Love Dissipating Without A Trace
Chapter 18

I shake my head, "It is not just because of that. My disappointment has accumulated day by day and it broke out all on my birthday. The truth is that there has already been something wrong with our relationship."

"I know I've made a lot of mistakes and you should be angry with me. Charlotte, I am now begging you to give me another chance. I will change until I become a perfect boyfriend to you and until you are willing to marry me."

Alexander definitely chokes up and continues, "I will make breakfast for you and take you to work and then pick you up after your work every day. I will never allow any woman to sit next to me in my car. If you like eating shrimps, I will take the peeling job. On holidays, let' go to travel together. No matter where you would like to go, I will take you there. I will spend more time staying with you and having meals with you. I promise I will never forget your birthday again and I won't miss any anniversary." I blink my eyes and look at him, staying silent.

He gets more anxious, "I admit I didn't deal with my relationship with Camilla properly. I promise I won't see her anymore in the future. I will delete all her contact information and social media."

I sigh weakly and then said, "You see. You know quite well what your mistakes are. As my boyfriend, you know what you shouldn't do but you still did it. When I question you, what's your attitude? You looked like you hated me and I disgusted you. It is all because you don't care about me. You think I love you so you never consider my feelings. You show no respect to me because you believe no matter what you do to me, I won't leave you. Is it what you thought, isn't it?"

"I am sorry, Charlotte, Alexander kept apologizing to me.

"If love dissipates, the best ending for us is to separate."

"No, it is not that! Charlotte, I still love you! I always love you!"

"Then I am sorry. I didn't feel any love from you. All I have felt is your coldness, neglect, and hurt. I think the woman you really love is Camilla. You give her everything she wants, you go every

time she needs you, and you give her most of your softness. She is your love!" I say.

"I used to believe I love Camilla and that I have feelings for her. But now I realize I do not! Faced with your departure, I finally realize that you are the one I really love. At the thought of losing you will make me so miserable! It hurts me more than when I knew Camilla had a boyfriend. I found myself so jealous when you got into another man's car. I am so stupid that I didn't know I love you until now. I should have known my feelings for you earlier. As for Camilla, I have to say it is not because I love her but because of my pride. I just couldn't accept that I was not chosen by her." "But I don't love you anymore," I said with a weak voice, "I don't want to be in a relationship where I have to always sacrifice myself. I am a great woman and I am worth a great relationship with a man who truly respects and loves me."