Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 104

I stared at the small office that I knew was still open across the street, trying to build the courage to get there, just walk inside the f*****g door Andrea and beg Angela to take you back, no matter that you have been gone for over two months, just disappearing on her a*s, oh and that I was pregnant with a guy that was dead, executed by my addict boyfriend. Otherwise, everything was great.

I was just about to take a deep breath and go over when I saw him, James. He looked like he was stressed when he walked faster and I knew he couldn't see me when he walked towards the office and inside making me even more curious, I didn't understand, I thought James didn't like Angela, that she was a bitch when I just stood there and didn't know if I was supposed to even show my face.

Maybe I just should disappear completely, away from his life, f**k. James.... I made a heavy sigh. I was just trouble to him when people were just walking past me, it was lunchtime and I looked at my phone, glad that I at least had gotten that back when I was kicked out from Jonah's parents place, or I just never came back.... My heart was hurting again when I didn't want to think about that. Jonah. He just threw me out of his life, again.

I didn't even know that I was crying when I felt the hand of someone that I never ever thought was going to approach me standing her like a crazy person and crying again over something that I had no say in.

"Wilson, where the f**k have you been??!" I turned my head seeing Carl that was making a big frown when I just made another sniffle, trying to control my crying, was he worried over me? I thought that he just wanted to f**k me, just like every other guy out there it seemed....

"Hey Carl...." My voice was small, and I did a slight smile when he frowned even deeper making a nod towards the office like he knew that it was just as well that we were inside and not in the busy street.

I walked behind him when he was going a little too fast making me almost run and he stopped and looked like he just realised that I was barely keeping up and stopped to let me catch up again.

"You have some shit to explain when you get inside, Angela have been looking all over for your sorry ass, too much effort if you ask me." he did a smirk in the end when I just remembered that I hated him and flipped him off when he did a grin like he didn't care and started to walk again, fucking lawyer. I gritted my teeth when he was opening the door and I didn't even have time to come inside before I heard his loud charming voice echoing inside the place.

"Guess what I found?? the stray cat that ran away on us, she must have been hungry..." he made a chuckle putting down his lunch when I stared at it. yeah, I was f*****g hungry. He made a pissed face when I swiped the bag from his desk and opened it, fucking jackpot, cheeseburgers!

"that's mine!" he was wasting his breath when I was already taking off the wrapping and stuffed my face making a loud moan, omg! F*****g yes, I had missed that, no more f*****g oatmeal until the f*****g day I died!

"Fuck you Carl, I needed it more..." he made a growl when the door to Angela's office was opened like they finally had heard the commotions out here and I made a smile still stuffing my face with my stolen burger at the flustered Angela and the shocked James that had his shirt buttoned wrong making me smirk, so they were f*****g, well thank God!

"Andrea! Where the fuck have you been!? I'm going to kill you!" I was eating the last part of the burger feeling James arms pushing hard around me making me start to want to cry when I snuggled into his chest not caring that Angela was going to get jealous, I had missed him, he had no fucking idea!

"I'm sorry... I'm so fucking sorry James... I never meant to leave.... I swear...." I didn't care that I was getting ketchup all over his shirt that was mixing with my snot and tears, he really cared about me, and I loved him for that, he was my best friend, I didn't care if that was f****d up, he just was!

"It's okay.... I... I just been so fucking worried, we all have been, Andrea... where the f**k have you been for these two months??" he hadn't let me go when I was shaking my head still crying. No, I didn't want to answer that, not yet.

"She stole my fucking lunch, so I guess that she hasn't eaten. look at her, she is fucking skinnier too..." Carl made a remark that I didn't like seeing that it was setting off all the red flags in James when I felt his body was stiffer and he tore me off him to stare at me like he was not letting me just stay silent.

"It was him wasn't it?? He did this too you!?" I was shaking my head when he gritted his teeth, James didn't believe me. he was dead set on this being Jonah, the reason that I had been gone... I guess he wasn't wrong... I didn't want to think about it, I just didn't! "No, no I swear James... Jonah didn't do it.... I...." I stopped not knowing what to say anymore when Angela was standing next to us and she did not look happy, not at all. Arms crossed over her expensive pantsuit and hair that wasn't perfect after hooking up with James.

"Then who? Did you go on your own? Is that how you fucking repay me for taking a chance on you Andrea, just fucking bail on me during tax season? You know what? you are fired!" she was looking stern and just scolding me when I made a gasp from the cold hard fear, no! No, I needed this job, more than ever!

"Please, please Angela.... I need this.... I ..." I stopped when I looked at James that was waiting on answers to and Carl that was eating the second cheeseburger in the background, f**k I wanted that!

"What?! Just tell us, that is the least you can fucking do! Have you any idea what we have done searching for you? You and that drug boyfriend of yours!" Angela was growling again when I made a deep, deep intake of air, I guess I might as well could tell them.... It wasn't like I could keep it a secret forever.

"I'm so sorry for that Angela, James... Carl I'm sorry...." He made a surprised face stopped eating before he made a smirk and winked at me, bastard.

"Just tell us Andrea." James was still holding onto me much to Angela's annoyance when I just nodded, yeah... just tell them.... Tell them fucking what? That I was held hostage and raped? That my baby's father was dead in an unmarked grave by my f*****g fake- Catholic boyfriend that wanted to marry me. yeah. No.

"I'm pregnant." I said it fast, just ripping the bandage off when James eyes dilated in shock and Angela just looked grimmer like that was the last thing in the world she wanted to hear when Carl just started to chuckle like it was funny making me smile too.... I guess it was kind of funny... oh f*****g f**k....

"Shit!" James just stared at me like he couldn't believe it when I made a bigger smile at him, well now he knew, they all did... great.... I made my way out of his arms and just walked over to Carl's desk and took his last cheeseburger that he just nodded to, well look at that, he was a f*****g gentleman when he wanted to be.

"So, you're getting fat then Wilson, well lucky enough for you I like fat chicks too..." he made another chuckle when I just smirked at him sitting down on his desk not caring that he was looking at my a*s, let him, I didn't f*****g care anymore.

"Shut the fuck up Carl!" Angela was sneering and I knew that she was madder at me than at him wen he just shrugged and pushed over his drink, I made a chuckle, so he did care that horny bastard.

"I'm going to be honest here Andrea, I told you the fucking terms and you broke them going back to that addict, second, how the hell do you think that you being pregnant is going to help you win your job back? I don't need a f*****g single mom working here, I'm sorry but you are still fired." She was spitting out the words when I lost my smile. Fuck she was serious wasn't she!? No! I couldn't lose this either, then I would have nothing!

"I swear that I will work fucking hard Angela, and when the baby is born.... Well, I don't know yet... but I swear that I won't let you down!" I was standing up again, the second burger gone when she made a tired smile like she had heard that power speech before and I knew it, but she had to see my f*****g point here, I needed the f*****g money!

"Yeah, no. I am a woman of my word Andrea. I'm sorry but I told you, my business goes first, that's why I keep Carl around, he is an awful human being, but he is f*****g good at what he does." She looked even more disappointed when James was having his hand on her arm making her look even more annoyed like she knew that he would be pleading to her for my sake.

"Angela. Please. This baby only has me." I said it far heavier than I had imagined it in my head when she looked away from James and just made a snort against my plead, I got it. Not her problem but that didn't stop me from trying.

"You can get child support from that idiot that knocked you up..." she made a non-judgmental face like she was just stating fact when I felt the hard choking in my throat, yeah.... That was never going to happen.

"I can't." I just said that when James made a frown looking at me like he didn't get it either and it hit me that they all thought that it was Jonah that was my baby daddy, I wish.... The tears pushed up again and I hated that I couldn't tell the truth, but I just couldn't, it would be more problems than it was worth.

"Why not? I seen his car, he can sell it and put the money to good use." James made a trying smile, but he still was looking like he was going to kill Jonah for knocking me up, the f*****g irony over that was awful.

"It's not him, Jonah is not the father." It felt fucking awful saying it out loud. I knew that he wasn't. but saying it to them. Fuck that was one of the most awful things so far, and I have been through some shit and then some.... F**k.

"What??" James was the only one that was shocked when Angela didn't care, I guess it didn't make a difference to her, she didn't know me that good, didn't know that I had turned down James so many times that his balls was f*****g blue before he started to f**k

her.

"Yeah... no... I got drunk and... I just fucked some guy, don't know his name or anything... he was gone when I woke up..." my cheeks were burning when Carl made a wolf whistle like he was impressed and Angela just stared at me unmoved, and James. He looked like he was hurt. Well f**k so this went awesome then!

"You fucked some stranger! What the fuck Andrea!?" he sounded way to angry making Angela give him a warning look; she knew that he liked me. I mean come on she was a lawyer and James never had hidden it I guess.... I made a small, defeated nod, f**k I hated my life right now.

"Alright, so you want me to re-hire you based on the concept that you got drunk and just fucked some random guy that you don't even know, well isn't that just the fucking essence of what I want in an employee Andrea, just fucking carelessness!" she sneered this time making me flinch, she was mad at me and I knew that it wasn't over me having a baby with some random guy, no this was about James and I knew it too...James made a sad smile when he looked like he couldn't help me, didn't want to when I just made a deep gulp. Alright.

I got up and the hard stone in my stomach grew even bigger, so I really was alone than. Not even James was willing to help me anymore. I didn't blame him. He had taken far too much shit for someone that was as nice as he was. He deserved better. "Okay... I just want to say thank you, and.... Well... yeah, thank you..." I made a sniffle again when I turned and walked towards the door slowly feeling the stares in my back when I opened it. wasn't anyone really trying to stop me? no?

"Andrea, wait." I made a deep exhale of relief hearing Angela's voice, oh please God let her change her mind, I will do anything! I swear! I was looking up the sky before I turned in the door looking as miserable as I felt, I didn't even need to pretend that I wasn't, I was a mess.

"You are on probation. That means half pay and I don't care if you are f*****g pregnant, you mess up one more time and I don't care if you disappear forever, you never show your face here again, you got that?!" Angela's voice was sharp and serious when I nodded fast and blinked trying not to cry. Fuck I loved her, look at that sneering bitch, she was my saving grace.

"We are fucking looking over that mortgage you have with your ex-husband, you can't have a baby sending half your paycheck straight to that, and oh, James and I are dating." She said the last part like a warning when I made a big smile at her. James just looked like he was embarrassed, and I guess happy? I made another nod, thank you God! Thank you!

"I swear Angela, I will not let you down! I can start right away!" I was already going for the computer when she held up her hand making the faintest of smirk like she appreciated my enthusiasm, but I didn't say no when she smirked at James that was looking less worried knowing that I at least had a job.

"James... I hate to ask, but can I stay at your place until I can get my own one?" I was begging him when I knew that he wanted to say yes before he saw Angela's scrutinising eyes and just shook his head that whipped bastard!

"I'm sorry Andrea.... I don't think that is a good Idea... get the wrong message to people..." he said it vaguely when I looked offended, that was f*****g bullshit and he knew it, he just had a jealous girlfriend that also was my boss, so I kept my mouth shut. F**k! "Look at it this way Andrea, you are going to have a baby and since you have no father, you are going to have to learn how to handle shit alone." Angela's voice was hard and cold. I don't think that she meant to sound so f*****g awful but there it was, I was alone and had a job that was paying me half a paycheck. Great.

"I guess you are right again Angela...." I made a gritting of my teeth, not missing when James was mouthing sorry behind her back. I made a snort, I thought that he was this hardass but he was afraid of not getting to smash Angela in the end. whipped.

"I'm sorry Andrea, but people can't always save you." She made another weird face that I didn't get, well fuck her! she didn't know what happened, none of them did when I just nodded again and this time, I left not caring if anyone stopped me.