The Luna's Pure Heart
The Luna’s Pure Heart – Chapter 62

(Damion pov)

Titus barreled through the thick forest, fury coursing through him. Not just for the woman who hurt our mate..but Titus was outraged at me. He was disappointed with how I let this whole thing happen. How I was stupid enough to come up with that plan to begin with.

‘f**k!’

I roared in my mind.

‘This is all your fault..now our mate will never trust us again!’

Titus yelled at me through our link, we had to be miles away from the castle now. After Titus took over and attacked Piper, he looked back towards our mate as she stood there with her hands covering her face, sobbing..I wanted to hold her, to tell her I never meant any of it. But Titus ran, the fear of rejection filling him, that was the first time he ever showed fear..

‘We need to go back, we need to explain everything Titus.’

I hissed, knowing we are wasting valuable time being away from her..I needed Eleanor..I needed her to live in this world and the fact that she is suffering right now hurts me more than anything. Seeing the look in her eyes, how she questioned everything..how she wondered if I even loved her to begin with. How could she even think that?

‘Because she is too good for us, we don’t deserve her Damion, we are nothing but a monster like you always said.’

Titus snarled, I had never seen him like this in my life, he was spiraling fast. He never once referred to himself as a monster..not once..this was concerning.

‘Titus, you are being ridiculous. Turn around now! Eleanor loves us, she loves you!’

I yelled, angry with my wolf for doing this, for running away and showing fear..he was always the strong one..he was always the one to take control..now he was running away like a f*****g coward.

‘Enough!’

He yelled angrily and threw me back, making darkness consume me as I lost consciousness.

The air was thick and suffocating as I tried my hardest to take a deep breath. I had been here so many times before, but this time felt like my own personal hell..this time was different because I had someone waiting for me..someone that I wanted to fight for but those invisible shackles kept me in place. They kept me in this prison that was so deep inside of my mind. I could feel her, our bond so f*****g pure and strong, I could feel her heart aching..the longer I was away the more doubts she had.

‘I love you Eleanor..I promise I love you with all of my heart.’

I tried to tell her, I tried so hard to reach her, to reassure her and comfort her but he wouldn’t let me..he kept running..the fear of losing something that meant so much to him making him scared for the first time in his life.

I can’t live this way anymore..I don’t want to live this way. I should of never even come up with a plan like that, I knew it would come back to bite me in the a*s. Titus was right about that..I needed to stop fighting this.

I needed to stop fighting him..

‘Titus, we need to turn back.’

I spoke softly, the darkness growing even thicker, consuming every part of me.

‘Titus please..our mate would never reject us..she would never reject you. She loves you.’

I mumbled, my words barely a whisper as I felt every part of me slipping away.

‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry for never accepting you, for always pushing you away and treating you like a monster. You are strong, you are powerful, but most importantly..you care for her and protect her better than I ever could. We have to do this together..I need you Titus..she needs you.’

I felt the words trickle from my mouth, unsure if they are falling on deaf ears as everything around me began to go numb. I knew if he pushed me so far away, I would get lost in this darkness and he would stay a wolf until I came back, if I came back at all.

Sometimes humans can get lost in their wolves, mostly after heartbreak or being injured too badly..but Titus was so strong he could overpower my mind easily. Would this be the thing that makes him finally take me over completely? I wasn’t sure how much time had passed but it felt like hours until I finally was able to fully breathe again. That thick darkness began to dissipate as I could start to feel my body coming back to consciousness.

‘Fine, but you have to promise to stop fighting me so much.’

Titus finally spoke, his words echoing around me. I was surprised, he had been listening.

‘I promise..you know she loves every part of us.’

I added softly, feeling relief as Titus finally released his grasp, letting me go as I sprung forward, breaching that overwhelming darkness.

Looking outside, it was night now, Titus sniffed the air and we were at least an hour away from the castle.

‘Come on, let’s go get our mate.’

He growled, howling into the night as we began our race back home.

Something felt different this time, like Titus was learning to trust me more. I know I have really messed up and I have pushed him away just as much as he did me but this time it will be different..I will be more accepting and understanding from now on..it just sucks that it came to this to finally bring us to an official understanding..

When Eleanor told me she wanted to talk to that woman I had a gut feeling something bad was going to happen. Then she told her all of those horrible things and intentionally tried to hurt our Eleanor..f**k her..she is lucky Titus stopped when he did. I knew she wasn’t dead..but let it be a warning to anyone who thinks they can disrespect their king and queen. After this incident, things are going to change around here and I am going to come down on every single person who has shown any type of allegiance to anyone but me.

We ran our way back towards the castle as my anxiety rose with every single step. We shouldn’t have left like that..we shouldn’t have gone this far and left Eleanor all alone.

Not only did she think that I was betraying her all of this time but we left her by herself to dwell in those horrible thoughts..

‘We really messed up.’

I told Titus with a deep sinking feeling..what the hell was wrong with us?

‘She will forgive us..she knows we love her.’

He said reassuringly, which kind of pissed me off because he was the one who was freaking out and ran to begin with..but I can’t dwell on that, we just have to focus on finding Eleanor and explaining everything.

Just as we made our way through the forest, I could see the lights from the castle shimmering through the tree line. I knew I was close enough now to link Eleanor..I needed to hear her voice, I needed to know she was okay.

‘Eleanor, please talk to me.’

I didn’t know what to say..I didn’t know if she even wanted to see me..

‘You left me..’

Her small voice shot through me and went straight to my heart..making a low unbearable pain pulse through me. She thinks I left her..she thinks I don’t want her.

‘No Eleanor please, Titus, he was just freaking out..please just let me explain.’

I tried to respond but she blocked the link..she is shutting us out.

F**k..no, no, no..this can’t be happening..how the hell is this happening right now.

‘Where is she?’

I growled into Lance’s link, knowing for a fact he had to be by her.

‘Damion, maybe you should give her some space..she is pretty upset.’

He had the audacity to tell me..

‘Where the f**k is she Lance.’

I was about to f*****g lose it..I needed to see her, I needed to explain myself..then if she didn’t want to see me I would respect that and give her space.

‘In your room.’

His voice was clipped and his attitude towards me was honestly about to push me too far..I better stay clear of Lance because I don’t think I can control myself right at this moment.

I lunged towards the house, shifting right as I reached the back door and practically yanked it off its hinges. I quickly grabbed a pair of pants and made my way to the elevator. Every single person I passed bowing and submitting as they showed their respect.

I slammed the elevator button, waiting impatiently as the doors slowly opened and stepped in.

My heart was racing, my palms sweaty and my breathing deep and ragged. I needed to see her, that is the only way this feeling of dread will go away. These feelings that my world was crumbling right before my eyes and there was nothing I could do to stop it.

Once I finally reached my floor, I didn’t even hesitate..I ran out of the elevator only to be met with Lance and Lucas sitting on the couch. I rushed past them, not even entertaining Lance’s judgemental looks as the smell of my mate swirled around me..already calming my nerves immediately.

I reached for the door, pushing it open swiftly as I looked inside of our dark bedroom. I could hear the sound of quiet sobs and it took everything in me to not fall to my knees in agony. I could feel her pain, her sadness, and the betrayal she felt..I broke her..I f*****g broke the most important thing in the world. The woman that means everything to me.

“Eleanor, darling..” I whispered, walking to the bed as I saw her small frame curled up in a ball. Her hands were covering her face as she lay there crying.

I reached my hand out, needing to touch her, to feel her warmth and those sparks beneath my skin. I needed to know she was still mine, to know that our bond was still there and I didn’t somehow destroy that too..that I didn’t break us completely.

I laid my palm flat against her back, letting out a deep sigh of relief as I immediately felt her warmth rushing through me. I didn’t break it..I didn’t ruin our bond.

“Darling, I am so sorry..I am sorry for everything.” I sat on the bed, my movements slow and cautious..the fear of scaring her off making me take my time as I began to wrap my arms around her. I just needed to be close, I needed to have her beneath me..to know she was here and breathing.

“Eleanor, please say something.” I whispered as I pulled her close to me, the sound of her shuddering breath making my heart ache.

“Was all of this a lie? Did you ever really love me?” Her words ruined me..I knew we shouldn’t have ran away..I f*****g knew it would cause her to doubt everything.

I felt Titus slump down, a whimper leaving him as the realization of what he did finally set in..

“Of course I love you, I love you with every part of my soul. You mean everything to me Eleanor and to know I hurt you..to know that I did this to you..it’s completely destroying me. To know I hurt the one person I vowed to love and protect with my life..f**k Eleanor I messed up..I should of never even done it to begin with..the plan was pointless, it was just a way for me to try and control my feelings..” My voice filled with emotion as tears filled my eyes. I don’t think I have ever cried like this, not since that one day..that day I thought there would be nothing left to live for..and now I am losing my reason again.

Suddenly I felt her turning in my arms, her body moving to face me now as her big turquoise eyes met mine. I let out a gasp, seeing her tears making my own fall now as the pain written on her face was enough to shatter whatever control I had left.

“I’m so sorry..I love you, I promise I love you..please don’t leave me..please don’t give up on me.” I closed my eyes, feeling hopeless as the woman I love lay hurt in my arms.

“Damion..I just..I need to know. When did it become real for you?” She spoke softly but I could still hear the worry and fear so clearly in her voice.

I lifted my hand, cupping her cheek as she closed her eyes and leaned into me..seeing her reaction bringing me some relief..she still reacted to me the same.

“When you accepted Titus..that was when I knew I couldn’t go through with it and fight my feelings for you.” It was hard to admit, because I know there were moments before that where we were intimate..but that was the moment I decided to really give Eleanor all of myself.

She just nodded her head and let out a sigh..at least she had stopped crying now but I knew she was still hurting.

“I know I have hurt you and you might not trust me right now..but please just know that I will do everything to earn that trust back..to show you that since that day at the market I really gave you all of myself..I promise you Eleanor.” I needed her to know that I won’t give up on us..that she is my everything and I need her just to breathe.

Eleanor sniffled and fluttered her eyes open, looking up at me as she bit her l*p nervously. f**k I wanted to k**s her so bad but I knew I shouldn’t push her too soon.

“I love you Damion but I think I need some time to think about everything..” She said nervously, and my heart dropped. I know this was a lot for her but I wish we could just go back to how it was..f**k..this was going to be hard.

“I understand..” I tried not to sound too disappointed. What the hell was wrong with me? This woman has completely turned my world upside down. I went from not caring and never showing my emotions to now having an internal breakdown all because she needs a little time to think.

“Don’t be mad, but I think I should stay in my old room tonight..” she said hesitantly and my eyes widened..wait, she wasn’t even going to be in the same room as me?

“No, you can stay here, I will go to the other room.” I said firmly, I can’t let her leave our room..I don’t want it to be like before..I don’t want her to be anywhere else but here in our bed.

“Are..are you sure? This was your room first..” she began and I was trying my hardest not to get frustrated with this whole thing..I didn’t like how she was separating things now. This is her room as much as it is mine..I’m not letting her leave it.

“I want you to stay here.” I began to pull away, wanting to leave before she could fight me further.

Suddenly she gripped my arms, stopping me and holding me tightly as she looked up into my eyes.

“Damion..please..please don’t give up on me..I just need to think but you will wait for me right?” She asked worriedly, her big eyes searching my own as I let out a deep breath.

“I’m not going anywhere Bunny..no matter what. You take all the time you need and I will be here waiting..I promise.” I assured her, feeling her body relax beneath me as she nodded her head softly.

I couldn’t help but pull her closer as I buried my face into her hair, breathing her scent deeply. Trying to capture a part of her to stay with me because I knew without a doubt that these next few days without her would be the hardest time of my life..