Sour Souls The Morningstar Series Book 6
Sour Souls Chapter 23

It feels so good to shift. To run in the woods. Honi has control of where we are going while I sit back to watch, and feel everything. This is the most amazing feeling aside from any time Ares touches me.

Honi and I had fantised so many times about what running through the forest would be like. It was something we both desperately wanted, but something that Honi needed. I don't think I realized how much she needed this until we started running. Ares shifted after staring at us for a moment. His wolf, Rex, is completely black. Like a deep silky black. Almost like a shadow. And he's so strong. The power that rolls off of him has pride swelling inside of us.

The moment our mate shifted, we ran. Honi ran away from Ares, and soon after he was chasing us. It feels so freeing, so right. Honi's excitement is mixing with my own. I don't think I have ever had this much fun in my life. Not even when I would ride Mom's back as a kid.

Ares chased us through the forest. He would nip at our tail, and hind legs. He never actually caught us though. I think that Rex is enjoying chasing us. I know that Honi is loving being chased.

We ran around for hours. Eventually, we grew tired. Honi came to a stop while panting. We are in the middle of a small clearing. A tiny field of flowers. The full moon is shining down on us. We turned to our mate. They are staring at us, not panting at all. I huffed.

Do they not get tired? I asked Honi.

Guess not. She replied.

Honi trotted up to Rex, and rubbed her body along his. Rex sat on his butt, and let us rub our body all over him. Then we sat next to him, and looked up at the moon.

I wish we could talk to them. I said.

After we are marked. Honi said.

Let's mark him now then. I said.

Honi perked her ears, and turned her head to our mate.

I'm not sure if mate would like that. She said.

So? Our mate does things we don't like all the time. Like annoy me, and yell. I said.

Honi let out a wolfy laugh. Rex turned his head to us. He gave us a wolfy smile, and his tongue lolled out of his mouth.

So cute. I said.

Maybe we should mark him. Honi said.

Honi got on her legs, and circled our mate. Rex froze as Honi rubbed, and sniffed all over him. She ran her snout along our mate. Then she bit.

Only to snap at air. Rex had moved out of the way just in time.

Damn it. I said.

Honi got down into a pouncing position. She shook her b**t in the air as we locked eyes on our mate. Rex backed away slightly.

Then Honi pounced. Rex dodged just in time again. Again, Honi pounced.

This happened over, and over. Rex is too fast for us. Stupid strong mate.

We will break him down. Honi assured me.

She pounced again, and was just a hair short of marking our mate.

F**k!

Before Honi could pounce again, Ares shifted back. He is standing in front of us completely naked. Finally, I can see his d**k naked. It's... big, but not as big as before?

He isn't hard. Honi told me.

Oh. Should we make him hard? I asked.

Not sure this form would do it for him. Honi said.

"Honi, give Emilia back control." Ares ordered angrily.

Huh? I asked.

I don't know. Honi said.

She sat on her butt, and wrapped her tail around herself. We stared up at our fuming mate. We are confused.

"I mean it Honi. Give Emilia back control now." Ares ordered again.

We cocked our head to the side.

Why does he think you are controlling me? I asked.

I don't know. Honi said.

We are one. I said.

I know. Honi replied.

"Shift back. Now." Ares demanded.

I don't like his tone. I said.

Maybe we should do as he says. Honi said.

I guess. I muttered.

A moment later I'm standing naked in front of my naked mate. To think that just the other day I was embarrassed for him to see me naked. Now though, now I just want him to look at my naked body, and not my face... angrily... the way he is right now.. "Are you alright?" Ares asked me.

I raised a brow at him.

"Uhm, yes?" I replied.

"Honi tried to mark me." He stated.

"I'm aware." I said.

"I should have guessed something like that would happen. She probably took over to mark me before you could stop her." Ares said.

"Took over?" I asked.

"Yeah, took control." Ares said.

I frowned at him. What the hell is he talking about? Took control?

"Why are you looking at me like that?" Ares asked.

"I don't understand." I said.

Ares sighed. "Honi, she took control to mark me-"

"Not that." I interrupted. "You keep saying she took control. I don't understand. Honi and I share control, always. We never take over the other. We are one." I said.

Ares stared at me with his mouth open.

Is he not going to respond? Is this not normal? Are he and Rex not one?

"You were okay with her marking me?" Ares asked emotionless.

I crossed my arms over my boobs.

"It was my idea." I said.

Ares eyebrows shot up.

"I don't think that's a good idea right now Emilia." He said.

My face heated up as my arms fell to my sides. Does.. he not want to mark me? I thought that wolves could barely stand to go a minute without marking their mates?

I know that things between us have been different, but.. I thought.. that he at least still wanted me.

I felt my face heat even more as the embarrassment set in. I looked away from my mate. Then I shifted, and took off in the direction that I think we came from.

Thankfully, it was the right direction. In ten minutes I was back to my clothes. I shifted back to my human form, and pulled my clothes back on. I was in the middle of pulling my leggings on when Rex appeared. They shifted, but I couldn't bring myself to look at my mate.

Is this another 'you need more time' thing? Or is it something else? Is it because of what I've been through, or who I am? Did I do something wrong? Maybe I'm not good enough?

You are plenty good enough. Honi snapped in my head. Our mate should be worshipping the ground we walk on.

I didn't reply. How can I? Not with the way I feel.

"Emilia-"

"I want to go home." I interrupted.

Ares sighed. He reached out for my hand, but I moved before he could grab it. I crossed my arms, and stuck my hands in my armpits. Without looking at Ares, I started walking towards our home.

Our home. Does he even want to share it with me? Should I be thinking about how to live without him now? Maybe his plan was just to get me here, but not accept me?

I followed Ares back to our home. He unlocked the door, and I made my way up the stairs to our room. I can feel Ares right behind me.

"Emilia, wait." Ares said as we entered our bedroom.

He grabbed me by my arm so that I can't go any further. I turned around, but didn't look up at him. This is so embarrassing. I tried to mark my mate, and he didn't want it. Goddess, I feel like such a fool. Honi whined in my head.

"What is wrong?" Ares asked.

"Nothing." I lied.

"We've been over this. You're-"

"A bad liar, I know." I said.

Ares gripped my chin, and lifted my face up to his. I met his deep blue eyes. That only made the embarrassment worse. I want him so badly, and he doesn't want me back.

"Tell me what is wrong." He said softly.

I frowned. "My mate doesn't want me, what could possibly be wrong?" I asked sarcastically.

Ares returned my frown. "Whoever said I didn't want you?" He asked.

"You. With the whole, no we can only make out a little, nothing more, no matter how bad you want it Emilia." I mocked. "And then with the whole, your wolf took over and tried to mark me, doesn't that bother you Emilia." I continued to mock. Ares raised an eyebrow at me.

"If you don't want me, why did you bring me here?" I asked him.

Ares wrapped his free arm around my waist. He pulled me flush to him, hard. I let out a startled gasp as my hands came to rest on his covered chest.

"I already told you. You are not leaving me. You are mine. My mate. All mine. I will not be letting you go." Ares growled lowly.

Fuck! That stupid fucking sexy voice. I squeezed my thighs together.

"That doesn't mean that I won't make you wait pet." He said with that same low voice.

I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Why don't you want me as badly as I want you?" I asked accusingly.

Ares growled, and backed me into the nearest wall. I kept my eyes narrowed at him the entire time, despite the excitement flowing in me. When my back reached the wall, Ares lowered to put his face right in front of mine.

"Don't you think for a fucking second that I don't want you. You have no idea how hard it is to tell you no. How hard it is to deny you when you so willingly want to please me. There are so many things that I want to do to you pet-" "L-l-like what?" I interrupted to ask.

Ares smirked, and moved his head to the crook of my neck. He ran his nose along the length of my shoulder, and neck. I tried to squeeze my thighs together again, but Ares put one of his knees between my thighs. Then he took a deep inhale. "You are not ready for the things that I want to do to you pet. All of the things that I have in mind are not mushy. There will be no rose petals. No candles. No wrapping yourself around my body." Ares said lowly.

I whimpered.

Fuck. Why did I do that?

"There will be chains. Whips. Gags. And all the other things you are afraid of." He said.

Afraid?

I am familiar with those things, but in a torture way. I don't think Ares means he wants to t*****e me. It seems different. And my body is definitely having a different reaction than fear.

Ares took another deep inhale, and his body slumped against mine slightly.

"I will tie you to our bed, and use you for my own pleasure. You'll scream for me until you lose your voice." He said with that low raspy voice.

I whimpered again as I clutched onto his shirt.

Is Ares trying to scare me? It is not working. I'm pretty sure that I'm turned on. My body is so hot. All I want to do is strip my clothes off, and press my lips to my mates.

How am I having a reaction like this to what he's saying? I've been tortured almost every day for the last five years. I haven't even been able to sleep at night.

Our mate is different. Honi said. The things he wants to do are different. He might be using similar tools, but the way he will use them is different. She said. Different? I asked her.

Honi nodded. Tell him he isn't scaring us. She told me.

"If you are trying to scare me Ares, I'm afraid you are not doing a good job." I said softly.

Ares took another deep inhale.

"I know. I can scent your arousal." He said.

"So, you kept going because..?" I asked.

"Because it excites me that you are getting horny for me. Especially when I am telling you the truth of what I want to do." He whispered in my ear.

"Then why did you stop?" I asked softly.

Ares hesitated for a moment.

"Because, I want you to be sure about everything before we do it. I don't think you are stupid Emilia, but you are ignorant to some things. I want you to have no regrets when it comes to us." He said, and then placed a soft kiss to my neck. Our mate loves us. Honi said.

I smiled.

"Okay, I will wait." I said.

Ares pulled back to look me in the eyes.

"But not for long." I stated.

Ares chuckled. "Of course not."

"I do think that you have some making up to do though. You made me feel very embarrassed by what you said back there." I told him.

"Oh? What do you want from me pet?" Ares asked lowly.

All of the breath left my lungs as I stared into his deep blues.

"Take a bath with me." I breathed out.

Ares eyebrows shot up. He looked at the wall above my head, and clicked his tongue. Then he looked back down to me.

"I don't think that's a good idea." He said.

"Why?" I pouted.

"Because you can barely keep your hands to yourself as it is." Ares said as he took a step back from me.

My mate walked to our bathroom, and I followed after him.

"Me?" I asked incredulously. "You are the one always touching me." I said.

I walked into the bathroom behind Ares. He walked straight to the tub, and sat down at the edge. Then he turned on the water.

"We are mates. Of course we are always going to want to touch each other." He said as he started to add liquids to the water.

My jaw dropped. "But it's only not okay when I do it?" I asked.

Ares added some beeds to the water before turning his head to me.

"I know how to stop, you do not." He said.

I frowned, and crossed my arms over my chest.

"You are so full of shit. I can keep my hands to myself." I argued.

Ares raised a brow at me.

"Then why do you want me to take a bath with you?" He asked.

I stared at him as I chewed on my bottom lip.

Tell him the truth. Honi urged.

What if he makes fun of me? I asked her.

We can make fun of him then. She said.

For what? Look at him! What could we poss-

Just tell him the truth Emi. Our mate will understand. Honi said interrupting me.

"Well?" Ares asked.

"I don't want you to leave me alone." I said.

My voice was so low, so soft, I wasn't sure Ares actually heard me.

Ares face softened. He stood from the filling tub, and stepped up to me. Ares reached up to grip my chin, and bring my eyes to his.

"I'll stay with you then." He said.

"Really?" I asked softly.

My mate kissed the tip of my nose.

"I will always stay with you my love." Ares said.

A goofy smile spread across my face.

"But I will not be getting naked, and getting in with you." He said, and then turned around to turn the water off.

I pouted.

So close. Honi said.

"Stop pouting Emilia." Ares said without looking at me. "You have no idea how hard it's going to be to sit here with you completely naked." He said.

"Especially with how willing I am." I added.

Ares turned around to face me.

"Exactly." He said.

I rolled my eyes.

"Come, let's get you out of these clothes." Ares said.

Ares reached to the ends of my shirt, and tugged it over my head. He looked into my eyes as he slipped my leggings off. Then he took off my bra, and my underwear. All while keeping his eyes on me.

It's igniting that same fire in me. The one that Ares can only light. This is just so.. intimate. I don't feel uncomfortable, or scared. I want him to see me. And he is. Like, really seeing me. Ares hasn't even looked at the rest of my body.

After I was undressed, Ares pulled me to the tub. I got in the mass of bubbles, and sat down in the water. It's so warm, and soothing. I sighed as I leaned my head back.

"Does it feel nice Emilia? Not to hot?" Ares asked.

I shook my head.

"Want me to turn the jets on?" He asked.

My eyes popped open to look at him.

"Jets?" I asked.

"Haven't you ever heard of jacuzzi tub?" My mate asked me.

I shook my head.

A wide smile spread across Ares face. It lit up the whole bathroom. Then he got on his knees at the side of the tub.

"Oh, let me blow your mind then pet."