Rejected, My Jaded Love
Episode 10

At 420 pm today, my life as I knew it changed. I received a phone call from Luna Monica from the Stone moon pack and my world shifted. As Alpha of the Dark Moon pack in Sedona, AZ few things can shake me. My name is Thomas Harris, and I was currently sitting behind my desk in my office thinking about the phone call with Luna Monica.

I think back to over 18 years ago to when I met my mate. I had been dating a member of my pack at that time, Hillary Davis. A beautiful she-wolf that I was in love with, we had been living together for 5 months and all was going great. She had not found her mate yet, and I hadn’t either. She was a beautiful 20-year-old she-wolf and I really thought that at 27 years old, I would never find my true mate. We enjoyed hiking and running together. We had similar interests and we really enjoyed spending time with each other. I was ready to make her my chosen mate.

I was going to do just that after I came back from the scheduled Alpha meeting, over the weekend when I met my true mate. The attraction was instant, and my heart belonged to this beautiful she-wolf. I immediately forgot about Hillary waiting for me at home when I met my true mate, Joy Billings, now Harris. Joy was everything that I ever wanted in a wolf, and I could not fight the attraction I had for her. Joy and I ended up mating and marking each other that first night. I could not control my wolf around her, and I realized that what I felt for Hillary was nothing compared to what I felt for Joy. I didn’t even think about Hillary until, Joy and I were about 20 miles from my pack, then I realized that I had a big problem.

I stopped the car and told Joy about Hillary, that we weren’t mates and I had kind of given up on finding my mate as I was getting older and started to want a companion. Joy took it very well. It was before I had met her, and she was sweet to say that she was not upset with me. I don’t deserve Joy, just thinking back on this, makes me realize how blessed I am to have found her. We continued to my packhouse, and I brace for having to hurt Hillary, as I really did have feelings for her, they just weren’t the same as the feelings that I have for Joy. They didn’t compare to each other at all.

As I pulled up to the packhouse I mind linked my Beta, Bryant Young, for him to come down and meet my car. I asked him to hurry as I had brought the Luna home with me and let him know that I would be asking Hillary to leave my room and go to her own room in the packhouse. Beta Young didn’t waste time getting to my SUV.

As Beta Young went to take Joy to my Office to keep her safe, Hillary ran out to the door and ran to my arms. At 6’4” tall I didn’t lean down to accept her k**s. She was immediately concerned.

“What is going on?” Hillary asked narrowing her eyes. “Why won’t you let me k**s you?” She looks around and sees Joy with Beta Young. “Who is she? Why didn’t you answer any of my calls and texts?”

I sighed and answered her. “I met my true mate, Hillary. We knew if either one of us met our mate, we would end what we had and go with our mate. I am sorry and I never meant to hurt you, Hillary. But I am going to need you to take your clothes and stuff from my room and you will be assigned another room in the packhouse. You are welcome to stay, and I wish you well, but we will never be anything more than friends now. You are still young and should be able to still find your mate. Please don’t make this harder by causing problems. I did not deliberately plan on this happening, but I love her so much and I am glad to have found my Goddess-given mate.”

Hillary just broke down crying and sank to the ground telling me “I love you so much, Thomas. Why are you doing this to me? Did I mean so little to you? Did what we have together mean anything at all to you, so little that you would push me away like this? I don’t want to leave you. Please reconsider this. I love you so much”.

“I am so sorry Hillary, again I never meant to hurt you, but Joy is my Mate. It would kill me to be away from her, please understand where I am coming from. I never intended to hurt you. But now that I have Joy, I no longer love you as I did. I only love Joy now, I need you to clear your stuff out of our room, so Joy can move in”.

“Ok, I will go. You will be sorry about this. I love you so much, but you don’t love me anymore. All we had together is gone, and you have broken my heart. I cannot stay here and watch you and Joy have the life I wanted for myself. It would be too hard to see you two together every day and it would slowly kill me. I will go pack now. Goodbye Thomas”. Hillary says to me as she goes into the packhouse to pack. I am sad that she insists on leaving, but I feel like it would probably be for the best for her to leave. I would hate for there to be issues between her and Joy. It would be safest for Joy, for Hillary to leave now. I have my Gamma bring around a car from the garage to give to Hillary for her to take with her. I then mind-link two warriors to help Hillary bring her stuff down from my room. I then mind-link the head of my housekeeping staff for my room to be thoroughly cleaned and the bedding changed out after Hillary leaves the room. A crew was waiting outside the room when Hillary exited and the hurt look that she sent me made me feel even worse about having asked so quickly for the cleaning to be done. I just wanted to get the room cleaned and Joy safe, secure, and happy in the room with me. I wanted her to be comfortable in her new home. I didn’t intend to offend Hillary, but I know I did when I saw her face.

The warriors escort her downstairs and helped her load her vehicle. I followed them down to her car as I wanted to see if she had a place to go.

“Hillary, do you know where you will be going? Do you have any money? Or an idea of where you will be staying?” I asked her.

“Don’t start acting like now you care Thomas. You really cannot wait for me to go. I wish you well with your new mate”. Hillary said.

“Well, here is $1,000 for a hotel or gas to help you get wherever you are going. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you and I will do it for you”. I told her. She looks at me with fresh tears in her eyes and enters the car and slowly drives away. I feel terrible for her, but I have my mate now, and she comes first.

I remember that my warriors at the pack border called me a little over a year later telling me that she was at the gate, asking to speak with me. I was not in town as I was away on business, and I didn’t want Joy to have to meet with her as she was newly pregnant with our second pup and watching the firstborn. I didn’t want to take a chance on something happening to my wife or pups, so I told the Warrior to send Hillary away, as she refused to tell him a reason for her wanting to meet with me. The Warrior said that he had heard someone else in the car, but he didn’t know who it was with her. I wish I had just had the warrior to call Beta Young to go down to the gates. I know now who had been in that vehicle, and I lost her for 18 years because I didn’t ask what Hillary needed at the gate. My heart is breaking as I think about all that I missed with my first-born child, and it is ALL my fault. I wanted someone to be with me, and instead of patiently waiting on my mate, I caused this whole thing. The guilt weighs heavily on me now, leaving a bitter taste in my mouth. I hope my daughter will be able to forgive me when we get to meet.

I get up from my seat and head out of my Office to go find Joy. I will speak to her first, and then tell my sons that our family is now growing bigger and that they now have the sister that they have always wanted. Tomorrow I will go to the Stone Moon pack with my wife and sons and meet my daughter. I can only pray this goes well.