The Four Beta Brothers
Chapter 95

JUNIPER

Ethan carried my things into his apartment, despite my protests. Since we left my pack, we hadn't said much to each other that wasn't about the plan to approach Alpha Williams or the equivalent of small talk, and it was killing me. There were so many things on my mind that I wanted to say to him, and there were so many things I wanted to do with him.

However, he had a distant look in his eyes every time I looked at him, which made it hard to approach him. I wanted to reach out and hold his hand and tell him everything would be okay, but how could I? His father caused the death of his brother and is trying to kill the man he was sworn to protect, all while Nathan was missing. I couldn't say everything was going to be okay when I didn't know if that was true.

"You can sleep on my bed if you want," Ethan offered. "I can take the couch."

It wasn't that late, but I was worn out after traveling. As nice as sleep sounded, I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep like this, especially if Ethan was in the other room.

"Or you can sleep in your own bed with me," I said. My heart was pounding at the suggestion. I thought about the kiss Ethan and I had shared, which only made my heart race more. I knew he wanted me, even if he was good at keeping his distance. That one break in his composure was enough for me to feel confident about his feelings. I wasn't as confident he would give into those feelings.

Ethan set our bags near the couch and then leaned against the back of it, so he was facing me. "What about Axel?"

Ethan can kiss you all he wants, but until you tell me you don't want to be with me, I'm not going anywhere.

I remembered Axel's words, and I knew that I could trust him to still be there when I told the brothers what I wanted. It was the rest of them that I was unsure of.

My hands shook as I thought about what I was going to say. "When my memories came flooding back, I saw the moment James died. I felt the pain of losing him, and it felt like a part of me died with him."

"Juniper, I had no idea," he said. He pressed his hands into the back of the couch, as if he was trying to hold himself back from crossing the room to me. "I can't imagine how that felt."

"But then this overwhelming feeling of love replaced that emptiness. It was almost as if I could see my heartstrings being woven together with yours and all of your brothers. Even Nathan. I had never felt so whole in my entire life. I don't know how or why, but I know the Moon Goddess blessed me to be all of your mates," I said, taking a step towards Ethan.

His knuckles turned white as he gripped the couch. It was taking everything in him to stay in his place. His eyes locked onto mine, and the conflict raged in them. "Juniper..." He seemed at a loss for words, which wasn't like him.

"I want to be with you, Ethan. But I also don't want to deny the connection with your brothers. If you can accept me that way, then I'm yours." There was only a foot between us now, but I didn't move any closer. I wanted Ethan to make the final decision. If he wanted to be with me, then it was up to him to close the distance.

"Life with me as your mate won't be easy. I am destined to be the beta, which means my mate will have a lot of responsibilities, too. I don't want to force that kind of life on you," he said.

I wanted to laugh. As I confessed my feelings to him, he was still trying to do what was best for me, even at his own expense. That was why my decision was so simple.

"My life has been hard for a long time, but I know that if I have you by my side, I can get through anything. I'm more than familiar with hard work. I love you, and if I have to take on extra responsibilities to be with you, then I'll do what I have to. I'm tired of fighting my feelings. I'm tired of worrying about choosing just one of you. I know what I want, and nothing will deter me from that any more. The only question is, do you want me?"

I licked my lips, waiting for Ethan's answer. For a brief moment, I thought about what it would be like if he rejected me. Even the thought made my heart ache. I didn't want to know what it would feel like if he fully rejected me, but I also knew that Axel would be there for me, no matter what happened.

"I have always wanted you," Ethan whispered. His walls crumbled in front of me, and I knew that this would be the moment everything changed between us.

Ethan roughly grabbed the back of my neck, and then his lips were on mine. He grabbed me as if I was everything he ever needed in life. I pressed my body against his, desperate to feel every inch of him. Months of tension led to this moment, and nothing would stop me from having every part of Ethan. We had kissed once, but that wasn't enough. I didn't think it would ever be enough when it came to him.

Ethan grabbed for my shirt, just as desperate for more as I was. I lifted my arms up, working in tandem with him to remove my shirt. Not even a split second later, his lips were on mine again, tasting and exploring every inch of my mouth.

One of his hands dug into my lower back, keeping my torso pressed against his. His other hand snaked around and unhooked my bra with ease. He grabbed my b****t with his free hand, and his touch was warm and rough. Tingles spread through my body, and I arched my back into his touch, greedy for more.

Ethan leaned down and took my other breast in his mouth, giving me exactly what I wanted. His tongue flicked the budding n****e. Then he lightly nipped the spot, making me squeak. He started sucking again, and the mix of pain and pleasure sent my head reeling. I dug my nails into his shoulders, desperate to stop my head from spinning, but that was impossible.

Touching Ethan was pure pleasure in a way that made every thought stop dead. All I could focus on was the way his tongue explored my body and the way his hands gripped me, telling me this was everything he had been thinking of.

I pulled at Ethan's shirt, unclasping one button at a time. I wanted my hands to run over his bare skin. After a moment, Ethan growled, too impatient at the slow pace. He grabbed his shirt and ripped it open. Buttons flew in different directions, but neither of us cared. Nothing was funny about this moment. Nothing could distract us from finally indulging in the forbidden fruit we tried to desperately avoid for months.

My fingers fumbled with his pants, eager to release the beast inside. This time, Ethan didn't help me. Instead, he licked and nipped at my neck, while his hands played with the hem of my pants. I grunted, trying to stay focused on removing his pants. The rumble in his chest told me he knew exactly what he was doing to me, and he loved knowing he could distract me so easily.

I tossed his belt to the side and started working on the button on his pants. At the same time, Ethan slipped his hand into my pants. His fingers found my slit, and I knew he could feel just how slick with desire I was. I gasped as two fingers entered me. Despite the limited space he had to work within my clothes, Ethan skillfully moved his hands, turning my body into a puddle as he touched me in every way that sent spurts of pleasure ringing through my skin. I could only imagine what he would be able to do with my pants off. My breath was shallow as I lost focus on everything I was doing. Instead of removing Ethan's pants, I held onto them to keep me steady. I pressed my head against his chest as he continued pumping me in and out with his fingers. Ethan grabbed my chin and made me look up at him.

His eyes sparkled while his other hand continued moving in ways I didn't fully understand. He pressed his lips against mine again, but this time was more gentle. The speed of his fingers mixed with the slow pace of his lips was confusing and exhilarating all at the same time.

A wave of pleasure crashed down on me without warning, and I nearly collapsed from the intense pleasure that made my every muscle seize. Ethan held my waist, keeping me steady as I caught my breath. "Wow," I muttered, unsure of what to say.

Ethan smirked at my response. He removed his hand from my pants and licked his fingers. "Wow, indeed."

My face flushed, knowing his comment was because of tasting me. I didn't realize how much that small gesture turned me on, and I knew I wasn't ready to stop. I slowly sank to my knees and returned my attention to Ethan's pants. Without any distractions, I was easily able to finish unbuttoning his pants.

I pulled down his pants and boxers at the same time. His large member quickly greeted me, already at full mass. He made me feel good, and I wanted to return the favor. Ethan watched as I took the base of his length in one hand and the tip in my mouth. He growled as I swirled my tongue around, but he never took his eyes off me.

I kept my gaze locked on his as I took as much of him in my mouth as I could. Ethan lost his composure as I sucked and stroked him with my tongue, while my hand pumped what I couldn't fit in my mouth. He bit his lip to keep in his moans, but he never looked away from me.

I had done this with previous boyfriends before, but it had always felt like a chore they demanded from me. With Ethan, it was nothing like that. He stroked my hair gently, making me feel loved and wanted, not just desired for a quick release. This only made me want to please him even more. I wanted to make him feel as good as he made me feel. I wanted to show him how much I cared through every stroke.

I picked my pace up, and Ethan wasn't able to hold back his moans any longer. He started thrusting to meet me, and I could tell he was getting close to finishing by the way his c**k twitched in my mouth.

Suddenly, Ethan stopped me. "I don't want to finish like this. I want to finish with you."

He bent down and scooped me up in his arms. He kissed me as he carried me to his bedroom, where I knew we would finally come together as one.