Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 119

I was still crying softly into Kira when I heard the hard slamming of the front door, footsteps that was all over the place and I looked up not being able to move when the handle on my door was twitching hard and I stared at it terrified, this was it, James had finally come back to kill me hadn't he!? "Please James! No!" I was screaming it back when the handle stopped twitching and I heard the familiar voice on the outside that was the only thing that made me stand up and feel like I could breathe again.

"Pretty! Its me! open up please!" I wobbled up when I was too shaky trying to get it open and almost fell over when he jerked the door and I saw the big young guy that looked at me worried with his nice eyes and I just lost it, throwing myself into his arms and crying even more not even caring that Kira was crying again, we all were f*****g crying!

"What the f**k happened here?? Why is the whole f*****g place trashed??" he was saying it worried when I didn't answer, just made myself closer seeking some f*****g comfort, I was never going to forget the way James had looked at me, like he was one second from killing me, and he only stopped because of Kira!

"He was going to kill me... he was... he was going to f*****g kill me Tom and I couldn't stop him..." I was rambling when he stopped me, holding me just like James had done making me hiss from the bruises that had started to form and I was still crying so hard when his eyes got dark like he knew that I was telling the truth.

James had snapped and he had tried to kill me.

I had no doubt about that when I stared into his eyes that didn't look like his usual ones, they were different, hard and dangerous.

"Joseph, take her!" he was already shoving me over when I was crying into Joseph that was stroking my hair, he didn't say anything, just held me and I was so fucking grateful that they had showed up, they always had my back no matter what. I loved them. "Let's go Andrea... I don't think you need to hear this...." He was having his arm around me gently making me feel his trench coat that made me feel even safer, having a pacifier to Kira that she for once in her life took like she understood that I couldn't take more, I was so exhausted and wanted to just get the f**k out of here and never look back ever again.

My eyes seeing the mess that James had made, they really weren't kidding about him trashing the place when I smelled it, gasoline, right there on the living room floor, spilled out making me start to scream, what the f**k was he going to do to me and Kira, burn us alive inside his fucking house!?

"What the fuck!?" Joseph had seen the same thing when I was panting hard, almost passing out when I just sat down onto the floor, James was going to burn me alive!? he never loved me, he never loved Kira that son of a bitch!

"I thought I heard someone that was leaving when we got here, that motherfucker!" I was still panting, rocking on the floor back and forth when the strong smell of gasoline was filling up the house, I needed to get the f**k out of here, what if James was still around and just waiting with a f*****g lighter!?

"I need to leave; I need to fucking leave here right now!" I was standing up again, Joseph helping me up when Tom came down the stairs seeing me not being able to stand up and just walked up and swooped me up, bridal style taking Kira along when I didn't even protest, I was so f*****g close to getting killed, to having my baby being f*****g burned alive!

"Jonah! I want JONAH!" I was screaming it when I was put in the backseat of Toms car, Joseph had brought out the carrier to Kira making me not wanting to let go of her, what if James just waited on that?? for me to let her go and then he would f*****g kill her for me not wanting him!?

"Andrea.... Calm down... I just need Kira to be safe, its just so that she is safe in the car, okay darling?" Joseph was using his softest tone when my wild eyes was roaming over his face, maybe he was f*****g lying!? James had never done anything to me when he finally showed me his true side, that he was a f*****g psychopath!

"Pretty, you know us, we would never hurt you like that bastard did, you are like the annoying sister we never wanted..." Tom was coming up behind him making me switch my eyes at him still not wanting to let her go, what if they were in f*****g conspiracy with James!?

"The baboon is right, look at us Andrea, its just me and Tom. Nobody else.... Please, give her over." He was reaching out his hands when I was shaking looking at them both, they looked so upset and scared too, angry when I gave up the deep breath I was holding and carefully gave my baby over to the serious guy that took her and I watched him put her in and strapped the seat belt like a damn pro when Tom was looking even more sad at me, I really f****d up this time didn't I?

"I'm so sorry.... Tom I'm so sorry...." I never stopped crying when he gave me a pitiful look that made me feel worse, he wanted to comfort me, but he didn't know how, this was way over his head, all of our heads to be exact, they were just kids in the end and still they were here, helping me when they should be out there having fun and not saving my a*s from a f*****g psychopath.

"Don't worry Pretty, Jonah will find him and then he is going to wish for death." He said it gritty when I made a nod leaning back my head, yeah...yeah... Jonah was going to find him, kill him and keep me safe... oh please God I wished that I could have him here, holding me telling me that I was not going crazy when I knew I was... but then again, he didn't come. He didn't even respond to one of my snaps or anything, he f*****g ghosted me when I needed him the most!

"He isn't here... he didn't answer...... he didn't answer anything.... He was out there with homeland, and I was going to die along with my baby..." I said it out into the air not to anyone particular making a sad giggle in the end, what a fucking life I had... my last hope being a twenty-year-old that I couldn't even be with since his mommy didn't let him.

"I have snapped him, trust me Pretty, he always drops everything for you and after Kira... he loves you more than anything and I'm sorry that..." I made a huffing noise; I didn't want to hear it... I would have been burned alive, Kira too if they hadn't showed up, Jonah was busy with his real life to care about me, the side bitch.

"Save it.... Just fucking save it... take me home and I will leave here for f*****g good this time..." my head was still leaned back, eyes closed when neither of them said a word and I felt the car starting to move when they got in, Kira beside me and I held her small hand in mine, my tears still falling, my beautiful small daughter that was my everything. I would never ever meet another man, date anyone. I would stay away from them for the rest of our lives.

I opened my eyes fluttering them when I saw that this was not my apartment and made a deep sigh when I saw the serious guys in the front seat move when I didn't want to be here. I just didn't.

"I don't want to stay here." I said it cold when he looked like he didn't care and unbuckled me, taking my hand and I just stood there unable to move, there was no place for me that was safe here anymore, didn't he get that!?

"Let's go Pretty, Ma knows you are coming, and she is pissed as hell..." he had his arms around me when he led me through the door with Joseph behind having the carrier and I was just following, I didn't want to be here, but I didn't have the strength to fight back, not a fucking ounce of it.

"Let me go Pat! I'm going to kill him, show me that fucking bastard and I will..." she stopped when her husband was holding her back, a gun in her hand, yes she had a gun that I didn't even flinch over that she dropped to the floor seeing me and started to cry like she had been so worried, not even giving me time to breathe when she was hugging me hard crying out loud like she was making a complaining to the gods more then crying at me that still hadn't moved an inch.

"Andrea, thank god you are safe, and Kira!" she let me go to see my baby that was sleeping being rocked back and forth in the carrier by Joseph having a pacifier still in her mouth, it was a new record.

"Ma.... It wasn't good and... fuck..... He is still out there, she can't stay in her apartment anymore..." Tom was speaking slowly when she made an offended face, a hard scowl like she was going to beat him for even saying that her face when I didn't say a word. I had nothing to say, I was alone even if I was surrounded by people. Jonah had let me down for the last time.

"What are you even saying to me Thomas!? Of course, she is going to stay here! she is family and ..." I stopped them all when I spoke out, loud and clear for everyone to hear, I was not staying here, and there was nothing they could do about that. "I'm leaving, please take me to the train station." Mary made a gasping noise holding her hand on her heavy chest like she was going to die from hearing me speak and the rest of them was speaking too, scared and surprised that I was serious. "No, you can't go Pretty, Jonah is going to come and ..." I made a frustrating scream hearing that, Jonah was going to do what?? Hunt down and kill James!?? What the fuck did that help me when I was this f*****g close to death and Kira too!? "I don't f*****g care! Now take me to the f*****g train station and leave me!" I was turning around about to grab the carrier when Joseph looked at me pleading making me growl more, he claimed to love me, so I was giving him one chance before I attacked him for keeping her from me!

"Give me my fucking baby Joseph!" I made another growled when he did and I took it hard not even looking at anyone of them, I just wanted to get out, from them all, everyone here was involved with Jonah in one way or another and I was never coming back, never. "Listen Pretty..." I felt the hand on Tom on my arm when I yanked it back screaming at him, I didn't care if everyone saw me f*****g lose it, I was not going to stay here and wait for Jonah, he was f*****g dead to me!

"No! you listen to me for once! I'm done! You all hear me!? I'm f*****g done waiting around for him and I was this fucking close to having my daughter being burned alive, I .... I'm done." I drop my anger in the end when they all seemed to have lost the air in their lungs and just looked at me like they weren't going to stop me anymore, it was about fucking time!

"Tell him that I hope that him and homeland will have a great life and many children because he is never going to be part of mine!" I was gritting my teeth walking out from the living room, down the stairs and held my breath, I was not crying anymore. Nope. I was going to get the f**k out and Jonah could do whatever the f**k he wanted when I finally was out in the cold air and started to cry.

"Fuck!" I was screaming it out into the street when people were giving me strange stares around when I was carrying Kira beside me not giving a shit if it was heavy or not, I was leaving, nobody was going to stop me!

"Hey Andrea!" I turned around seeing that it was Phillip coming after me and I did a curse and stopped, I was exhausted and put the carrier down when he jogged the last part towards me, I didn't even know why I had. Maybe because he was the only one that had stood up to Jonah and his father for me, nobody else even had the balls to do it.

"you're really leaving then; you want me to give you a ride? Maybe get some stuff for Kira before you go?" he made a smile and I just let all the air out of my lungs, I didn't know what to do! That was the worst part, all I knew was that I couldn't stay here, I just couldn't!

"I don't know Phil... fuck I don't know.... were the f**k am I suppose to go with her?" I had lost all my anger that I had felt just moments ago, I was so scared of James to come back and finish me, and so disappointed in Jonah. Me and Kira almost died because he didn't have the time to answer my snaps or calls.

He looked at me smiling like he didn't know either and I started to cry, this was all bullshit! James had been my best friend. My fucking allied against the world after Kayla betrayed me and got killed, I wasn't even going to pretend that she wasn't dead because she f*****g was and I knew that now.

"Alright.... I'm not stopping you; I'm not whipped like those guys in there for Jonah, honestly, he is just a f*****g brat in my eyes, but then again... I'm older..." he made a small chuckle that made me smile the slightest... he was four years older than Jonah, that was nothing to me and he knew that. He was just as much a kid like everyone else.

"I can't go home..... I'm scared to death that James is waiting on me, you didn't see him Phil... I have never seen him look like that; he wanted my fucking blood on his hands..." I stopped to tired to even remember what had happened, James otherwise kind eyes and face just being this merciless monster that I never in my wildest imagination had thought he even would be capable off.

"Don't worry about him pretty, he is not getting near you, you can crash at my place if you think that being at Ma and Da is too crowded." He said it sincere when I nodded, yeah. That sounded good. I really wanted just to go home and cry, but James had spilled out f*****g gasoline in his own home, what the f**k was wrong with him!?

"Just don't let him in.... I don't want to see him..." I didn't even need to explain who I meant when he made a small nod, picking up my baby carrier and I followed him to his car, I was so glad to have the support of the Browns family, I owed them so much and I wasn't even their child or in-law and still they took me in, I was always going to owe them.