Shackled (The Lord Series) by Carlos
313. Olivia - Blood Lodge I

Rueben pinches the bridge of his nose. "I don't think you want to know."

My curiosity destroyed my life, and after all these years, I still haven't learned my lesson. I should get the hint from Rueben and not ask questions unless I'm ready to face the consequences, but Jason's friends made my life a living hell. Whatever Tyson did to them, it's well deserved. It is only fair that I know as well.

"But I need to know," I insist. "Leo and Sean, just like any other Duke who fucked me, took great pleasure in hurting me. If Tyson made them suffer, even a tiny bit, I want to be told all the details."

Rueben sighs before summarizing what he, Tyson, and Ansel did to Sean and Leo. Anyone with a little bit of empathy would feel sorry for them, but not me. They abused me to the point where I am upset Tyson didn't kill them. "What about Mila?" She tried her best to be my friend, but Jason didn't let her. If she was hurt in any way, I am going to be so fucking pissed.

"She is safe," Rueben replies. "The Elders are helping her start a new life under a new name. Do you want me to get her phone number for you?"

I press my palm to Rueben's cheek. "I would like that. Thank you for getting her out of there," I say before kissing him. Before he gets the wrong impression, I quickly add, "The others are waiting for us."

"Where's your coat?"

"In the closet," I reply.

Rueben surprises me when he grabs my coat. He might have stopped hating me only after he learned the truth, but he changed so much in the past few days that it confuses me more than ever. Today, he was nicer than ever, and he didn't scare me that much.

I reach out to take the coat from him, but he holds it for me so I can put it on. I'm not used to men being attentive to me, but I'm starting to like it.

"Let's get the daggers and my backpack," Rueben says.

We leave Jasper's room and first grab Rueben's backpack.

The daggers are where Ansel told me they would be. I haven't seen them since the day I ran away. If it were up to me, I would throw them in the ocean so I could forget what finding them led to.

Once the daggers are in the backpack, Rueben interlaces his fingers with mine. It's strange to see the man who vowed to kill me be so...gentle with me. It makes me anxious.

"How am I doing so far?" Rueben asks as we make our way to the cars. "Are you less afraid of me?"

"I liked you more when you cut open your palm while you vowed not to rest until you end me. Now, you are just like the others."

Rueben frowns. "Why is that a bad thing?"

Because I know none of this is real. "I would be stupid to let my guard down just because you and Tyson had a change of heart after you saw what Carlos did to me."

"We didn't see those videos. How bad are they?" When I don't reply, Rueben adds, "Olivia?"

"Maybe it would be best if Ansel deletes them."

"Not before my blood-brothers and I see them. To love you as you deserve, we need to know what was done to you."

What do I even say to this? "Moments like these make me less afraid of you, but my body refuses to forget what you did to me."

I shouldn't have said that. Fuck Carlos for drilling into my head that I'm always to tell the truth.

Rueben surprises me once more when he says, "Then let me teach your body to want me not to fear me."

If Rueben and Tyson keep love bombing me like they did today, it won't be long before I fall for their charms.

I fear the day when that happens.

Because when I love, I love with my entire being.

***

The drive from the farm to the Blood Lodge was...intense, to say the least. Squashed between Ansel and Mose, their hands all over my body had me moaning, which led to Tyson jerking himself off while Rueben gripped the steering wheel hard. Jasper missed out on the fun as he had to go in the same car as Rin and Steven.

Ansel's tongue is down my throat while Mose's fingers are stretching my pussy as Rueben parks the car.

"We are here," Rueben growls in anger. He was fine when we left the house, and I don't know what triggered him.

"Keep. Driving," Mose demands.

Rueben hits the steering wheel with his firsts, making me flinch away from Ansel and Mose. "I am fucking trying to be patient here, but Olivia's moans are killing me." He opens the car, grabs his backpack, and says, "I need some fresh air," before getting out and slamming the door shut.

I glance at Tyson. "What did I do wrong this time?"

"Nothing. Rueben and I are yours as well, but we don't want to fuck you until you are ready, until we have proved that we are sorry for what happened in the past."

I don't know about Rueben, but if I accept to be Tyson's muse, I think we might recreate the sex scenes from his book pretty soon.

I shouldn't get emotional about this, but a knot forms in my throat. "You never said you were sorry until now."