Arranged To The Alpha
Chapter 59

Natalia:

“What are you doing?” I asked Blake, raising an eyebrow at him as he tried getting out of bed.

“Natalia…”

“Blake, we have literally been over this a hundred times right now. Come on” I said, shaking my head at his stubborn behavior. I swear, the man was as stubborn as a child who didn’t want to sit still.

He sighed and laid back, knowing that I wouldn’t let him move, I haven’t been allowing him to for the past week, and I wasn’t going to do so now, at least, not until the doctors said that he could.

“Nat, you know that I can’t stay in bed all day” he said, growing frustrated. I laughed at his childish behavior but didn’t bother responding as I helped him adjust his legs on the bed. The two of us have been together in this hospital room since they brought him in here, and despite him asking me to go home and rest, seeing as I needed it in his opinion, I kept refusing, not wanting to leave him alone in case he needed anything.

“Blake, you are still injured, and you need to rest. The doctors told you how bad the injuries are, come on” I said, shaking my head at my husband who sighed. I sat on the edge of the bed beside him, and taking his hand in mine, I squeezed it gently as he intertwined our fingers “I know that you’re getting tired of this, and I know that this is the last thing that you want to deal with; but for now, we are forced to take things slow to ensure that YOU are back on your feet and that you are healthy enough to withstand what we will be going through. I know that it is hard, but for now, we can do nothing about it”

“Nat, the man is out there…”

“No problem, let him stay out there. Let him rot in whatever hell he’s created for himself to live at while YOU heal and regain your strength. I don’t know if you’re processing a word that I am saying right now, but Blake, you matter to me more than getting into a fight with a prick like himself, and I believe that you are well aware that the last thing I want right now is for you to end up getting more injuries while these haven’t healed yet” I said, looking my mate in the eye. He sighed but nodded, knowing that there was no use arguing with me now, I wasn’t going to budge, and it wasn’t like he could do anything about it either. The man was still hurt, and even the doctors were preventing him from making too much effort.

“What have I done right in this world to deserve an angel like yourself?” Blake asked, making my heart skip a beat. The two of us knew that we were both nowhere near making up completely after everything that happened between us, but we also knew that at times like this, we were to stay by one another’s side until things got better. Maybe by time, the topics would have cooled down a bit and the two of us would be able to actually talk instead of fight, but for now, we were choosing to keep the talking about problems to a bare minimum.

“At times, I’m your angel, and at others, I’m the little devil that you find the need to try and tame” I teased, squeezing his hand gently. Blake chuckled and brought my hand to his lips, kissing my knuckle gently. He pulled me closer, and smiling, I lay my head on his chest as he played with my hair.

“You will forever be my angel, Natalia. No matter how many times we fight, I want you to keep in mind that my love for you will always be infinite” he said, making my heart swell. I didn’t know whether it was his sweet talk that always got me, the fact that we were mates, or the fact that I was truly in love with him that had me forgiving him so easily. But I knew one thing, if there was anything that I was sure of in this world, it was my feelings for him. I had realized them when I saw him asleep on that hospital bed after his surgery. The fear that I had of losing him, and the pain that I felt in my chest at the fact that I would have lost him while the two of us were still fighting was something that I would never forget, and I knew that had I lost him that night, without even responding to him telling me that he loves me, I wouldn’t have been able to forgive myself for it.

“I love you a lot, Blake” I said, making his eyes widen in surprise at how sudden I was. But I wanted him to know that his feelings were not one sided, and though I knew that he was well aware of the fire in my chest towards him. That fire was one that would eat me alive if I didn’t control it, I was aware of that; however, at times, I didn’t really care. I realized when I saw him on this bed, in that ICU, or when we took him to the hospital to begin with that life was too short for me to worry about fire eating us. Maybe he was right, the two of us argued a lot because we were married without knowing one another, and though toxic, I knew that if we wanted to, we could find a way, somehow, to get out of this together.

“I haven’t told you that I love you too when you got injured. I was scared…”

“Now, now, Natalia” Blake said, stopping me. He tightened his arm around me, ignoring the fact that he was actually still injured, and looking up at him, his eyes softened “the two of us have been through more hell than anyone could ever think of, and considering the fact that you were upset with me, I should be thankful that you’re willing to speak more than a few words to me right now”

I smiled, and looking down at my shoulder, it was still bandaged due to bleeding, and he sighed before running his finger over it. The bleeding would stop for a bit, but me moving my shoulder was enough for the wound to bleed again, and that was something that Blake knew and needless to say, didn’t like.

“I won’t be able to forgive myself for doing this to you. I could have hurt more than just your shoulder, and shifting on you is something that I should never have the right to do” he said, making me look down at his chest “I know that I lost it, and I know that you hate me for it, mostly because of the reason. I can’t really do anything to take it back, but believe me, if I could, I wouldn’t hesitate to do so”

“I wouldn’t have lost you if I hadn’t done so” he said, breaking my heart. I looked up at him before connecting our lips together, kissing him first for the first time since I entered this room. He was usually the one kissing me, and he knew that it would take me a few seconds to debate, convince myself, and not hesitate to k**s him back. Blake kissed me back, his k**s gentle, and pulling away, I rested my forehead against his.

“I thought you said the divorce paper is irrelevant” I teased, making him chuckle.

“It is, but you know exactly what I’m talking about” Blake said, smiling softly at me “I know that it would take a while, but whatever it needs, and whatever it takes; I will be sure to fight to get your heart back…”

“You know that you have my heart, Blake” I said, looking at him. If it weren’t for my love for him, the two of us knew very well that I wouldn’t be here. Hell, I don’t think anyone in my shoes would have been here, but if a person was in love, I have the belief that exceptions could be made. How? Why? Or when? I don’t know, but I came to realize that love had its own rules, maybe it was why it was always related to life and death.

Love, a simple feeling.

One that can make you feel so alive or one that could break you down to the point where you could never breathe again. It just depended on how you treated it.

“I do, and I am more than thankful for that, baby girl” he whispered before pulling me closer “but it is your trust that I need to earn. And I give you my word, if it is the last thing I have to do, I will earn it, Natalia…”