Shackled (The Lord Series) by Carlos
393. Jasper - I love you I

The meeting at the Blood Lodge went better than I expected. After the initial shock of finding out the truth about Ansel, those present asked many questions, most of which were answered by Ansel, the Elders, or Olivia.

*Olivia.*

No wonder she's the strongest hellstar ever to be born. She knows how to speak to people, and how to express herself. Many would be nervous to address a crowd, but not Olivia. She was calm, and her ideas were clear. It was like she did this before. Maybe she did. From what she told me, she wanted a career in politics, and she was in a debate club at school.

I'm happy she is no longer interested in politics and is now working with Tyson and me, sharing our dreams. I can't wait to see her name next to Tyson's on the cover of their first book written together, just as I can't wait to see her working with animals.

After the meeting, I had to stay for another meeting with the Elders and other Lords that lasted several hours. Tyson and the others took Olivia home because she was worried about Spencer despite Jon and Khloe being with him.

It's been about a half an hour since I returned home. After checking on Spenser, wanting to be sure he's in his bed, and a quick snack, I jumped in the shower. Warm water falls down my back, washing away the tension in my body and relaxing my muscles. Having finally washed away the day before I crawl into bed next to Olivia and the others.

I turn off the water at the same time the bathroom door opens. My back is to it, so I don't see who entered. Not that it matters since Tyson asks, "Why didn't you send me a text letting me know you were back?"

I shrug before turning to face Tyson. "I didn't think you cared."

Tyson gives me a confused look. "Why would you think that?"

"Because," I shrug again.

Tyson takes a few steps forward until he stands in front of me. Cupping my face, he says, "If you don't say what's on your mind, I won't know how to fix whatever is wrong."

While I want to put on a smile and pretend everything is fine, I open up because I'm tired of pretending that I'm truly happy. "I love you, Tyson. I've been in love with you for a long time, but I bottled up all these feelings I have for you because I was scared of losing you. Now that you know what's in my heart and I'm finally able to touch you as I want, I feel like I'm miles away from you."

Tyson's gaze softens. "That's not true, Jasper. But with everything happening, I didn't have time to show you how I feel for you."

"And what do you feel for me, Tyson? Because each time I tell you how much I love you, you never say it back." When Tyson doesn't reply, I add, "If you don't feel the same as I do, it would be best to return to how things were before and forget about this. About what was between us."

Tyson's eyes flash red, and he kisses me, pushing me inside the shower until my back is pressed against the wall. "I love you, Jasper. That's what you wanted to hear? I was never into men, but I was into you. Why do you think I bought toys for myself or wrote romance stories with men?"

I'm so happy, I feel my heart will explode. "Why didn't you say something?"

"I was scared of opening my heart and being hurt again. So, I buried myself in work. Besides, I was depressed for a long time, and...you helped me. Love was the last thing on my mind. But your presence made my life brighter. That's why I have always enjoyed being in your company. It is only now that I understand why. I love you, Jasper. I really do. If I asked to take things slow it's because loving you and Olivia at the same time is...overwhelming. Scary even. But losing any of you is even scarier. So this, Jasper, what is between us is love."

"Tyson," I murmur.

Our lips meet again, our kiss gentle, our hands exploring. I run my fingers across his back, enjoying the feeling of his warm skin under my palms. He only has a pair of boxers on, but I want to tear them apart and remove any barrier between us. I want to sink to my knees and take him in my mouth and suck him until he finishes on my tongue before I fuck him for the first time.

Tyson has no idea of the intensity of my feelings or how many times I envisioned our first time together. Being able to touch and kiss him, knowing that he feels the same, is better than any fantasy I've ever had.

His fingers wrap around my hard cock, making me groan. "I haven't done this before, so let me know if you don't like what I'm doing," Tyson says before going down on me.

He takes me into his mouth, sucking me hard. Maybe a bit more than I'm used to, but it feels so fucking good. His hand moves at the same time as his mouth, sending shivers all over my body.

It might be his first time giving a blowjob, but fuck, he's making me lose any rational thought.

My fingers lace through his hair.

"Look at me," I say.

Our gazes meet. His eyes are full of hunger, the same hunger I feel for him.

"It's the first time that a man has sucked me," I let him know.