Sweet Redemption: The Morningstar Series Book 3
Sweet Redemption Chapter 61

Sighing I sat up at the edge of the bed. It's already past 10 pm. Where could she be?

I've been texting and calling.

f**k!

If we were fully mated I'd be able to find her. Just then the door to the bedroom flung open banging on the wall behind it.

My eyes snapped up to my mate but she refused to look at me. She was still wearing the long sleeved dark purple shirt and black skinny jeans that she left in earlier. Acaisia ignored me and stomped to her closet. I waited patiently for her to come out.

Five minutes later, Acaisia walked out of the closet in a very small, very tight black dress. It was simple with spaghetti straps and hugged her body like a glove. She leaned against the door as she put on some strappy black heels. Without sparing me a glance she started walking to the door again. I stood up with panic.

"Where are you going?" I asked her sternly.

"Out." She stated with her hand on the doorknob.

It took me three long strides to come up behind her, and when she opened the door I placed my hand on it and shoved it closed. Acaisia huffed and turned around to face me. Finally she looks at me, even if she is angry. "What do you think you're doing?" She asked me.

I narrowed my eyes at her.

"I should be asking you that." I said lowly. "I've been looking for you for hours Acaisia. You finally come back home only to change and leave? And change into this." I guestered at her outfit. "Where are you going?" I asked for the second time. "I told you, I'm going out." She stated with her nose in the air.

"Fine. With who?" I asked.

Just then there was a knock to our bedroom door. Acaisia turned around and opened it, this time I let her. On the other side was a guy I didn't recognize. He's tall but not as tall as me, with red hair, and a lot of muscles. His eyes flickered to mine before landing on my mate. I nearly knocked his teeth in, as his eyes raked over my mate.

"Axton let me in, you ready?" He asked her then his eyes snapped up to mine. "Hi, I'm Russell." He smiled and put his hand out for me to shake.

I glared down at his hand then back up to his face with no intention of taking it. Acaisia grabbed his hand and pushed past him to walk down the hall.

"Don't bother Russell." She said as she pushed him towards the stairs.

"He coming too?" Russell asked her.

Acaisia turned her eyes on me and narrowed them.

"No he is not." She stated.

I walked out the door and grabbed her hand forcing her to stop.

"Aciaisa what is going on?" I asked her softly.

"I'm going out I told you that." She stated coldly.

I stared into her eyes for a moment, searching for something to make me feel better.

"I, uh, am gonna wait outside." Russell said from behind us.

Acaisia huffed at me. "Great, now you made Russell feel uncomfortable." She said.

My eyes went hard.

"I don't give a f**k. That stupid ginger headed d**k face is lucky I didn't knock his s**t in for checking you out." I gritted out.

"And what would it matter if he was?" She asked crossing her arms.

I backed her into the wall of the hallway.

"Because you are mine." I said matching her cold tone.

Acaisia scoffed.

"I thought that at one point. But not now." She stated.

Her words hurt. She didn't consider herself mine anymore? I knew things were getting rocky between us but I didn't know I was making her feel that way. All I wanted to do was make her feel loved always. Was I really doing that bad of a job right now? My eyes bore into hers and I reached up to cup the side of her face.

"Acaisia.." I trailed off.

Acaisia slapped my hand away and shoved me back.

"Don't wait up." She said as she turned to leave.

I grabbed her wrist softer this time and she turned her angry eyes to me.

"Don't go." I whispered feeling desperate. What could I do now? If she leaves, I'll be devastated.

"Tell me what has been going on with you." She countered. I opened my mouth ready to tell her the truth just so she would stay, but she held her hand up to stop me before I could even utter a word. "Ya know what, nevermind. You can keep things from me all you want Bou. I shouldn't have to ask you that." She said then turned and stormed off, taking my heart with her.

I stared at the empty space she was once in for a while.

"Bou?" Bianca peeked her head out of her bedroom. "You okay?" She asked when I didn't react to her. "She left me." I mumbled.

"Who left you Bou?" Bianca asked coming to stand next to me.

I shook my head but the fog wouldn't go away. I feel like I can't breathe. She left, and with another guy.

"I didn't love her enough." I whispered.

It felt like someone was stabbing me in the chest while also feeling like I could blow chunks. Numbly I walked back to the bedroom I shared with my mate. I walked in, ignoring my twin as she called out to me. Shutting the door I walked over to the bed and sat down.

She left me. I didn't love her enough and she left me with some guy. She was right, I kept things from her and that caused me to lose her.

A week ago we were doing great. I really thought she was almost ready to mark me, and then I ruined it all. Acaisia accidenly marked me before she was ready and I just wanted her to be sure that she wanted me before I told her. Sure I also had selfish reasons but I just didn't want her to leave me.

Too late.

After a few minutes of sulking the door brust open. My eyes snapped up as hope flared in my chest, hoping that it was my mate. That she didn't just leave me with some other guy. My heart sank to my stomach when my eyes fell on glowing green ones. "Akeehla?" I asked confused.

"Here." She said handing me a bottle. "It's spelled so it's extremely strong." She told me.

I looked over the bottle, there was no label.

"What is it?" I asked.

Akeehla rolled her eyes.

"Liquor." She stated. I stared at her confused. "Look, I know you and my sister have been going through it the last couple of days. I was hoping you guys would work it out by now. Bou, your sorrow is screaming out to me and it's giving me a headache." She said as she punched the bridge of her nose.

"I can't force my sister to have a conversation with you but I at least can get you drunk to quiet your thoughts." She said then gave me a curt smile before turning to leave.

Akeehla paused with her hand on the door.

"You should tell her about the mark. I don't think she will be as upset as you think she will." With that she slammed the door shut and I was alone again.

I stared down at the bottle. It was long like a large wine bottle with clear liquid in it. f**k it. I twisted the cap off and chugged until I needed to take a breath. Pulling it away I wiped my mouth, this s**t is strong but tastes good. Think I might have the whole bottle. It took me about an hour and a half to get half way through the bottle. I am extremely f*****g drunk and it was doing very little to make me feel better. As a matter of fact I think I was feeling worse.

My mate left me.

I packed a bag of clothes and tried to leave when my twin and her mate had stopped me. Not sure why, it wasn't like my mate wanted me here. She f*****g left me. With another guy.

Ahkari had tried to tell me that I would feel pain if Acaisia cheated on me and I laughed in her face. Cheated. We'd have to be something for her to cheat on me. No, she just left me.

The bag now sat on the bed, I was waiting for my twin and her mate to fall asleep so I could sneak out. Sitting on the floor I leaned up against the bed and looked out the floor length window. The grounds were quiet and the sky was clear. I would think it was beautiful sight if I wasn't so f*****g hurt.

Did I mention that my mate f*****g left me?

It feels like someone reached inside of me and ripped my heart out. How could she just leave me like that? How could I have not loved her better?

f**k, I miss her. I miss her so much.

Another hour went by and I was about to polish off the last of this stuff. I'm wasted. Like hella wasted. I spent the last 30 minutes sobbing over my mate. I never felt any pain but that didn't stop me from thinking about what that fucker could be doing with my mate. My mate.. Who left me, with him.

Why couldn't she just stay with me? I would have gladly given her anything, done anything, just for her to stay. How could she hurt me so much and not care? Was I stupid to think that she was starting to love me? Was it all a ploy to f**k me and treat me like her first mate treated her?

Tears streamed down my face as I thought about it. Was I just some joke to her? f**k, this hurts.

I gripped my chest. Never in my life have I felt this hurt, this lost. I should have went after her, should have pulled her into this room and showed her the mark. At least she'd still be here and not with some other guy doing Gods know what. Sometime later the bedroom door opened softly. After the amount of times my sister came to check on me I had stopped hoping it was my mate. Instead of looking to see who it was I took the very last drink of the alcohol and tossed the glass bottle to the side. It thudded against the carpet and rolled away. "Bou?" That voice had my heart squeezing. I closed my eyes as more tears came out.

I kept my eyes closed in fear that my ears were now playing tricks on me. A soft hand fell on my shoulder and sparks shot down my arm.

My eyes slowly opened to see a blurry Acaisia. Her hair was up in a messy bun on her head, her skin flushed against her black dress, and a worried look in her deep blue eyes.

"You're back." I stated with no emotion in my voice.

All of me wanted to pull her into my arms and mark her, but I couldn't. I was mad and drunk. She hurt me and I don't think she even cared. Acaisia definitely didn't care about me. Or she would have stayed.

"Are you drunk?" She asked with her face scrunched..

"Yup." I said popping the p and looking away from her face. If I keep staring into her face I'll end up pulling her into my arms and never letting her go.

Acaisia sighed and sat down next to me. She wraped her arms around one of mine and I stiffened. With another sigh Acaisia realsed her hold on me and I relaxed a bit. We stayed like that, just staring out the window in silence before I couldn't take it anymore. "Hope you had fun with your boyfriend." I said bitterly.

"Don't be like that Bou." Acaisia said softly.

I scoffed as more tears fell from my eyes. Don't be like that because I have no right. I'm not hers and she's not mine. She made that clear when she left me to spend the night with him, doing who knows what. f**k, it hurts to breathe.

"Can you tell if our sisters are asleep?" I asked her slurring my words slightly.

I didn't look at Acaisia but I could see from the corner of my eye that she was confused.

"I can hear their heartbeats, pretty sure they're asleep. Why?" She asked.

"Good." Was all I said as I clumsily got to my feet.

Acaisia stood with me and I turned for the bed. Grabbing my bag I slung it over my shoulder and walked to the door. I was definitely not walking straight but I didn't care.

"Where are you going?" Acaisia's soft sweet voice floated to my ears.

I paused with my hand on the doorknob.

"Out." I threw her words at her without bothering to look at her.

"But you're drunk." She said.

"I don't care." I replied.

Acaisia walked up behind me and grabbed my free hand. She tugged on me but I refused to budge. Acaisia rested her head on my back.

"Please don't leave." She whispered.

My back straightened and I turned to face her. Acaisia let go of my hand and stepped back to give me room. Finally I looked her in her face. She was crying and I couldn't help but laugh sarcastically at her. "You didn't stay for me. You left me. With another guy. You..." I shook my head as my anger grew. "You f*****g left me Acaisia." I gritted out.

"I only left for a couple of hours and Russell is harmless." She said it like it was a excuse for what she had done to me.

I shook my head at her again before meeting her eyes. Acaisia's breath hitched and I wondered what she had seen in my eyes.

"You are so f*****g selfish. Do you even care how I feel right now? I asked you to stay and you left me." I was seething. "Did you f**k him because I won't f**k you?" I couldn't help but ask. I'm angry and hurt. Acaisia gave me a confused but hurt look.

"N-no!" She shouted at me. "You would have felt it and I would never do something like that to you Bou." She said.

I scoffed.

"How would I know that? It's like pulling teeth to get to know you as it is. Maybe I had it all wrong. Tell me Acaisia is this all some sort of pay back for what that false mate did to you?" I sneered.

"Am I just some joke to you?" Now I was sounding desperate.

"Does it not hurt you to do this to me? To be away from me? Do you not love me?" My voice broke at the end.

Acaisia stared up at me while tears streamed down her face.

"I-I-I." She stuttered out as she choked on a sob. "I'm s-sorry." She sobbed. "I d-don't b-blame you fo-for wanting to l-leave." She stuttered out through her tears.

I stared down at my mate as she continuously wiped her tears away. They kept coming no matter how much she wipped. Acaisia had looked away from me. Her body slumped and it was breaking my heart to see her this way. Even in my drunken state of anger I couldn't stand her being sad.

Dropping my bag I reached out and pulled her into me. I wrapped my arms around her and burried my head into her hair. Acaisia sobbed while I held her. She clutched onto the back of my shirt like she was afraid I would leave her still.

"I could never leave you." I whispered to her as I rubbed her back. "Don't cry baby. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I didn't love you better and I pushed you into another man's arms. I'm so sorry that I wasn't better to you." I whispered as she sobbed harder. "Shhh. It's alright my love. No matter what happens, or what you do I will always love you. You will always be mine, you'll always have my heart." I took a deep shaky breath as my own tears fell.

"I love you Acaisia. Always."

And I meant it. No matter what she did to me I would always be here. No matter how much she hurt me, how mean she was to me, I would never leave her. It hurt so much to not be in the same room as her, I could never imagine leaving her. I would die. Acaisia pulled back to look up in my eyes. I tired to give her a smile as I wipped her cheeks. They kept coming but at least she wasn't sobbing anymore.

"How can you say that?" She asked me.

I wasn't sure what part she was talking about and I honestly wasn't sure how much more conversation I could take tonight. "Because I mean it." I answered honestly.

Acaisia's mouth dropped open and she stepped out of my arms. I immediately missed her warmth but I made no move to go after her. Staring into the eyes of the woman I love, I wondered if she would ever love me back, if she would ever deem me good enough for her.

"How can you think you don't love me enough? How can you possibly be the one to apologize to me after everything I've put you through?" She asked bitterly.

"Because I love you and I can't stand seeing you upset." I told her.

"So you lie?" She asked incredulously.

"I would do anything for you Acaisia." I told her honestly.

Acaisia shook her head in disbelief.

"I don't deserve you." She mumbled so softly I almost didn't hear her.

Her beautiful deep blue eyes stared back up at me with a deep desperation.

"Bou, I am so sorry. I shouldn't have left, especially not with another guy. I was just angry at you for whatever the f**k you're keeping from me and I acted without thinking. I thought you would come running after me I didn't think..." She trailed off and I could see the guilt in her eyes as tears filled them.

Acaisia smacked her hands over her face. "I'm such a sorry excuse for a mate.

I reached out and pulled her hands from her face. Acaisia stared at the floor as tears fell from her eyes. I put a finger under her chin and lifted her head.

"I'm sorry for everything baby." I told her as I leaned in closer.

"I'm sorry for everything too." She said and then pushed herself the rest of the way into me.

Our lips connected and I felt lost in her instantly. All of the hurt I was feeling dissipated in seconds. I reached around her to grip her a*s and lifted her. Acaisia wrapped her legs around me.

Turning us around I knocked everything from her vanity to sit her on it, and I quickly reached between us to her core.

I ripped her silky panties from her body and hastily undid my jeans as Acaisia held onto my hair. The moment I pushed them down and freed my c**k I rammed it inside of her.

Acaisia gasped into my mouth and I slipped my tongue inside of hers. I pumped into her with so much force and speed I was sure she would be sore tomorrow, but I couldn't help it. I need this and I was hoping that Acaisia does too.

"Bou.. Don't stop." My mate panted out. "Don't ever stop loving me." She begged as she tugged on my hair.

I gripped her a*s as I rammed myself in and out of her with desperation.

"I'll never stop loving you baby." I whispered against her lips. "You'll own my heart long after I'm dead."

Acaisia moaned and tugged tigher on my hair. We were in a frenzy. Our moans bounced off the walls as we stared into each others eyes. I don't want to let her go, I don't want to ever lose her. I heard the sound of fabric tearing and looked down to see that Acaisia's dress was torn at the side. Reaching for it I tore the dress from her body and tossed it to the trash can in the corner of the room. The dress has bad juju now and I never want to see it again.

My movements were desperate and hard. Acaisia's p***y clenched around me and I moaned loudly. I pressed my lips to my mates again and she opened up for me immediately. Our tongues danced together just as crazy as our bodys moved together.

"Bou.." Acaisia moaned out again. "I love it when you f**k me." She told me as she started to kiss down my jaw. "I only want you Bou. No one else. Ever. Only you. I belong to you, my body, my heart. All of me is yours." She whispered as she placed kisses anywhere she could.

Her words had my heart soaring and had me f*****g her harder.

"Bou!" She moaned louder.

"f**k baby.. I'm gonna cum." I told her with a moan. "c*m with me baby."

I reached between us to rub that pretty pink bud of hers. Acaisia's eyes rolled back as her moans grew. She was saying my name over and over. Not Russell's or anyone else's, but mine. She knows who she belongs with.

The lamp next to the bed burst but we ignored it. Just like we ignored the fire that burst in the trashcan.

One more deep thrust and Acaisia's p***y had me in a lock. She clenched around me and held me in such a tight hold that I lost it and blew my load inside of her.

After a moment Acaisia's p***y released me. I pumped into her slowly a couple of times before pulling out completely.

Acaisia whimpered at the loss and I smiled down at her. I wasn't sure if she put the fire out and I wasn't sure how much I really care. I hope that stupid dress is ash now.

"I'm still drunk." I whispered loudly to her.

Acaisia giggled softly and rested her head on my chest.

"I'm so tired." She told me.

Without saying anything I lifted Acaisia up and walked her over to our bed. I gently sat her down and I lifted my shirt over my head and then put it on my beautiful mate.

Acaisia let out a huge yawn and I pulled the blankets back so she could snuggle in. Kissing her forehead I turned to the closet to put on a pair of sweat pants. I almost fell over twice but managed.

When I returned to the bed Acaisia was already asleep. I crawled into our bed behind her and pulled her close to me. My heart was still hurting a bit, and things between us were not fixed, but she's here, in my arms. She might have left me, and it might have been out of spite but she came back. That was something I held onto as sleep claimed me.