One More Chance
Chapter 103: I love you and I'm sorry

-You say it's over, I say we've just begun. 'Cause, it ain't forever until our lives are done. I know I did some things that I never should I'd undo them if I could. I'd turn my life around for you, anything you'd ask me to. I won't deny it, I know that I've done wrong, but you have to admit it this love is just too strong to just fade away into the night without putting up a fight. We can make it all alright if we can give it one more try~~~ -Piolo Pascual-

"Don't touch me! Don' fucking touch me!" I whispered-yelled. I tried as much as I can to prevent the tears from falling and I thank God for not letting those tears flow. "Sam, listen to me---"

I didn't let him finish his statement as I slapped him again. Cherry was nowhere to be found, maybe she had already left the coffee shop.

Shaking my head, I gave him a death glare before heading back towards the office. I closed the door but not even a second when Luke swung it open.

"What are you doing here? Get out!" I screamed, glaring at him as I pointed to the door behind him, but he didn't listen, instead, he walked over to where I stood. "Sam, let me explain."

"Explain? Well, fuck your explanation because I don't have time to listen to it! You already had four years but you never did, you never tried to explain!" "Sam, please---"

"Fine! I'll give you a minute to finish your explanation as to why you didn't file the divorce papers!"

"Sam---"

"You don't want it? Well, then, get out!"

"No! I'll take it. I didn't file them because I love you and I realized I couldn't let you go easily---" "Jesus Christ! Can you stop mentioning the word I love you? It makes me cringe, forgodsake!"

"But that's the truth. I love you and I know I couldn't easily take the pain away and forgive me but---"

"Tss! What did you say?" I asked, couldn't help but narrow my eyes on him. "Take the pain away? And what made you think that I'm still in pain? Whoa! Are you still thinking I'm still in love with you, that I'm still head-over-heels with you and that I haven't moved on yet from you?" Why do I feel that at that certain moment, I should have asked those questions myself more than him?

"Well, for your information, I've already moved on from you and honestly, I've sometimes forgotten that once in my life, I met you!"

"Sam..." He was shocked to hear what I said. Shock and hurt immediately registered in both his eyes.

"Yeah, that's the truth! If I didn't have Cali with me, maybe I'd already forgotten a long time ago that someone like you existed."

It took him a few seconds before finally found his tongue back.

"Well, I couldn't blame you for that. I'm sorry. I didn't file the divorce papers because I want you back---"

He was interrupted when I suddenly laughed in front of him. And hearing those words made me remember what happened earlier this morning.

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FLASHBACK...

It was already 11:45 am, 15 minutes after the meeting with the buyers had finished and Cali and I were preparing to leave when Luke stopped us. He said something to his daughter and a few minutes later, Cali went back and suddenly asked if she could stay a little longer.

I didn't understand why she was asking to stay until Luke told me he'll prepare for our lunch. At first, I was hesitant with the idea of having lunch with him and not to mention in that same old house, but Cali --- of course, for my Cali, I finally agreed.

I was surprised when he showed us his little talent in the kitchen when he cooked spaghetti with meatballs and garlic bread that Cali got most excited about. He said it was Patrick who helped him master the recipe and it took him almost two weeks to perfect the taste of the sauce.

After eating lunch, he volunteered to wash the dishes, so Cali and I already went back to the living room. And since my daughter already seemed to enjoy the show on TV, I decided to go upstairs and just found myself in the same old room that held a lot of memories of the past... of our past.

And a wave of nostalgia washed over me the moment I walked into the room. It's been almost five years since I packed up my things and left the house, but wandering my eyes on the four corners of the room, I noticed that nothing has really changed. The old clothes I left in the closet were still there even all those little things and accessories that Luke gave me were still in the drawers.

It was really a surprise to me seeing those things and it suddenly brought back a sting of pain and sadness. I don't know why he's still keeping them, especially now that we're selling the house and I also have no plan on taking them.

I was about to close the drawer when I heard Luke's voice which made me hold my breath in shock.

"I didn't move them even when I know you already left."

My head snapped at him. I didn't know he had finished washing the dishes. He had his hands in his pockets and I gulped when he started making his way in my direction.

"Actually, I was the one who personally cleaned them every week." He said not looking at me but at the accessories in the drawer where I had left open until that moment.

"Why?" My mouth couldn't help but ask the silent question that formed in my head but when I realized it, it was too late to take it back as he already heard it, so I have no choice but to continue. "You said it was you who personally cleaned them, so I asked why? Why didn't you just throw them?"

"I didn't throw them because they were the only things left in me since you left. And I was hoping to see them on you again."

I frowned, but at the same time, a slight chuckle escaped my lips.

"What the hell are you trying to say?" I asked and was about to go back to the bedroom if I hadn't stopped by his next words.

"I love you."

My whole body automatically turned to him not just in shock, but in anger that instantly filled my heart.

"Can you come up with a nicer joke next time?" I asked, forming my fists.

"I'm not joking. I love you, Sam. I love you and I'm sorry for not realizing it before."

Tears started forming around my eyes as I laughed at him. The memories of the past suddenly flashed back in my head including those words... those painful words he told me. Those times when I was helplessly begging for him to love me and those times when he shouted at me that he will never feel the same for me... he will never love me.

"What did you just say? You love me?" I didn't wait for his answer as I laughed again, bitterly. "Uhuh! You love me! Really? Since when did you realize you love me? Since I left you or since you found out that I've already moved on from you and that I now have David?" "Sam---" he started walking closer to me but I stopped him using my hand.

"No! Don't come near me and don't

you dare touch me!" And when he stopped walking, I started asking again. "I can't believe you're now telling me you love me! Huh! So what happened to the determination you had four years ago? Remember, you told me you will never love me? You told me to wake up on my slumber because even in my wildest dream, you will never learn to love me!" Maybe I said each word a little more calmly, but I was almost

exploding inside.

All the painful memories of the past, as well as the feeling, rushed back to me all of a sudden and that made my tears roll down my face. I could no longer hold them back. "Samantha, I'm sorry---"

"No, you're not!" I wiped away the

first set of tears before continuing. "What was I to you before? You never once treated me as your wife nor as a woman. You never once saw my worth and yet you insulted my whole being. I always asked myself what I did to deserve your punishment? Yes, I loved you and because of that stupid feeling I had for you, I made the biggest mistake which ended up having Cali in my life."

I paused just to breathe but he has already spoken.

"I know. I know I made a lot of mistakes and hurt you not just once but most of the time when you were with me and I've been the most stupid man for doing those things. I regret every single day that I wasted not telling you how sorry I am and for not being a good husband to you. Honestly, I started having the same feelings for you when

you

were in high school and was about tébreak my relationship with

Cheery, but when you did what you did at the night bar, it suddenly crashed. I mean, it should be me and not you doing those crazy things. I have a lot of dreams but it all changed when I know you got pregnant. I don't know what to do, your father forced me to marry you and if I didn't agree, he would have taken our company. I'm the only child, so I had no choice but to listen to them and my parents and marry you."