Reject Me Again, My Alpha
Chapter 12

I was really starting to question my own sanity. Walking through the dark woods , I felt the butterflies fluttering away like crazy inside my stomach. But one thing I had come to the conclusion of was, I was fed up with hiding away. I know with me being seen , there came alongside it misery and pain. The Alpha, wishing me to be out in the open , didn’t really know what that meant. But deep inside, I believed him when he said it was time. I didn’t know, something was just telling me it was time to come out of the dark and into the light. Even my wolf was in agreement , but then again she had never liked the idea of us being hidden.

But asking Enzo what I had asked him ,was a little manipulative of me. If his father could accept me , maybe he could. I don’t know , s**t , I felt stupid even thinking it. I wasn’t that naive to think me being seen at the alpha house and going on the next run with the alpha family would solve all of my problems. I knew it wouldn’t. There were years of mistrust and hate towards me. People don’t like the unknown. And they would be wary. I was different after all.

Taking a deep breath , I looked ahead. I could hear the lake and knew the path here like the back of my hand. It was one place that wasn’t patrolled all that much. Just after the lake there was a big drop off. It would take some ballsy shifters to try and climb that. So near, the lake kind of protected itself with only someone running past it maybe once every couple of hours. And if you crossed over the lake to the other side , there were some small caves. No one ever went over that side. Except people like me that wanted to hide.

I knew I would live to regret what I had asked of Enzo. To basically be my mate , but not my mate. Fake it for a week , then watch him bond with another was bound to leave some emotional scars. Some that may never heal entirely. Even though I wish he could change his mind , I still know why he couldn’t. And to be honest , I would never want to be Luna. There was no hiding and then there was being in the centre of a stage in front of thousands of people. That I would never be OK with. I think I would have a heart attack having so many people looking at me all of the time.

Coming out of the trees , I couldn’t see him here yet. So, I just decided to cross the river and go towards the caves. He would seek me out , his wolf’s sense of smell could track me down for miles probably. Looking around, I smile when I hear or see no one. “OK, come out and get us over there dry , will you ?” I said to my wolf. She didn’t need telling twice , as soon as U had stripped my clothes off and piled them up behind a rock on this side of the river. She came out , she stretched her body and then ran at the river , jumping it in one stride.

She wouldn’t get out long , but at least she was out. I felt her needs constantly, also her displeasure with the whole situation. But I also got this feeling she was keeping something from me. She didn’t talk to me much , which I thought was weird. I heard my brothers say them and their wolves had a bond , one that ran deeper than anything. I didn’t feel we did. Something just seemed missing. I let her run around for five minutes, then encouraged her to go to one of the caves. She went begrudgingly , she wanted to be free for a while longer. But a reminder that our mate was coming had her moving it along.

Given that I had no clothes , we stayed in wolf form to keep warm. ” We need to mate with him Anthea “, I heard the faint whisper of her smokey voice through my mind , when we got laid down watching the night sky through the caves opening. ” It is not not so simple ” I answered her back. I heard the distinct sound of her huffing in my mind. ” Lies ” she says. I imagine myself rolling my eyes at her and hoping she gets the message too. ” Politics , you don’t understand. “

” We are wolves , we have basic needs. Politics is created by you humans ” she growls sassily at me. I was about to answer her back when I heard the faint sound of leaves rustling in the quiet night outside. ” Mate ” she sighs in my mind. Seconds later, Enzo walks around the corner to the caves opening. He looked menacing , his tall built figure a dark shadow with the moon shining behind him. ” This is where you are hiding ” he says lowly, and my wolf whines. I try to take back over , but she holds strong, refusing. He moves closer , his face becoming clearer. He walks until he’s standing above us.

And my stubborn wolf remains. She keeps making this whining noise and Enzo crouches down and smiles at her. ” I know , my wolf feels it too. I can only apologise for all of this ” he says , a hint of sadness in his voice. He takes a seat , facing out towards the night sky. And the damn wolf of mine moves herself forward and rests her big head on his lap. He laughs , his hand comes up and lands on her head, stroking her fur. He looks back at her body , his face serious and studying, then he looks back out. ” You really are a pretty wolf , I don’t think I ever thought I would say that about a beastly animal ” she playfully growls and he laughs again. What ? was she flirting with him now ? And she was better than I was . How embarrassing?

” I have wanted to say something to Anthea. This way I think will be easier. I know she can hear me , but I can not see her face. The face of an angel, it makes me feel like I am the devil out to corrupt her. I want her to know if things were different. I would not hesitate, I would have mated with her the minute I saw her. It is not because I do not think she is good enough. If I had a brother, I would have taken her and run. Let my brother take the pack , or if my dad was younger. s**t , I have been thinking of doing it and letting the pack sort itself out anyway. I know her life has been nothing less than a disappointment and now I am only adding to it. “

He sounded so lost , it was strange. All my life, all the short sightings I had seen of Enzo had been him being this big, strong, confident man. Now he didn’t sound that way at all. My heart was in my chest , theoretically speaking. But even my wolf had stopped playing her games with him and just sat listening. ” It is hard to separate yourself from the things you have known and thought about your whole life. I just want you to know , that is not what I want. But it is what I am obliged to do”.

My wolf pulled back , until I was left lying on his lap looking up at him. We didn’t speak for the longest time. We just looked at each other. His hand stroked my hair that was flitting out along his lap. I should feel the cold against my naked body and feel some sort of embarrassed that I was naked while he was fully dressed. But i didn’t. The way he was looking at me now , was the way I had always wanted someone to look at me. All I felt now was the vibrating of our bond. ” I have an idea , if it doesn’t work. We will end up mating. But I need to be with you Anthea. All of you , I think I would live a life of misery for the rest of my life if I didn’t. It will be a risk that I am willing to take.If you are ?” he asks me eventually.

I think I knew what he was meaning , and I may be stupid again. But I nod. If we mate , he knew the risks and he still wanted to do it. He starts rummaging around in his pocket and pulls out a little packet. I crease my brows at it. I didn’t know what it was. ” It’s a condom. A strong one made for us very fertile wolves. For if we wish to sleep with a human. Female wolves can only breed with their fated or bonded mate, but humans breed with anyone. In the books I was reading, it said a mate bond is sealed by me releasing inside of you. And then me biting your neck and you wearing my mark and vice versa. So as long as this caches my seed and we don’t bite each other, then I think we shall be good “. I felt foolish that he had to explain such simple things to me.

But when he gently sat me up and then walked behind me, I span around to see what he was doing. And he was pulling his tshirt off over his head as he walked further into the darkness of the cave. He looked over his shoulder at me and smiled ” Are you coming ?” he asked, and that was a loaded question if I had ever heard one. I mean Enzo’s body , even for a girl that was as inexperienced as me was well wow.