... To say what? Hey, my ex is back, the situation is crappy, how have you been doing? What mess... I can't clear up my own mind yet, I can't involve Nate in all that. I sigh and put my phone back in my pocket. I stay a while here, back against the clinic's wall, watching the downpour amplifying on our little turf of Silver City.

Maybe it's time I make a decision about my relationship with Nate... I've tried not to think about it lately, but no matter how many times I ignore it, I still...

"Elena?"

I turn my head. Bianca is there, just exiting the hospital with an umbrella over her head. She walks up to me with her little smile.

"So it's you! What are you doing there? Got caught by the rain?" She asks, innocent.

"Hi, Bianca. Yeah, you could say that... I'm just waiting for it to pass."

She frowns in a cute pout.

"I will last for a while, you know... How about you come with me? To Henry's bar? My friend's band is about to rehearse!"

Damn, that girl is so cute and sweet. I give in to her and nod. A cold beer and hanging with the kids might be right for me to chase all the gloom... Bianca, all happy, shares her umbrella with me until we get there, about ten minutes later. The bar is not very lively, as usual, but a few teenagers are setting up their instruments, all enthusiasts about their rehearsal. At the bar, there's only that old Henry, grumpy as usual.

Bianca salutes her friends, forgetting me for a few minutes. I just ask for a drink meanwhile, wondering if my mentor is around.

"That's right, Elena! Don't you want to play for us?" Says Bianca, turning to me.

"What? She can play something?" Asks one of the guys, another of my cheeky trainees.

Bianca glares at him.

"Of course she can! She has the best ears in the pack! Come on, Elena!"

The guy, a bit surprised Bianca rebuffed him, looks down. Seems like he was just trying to act cool, but her answer wasn't what he expected... So cute, those teenage crushes. I smile to her and walk over to borrow one of their guitars. "What should I play?" I ask.

"Anything! Whatever comes to your mind," says Bianca. "I just want to listen to your music, it's been a while!"

Her smile is contagious, but I'm still feeling a bit down for now. What should I play... Something that fits my emotions? It might be a bit sad, though. I try a few accords on the guitar and decide to start the acoustic version of Let you Love me by Rita Ora. It's so similar to my current thoughts...

"I should've stayed with you last night instead of going out to find trouble... I think I run away sometimes, whenever I get too vulnerable... That's not your fault... See, I wanna stay the whole night; I wanna lay with you till the sun's up; I wanna let you inside... Oh, heaven knows I've tried... I wish that I could let you love, wish I could let you love me..."

I keep singing, that song I know by heart, my eyes closed. It reflects my thoughts about Nate so well... In another life, with different pasts, maybe we would have been great for each other. If we both weren't so afraid to love, perhaps we could have healed each other. I immerse myself in my song, pouring my heart and feelings into it, in the strings between my fingers. I sing loud until the end, not bothering about anything else but my song. It's been a while since I last sang my heart out like this, it feels great...

"Say what's the matter, what's the matter with me? What's the matter with me? Oh, I wish that I could I let you love, wish that I could let you love me now..."

I push out the last words and stop, satisfied. When I open my eyes again, Bianca and her friends, their eyes shining, suddenly start clapping, all excited.

"Moon Goddess, Elena, that was so good!"

"You have such a good voice!"

"Can you sing again?"

I shake my head.

"Thank you, but it's your turn now. I have my beer waiting for me."

Because of their insistence and disappointed expressions, I have to promise I will sing again later before I can escape the wall of excited teenagers to reach the bar back. Once I finally get there, I notice someone took the spot next to me. "Hi, kiddo. It's been a while since I heard that voice singing," says Reagan.