The Alpha’s Rejected And Broken Mate
Chapter 68

Amber POV

Rowan's still avoiding me, but I've had enough. I stomp downstairs and glare at him, still seething over his having marked me. To his credit, he took one look at me and then looked away, almost as though he was ashamed. "Are you ever going to have the decency to come and talk to me" I snarled, thoroughly fed up and tired of everything. For a mate, he sure as hell sucked as one. Rowan sighed. He glanced at me guiltily. "Look" he began "I'm so sorry for marking you like that, it was my wolf Daemon, he just took over and did it before I could stop him."

"Stop making excuses" I snapped, "you were angry at me because of the pregnancy, admit it."

He ran a hand through his already slightly disheveled hair and had the decency to at least look me in the eyes this time. "I was angry, yes," he said slowly "because you failed to mention it to me and so did your parents. Can you blame me?" he asked quietly "it was a bit of a shock, especially considering we're mates. Daemon was crazy thinking about you carrying someone else's pup."

Screw Daemon, I thought to myself viciously. He had no right to do what he did, jealousy or otherwise.

I put my hand on my hips and glowered at him. "What about the marriage?" I asked lowly "the one you paid my parents for? What's happening with that?"

He paused and glanced out the window. I followed his eyes, frowning as I took in Stacey wandering past the window, the breeze flowing through her hair, her dress billowing in the wind. If he still had feelings for Stacey he could at least admit it to me! So much for this so-called sacred mate bond.

"Look," he said, gesturing me to sit, which I did, albeit a bit sulkily "things are complicated right now. I admit that. I don't know what I want to do, especially since my ex-girlfriend may be carrying my biological child. I'm in a tough spot right now, between a rock and a hard place you might say."

How nice of him to explain it to me like I was a child incapable of grasping the concept.

"Do you still have feelings for her?" I asked, wanting to know the answer.

"I didn't think so, but lately I've been thinking about her and what we used to have," he said bluntly.

Ouch, that stung. I wish I could fling Darius in his face, but it was a little hard to do that when Darius had married Sophie. I wish I had an ex-boyfriend to brag about, one that wasn't married. Damnit.

"Well at least you are are honest" I countered back, folding my arms across my chest "but what exactly do you expect me to do in the meantime?"

He frowns, looking bewildered. "What do you mean?" he asked, completely oblivious.

God, I wanted to roll my eyes or scream at him. Was he really that obtuse? Did he really think I would be content to just stay here in the pack and wait for him to make a decision? Maybe it was a male thing, but he was really coming across as an i***t.

"I mean," I said stiffly "do you expect me to just wait around forever? Especially" I hesitated and put a hand across my stomach "considering I have a child on the way, that I have to consider."

His mouth opened and closed, and His whole demeanor changed to a much angrier one. "Well, you can't leave" he shot out like I had forgotten "and I guess I'm asking exactly that of you" he finished rather lamely.

"Rowan, let's be real. I'm not going to wait until I've given birth for you to decide whether you want me or not. What about what I want?" I asked him "that should be taken into consideration too, don't you think?"

There was a knock on the study door and Rowan merely raised his eyebrows at me, before giving a loud shout "come in," clearly grateful for the interruption, while I sat there seething, my anger continuing to rise. Beta Laurence came into the room, an omega behind him, a tray of cups of tea sitting on a tray, which she placed politely on the huge study desk, before quickly withdrawing.

"I thought we could all use a nice cup of tea and then maybe we can all talk rationally, like adults," Laurence said hastily, plinking himself down on the armchair beside me and crossing his ankles. "You can hear the both of you going at it in the hallway, just so you're aware" he finished firmly.

I scowled at the man. I was surprised to see that Stacey wasn't joining us. Surely she was just as pissed off as I was about being in limbo, although I couldn't help remembering, Rowan hadn't seen fit to use his alpha tone on her. "Where's Stacey?" asked Rowan.

"She's under guard outside, don't stress. She's not going anywhere we don't know about" Laurence said with some satisfaction, before gesturing to the tea.

I reluctantly took one, glancing down at it. It was a herbal tea, that smelled like peppermint and a hint of something else, that I couldn't quite put my mind to.

It did smell delicious and my mouth watered as I slowly took a sip.

Rowan grabbed a cup of tea, as did Laurence, both of them slowly sipping away and eyeing me warily as though I was about to attack them or shift. I was a bit insulted. Lilac and I were both in control now and wouldn't shift unless we absolutely had to, wanting to conserve our energy for our growing pup. Not that they needed to know that. It would serve them right if they were a little afraid of me.

"So have you learned anything from your wolf?" asked Laurence with interest, leaning closer to ask me as I sipped at my herbal tea. It tasted remarkably sweet for tea.

"Yes" I said proudly and then glanced between the two of them, unable to prevent myself from bragging just a little. "I can turn undesirables into full fledged shifters, vampires, witches, you name it. I turned Tessa" I added, remembering my friend who had been ecstatic to finally have a wolf.

"Awesome" Laurence said with genuineness. He glanced at Rowan who looked equally impressed "I've been trying to research white wolves but haven't been able to come across much. To have that much power" he shook his head and then realization dawned "you turned Tessa into a full fledged shifter?"

"I brought her wolf to the surface" I corrected him, "technically she was still a full fledged shifter, I should have worded it differently."

"Wow" breathed Laurence.

I finished my drink and sighed, leaning backwards. I was too tired to argue with Rowan anymore, no matter how much the man provoked me into fighting with him. Part of me could understand where he was coming from and feel compassionate about it, but another part of me was selfish and wanting to debate the fact that mates should stay together. Besides, I needed to think about what was best for my baby.

"What else can you do?" asked Laurence, his eyes sparkling. He waited with anticipation for me to speak and I hated to disappoint him. "I'm afraid that's all I know of."

We can do other things as well, but I can't risk our enemies knowing what powers we possess. I cannot risk you telling anyone.

Then why not at least tell me? Are you afraid that I'll accidentally let it slip Lilac?

That's exactly what I'm afraid of. It wouldn't be intentional, but an accident and your enemies could find out. It's better to be safe than sorry.

But I want to know what we're capable of.

You will in time.

I frowned and cut off Lilac, a little annoyed. My own wolf didn't trust me for heaven's sakes! What did a girl have to do to get some trust around here? Part of me was chagrined and another part of me whispered that Lilac was right. But what did she mean by our enemies? I didn't have any enemies, not unless you counted Luna Marian and she had been a b***h to me for years. She was hardly a threat now that I had left her pack behind. I suppose you could count my father, but I hadn't heard from him since I'd come to Rowan's pack either, and it was hardly likely that he was going to find out that I finally had a wolf, or that it was a rare or unique one.

I placed the now empty cup of tea onto the tray and grimaced, leaning back in the chair and feeling uncomfortable. Beads of sweat began to run down my forehead, even though it was quite a cold and chilly day. My hands began to feel clammy and my breathing became heavy. Not only that, but there was now massive cramping in my stomach, which was causing me to become rather panicked.

"Something's wrong" I managed to wheeze out, but Rowan was already jumping to his feet and helping me to stand, making Laurence move the chair out of the way. I fell and he gathered me up in his arms. I smelt blood and instantly I knew. I was bleeding. Panic went into overdrive. Laurence looked helpless, but Rowan moved, faster than I believed he could, running with me in his arms and yelling for people to get out of his way as my arms clung weakly around his neck. He gripped me tight, trying to prevent jostling me too much as I leant over to the side and puked, all of the contents of my stomach coming up. I felt lightheaded and my head slumped back against his chest as he raced towards the building in the distance, the hospital.

He slammed through the entrance and a woman dr came rushing up. By this time it felt like I was spinning, and I closed my eyes, leaning against Rowan for support as his arms cradled me protectively.

"What's happened?" asked the woman, motioning for us to follow her into an empty room.

"I don't know" Rowan said abruptly "she suddenly started to sweat and she almost collapsed back in the room. She's experiencing cramping and" he paused, his expression grim "she's bleeding as well."

"Oh dear" the woman said urgently "put her on the bed, while I grab an ultrasound machine. What's her name?"

I couldnt' speak, I was too busy trying to breath.

"Her name is Amber."

"Alright, Amber, I need you to lie still okay. I'm taking your pants and underwear off so that I can perform the ultrasound and determine how much you are bleeding."

I just laid there shaking. I was terrified for my child. Then Lilac began to speak to me, sounding resigned.

We're going to have to use up all our energy to heal you. You ingested a poison and if we don't then you're going to miscarry our pup.

We can heal?

Yes. But you need to gather what strength you have left to do this Amber or our pup is going to die. Can you do that?

Just tell me what to do. I'm not letting our child die Lilac.

Right, picture yourself and the poison running through your veins. It will be black, like a shadow inside your body. Picture a white light forming from the palm of your hand and then guide it to your stomach. Picture the poison fading away. You can do this Amber, I have faith in you.

God help me, Lilac don't let me fail.

I won't. You will have my strength as well.

I began to picture a white light forming at the palm of my hand as the doctor performed her ultrasound. In my mind's eye I could see blackness in my veins. I felt heat at the palm of my hand and looked, gasping out loud as I saw a white light in the shape of a sphere in my hand. Rowan was gaping and the doctor was staring at me in stunned silence. I ignored them both and brought the palm of my hand towards my stomach, where the light stayed floating. Now push it down so it goes inside of you.

I pushed it down, seeing in my mind's eye, the blackness slowly fading away as the light disappeared into my stomach. Instantly I felt better, the sweating stopping and my breathing becoming a lot easier. My body stopped shaking and the cramping disappeared. But I also felt exhausted all of a sudden, my eyes beginning to flutter closed. I must have used up all of my strength. The last thing I heard was the doctor speaking to Rowan in a hushed voice, full of awe.

"I don't know what's happening but she just managed to prevent her miscarriage. The bleeding is gone, look! The baby's heartbeat is fine and it's doing well. It's like she just healed herself." Then darkness overtook me and I knew no more.