The Alphas’ P**n Star Mate
Chapter 69 – The Alphas’ Porn Star Mate

Staring into at myself, I started to feel inadequate. I'm skinny, with a flatter body than Chloe and the other woman I saw at the gate. I definitely do not have muscles like Chloe either. I noticed at the bar when she was working that she was curvy but strong. Her shirt would ride up a lot and you could see her abs. She would lug around heavy crates of liquor and beer without a struggle too. I'm skinny, with no abilities or exceptional features. The only remarkable thing about me is that somehow I'm now being loved by two amazing men.

Two amazing men that I couldn't even satisfy last night. Memories of Darren trying to take me while Billy was already inside me made a wave of shame wash over me. I had a slight panic attack and ruined the mood for both of them. I was a virgin less than a week ago. Now I have two men trying to put their enormous things in me at the same time. I didn't think it was even possible to take Darren inside me when I first saw him. It took me until morning to be able to without getting scared. Taking two seems crazy.

.... But I want to. I really want to be able to do it. I want to feel them both at the same time and have that thrilling connection where I'm nothing but sensation and pleasure with both of them, but I just don't know how that would look.

Fear is holding me back again. Fear and my own insecurities almost had me leaving the club the night Darren picked me. If not for Chloe, I would have left and wouldn't be here today. I wonder if maybe.... Maybe she can give me advice on this too. On the drive here, everyone kept talking about Chloe being mated to two mates. I was more sure about Billy being mine and Darren's when we first saw him because I heard so much talk about Chloe and two mates. She has to know what it is like taking two men then, right?

Is it weird that I feel more comfortable with the idea of talking to Chloe about this than with Darren or Billy? I'm starting to feel guilty because of that now too. They were so sweet the entire time we were together, and told me I never had to be worried about what they would think. When I started to panic, Darren pulled back and Billy stopped, both of them putting aside their own desires and needs to soothe me and make me feel reassured again. After I was calm and started to feel bad, I suggested trying again but neither one of them would do it. They held and caressed me until we all fell asleep.

As I was running my fingers over the bear print on my neck, now surrounded by teeth marks from Billy, the two men slowly opened the door, and peeked in behind me. They both had looks of concern on their faces.

I hurried to put back on a smile. "Good thing I was finished," I joked. Not that if they knocked on the door it would have mattered much. They've seen a lot more embarrassing things from me in the past two days than me peeing.

Billy came up behind me, wrapping his arms around me while kissing my neck. Darren stood leaning against the door frame, just watching.

"You okay, baby?" Billy asked.

"Yeah. Why wouldn't I be?" I responded too cheerfully, even to my own ears.

Darren sighed and pushed away from the door frame, coming to sandwich my body between his and Billy's. He lifted my chin and stared into my eyes, making my chest tighten from the tenderness I felt inside him. I felt the love and concern in both of them somehow. It got more intense the closer they were to me.

"We can feel you, Tink. We can feel it when you are feeling scared or depressed. It's not something we're going to ignore."

"Even if you tell us you're fine," Billy added.

I pressed my lips together, nervous about saying the truth about what was bugging me. Billy groaned softly, burying his nose in my neck, and Darren's tender eyes filled with sadness.

"Are you regretting coming here with me? Are you regretting us?" Darren asked.

"What? No! Of course not. That's not it at all."

"Then you need to tell us what you're thinking right now, Tink, or we are going to assume the worst."

My chest felt like a balloon was growing inside of it. I didn't want them to think I didn't want this, or that I didn't want them. I'm just scared that I'm not enough for the two of them.

"I just feel bad," I started by saying.

"For what, baby?" Billy asked, running his fingers up and down my bare arms.

"For last night," I admitted. "I....I feel like a failure."

"Oh, baby," Billy purred, wrapping both arms around me. Darren sighed and hugged us both so I was pressed against his broad naked chest. It was hot being between the two bulky men, temperature-wise and in other ways too, but I wasn't going to complain this time. The warmth was comforting and I could feel their true feelings for me. I could feel that they held nothing but concern for me.

"Don't ever feel like a failure with us, Tink. I shouldn't have pushed things to go past your comfort level."

"But I wanted to," I whispered roughly, feeling emotional again. "I just...." I bit my lips, feeling embarrassed. "You're huge, Darren. You're both big. It scared me."

"You're telling me," Billy muttered. "I thought my spine was being split in half."

I gasped and Darren groaned, giving Billy a leveled look.

"I mean, it felt amazing, but you are huge," Billy added. "It scared the shit out of me at first too. I get why you're scared," Billy kissed the side of my face. "Don't feel bad about something silly like that. We can take turns."

I felt a little better knowing Billy was scared too. If this supernatural, super-human, super-experienced person was scared, that makes me feel a little less like a failure.

"We're moving at your pace, Tink. When you're ready, we can try again. If you're never ready," Darren smiled and shrugged, "taking turns is just as satisfying."

"We're here for your pleasure, baby. Not the other way around."

"So quit worrying," Darren husked, kissing my jawline.

"But," I murmured, momentarily lost in the electrical currents moving inside me whenever their mouths touched any part of my skin. "But, I really wanted to. I just... I don't, uh, know what to expect." It's way more extreme than anything I have seen in regular movies or reading the few dirty books my cousins and sister have lent me.

"Would it help to see it?" Billy asked. "Want to watch porn?"

I giggled and shook my head. "I was just thinking about asking Chloe."

"Chloe?" Darren looked confused, and maybe a bit concerned.

I nodded. "She has two mates too. I thought that maybe she would know.... I mean, I thought she would have experience with this kind of thing."

Darren grimaced and Billy chuckled.

"What?" I asked.

Billy was grinning wildly, staring up at Darren. "She was honest with us. You should be honest too, Dare."