Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 43

Jonah was still holding me, the strong arm around me, when I saw James's car coming in on the driveway, being blocked by Jonah, who seemed to have left in a hurry, seeing that his car door was still open on the driveway.

"Oh f**k." James, omg I had forgotten about him, getting out his car and just staring at us, like he had caught me cheating holding my arm around Jonah waist, he felt tense again when we were standing in the stairs, just on our way to leave together. "Andrea, who is that?" he sounded darker, like I had never heard him, not even when he was scolding me back when I hated him when I made a big gulp, I don't even know why I was feeling guilty, me and James were just friends, coworkers and nothing more. "I'm her boyfriend and I'm taking her back home." I inhaled the shock of hearing Jonah say that he was my boyfriend, he was getting even more tense when I looked at James that was getting even more annoyed, having a guy half his age that he was my boyfriend. That still blew my mind.

"I thought you said you didn't have a boyfriend?!" he looked at me still, completely ignoring Jonah that was getting more pissed off that he wasn't the one in charge, making me blink, did I miss something? Did James like me? Did he?

"... I didn't, or I did... I don't know... "I was tripping over my own words, I never had said boyfriend to Jonah before, because he didn't want me to, even if we always did have some kind of weird relationship.

"Oh, she has one, and its me, so move that ugly a*s car out of the way senior, because we are getting the hell out this suburbia hell!" I made a frown at Jonah, why the hell was he being so rude to James, he didn't deserve that, he had helped me, a lot. "Stop that! James.... I'm sorry...Jonah really is my boyfriend and I'm going back with him, but I made you meatloaf, just like I said I would?" I tried to smile at him, not getting anything back, just a scowl that was covering his face, he was really pissed. "Great." He looked different, standing different or was a crazy, he didn't look like the James I was used to when Jonah starting to drag me along, not having the patience to wait for James to come to his senses.

"Yeah, I'm getting my girl back and you get meatloaf, everyone's happy!" he made a sneer at James when I just looked sad passing him by, his eyes being hard and cold before they saw me and just looked sad again making my heart ache for him, he was lonely and even if he knew that I wasn't going to stay forever, it still sucked, I was going to miss living here with him too being honest.

I see you tomorrow, alright?" I smiled at him again and this time, he did smile back, still ignoring the shit out of Jonah when he opened the door for me, and I got inside, still smiling at James.

Jonah's long strides made me smile when he got in the driver seat and I watched James disappear in the rearview mirror, still feeling like the biggest villain for just walking out on him.

"He likes you." I made a huff when he sounded jealous, so what? I didn't like him, not like that anyway.

"Even if he does... I don't care, I only love you...." I felt my blush creeping up on my cheeks when he turned his head, grinning at me like he loved hearing me say that me loving him, even if I had said it so many times before.

"I love you too, always has, since the first second I saw you, I think..." he smiled awkward when I was the one smirking now, he did, didn't he, funny ways of showing it too.... But I didn't call him out, so he was an asshole, I already knew that, and he was young, he was just Jonah. And he was mine.

I sat quiet, we both did when I made a small noise of surprise when he took my hand in his, just holding it and me smiling at him, God that felt so good, just holding his warm hand here in the dark, the heat subsiding and Jonah being happy, life felt great all the sudden.

I snuggled him closer when we walked into the elevator, I wasn't that afraid, I just didn't want to ride it alone, so I guess that I was still going to take the stairs when he wasn't around.

He just stroked my head, it felt good, just him being here, making me almost frown when the bell made us aware that we were getting off this floor.

I looked at the doors coming in the hallway, one to the left and one to the right, and I stopped, not knowing where to go when he looked at me serious like he was wondering that too.

"I mean I guess you can stay with me... he sounded like he really didn't want that, and I just rolled my eyes, of course he didn't, that was the one thing he had been so fucking hard on all the time, me not spending time in his place.

"Jonah we are just dating, we don't have to live together, not yet anyway...." I made an understanding smile when he looked like he got it and seemed more relieved like he didn't have to give up his whole life for me, I wasn't asking that either, I just wanted him to hold me and love me, that was it.

"Well... I'm not saying that we can't live together in the future, just... you already have your place and I have mine, and sometimes, I don't want you around because of the people I have over, you got that Andrea? He sounded darker and I just nodded at him, yeah, I got that too.

"I got it Jonah, just.... I have no furniture..." I looked at him frowning when he smirked back like that was never going to be a problem for him, that cocky bastard.

"They are stored, I just make them come back tomorrow and since I'm f*****g you tonight in my bed, it doesn't matter if you don't have one." He smacked my ass making me gasp from the small searing pain that made me want to go straight to his bedroom. He walked over and pressed his thumb in the small box that I didn't say a word about since I already seen Tom use it, something was telling me, he just didn't let anyone get access to that.

He didn't say anything about it, and I just ignored it, when he wanted me to know about it, I guess he would tell me, God knows he wasn't the easiest person to get sharing his secrets.

He walked straight to the bedroom, and I chuckled, really, he was that horny. I thought that we were doing something else for some time since we just got here, but nope, fucking it was.

"Andrea, let's go, I'm not waiting a second more for you to get here and be naked with my dick inside you!" I strolled over seeing that he was already taking his clothes off making me hotter, damn he really was hot, standing there taking off his pants, frowning when he saw me just standing in the doorway and admired him, I could do that all fucking day.

"Clothes off and in the bed, right now!" he was making his voice darker when I nodded and started to take my shirt of before remembering that he had called me fat, and I know he meant it.

I stopped and looked at him, still frowning over that I didn't do what he was telling me, and I just looked sad, how did I even know if he thought that I was hot naked anymore, maybe he would be disgusted, knowing that I did put on more weight then I wanted to admit.

"Baby what's wrong?" I just turned away, still standing in the doorway, fuck I did look sad when he got closer, naked and I just sniffled, f**k I hated this, why couldn't I just keep my goddam mouth close and not eat the entire f*****g world when I got the chance? "I'm fat...." I whispered making a sobbing sound when his face changed from worried to guilty and I just buried my head into his chest, he was so fucking hard and firm, everywhere and I was just a fat woman that didn't belong next to him, looking so fucking good. "Yeah... but so what? I still think you are sexy as hell; my dick is still hard for you baby." I looked up when he smiled at me and I cried more, so he did think that, me being fat and awful for everyone to see.

"So what!? I look fucking awful, you told me that, just a fucking hour ago and now you want to fuck me?!" I looked up angry, he was so stupid, just telling me that I was fat but too be f*****g cool about it, I wasn't.

"You are not that fat, just around your boobs and ass, and I'm not fucking complaining, am I?!" he let me go and I looked at him, what the hell was he talking about, it wasn't just my boobs and a*s, it was all of me, everywhere, I didn't have a f*****g waist anymore, not that I had that much before but now it was gone, f*****g gone!

"You are just saying that to make me feel better, I'm not fucking blind Jonah!" I had stopped crying when he got a darker face, eyes looking dangerous like he had enough off my complaining and just stared me down making me feel like I was nothing compared to him.

"Andrea, stop this shit right fucking now, if you are so fucking unhappy, just stop eating so goddam much!" he sneered at me when I didn't say anything back, it was just that easy... he was stupid, I just sat down on the bed and looked sad, f**k my life. "That's it, I'm telling you, the last fucking time before I take the car and drop you off at that fuckers house again, clothes off, now." My body was hearing him, already shaking from the hard desire that only he could make me feel and I started to remove my shirt, hating every second of it when he just stood there, naked and looking at me, arms crossed and making me more nervous that he was going to hate what he saw once I was naked.

"Good girl, that's a start..." he grinned when I looked up and smiled back, he looked cute smiling at me and I removed my bra and dropped it on the floor, seeing that his dick was starting to get hard helped a lot too... it really did.

"Now, the sweatpants." He nodded when I stood up and started to push them down making him smirk when I wasn't having any panties on, because honestly, they weren't that comfortable to wear anymore since I gained weight, at least not when I was just home. "Look at you... I just want to fuck you, every damn minute, you get that Andrea, my dick is fucking hard for you and no other girl, you got me by the f*****g balls." I started to laugh when he came closer and took my hand, making me grab his balls that was warm and cleanshaven making me do a small sigh feeling his dick pushing into my flesh, oh god he really was so hard for me.

"What about the girl you fucked when I walked in here, you were hard then?" I made a teasing tug at his balls when he hissed and looked down on me warning me not to do that again or he would punish me, I got that.

"Yeah, but she had to suck my dick a long time, and I only thought of you when she did it, just like all of them..." he smirked when I lost my courage, there were others, of course, there would always be others with Jonah.

"I should have fucked James when I had the chance, seeing that I'm in the tide of you, fucking girls that wasn't me when I wasn't here, just like you always do!" I let go off his balls feeling the anger rushing over me again, and this time I wasn't mad at myself, I was fucking furious he had done all that, fucked everyone and still got fucking jealous enough to treat me like shit, that bastard!

"you know what, go ahead, go fuck him, please just fucking do it so that I don't have to listen to you complain about something that I'm sick of hearing you bitch about already!" he was picking up his clothes when I lost my anger the moment I saw that he was going for the door, getting out and I got up after him, followed him naked out into the rest of the apartment, not caring about anything then the fact that he was not f*****g leaving me!

"I will, you hear me! I'm going over there right now and I'm fucking him, and I will send you the fucking video of it!" I was breathing heavier behind him when he turned around, showing exactly just how fucking jealous he was even thinking about that.

"You think me loving you changes anything? I have done that a long time Andrea and I still punish you, do you f*****g want that?! because it sure sounds like it when you are saying that shit to my face!" I just took a step back when he came closer and I gulped, oh shit.

He grabbed my face with one hand and just made me stare up into his serious eyes and I made an offended sigh when he let me go, I fucking got it.

He cursed a couple of times when he just stared at me, standing naked here in the open, and I hadn't care, not when I was mad anyway.

"I just want to fuck you, why the hell are you struggling so f*****g much, I know you like it!" he was making a face like he couldn't even believe that I had feelings that required more than just shoving his d**k in me, I didn't want that, I loved it, but I wanted more, now that he told me he fucking loved me.

"Because I don't want you to fuck me....at least not like all the other girls... don't you get it... I want something more than just being dominant and submissive, even if I love that shit, I love you Jonah and I think I f*****g deserve more then just being on my knees before you!"

He stopped like he had never thought of that, not one single time and just started smile at me, and I don't know if I was getting turned on or nervous, both.

"What does that mean then, since you are the love expert here....?" He was mocking me when I got flustered, I didn't know what that meant, since my marriage was a failure, and Ryan was marrying his soulmate and I was in love with Jonah.

"I don't know... maybe you could just hold me more than spank me?" I knew that he was smirking again when I stopped and just looked defeated at him, so I wasn't a love expert, sue me.

"But I like spanking you, that ass was made for spanking... just look at it, waiting for me to come and have some of that..." He was staring at my a*s and making me even more flustered, he was doing this on purpose, and I knew it.

He got even closer, and I gasped when he smacked both his big hands over my cheeks, making the entire place echo with sound of my a*s being slapped.

"Just listen to that... fucking magical..." he slapped me again making me moan when I was feeling myself getting hot for him and he smirked just rubbing his big warm hands over my ass and just watching me starting to get wet and he knew it from the way he stopped and grabbed my flesh harder, making me hiss from the small pain he was giving me when I was already wanting him. oh god how little it took him, just a few slaps and a smile and I was willing for him, every damn time.

"That's it, get on the sofa, right now." He made me turn around, bending me over the dark blue velvet and I caressed my fingers over its fabric when I felt Jonah's dick rubbing against my ass and pussy making me moan from the anticipation, he was always teasing

me.

"that's it baby, let me hear that you like what I'm fucking doing to you!" he smacked my a*s again making me hiss from the pain and scratch my nails over the fabric.

oh god why couldn't he just do it, just start fucking me, I was dying over here, I had f*****g missed him, missed this.

"Jonah please... just give me your d**k... please...." I was making small sounds of moaning when he was smirking and I knew it, didn't even need to see him that bastard when I gasped feeling his fingers inside my pussy, already wet and quivering just waiting for him to start.

"Always so eager for me Andrea...." He chuckled twisting his fingers inside me making me take deep breaths, moving my hips towards him, wanting more and made a gasp again when he slapped my ass, harder this time and I could already feel the mark on my body that was forming, the searing that was there but I didn't care, all I wanted was for him to f**k me.

"Did I say you could fucking move?" I just whimpered at his dark voice when he slapped me again and I clawed at the sofa, hissing at the hard pain on my a*s.

"No.... you didn't say that Jonah...." I was whining more when I felt his hand, stroking me over the same place that he had smacked me, f**k that felt so good.

"Fuck I really want that ass... Andrea... you don't know how fucking hard I am here, and you just keep pushing back, giving me all that soft a*s against my d**k, you are f*****g playing with fire here baby girl." I felt his finger started to move and I just didn't answer, already lost in his fingers pushing me towards the hard throbbing when I had my eyes closed, just moaning loudly. my fingers and toes curled when I made a surprised yelp from the pressure of his finger that was pushing inside me, in my ass and I stopped and looked back, what the fuck was happening?!

He stopped, staring me in my eyes with his blue green ones and just smirked more when I made a sigh like I was okay, it was weird and it did hurt, I wasn't going to lie about that.

"I want your ass Andrea. I told you that, right from the start that I wanted it, now are you going to give it to me like a good girl or do I have to get disappointed?" I gasped again when he was moving his finger slowly, rubbing my c**t at the same time, making it harder for me to talk, to think, to do anything then just moan back my answer, pushing my a*s back even more, not even caring that his finger in my a*s went deeper, he could do whatever he wanted to me. "Fucking words Andrea!" he smacked me making me wake up from my daze and I looked back and just looked at him begging, I just wanted him to f**k me, make me come, that was it!

"You can have it, just fuck me Jonah... please!" I didn't see his face when I turned around again, but I felt it when his fingers were pushing fast inside me, rubbing me. making me take shallower breaths when I felt the hard clenching that was pumping around his fingers, not even caring that he still had his finger in my ass when the scream from the wave that crashed over me, falling down with my head into the couch, already fucking sweating from coming on his fingers that was still inside, just rolling around in me, making me feel just how f*****g sensitive my p***y was right now.

"that's it... oh fuck I just love watching your p***y twitch when you come around me, never gets f*****g old..." he was caressing my a*s when he pulled out his fingers and I crashed down on the couch more, leaning all my weight on it, f**k I was drained already, and I knew that Jonah was not done, not by far.