Sour Souls The Morningstar Series Book 6
Sour Souls Chapter 34

It's been three days since I killed Lauren. No one seems to care at all. In fact, Bianca and Alessio even told me good job for killing her. I don't know what's weirder. The fact that everyone is so nonchalant that I killed someone, or the fact that I like being praised for it. I just can't help it. I don't even feel guilty anymore. Everyone hated that woman, and apparently, she was much crazier than I thought. Kee told me all about how the psycho has been stalking Ares for years, and just how far the girl would go. Thank the Gods I feel better about that.

I have been attending the classes with Azai every day after the school let's out. I've been learning a lot, and Azai was shocked with the knowlegde that I have. He said that this might be able to go even quicker for me because of that. All in all, it's been fun. Azai is a great teacher. He's patient, and kind. He never makes me feel stupid, and he has a way of teaching me things when I don't understand them. It's been great. He is so much different than his twin.

I'm right back to avoiding Ares. Well, as much as I can anyways. It's not hard either. Which is great... I guess..

I wake up every morning alone in bed. Ares is always downstairs cooking me breakfast. We eat together in complete silence. I don't even try to break it. If he wants me to shut up, then I will.

After breakfast, Ares leaves. Sometimes he tells me what he's doing for the day, other times he just leaves without saying anything. While Ares is off doing whatever it is he does, I stay home. Sometimes I go visit Lydia, and she gives me work to do around her house. I found out that Lydia has a lot of her grandkids at her house everyday. The ones that are too little to go to school. And Epperly comes by almost every day too. I help them out with the kids while I wait for evening to roll around. That's when I head to the school. Ares picks me up after my class every day. We walk home together in complete silence. Where Ares cooks for me. In silence. And we eat together. In silence. We even clean up together. In silence.

If I'm going to be honest, I hate it. A lot. The silence is defening. It's made me realize just how silent my life has always been. My mom always told me to be quiet, and I did. If I ever uttered a word in front of Dave, I got hit. And the dungeon.. The only time I wasn't silent in the dungeon was when I was screaming.

Is this what my life has come to? Complete silence? It's lonely, and I hate it. I don't even think Ares cares. I think this is what he wanted anyways.

"Emilia." Ares called to me.

I'm finishing up the dishes from dinner. I turned my head to look at him. Not uttering a word, but letting him know I'm paying attention. "I have a surprise for you." He said.

I raised a brow at him. A surprise? What kind of surprise?

"Tomorrow you, Talia, and Kee are going shopping. You've been gaining a lot of weight finally. You need new clothes." Ares told me.

I have been filling out more. I actually like what I see when I look in the mirror now. My curves have even filled out more. None of my bras fit me anymore. I honestly didn't think Ares noticed at all.

That sounds really nice. I get to pick out things I like now. Not that I don't like a lot of the things Lydia put in my cloest for me.

Wait.. Ares isn't coming?

I looked into his deep blue eyes. Ares has the same expression he always has on. A blank one. One that doesn't let me in. I thought I would be able to break that wall down. At least when we were alone. But I guess not.

I gave Ares one nod, and returned to the dishes.

"Ready?" Kee asked.

*********

She's standing in the doorway of my apartment. I just finished putting my shoe on when she asked. I stood up straight, and smoothed my yellow sundress down.

"Yup." I said.

I took one step towards Kee, only to be pulled back by my arm. I looked up to see Ares has me pinned to his chest. I frowned.

"You are not going out in this." Ares said.

My frown deepened. Why the hell not?

"It's too short, and I know you're wearing a thong." He said.

My face heated. Did he have to say that in front of his sister?

I stared up into Ares deep blue eyes. I can either tell him to fuck off, and ruin my four day long streak of not talking to him. Or, I can start an arguement right now. Or, I can just do as he says.

Honestly, I don't know what to do. Giving Ares the silent treatment is hurting me more mentally than it is him. I don't think he cares at all. And I don't think I would win a fight either.

I looked back to Kee.

"I'll be right back." I told her.

I rushed up the stairs to my closet. I pulled the dress over my head, and tossed it in the corner. Then I slipped on the first pair of jeans, and T-shirt that I found. It doesn't matter how I look at this point. The only opinion I care about only wants me to shut up. So, it's not like I'll ever ask him if I look good, and Ares would never openly tell me.

"Good choice." Ares said from the doorway of my closet.

I looked down at my outfit. My jeans are highwaisted. I find that I really like pants like that. My shirt is just a plain dark purple. It's baggy too, and I hate baggy.

Tears filled my eyes, but I blinked them away. Then I pushed past Ares without saying anything. Ares didn't stop me as I went down the stairs. Not when I left with his sister either. He didn't tell me he loves me, or say goodbye. Silence is great.

***************

"Ya know, we are not Ares. You don't have to give us the silent treatment." Kee said.

I looked up from the rack of clothes I'm at to see her and Talia staring at me. Kee is giving me a small smile, while Talia is pouting at me. I felt tears sting the back of my eyes, but I blinked them away.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled.

"Don't be sorry, just be in the moment." Talia said.

"I know that things have been.. different between you and Ares, but Emi, you're out with us now." Kee said.

"So?" I asked.

"Soooo, this is the perfect time for you to vent it all out." Talia said. "Talk shit about him. Tell us what's been going on." She said.

I sighed as I contiuned to look through the clothes. We've been to almost every single store in this mall. It's crazy big, and I made sure to buy something from every single store. That's what Ares gets for giving me his credit card. I'm going to burn a hole in his pocket so deep that he'll-

"Ares has too much money for that Emi." Kee said interrupting my thoughts.

My eyes snapped to hers, and I huffed.

"Figures." I muttered.

I'm still buying anything, and everything I want.

"As you should." Kee said.

"Exactly." I replied.

So far, I've gotten enought stuff to completely replace my closet. I got a lot of jeans, leggings, workout clothes. All kinds of shirts. Anywhere from stuff that Ares would approve of, to stuff he most definitely will not.

I even got more makeup for myself, and hair stuff too. We went into one store so that I could buy a bunch of accessories. I even got Ares a few new things. I just want to see him in other colors.

Also, I got new underwear, bras, even lingerie. Not that Ares deserves it. Hell, he probably wouldn't even want to see me in it anyways.

"Hey, don't think that way. Ares is going to lose his mind when he sees you in that stuff." Kee said.

"I hate being left out of the loop." Talia said.

I sighed again.

"Sorry Tal, Ares and I have just.." I trailed off not really sure what to say.

"Have you been fighting?" Talia asked.

I scoffed. "We'd have to have conversations to fight." I said.

"You guys haven't been talking?" Talia asked.

I shook my head. "He wanted me to shut up, so I did. I haven't uttered a word to him in four days." I admitted.

Talia's eyes went wide.

"Four days?! That's.. holy crap. How does that even work?" She asked.

I shrugged. "I pretty much just give in to everything he says. It's not like he tries to strike up a conversation anyways."

Tears filled my eyes when I finally admitted that out loud. I looked up at my two friends. Both of them gave me sad expressions.

"I don't even think he cares. It doesn't bother him at all." I said as more tears pooled in my eyes.

"Oh honey." Talia said as she came around th rack to hug me.

I put my hand up to stop her before she could though.

"No don't. I'll start sobbing in the middle of the store." I said as I wiped my eyes. "I don't want to be embarrassed." I said.

Kee's phone started to ring. She pulled it out of her pocket, and smiled at the screen. Talia and I shared a look as Kee answered her call. "Hey girl, what's up?" Kee said.

Pause.

"Oh you are, are you?" Kee said with a smile.

Pause.

"Ya know, I was thinking of hitting the pub for dinner with a couple of my friends here."

Short pause.

"Oh yeah, new friends. You haven't met them, but.. I know you will just love them."

Pause.

"Kay, see ya soon."

Then Kee hung up her phone.

Talia and I shared another look before looking at Kee expectantly.

"We have dinner plans now ladies. Let's buy a bunch more stuff on Ares card, and then go drink on his expense as well."

*********

Almost two hours later, and we are pulling into the parking lot of the pub. This place is in two, not far from where we live. It's crawling with humans.

The three of us got out of the car, and started walking to the building. The place is a dark navy blue, and black. It looks modern, or at least like it recently got an upgrade. We can hear music blaring from inside as we get closer.

Kee also made me change into one of my new outfits before we got here. I told her I didn't think this was a good idea, considering Ares attitude over my dress this moring, but Kee insisted. She said that Ares wasn't going to be here so what did it matter. I agree. It's not like he cares about how I feel, so why should I care how he feels.

Besides, it's not like my outfit is that bad. I have on a highwaisted black skirt that stops mid thigh. Pairing with a dark purple cropped tank top. With a pair of thigh high black boots.

I loved this outfit the moment Kee and Talia helped put it together. I feel good. I feel hot. I almost wish Ares were going to be here to see it. Even if he scooped me up, and drug me home. Maybe.. even if he was angry.. maybe he'd like it.

Kee flicked the side of my head pulling me from my thoughts. I turned to frown at her. She only smiled, and held the door open for me.

I followed Talia inside. Kee walked around us to lead us to the bar top. I can smell the greasy food in the air. The place is full of people. Some at the bar top, some in the booths, and a lot of people dancing on a makeshift dance floor. Kee lead us to a few empty chairs at the bar top. She hopped up on a stool, and so did Talia. I hopped up next to her. It was only a second later that the bartender came over.

The bartender is a young male, probably in his early twenties. He has golden blonde hair, and blue eyes. He's also got a lot of muscle. Nothing compared to my mate though. The man looked the three of us up and down, before settling his eyes on me.

"What can I get you beautiful?" He drawled out.

I frowned at the guy. Honi growled in my head. Is he flirting with me?

"Cat got your tongue babe?" He said.

I'm a literal second away from tearing this guy apart. He can't talk to me like that. He's not my mate.

"She'll take a sex on the beach." Talia spoke up for me.

I whipped my head to her.

"A what?" I asked.

I am not having sex with anyone who is not Ares first of all. And I highly doubt he would have s*x with me on the beach. I can't even get him to touch me at home.

"It's a drink Em." Talia whispered to me.

"Oh." I said, and then looked back at the bartender. "I'll have one of those then I guess."

The guy chuckled at me. "I.D." He said.

"I.D.?" I asked.

He chuckled again. "I'll take your phone number instead."

My eyebrows shot up.

"She's taken, sorry." Kee said from the end of the table.

The bartender pouted, and then turned to her.

"What a shame." He said.

"You don't need to see any of our I.D.'s. You know us. We come here all the time." She said to him.

The guy gave her a dreamy look.

"Yeah, so what can I get you ladies?"

An hour later, and I am drunk.

*********

"How am I so drunk right now?" I asked Kee.

"I spelled all of our drinks." She giggled.

"There you guys are! Finally! It took us forever to talk with Tia." Came a voice I have not heard before.

I turned my head in time to see a blonde girl hop up on one of the stools. She's so pretty. Her hair is so long, and wavey. Even her blue eyes are gorgeous. There's another girl with her too. This girl has super curly black hair, kind of like Kee's but not wild. She has a dark green eye, and a golden eye. The golden eye has a long scar through it, running down her face to her jaw.

"Wow.. so pretty." I slurred.

"Thanks!" The blonde said. "You're really pretty yourself." Then she sniffed the air around me. "You smell weird." She said.

"Oh, that's because I'm not all wolf." I said.

Kee giggled behind me.

"No, not that." The blonde waved her hand in the air. "You smell like Ares. It's digusting." She said.

Talia snorted beside me.

"Oh, I do?" I asked as a goofy smile spread across my face.

The blonde gave me a pained look.

"Don't tell me you've fucked him, and fallen in love." She groaned.

The black haired girl giggled.

"Don't tease her. Ares is hot, who could blame her." She said.

I growled. Both girls raised an eyebrow at me at the same time. Gosh, are they twins?

"I have fallen in love with him, unfortunately. And I can't get him to f**k me, also unfortunately." I said.

"Huh?" The blonde asked with a confused look.

"I'm his mate." I said proudly.

Both girls just blinked at me.

"Oh, this is gonna be good." Kee mumbled behind me.

"I'm sorry, you're Ares mate?" The blonde asked.

I nodded. "I know, I'm a real lucky gal." I said sarcastically with an eye roll.

The blonde girl squealed, and grabbed my shoulders. She gave me a little shake, before pulling me right into her face. I hiccuped.

"Oh, I'm gonna like you, I can feel it." She said before letting me go. "I'm Bexley, this is Nix. We're great friends of the fam." She said.

"Wait, you're Bexley?" I asked.

"Oh, so you've heard of me." She said proudly.

"Yeah, Ares has been real scared for me to meet you." I said.

"Ares gets scared?" Talia murmured.

I shrugged. "Seems like that's how it was." I said.

"Okay, tell me everything. What's it like?" Bexley said.

"Wait, did you say that he wasn't fucking you?" Nix asked.

I spent the next hour talking complete trash about my mate. I told them how he was making me wait. I told them how I might be a little freaked about the marks. I even told them about the s*x stuff we did. And about how I asked to mark Ares, and he told me no. Finally ending with the fact that I haven't uttered a word to him in four days.

"Wow, you're really giving him shit." Nix said.

I scoffed. "I don't think he even cares. I'm pretty sure it's hurting me more than him." I said.

Bexley laughed. "Oh trust me, it's bothering him. But I definitely think that you should go home, and give him a piece of your mind." She said.

"Really?" I asked.

"I agree." Talia said.

"Same." Nix said.

"I think so too. Ares is an ass, you should definitely go home, and tell him just that." Kee urged.

"You should go home, and force your mark on him." Bexley said.

"Bexley." Nix scolded.

"What? I'm surprised he didn't do it to her yet. And maybe he should. The two of you are scared for nothing." She said.

"But.. he won't even sleep with me." I said.

"You said he wanted you to know more right?" Bexley asked.

"Yeah." I replied.

Bexley pulled out her phone, and started typing away.

"What are you doing Bex?" Nix asked.

"Here." Bexley said as she turned the screen to me. "This is the kind of porn I like. What better way to learn than watching p**n, right?" She asked.

I watched the video, and my eyes went wide. They're... really going at it. Talia is looking over my shoulder too.

"Holy crap.. How many people are in this?" Talia asked.

"It's an orgy. I like the freaky shit, but I didn't want to scare her." Bexley replied.

"There's worse stuff out there?" I asked incredulously.

Bexley shrugged. "Hey, everyone's got their own flavor." She said.

"How do you figure out what your flavor is?" I asked.

Bexley shrugged. "I just searched until I found something I liked." She said.

"Bexley is a virigin, she's probably not the best to ask for s*x advice." Kee said.

Bexley frowned. "We're all virgins, except this gorgeous... Nigerian?"

Talia nodded. "How'd you guess?" She asked.

Bexley shrugged. "I've met a lot of people in my time." She said.

"Oh." I said, then looked back to her phone.

I can't believe I'm watching porn.. In the middle of a bar.. And.. I.. I don't know about this. It looks like it feels good I guess. It's just hard to picture that with Ares.. and all those other people.

I pushed Bexley's phone back to her.

"I can't watch this anymore." I said.

"Good." Nix said. "It's time for shots." She said.

Mini glasses were lined up in front of us. The bartender filled all of them up with a clear liquid. Then we all cheers'ed before throwing the liquor back.

I cringed as it burned my throat. The more I drink the less I hear Honi's comments. I don't like that, but I do like the confidence this alcohol is seeming to bring.

After five more shots, I slammed the mini glass on the bar top. All the girls looked at me. I stood up.

"Ya know what, you're right Bexley." I declared.

Bexley smirked.

"I'm going to march my ass home. March right up to that asshat of a mate, and mark him. No more playing games. No more waiting. I'm making things happen now." I stated. "That's right bitch. You show him who's boss." Bexley cheered.

"And remember, if he turns out to be a d**k, I'll be here waiting." The bartender said, and then winked at me.

"Don't do that. My mate will kill you." I slurred.

"Mate?" He asked.

"She's just being silly, and drunk." Nix told him.

"Wait, how am I supposed to get home?" I asked.

"Don't worry. I already texted you a ride." Kee said with a smirk.

"Who?" I asked.

Before Kee could respond, the front door to the pub opened up. Deep blue eyes bore into me. Angry deep blue eyes.. Very.. angry.. and sexy.. eyes.

"Emilia."