Love Dissipating Without A Trace
Chapter 3

The moment I sit down in the study, I hear a 'bang' of the door.

I walks out and it seems that he has left.

He bought me the gift, took a soft attitude but I ignored it.

He now must be very angry. Alexander and I sparsely speak to each other again.

After every argument with him, I would always feel down and rack my brain, trying to make nice. But now, I surprisingly feel so relaxed. Alexander sleeps in the guest room at night, leaving me to enjoy the big bed alone. My sleep quality even improves a lot these days.

In the morning, I stop getting up early and making breakfast for him so I have another half an hour of sleep time.

At work, Alexander stops appearing in my mind and I stop texting him, making my work efficient. I used to finish my work until the last minute but now I can complete it in advance. Back at home, I don't need to go to the kitchen to prepare dinner.

To make healthy food for him every day, I kept practicing cooking skills and the first thing I did after I arrived home was to cook for him.

But the fact is that he had parties every day and at most, he might come back for dinner twice a week.

Stopping revolving about Alexander, I find I get extra a lot of leisure time.

I binge-watches a TV series with just three nights.

At my office, I hears a newcomer saying she is preparing for the qualification certificate related to our job, which makes me feel ashamed.

Even the young girls know they should seize the time to improve their abilities but looking at myself, I am still muddling along without an aim day by day.

I have to blame myself for giving my relationship with Alexander a top priority.

Upon graduation, I had been dreaming of marrying Alexander.

Until now, my dream hasn't come true.

In the past, the most important thing for me to do was revolve around Alexander.

I had even been thinking, if Alexander asked me to quit my job and be a housewife, I would say yes right away.

I thought if I could get married to Alex and have kids with him, that meant the happiest life for

me.

Now I come to realize that I am a total loser.

I had devoted my whole self to this relationship but I got no proper reply. He even was willing to give me a marriage.

At work, I was in a mess, without any progress.

The newcomer at our workplace inspires me a lot.

Now I think it is time to make a change.

I politely asks my colleague what practice materials should I buy and then start to prepare for the certificate.