Rejecting, Your Broken Promises
Chapter 33

Peyton’s POV

Ever Green Pack

This has been a tough night. Seeing Stephanie at the gate had just brought back everything that she had said to me. About her having all of Percy’s firsts. I was disgusted and frustrated. They were literally at the gate because she must have slipped up and mentioned me to him. Of course, she did. Because that is how my luck runs. I rolled my eyes and looked back down at the floor, because I didn’t want to see her on the monitors anymore, and I didn’t want to look at Percy right now either. I was still a little raw in my emotions right now.

“Our luck honey, that was our luck, because we are in this together,” Sienna said through mindlink.

“I know, and I swear to you I will let you out in the next few days. We need to run, and this is the safest I have felt in a long time. I will see if Von, Gabi, Sloan and Elena will go with me so we can be gone as long as you want to run”. I linked her back. I am filled with guilt because I had just got her when I turned 20. I was late getting her and I don’t know if that is because of me being a healer, or what.

“Do not feel guilty sweets, healers get their wolves a little later. It wasn’t because of anything else. Plus, as a healer, you will be getting a second gift. You receive it after you are marked by your mate. So, you will have two gifts, Peyton” Sienna linked to me.

“Do you know what the second gift will be yet?” I asked her.

“No, I am sorry, I do not. It should just show up. I wish I could tell you exactly when, or what it would be”, Sienna said, and I could tell that she felt bad for not knowing. I sat there deep in thought trying to figure out if I had another gift that I could sense in me when Percy came to sit next to me on the arm of the couch. I can feel some of his feelings because he has marked me. I hadn’t marked him yet. So, his feelings are faint to me, until I mark him. I am kicking myself for allowing it right now. Seeing Stephanie here at the gate has left a really bitter taste in my mouth.

I wish I had waited a little longer. I shouldn’t have made such a knee-jerk decision. I know he loves me, and I believe that. He also says that he only has eyes for me, but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t feel like I had received a slap in the face in full view of several pack members. It had spread like wildfire across the pack, and it was so embarrassing to me. Most are still giving me a sad little smile, but some of these girls, just like the ones who were after Percy just the other day. They really think if he had her, they could try to get him too, like I don’t count. It’s like, yes Stephanie is gone, but here come the next contestants on “who wants to be the Luna?” I am trying to act like it doesn’t bother me, but I am so jealous of Sloan. She was currently sitting on her mate’s lap, their fingers entwined, and my mate was over looking at what was going on at the gate.

At least I didn’t feel like he felt any l**t towards Stephanie anymore. That would have been terrible for me to have felt. I just wish things had been different. I am still weak right now because I still can’t eat a lot. I try, but I know better than to stuff myself. I would throw up, and that was always a terrible thing. I feel bad after it happens each time, and it always makes me feel like I will never get to a more normal size. I know that I eventually will get there, but it is frustrating as I am working hard to learn how to spar and fight, and I am burning more than I am taking in on calories right now. I know that it hasn’t even been a week yet, and therapy is going well. But I don’t feel completely secure in our relationship.

I wish I had someone that I could talk to about it, besides my therapist. I wouldn’t feel comfortable speaking to Gabi, as it is her son, or Elena, as it is her brother, or even Sloan, as she is mated to his brother. Even though Von is so sweet, she is still his grandmother. I don’t think that they would be mad at me over it. I feel like I wouldn’t be able to express what I was feeling to them, without them getting mad at him all over again for it. I know that they love me and are happy about me being a member of the family. I know that he loves me, but he could have warned me. He could have done like Heath had told him and come down the day before and let my parents bring me here like they wanted to. I feel like he took a lot of my choices away from me, by doing it like he did. He only cared about himself, and what he was feeling. He didn’t want to lose me, so he didn’t mention his girlfriend of over two years, because he didn’t know how I would have reacted.

I feel my emotions coming up on me, and I am overwhelmed. I can feel my eyes burning with unshed tears. I would have reacted a lot better if I knew what was actually going on here, not been completely blindsided. I understand that a lot of what I am feeling is because of all the changes that I have gone through this week. I went from being beaten by Alpha James, rejected by my true mate for being a weak slave, getting my memory back, and finding my parents, to finding my second chance mate in like 48 hours. I am giving myself the grace to know that I am dealing with a lot right now and that I need to take it slowly.

Percy tried to wrap his arm around me to comfort me, as he could tell how upset I was. I leaned slightly away from him. I don’t need it right now. I can’t trust myself not to fully start crying right now, and I will not do that in front of him. I won’t. I will not allow him to see how he has affected me in this. At least I didn’t mark him back for him to know how much he had truly hurt me, all because he wanted to be greedy and get with her. He took my choices away from me to try to control the outcome of this. Elena was sitting next to me, and she put her arm around my shoulders and comforted me. Percy stayed on the arm of the couch for a few minutes before sighing and then going back to look at the monitors to see what was happening at the gate. Sure, go watch your ex-girlfriend, I could care less about that right now.

I didn’t want to tell my parents what had happened when I got there. They were already upset about what I had been put through over the last 6 years at B***d Claw, and dad was really on the warpath. I don’t want dad hurting Percy at all. I just need more time to work through everything. I can’t rush this. I will not allow my mental health to be jeopardized by allowing others to force me into doing what they want me to do. I endured a lot, and I will do this next step in my own time, and in my own way. I am in control of my own destiny, and I will take the steps I need to, to make sure that I become the woman that I was always meant to be. I can think for myself and make my own decisions.

“That is right, Peyton. We are strong, but that doesn’t mean that you can’t bend or even break. We all need time to get our head clear, and you have had to put up with much more than you ever should have. We will get through this, and we will be fine. Just don’t give up on our mate. Aramis and Percy love us, they really don’t want to lose us. Aramis said that Percy is just sick with worry about you not wanting him to comfort you”, Sienna said.

“You can tell Aramis that we love them too. I just need some time. I am still hurt by Percy omitting important information that I needed to know, and not just some of it, when we were literally pulling up to the pack and he knew that it was going to go badly. He still never told me their full relationship, not like how she did when I got here. I know why he didn’t, but he should still have told me. I would rather have his honesty, than some half-truths. I would have rather been prepared, so I wouldn’t have been the only one out there who didn’t know what he had been doing with her”. I linked her back. That was indeed the worst part. Either people thought I was stupid, or not valuable enough to have been told about Stephanie, to begin with.

I get a funny feeling coming over me. I could see them all standing at the gate inside my mind, even though my back was to the monitors showing what the camera was seeing. I can feel the fact that something bad was about to happen. I stood up and said, “Heath needs to move, he is not safe at the gate” before falling to the floor, as everything went dark for me.

I felt tingles across my back, and under my knees, when I woke up. Percy is carrying me and then sitting down on the couch with me in his arms. I sat up on his lap and looked around. Von has tears in her eyes, and everyone is looking at me strangely.

“How long was I out?” I asked them.

“Just a few minutes, dear. How did you know?” Von answers me.

“How did I know what? Is Heath OK?” I asked her with a frown on my forehead.

“That Heath was going to be shot by Jasper?” Von replied.

“I didn’t know he was going to be shot, I just knew he needed to move from where he was, that he was in danger. Is he OK?” I told them.

“That is a very impressive gift from the Goddess, Peyton. That information doesn’t need to get out, it would put you in even more danger than you are already in from Alpha Jasper. Heath is fine, he is going to the pack doctor to get checked out and patched up”, Von said to me.

“How long have you had this gift? I thought that you were only a healer?” Vincent asked me.

“I just got it because I was marked tonight. My wolf, Sienna, told me that after our mate marked us, we would get a second gift from the Goddess. She didn’t know what it was yet, and I didn’t know exactly when I would get it. I just had a funny feeling come over me, and everything in me was telling me that Heath needed to move, but I honestly didn’t know that he was going to be shot”, I told them.

“You just got the power. It, like anything, will have to be worked on for you to improve seeing your visions. I am sure that your mom or dad may know someone who has this power. They can probably get them here to train you on it. It is a very powerful gift. The ability to see the future is something that people will kill over, let alone your healing power. You could literally turn the tides of war with your gift. You would be able to know where to go to prevent someone from being killed, for you to be there waiting there to heal them. These two things really work hand in hand, to make you a true prize to many. Von is right, this needs to be kept quiet, as Peyton would have an even bigger target on her back than she does now”, Vincent tells the group.

I tried to relax in Percy’s arms, but I couldn’t. I knew this would hurt him, but I stood up and went over to get a bottle of water from the small fridge stocked with drinks in the corner. I can see the hurt in Percy’s eyes, but I am hurt too. He didn’t wait for me when I waited for him. Seeing her again reminds me of her wrapping herself around him, and him not pushing her off of him. He allowed her to touch him, with me looking right at him. She wasn’t going to let go of Percy for any reason until she heard he was not going to be Alpha anymore. Now that, that, got her off of him, but to hear the audio of her calling out for him to come to the gate, and then Alpha Jasper asked me to the gate, I just felt sick.

I felt unclean knowing she was messing around with so many men in the pack, and that I was getting her seconds. I felt nauseous knowing that Alpha Jasper just wanted me for my healing abilities. I was also sick, having overheard the implied threat to my brothers as Heath had pieced it together first. Jasper wanted to be the Alpha King, not because he loved or felt anything at all for me, but because he was a greedy bastard. I know Stephanie’s deal though, and she was probably hooking up with Jasper to try to be his Luna when she slipped up and mentioned me. I needed to call my dad and give him a heads up. I am scared for both of my brothers. I just got them back. I can’t lose them to that horrible Alpha.