Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 126

Everyone was moving by the sound of the door closing after Buck and Kira, or at least the two boys that was more than happy to flee the scene after what had happened, and I felt bad again. Really bad. Look at Buck, he was really putting in an effort to make Kira like him and what did I do as soon as they didn't accept me full-hearted like Sophia? I went f*****g bitch mode on them. "Mitch, Jared... please... stay..." I was going for the hallway when they had been waiting long enough for Bucks truck to disappear when they both looked at me with unwillingness in their eyes, even Jared. "Nope, not a chance. Dad made it clear, stay the f**k away from you and your tits!" Mitch made a smirk when I looked sad at him. no, that's not what I wanted. I wanted us to be a family no matter how pathetic it sounded.

"I'm sorry Andrea, Mitch is right, dad was really clear on that part..." Jared's eyes were unhappy when I was chewing on my lip, this was my fault. I overreacted, of course they wanted to f**k me, they were in that part of life, had Jonah been any better? No. had I forgiven him for so much worse shit than this? Yes.

"Well, at least have some dinner, is your mom home or...?" I knew she wasn't, and Mitch got mad when I said her name, he was so protective of her, I hoped that Kira would be just as fierce on day if somebody was talking about me.

"Why do you even care?? You are not our mother Andrea, that part is never going to change, no matter what dad says! you are just a second time around that is here to fill the whole his fucking dick needs!" he was growling it when I heard Sophia do a gasp and Jared made another sad face, he would follow his older brother no matter what.

Ouch.

"I do care... because I know what its like... being alone and thinking that your parents doesn't want you anymore..." I stopped myself. I didn't know just how much I wanted to share with a twenty-year-old with a grudge, that was never going to end well. "...but you are not alone, your dad clearly loves you, fucking worship the ground you guys walk on!" I got excited in the end when they all gave me a look of not believing me, not even Sophia... oh f**k! How could they not see how f*****g proud he was, no matter how hardass he seemed to be, especially against the boys, he did love them.

"Save it! You got what you wanted, you fucking won Andrea, you got that?? dad is on your side, and we are just fucking trash from his crashed marriage!" Mitch wasn't going to listen anymore when I was panicking, this was not going like I wanted it to go, not at all! "I don't want to be your mom!" I said it louder when he was going for the door and stopped like he finally got what I was trying to say, I wasn't there mom and I would never be, I mean come on. I f****d a guy that was just as old as Jared, how in the world would I ever see them as kids compared to my own child?

"You don't?" Sophia was looking hurt and I didn't understand, she had a mother and what Buck had told me, she was great and loved them.

"No... no... I just.... No, I don't want to be your mother... I mean look at you all, you are all grown-ups, how am I supposed to come and say that I am your mother when you already adults..." I looked at Mitch, he was the one I wanted do win over, he was the oldest one and if he accepted me, everyone else would too, fuck I wished that I had an older brother, maybe I wouldn't have fucked Jonah and get my heart broken.

"Fine, what are you making them?" I looked at Mitch when he was coming back inside and I made a confused face, making? Was he talking about food, I was thinking about just ordering takeout but for some reason, I saw that would piss him off even more and I didn't even know why.

"I don't know...what you like? I can make anything... almost.... and since Kira is out with your dad, we can spice it how we like!" I gave him a more cheerful look that he didn't return but Jared seemed to have softened up a bit, Sophia was already thinking of what she wanted to eat... I looked them, o'boy... something told me that they didn't like the same stuff to eat.

"I want a big steak; you got that, Andrea?" Mitch was smirking when I knew that I didn't have that, but that sounded nice, it did and I loved steak, I f*****g loved it so much.

"Eh I want fish, don't mind if its fresh either...." Jared made a smile when I looked at them realising what they were doing, seeing If I was backing down when Sophia made her last wish.

"I just wanted something simple, like I salad, I mean..." She stopped when I raised my eyebrows, salad? So, what did she really want then?

"Alright, I want grits, oh and I want pancakes and yeah I know that its breakfast!" she said it snappier towards her older brothers that was already teasing her when I took a deep breath, I had none of that. none.

"Okay, the store it is then!" I said it happier when they all stared at me like I couldn't believe I just agreed to their terms, well I was desperate and If I had to empty my wallet to make them happy, call me an idiot because I was going to do it.

"let's do this than, you better keep your word Andrea, I don't want some fucking excuses when we get there or I'm leaving!" Mitch was already walking out the door when I was grabbing my wallet and Sophia was smirking like she knew something I didn't, great. "Can we have this too?" I stared at Sophia that I thought was the nice of them coming with another pack of snacks, really? The whole cart was up to the brim, and she still needed more, where the f**k did she put everything seeing that she was like a size 4!? "Yeah, sure Sophia... no problem..." I made a trying smile when she dumps the bags on top of the pile, I stared at them, she was going to kill me if she didn't eat that seeing that I was probably going to gain two sizes if she left that shit around. I looked up seeing Mitch and Jared, talking to some girls and I didn't come up to them. I mean, they made it pretty clear ones they gotten what they wanted, that I didn't exist at the moment when I pushed my chart slowly and knew that this was going to be expansive, but it was worth it, wasn't it? I really wanted them to like me and if Buck could bribe my kid than I guess I could do the same back.

I saw him before I made a turn and my heart stopped. I mean literally stopped when a man was staring at me from the end of the aisle behind a family of screaming kids, he was not even trying to hide when my eyes followed his body, how the fuck was that and why was he fucking stalking me??

My hand left the cart fast and I walked determined through the big aisle of candy when he darted away just the last second when I was close enough to see his face and I started to run, he was not getting away and when I got him, I was going to kill him! My paintings were heard when people around stared at me when he had disappeared on me and I made a hiss, what the f**k was up with this shit!? He vanished, just like he did in the backyard, what the hell was this guy, f*****g Houdini or what?? "Andrea, why are you breathing so heavy?" Sophia was coming around the corner, her arms filled with bags of candy when I made a groin, f**k! Why the hell didn't he just stick around, if this was James then he should have just man the fuck up and face me that bastard!

I just waved my hand at her concerned face, what was I going to tell her? that I was running after a man that tried to kill me and Kira? that I was sick of this shit even before it had started.

"Nothing... I just.... I need more cardio you know?" she made an even weirder face when I looked at the exit, I didn't know where James was, but I sure as hell wasn't going to wait around until he got me, no. I was going to find him first. "Sophia, here take my wallet, get anything and pay... I need some air..." she took my wallet and just started to grin, complete forgetting that I was looking like a madwoman just seconds ago in her eyes.

"Alright...... but I can't swear that the boys are going to do something stupid when they found out you did this..." she grinned the same smile Buck had when I turned my head back to her realising that too, oh f**k they were going to ruin me weren't they?? "Fine, give it back." She made a pouting face giving the wallet back and I made a sigh, I still couldn't believe a girl her size could eat that much shit and not gain a pound?

"Can we at least get this? then I'm done, I swear!" she said it doing her best puppy look when I made a sigh and nodded, yeah sure, I was going to be bankrupted anyway, what was another four bags of candy too that?

"Yes!" she made a small cheer jumping up and down when I was the one that gave her a weird look, well at least she was happy, now. Unto the next two.

"Mitch, Jared! Let's go!" I was calling it back when I had gotten the cart making the girls whisper and giggle, Sophia was blushing and I didn't care that Mitch looked like he wanted to kill me again, well right now I didn't care, I was getting out of here and then I was going to hunt James down!

I wasn't waiting on them anymore, no one second when I knew that James was still out there, and I needed to go get him before he got to me.

They two guys made a small scowl, or Mitch made a big one when they dragged their feet after themselves telling me some bullshit that they would go wait in the car, wow sometimes I couldn't even believe that Buck that was such a charmer had made them. I walked fast with bags, Jared coming out to help me and Sopha but not his brother, what a surprise when I slammed the trunk of Mitch stupid car, at least he didn't leave me here, that was so nice of him!

"Hey, you guys can wait here... I think I left something behind...." I didn't even look at the faces of surprise that didn't stop me more than Sophie was already opening one of the bags and started to eat something crunchy when I walked away fast, having my purse tightly across my body when I walked around the corner, out of sight from the truck when I was scouting the parking lot, I knew he was here.