Mated in the shadow of my sister by lady gwen
Chapter 184

Chapter 0184

(Lily POV)

“Do you still have feelings for Brady?”

James’ question surprised me, although I know it should not have.

I reached over and grabbed his hand.

“Yes, but—

James gently pulled his hand away from me, stood up, and ran his hands down his face. He then walked over to the window and looked outside. I could practically feel his hurt and his fear.

I stood up and followed him to the window. Placing my hand on his arm, I tried to explain.

“James, 1

James did not turn around; he just kept staring out the window. “It is my fault, Lily. I know that. I am the fool who let you walk out of my life. I am the fool who made a million mistakes when it comes to you.”

I sighed. “Yes, James, you did but

James walked away from the window and away from me. He sat back down on the couch. Now I was

starting to get annoyed.

I followed him to the couch. “James, please let me

“Lily, please stop. I cannot take it. I do not want to know the answer to my question. I am sorry I asked.

Please, forget it.”

Uuuuuuuurrrrrrrggggggghhhhhh.

“JAMES OLIVER ANDERSON! STOP INTERRUPTING ME AND JUST LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY!!!”

James looked at me with wide eyes.

“You just used your alpha command on him,” Rose linked me.

“Good,” I linked back, although I was surprised that I had been able to do it. I still have not mastered how

to do the command yet. “He needs to stop getting in his own way.”

“Like someone else I know?” Rose teased.

“Yes,” I conceded.

I sat down on the couch next to James and grabbed both of his hands.

“Yes, I do have feelings for Brady. But they are not romantic ones. I admit that in the past, I was confused. I thought they were romantic feelings. I liked that Brady gave me attention and I liked that he treated me like I mattered. I enjoyed flirting with him; it made me feel good.

But I left Black Moon the day that we got back from Hawaii. And after I left, Brady was not the one that I thought about. He also was not the one that my heart called out for.

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It took me a little time to sort out how I felt, but I realized a while ago that my feelings for Brady feelings of friendship and gratitude. I think that is part of why I knew that I had to leave Black Moon. I did not know how to face him every day knowing that he had feelings for me that I was not sure I could return. I did not want to be part of a love triangle. I am not any good at it. And I am a little bit of a

coward when it comes to hurting other people’s feelings.”

I sighed, waiting for James to say something in response. Then I remembered he could not. I really

needed to figure this whole alpha command thing out.

“As for you, James….” I said, deciding to go ahead and get everything out. “Yes, you made mistakes. But

you are not the only one who did. I have forgiven you, and you need to stop apologizing.

I love that we have been building a friendship and that we have been taking things slow. I love that you

came racing here to be with me. I love that you care so much about me that you could not sleep on the

plane until you got here and confirmed that I was okay. I love how honest you have been with me since

Hawail.

I cannot predict the future, and I still do not want to rush things between us, but I know that you are my

mate and I know that I want to try to make things work between us.

I guess what I am trying to say is that, if you really want to know which males I have romantic feelings for, there is only one. You.”

James just sat there staring at me, not saying anything.

“You need to release your alpha command,” Rose reminded me.

“Oh.”

“You can talk again,” I told him.

“It is sort of s**y when you command me like that,” James said softly.

I rolled my eyes. “Seriously? That is what you got from what I just said?”

He smiled mischievously. “Maybe.”

I rolled my

my eyes for a second time and shook my head in disbelief. I then put my head on his shoulder

and snuggled closer to him on the couch.