Rejected By My Mate, Chosen By Fate
Chapter 21

I wrote down my decision and Elsie nodded her head and smiled at me but I knew she wasn’t genuinely happy with me because her smile was fake, it didn’t reach her eyes. She was only smiling at me as a form of encouragement but I know that this is a step I need to take.

“That’s good. You’re the one carrying the child so only you can decide if you want to give birth to him or not. I want you to know that I’ll always support you no matter what decision you make.

You must be feeling tired and hungry, I’ll send Emily to bring you something to eat and you have to eat it, OK? If you don’t I’ll be mad at you.” She threatened and I smiled and nodded, it just feels so good to have someone who is willing to support you through anything.

“I’ll go check up on our mother for now, just please eat and rest properly, I’ll come back to check on you soon.” She promised and stood up to leave.

She got to the door and turned to me, giving me a smile before walking out.

“What? Have you gone crazy?” Tara attacked, utterly shocking me because this is the first time she’d ever said something like that to me.

‘What are you saying Tara?’ I questioned. “Who gave you the right to decide alone if to keep our pup?” She questioned, apparently livid and I could understand, this is also her child as well.

‘Listen to me Tara, I know it will make you upset but doing away with this child will be the best decision for us. I don’t want to have to raise this baby alone, it also needs a father you know.’ I tried to reason with her.

“And a father he will get. In fact our pup will have two fathers, that’s what Kayden and Richard are there for.” Tara pushed on, being stubborn. She didn’t realize that I could be stubborn as well and besides, I had the ultimate decision after all.

I could still terminate the pregnancy whether she agreed to it or not, of course she would be very angry and would refuse to speak to me for a few days but she’ll definitely come around after sometime and all would be forgotten.

‘It’s not quite the same Tara, they could never love this child like a real father would and besides, Kayden is not my mate so he can’t assume the role of a father to my child.’ I told her, point blank.

“Says who? He’s already shown so much interest in us and whether you acknowledge it or not, he seems to like us a lot and I’m sure he’ll be more than happy to become our second chance mate and our child’s father.” Tara pressed on and I lightly face palmed myself. Just what was going through her mind these days?

‘I’m not interested in Kayden and even if I were, I still wouldn’t keep this child because I wouldn’t be able to give it the love it deserves. I didn’t receive much love from my mother and I don’t want this child to go through the same, he would only be paying for the sins of his father and I don’t want that.

I wouldn’t be able to go through such a trauma all over again Tara, birthing this child would only make me sad and angry because each time I see him or her, I’ll be reminded of Zephyr and I don’t want that.’ I told her and she sighed.

“Zephyr has done many terrible things, I agree and he doesn’t deserve any forgiveness, which is also true but why should we punish this innocent child for his mistake? This child deserves a chance to live, a chance to experience the world and grow up. Just imagine what would have become of us if your mother had aborted you.” Tara said and I became tired of this argument, it was completely pointless because my mind was already made up. I’m not keeping this child no matter what.

‘It would have been much better if I was never born because at least then, I wouldn’t have had to go through the things I have. Aborting this child isn’t depriving him of life, it’s actually saving him from a cruel fate. He should be born to a mother and a father who can love and care for him and give him the best. He shouldn’t be born to someone like me.’ I told Tara.

“Evelyn please quit being so stubborn, what’s wrong is wrong. You have to keep this child or else I’ll be terribly mad at you.” Tara threatened but she knew it wasn’t going to work on me.

‘I’m sorry Tara but I’m only going to do what’s best for me. And the best option now is to abort this child and try to move on with my life. If I’m lucky enough, I’ll get my second chance mate who will treat me better than this baby’s father. I’ll live happily with him and all this will be forgotten. I’ve made my decision Tara, you have to simply accept it because nothing can change my mind.’ I deadpanned, my face completely emotionless.

Tara said nothing else but she was restless and I could feel her sadness. Truth is, I’m not happy with my decision as well but carrying a baby for nine months and birthing the child isn’t as easy as it sounds. I’m much too young for that and I don’t know if I’m ready for parenthood yet.

If I’m going to have a child, I want one that I can love and cherish. A baby that I’ll be willing to give the whole world to, I don’t want a child who will only remind me of my terrible past. And so I would go on with my decision to abort the child.

Just then, a knock came to the door and Emily entered the room shortly.

She dropped the tray she was holding on the table and came to sit beside me on my bed.

“How are you doing now? Do you feel any better?” She questioned and I nodded slightly.

“What happened to you? You really scared me when I saw all that b***d.” Emily said and I sighed.

She was a dear friend so I knew I could tell her everything. I wrote the highlights of my situation to her, including my pregnancy.

“Oh my dear Evelyn, you’ve really been through a lot. How are you even still alive? You’re definitely the strongest person I’ve ever met and I admire your spirit to fight. Knowing that such people are alive and the moon goddess still mates them to innocent females really scares me, especially since I haven’t found my mate yet” She said and it was soon myself being the one to give the encouragement.

I wrote to her, encouraging her not to worry because I would continuously pray for her to get the best mate possible, no one deserves to go through the things I’ve been through.

She smiled and hugged me. “I really wish I could take away your pain and I’m sorry I can’t. The only thing I can do now is try my best to keep you happy and healthy, especially since we’re soon going to have a little baby running around the palace. I almost can’t believe I’m going to be an aunt in a few months, It’s going to be so much fun!

I can already see myself playing with the baby and reading him bedtime stories. I want the baby to be a boy but a girl is fine too.

He should probably be a boy so he can always protect his mother and keep her happy. Though I’m sure your child will be a handful, there’s really nothing I can’t handle. He’ll be very naughty and full of energy but he’ll be the sweetest thing ever and he’ll be very handsome as well because his mother is so beautiful. I almost can’t wait.” Emily mused with a giggle and watching her become so excited about a baby that wasn’t even going to be born made me feel guilty.

Seeing her be so happy about my baby was heartwarming, it showed that though the situation was tense, there would still be people around who would love him or her but at the same time, I felt guilty. Though I was starting to feel terrible about wanting to kill my own baby, birthing Zephyr’s child was a risk I wasn’t ready or willing to take.

As Emily babbled on about how much she was going to care for the baby after he was born, I simply grabbed hold of my trusty notebook and pen and wrote down the heartbreaking truth.

I passed it to her, her eyes widened and her mouth dropped in shock when she read it.

“You aren’t going to keep the baby? But why?” She asked, her smile disappearing and was instantly replaced by a sad expression.

‘Because it’ll always remind me of the father and the things he did to me’ I wrote this down and passed it to her, she took the note with shaky hands and read it.

“I guess you’re right, it’s your decision anyway. Besides, a baby will be too much trouble and you’re probably still too young to become a mother.” She said, trying to be supportive but her tone clearly mirrored her sadness. Guilt struck my heart once more, Elsie had also become upset due to my decision and I’m sure Ana would too once she found out.

I found myself writing an apology to her.

“There’s nothing to be sorry about, you’re probably doing what’s best for you and you’re wrong to feel that way. I want you to know that I and your family will always be there to support you no matter what you decide to do. You’ll always have us.” She said and I smiled. I’m glad to have Emily, she’s a true friend, just like Tara.

“Alright enough chit chat, Luna Elsie said you have to eat a lot so you can get your strength back. I won’t leave you alone until you eat everything I’ve brought. I’ll feed you if that’s what it takes.” She said and I giggled silently.

She got up and went to the table, bringing the tray of food to my bed.

Just then, Kayden barged in and he seemed visibly worried.