Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 122

I still stared in awe turning around the slightest having my eyes popped open like moons, he really did care, wanted to make it f*****g special for me. I turned my head back to Buck, grinning like he knew he had hit the jackpot and he wasn't wrong; I could not My parents didn't care since I was a kid, Ryan never cared and Jonah and I was always fighting to the point that he missed my birthday, not that I had celebrated it anyway, no... Buck was the first one.

remember the last time somebody actually gave a shit about me, about it even being my birthday.

"Buck, its perfect..." I took a few steps ahead of him against the table when I felt myself being pulled back and I didn't resist when I met his chest against mine, how the f**k did I ever get to deserve a guy like him?

"You are perfect, Andrea...." He made a gulp when my eyes were still trained on him, sparkling in the dim lighted restaurant that was also a bar, how the hell had he even pulled this off??

"...I'm so happy you want to be my girlfriend and..." he stopped again sweating when I made a smile, he was nervous and that was so sweet. he was 46, had three grown kids and looking like he was on his first date with me.

"Bucky, are you nervous?" I made a teasing smile that made him break up into a bigger grin, oh he was, so fucking nervous that he was sweating up a storm in that shirt of his when I squeezed myself closer to his body and pushed my arms around his neck, making him stare at me even more like he never had seen anything like me before.

"Yeah... I mean no... I mean...well Andrea, you are special to me, you know that right?" he said it almost whispering making me get goosebumps all over my body in the light summer dress I was having on, he thought I was special.... shit....... I still hadn't said a word, just stared at him starstruck and completely dazed, f**k he really was messing with my heart now beating slightly faster, what was he telling me here then, really.

"Yeah, I know that Buck, you are special to me too..." that was the last ting that left my lips when he made a relieved sigh and kissed me, not letting me go for a second when I was kissing him back, oh god it felt so good to have him hold me, so f*****g good! "If we don't get to that table now, I swear that I'm going to get you back to my place and fuck you Andrea and I really wanted you to have a nice night before that..." he was holding my hand making me giggle when we finally got to the table, and he helped me get me with my chair before sitting down and I was smiling at him.

Oh, he was so handsome.

Strong jaw and grey eyes that was warm when they looked at me with a stubble that was already coming up even if he shaved this morning, that rough chin against my skin when he kissed me, wrinkles around his eyes when he grinned and he did that a lot, always had a laughter waiting when he talked to me, his brown hair with greying temples that made him look just like he was, mature and stable. he was so funny and charming.

he made my heart go faster, oh and we had the same taste in music even if he like country more than me when he made a smile seeing me study him over the small table, our hands locked into each other, making our fingers intertwined, I never wanted to stop touching him when he was around.

"What are you thinking about beautiful?" he was stroking my hand with his fingers making me bite my lips to his appreciation when I looked back shyer, what the hell was I supposed to say? That he made me feel good? Better then I had in years? That I loved that he was a gentleman and not so fucking hot-headed and threw himself in fights with me if something happens? That my heart was finally starting to heal up and it was all thanks to him and his patient? No.... I was way too much of a coward to say that when blinked my eyes trying not to looks so goddam suckered in like I was feeling right now, even If I could swear, he already saw it on me.

"Nothing... just that I really loved that you did this for me Buck... thank you..." he took my hand up and kissed it making me blush more not leaving my eyes for one second when I was shaking the slightest, what the f**k was happening to me??

"This? That was the least I could do... you have no idea how many packs of batteries and stuff I have in my apartment before you even looked at me..." he was smirking at me blushing again, yeah... I had ignored him for a long, long time when he was trying to talk to me, being around the store as soon as he could, he had a lot of shit from that.

"I just... I have bad history and you know that..." I stopped and looked at him more guilty when he dropped his grin, I hadn't told him more than anyone else, not about Jonah, about what happened and that I was alone in the world before I started to date him. "Yeah...you told me some stuff but...Andrea.... You know that I got your back, I mean it." He squeezed my hand when my throat was starting to snare up, he did and I knew that, but it was still hard as hell, it was.

"Yes... I know Buck, you are a great guy... really... the fucking best..." he lighted up hearing me say that. he didn't care that I had a fowl mouth when Kira wasn't around, it just was a part of me since Jonah and it was never going to wash away. "sure am, now... lets get a smile on your pretty face again, I didn't want to make you sad but like I said...you know that I get it, I been through a divorce and I know that its not easy..." he stopped when I made a real smile, he believed that Kira was from my marriage with Ryan, that was the only thing I had told, that I had divorce my husband that was cheating on me, not that I had met a nineteen year old that I fell in love with, making my life turn upside down in every possible way. F**k.

"You are still great Buck, look at you... keeping tabs on your boys and Sophia... she is the sweetest kid I ever have met; Kira loves her more than anything..." I made a smile that he returned, he was proud, and I loved that, all that pride that was in his eyes when he thought about his kids, even if one was in college and the other one just graduated leaving that youngest one, Sophia left.

"Shit babe, you are making me sound like I'm some goddam saint when I'm not..." he made a chuckle making me follow when he picked up the wine bottle, screwing the cork open, yes it was a screw bottle on it and I held out my glass still beaming at him filling up to the brim, f**k yes, I needed that.

"Oh, I know you aren't...." I made a wink when he was filling up his own one and I took a deep swig, I didn't care if I got drunk tonight, I knew that I was safe with Buck and what the hell, just for this once I wasn't going to hold back and be worried, not when he had put so much effort in making me feel special.

"Cheers..." we clinked the wineglass that had too much in them and I made a giggle almost spilling out half of it on my dress, this was going to be a great night!

"Buck, I love your accent!" I said it giggling when he was grinning when we had finished up the diner and talked about absolutely anything that came up, he was just so easy to talk to, that was one of the things that made me give him a chance for the beginning, that whatever I said, he always had a way to make smile or laugh, he was a charmer and that was just that.

"Andy, baby I don't have an accent, but you do... let me guess? West coast?" he was grinning when I was drinking the last of my wine shaking my head, nope! far off when he was smirking at my mischievous eyes, I was never telling him where I was from, never. "East?" He looked up when I lost my smile the slightest, I didn't want to talk about that and he saw it making him get up when I looked at him holding his hand up and I took it, my heart beating hard against my chest, head spinning from all the wine and from being near him. "You don't have to tell me, I don't care. whatever happened... everybody's got a past.... Nobody is perfect..." I was pressed against his firm chest, his shirt was open now, making me feel that slight chest hair and cologne that made my heart clench, why was he saying shit like that? I didn't look up when we just were swaying the slightest, not even dancing, just standing on the one spot and having Bucks arms around me, oh God I never wanted to leave them ever again, never.

"Fuck.... I think I am in love with you Buck..." the words left my lips before I even had time to think about stopping myself when he stopped swaying and I looked up, my eyes were slightly dizzy from being drunk when he made a grin, he didn't even say anything, just kissed me and leaned my back to his chest and started to sway again, fuck. He was fucking perfect, wasn't he??

I didn't even know I was crying before my head being lifted and my eyes being dried by his rough hands, smiling like he knew what I could feel, the pain of the past that I didn't have shared with him.

"Andrea, I love you, have been doing a long time now." He didn't look drunk anymore, just stared calmy into my eyes with his own warm grey ones that had laugh lines, oh f**k.

I loved him. I did.

"I love you Buck." I said it back surer then ever when he broke out into one of his famous charming grinned making my heartbeat so hard that I was getting dizzy, oh thank God for him... "... thank you..." I was whispering it when he kissed me, following my face down to my neck with me still mumbling and started to giggle stroking my hands over his back, he was so strong and I loved that, I so wanted to fuck him, like this second.

"Buck... fuck me..." I was begging him when he stopped and looked up at me, eyes surprised and lips swollen from making me feel my core beating hard from working over my neck and lips when I was holding onto his shirt, not really have the best balance being drunk.

"Here?" he said it like that was one of the things he really hadn't counted on when I made a chuckle at his innocent look, I knew he wasn't. he had been part of his high school's football team and I knew he had his way with a lot of girls, I just never really showed him this side of me, the wilder one.

"yeassh... here...against that wall..." when I nudge my head purring having my hand stroke over his chest and down to his jeans where his dick was already hard for me making me smirk.

"shit... haven't done that one in a while..." he made a chuckle when I followed taking a hold of his bulge stroking over it with my hand slowly, he didn't even flinch over hearing me saying that, like I said... he wasn't that innocent when he groined taking my boobs, hugging them hard with his palms making me moan, I didn't care that he wasn't the best on foreplay or shit like that, he was a straightforward guy that liked boobs and ass before f*****g me, I loved every second of that.

"Alright... fuck... let's see how the hell this goes... you know that I am hard for you, but I'm drunk too..." he made a real chuckle that made me start to laugh really loud and that I couldn't seem to stop when he was kissing me when I still was giggling, I didn't even know why. the way he said it, that it was so fucking honest or just the fact that anything he said or did, I loved. I loved him.

"I love you Buck, I fucking do...." My head was still simmering when I was leaned back, he had let my boobs go and was holding me again when he looked so happy hearing me say that, like he had been waiting so long for me to do that, fucking confess what I had known for some time now, that he had made his way into my heart, and I didn't even know when it happened.

"Good.... Because I have been holding my damn tongue for too long, I love you Andrea and I think Kira is great.... And ....... I want to take this further.... Not right now... later... but still..." he was saying it slow and more honest then maybe he had thought when I looked at him in awe, he wanted to have a future with me? was that what he was saying?

"You're making me a hot step-mom?" I made a smirking teasing face when he looked up at me like I had pierced his heart when I lost my own breath, shit. He was.

"I dono.... You want that?" he was saying it careful when I made another teasing smile, stroking my hands over his powerful body, maybe... maybe..... Oh fuck....... that was too soon to talk about, right? I just had agreed to be his girlfriend... I couldn't really wrap my head around being his wife.... Or could I? my eyes darting from his making another giggle when he pulled me back making me lose whatever playfulness I had, my body being frozen and hard heat that was roaming inside my chest when he stared at my eyes seriously for once.

"I don't know... yes?" I said it carefully when he started to smile, like that was all he wanted to hear and I giggled again, this was crazy! so f*****g crazy and I loved every second about it!

He let me go for a second when he was turning around, stumbling the slightest digging around in the jacket that had gone off after the second glass of wine, Buck wasn't a jacket kind of guy and I stared at his strong arms hungry, what the hell was he up to when my eyes popped open seeing the small box that was in his hand, the big man going down on one knee and staring up at me like he was really taking a chance here.

"Andrea.... Don't freak out... alright.... Fuck... I bought this the second date I had with you and I'm sorry for being crazy, but I just love you... you know..." he was gulping when I stared at the ring that was a golden band and a rock on it, having my hands over my face. Holy shit!

He was seriously proposing to me?? and why didn't I hate that?? I was so afraid to marry Jonah, with everything that came with it and here Buck was just making me want to say yes right away, even if we had only been dating for a few months, I f*****g loved him! "Yes! Buck, yes! Fucking yes!" I was screaming it when he took my hand that was still shaking and eased the ring on my left finger, it fitted perfectly.

Just like he did. all of him, his life, his kids and everything else, he was my perfect match, and I was not letting him go, not for anything!

"You made me the happiest man in the world baby! I can't fucking believe that you are crazy enough to say yes to me..." he had picked me up making me laugh when we were kissing again, my breath still hard from what had happened when we locked eyes, I was so happy I had given him a chance, he deserved it, if anyone deserve to have my heart it was Buck.

"I will always say yes to you Buck... always..." he made a chuckle when I was kissing his neck, I wanted him to fuck me, now and not later when I felt his hands on my ass, not breaking away this time, taking steps towards the wall and I was holding onto his strong neck and shoulders when we kissed more and he moved my panties aside after fumbling his jeans and briefs down, just pushed his dick inside of me, fuck that felt so good!

"Oh Buck! Yes!" I was already moaning feeling his hard thrust when my back was hitting the wall, my pussy was so wet for him and I had my eyes closed when I was messing up his hair again, digging my fingers into his soft hair and moaned louder making him grunt, he loved that I was loud.

I made a gasp feeling the hard thrusts getting faster, my body completely pushed back, dress ridden up and our heads leaning on each other when I screamed out the hard throbbing that I knew made him follow, releasing all his c*m inside me with hard panting leaning down on my boobs, my chest still heaving up and down heavy, f**k I loved when he did that!

I kissed him soft a couple of times when he looked up all sweaty making me smile more, he was so amazing, he was when he let me down gently pulling out. I was smoothing my dress down, feeling the sticky c*m that was against my panties but I didn't care, I wasn't afraid of getting pregnant, I had made sure that I had birth control these days and he knew that too, he didn't want more kids and I had Kira, she was enough for me.

"Buck.... Fuck... that was so good..." I was still panting when he kissed my forehead and grinned at me, I was so f****d for him, the big old bear.

"I was good right? Just like old days...." he chuckled when I made a snicker, yeah just like the good old days I guess..... He kissed me again when we started to walk out from the bar hand in hand, feeling his finger touch the ring like he still couldn't believe that it was on, but it was and I loved every second of it, I was going to be Bucks wife and I couldn't wait to tell the world or Kira, she was going to love having Sophia as her bigger sister!

"you're the best Buck, always is..." he stopped and looked at me with so much love that I was starting to choke up from my heart being overflowing, I loved him.

"I love you Andrea and I'm so happy you want me..." he stopped and stroked my hair from my sweaty face making me lean into his hand, I was happy that he wanted me, a single mom with a kid that was more trouble than she was worth sometimes and a shady fucking past, I was the lucky one.

"I love you Buck... now... take me home and fuck me again..." I kissed his hand, leaning up and stealing another kiss from those sweet lips when he made a grin, oh he was so getting lucky later when we got to his apartment.