Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 44

"Do you need a break baby?" I was still lying down on the couch, headfirst and panting. Shit, I really was old and fat, wasn't I? I couldn't even take it being leaned over the couch for more than fifteen minutes before crashing, that was f*****g it, I was going to get fitter, stop eating like a goddam pig and work out. I swore on it. "Yeah... just give me five minutes...." I had turned around and he was looking worried at me, like something was wrong and I smiled at him, God he was so sweet, standing there and being worried when he wanted to f**k my a*s, just one minute ago. "Well, I'm going to get some lube anyway so you can go drink water or something..." he helped me up and I smiled more when he kissed me, making me moan again feeling that sweet mint, it was the best taste in the world.

He let me go and I got confused when he was getting dressed, fast and determined leaving me here naked, what the hell, was he going out, now? But he hadn't even f****d me?!

"I'm just going to be gone ten minutes, relax. I'm not leaving you, but I'm not going to f**k you in the a*s, maybe hurting you if I don't go buy that f*****g lube." He was gritting his teeth like he really didn't want to leave making me smirk at his handsome face, he better hurry up then.

"I'm not going anywhere Jonah... I'm going to be right here when you get back..." I smiled at him sweetly making his eyes go all soft on me, smiling back knowing that I loved him, I really did.

"Good girl..." he smiled when I giggled at him, he said it so corny, not like when he was f*****g me, it was sweeter and more loving, I liked it.

I pushed my arms around him when he kissed me again, making me lean back and just let his tongue dominate mine, f**k he was making me hot again and he was leaving when I moaned, still holding on when he pulled back, making my lips long for him, still feeling the heat of his body and warm hands.

"Hey Jonah... I love you..." he smirked at me when he was at the door and came back and kissed me again, leaving me breathless for the second time tonight from the warm eyes and loving smile he was giving me.

"I love you too... now go drink water..." I smiled more when he was walking back out the door, locking it and I just walked over to the kitchen, running the tap and taking out a glass, drinking slowly and looked around, I was back.

It felt strange and still didn't, this was my home to, even if he didn't want me here, and I had started to understand why... I mean come on I wasn't that stupid, he obviously did something he didn't want me to know about but right now I didn't f*****g care, Ryan had been f*****g precious Sky behind my back, I could take Jonah not wanting me to know everything, as long as he wasn't f*****g other girls.

I walked back, waterglass still in my hand when I heard the door open and turned around, shit did he run the whole way to the store and back? I chuckled drinking when I dropped the glass, right where I was standing, seeing the surprised eyes of Tom and a guy that was walking behind him, and I just froze, holy f**k!

Before I knew what was happening, Tom had stopped and started to push the guy back, complaining like he didn't understand why he was getting shoved out in the hallway and the door slammed closed.

Fuck! I stared down at the carpet being wet and me just standing here, fucking naked! I thought that it was Jonah, not fucking Tom that was coming inside when I cursed going for the bedroom and grabbed the first things I saw that was Jonah's hoodie and my sweatpants, getting dressed fast and feeling like I wanted to die from the hard pounding shame that was in my chest, fuck, Jonah was going to kill me, and then he was going to kill Tom too, just to make it even.

"Pretty?! Fuck I'm so sorry I am!" I heard him talk on the other side and I just walked over to the door, fast and determined, just ripping the f*****g bandage off, he saw me naked, and I was going to own up to it, f**k!

I opened the door, looking grim when he gazed at me with his nice eyes, like he was really sorry and the guy behind him was smirking like he started to get what was happening.

"I thought you said he was out; the car is not here?" I stared at the new guy, he was bigger too, just like Tom but didn't look nice, he smirked when I met his eyes, that was looking like he wanted to f**k me too from the thought of me being naked when they walked inside.

"He is out, but he is coming back soon, just get the fuck inside and do what the hell you where suppose to do." I gritted my teeth, turning around and letting them inside making a low complaining sound when I walked over and saw the glass still being on the floor, it hadn't shattered, but the carpet was stained, making me look up at the two guys coming up and hated that I was blushing like a goddam school girl seeing Toms sorry eyes, well f**k he had seen a hundred girls naked hadn't he, what was one more?! "Just stop it, right fucking now, so I was naked, get the fuck over it." I snapped when the guy that I didn't know the name on yet was grinning like he was getting f*****g hard and I frowned at him, why the hell was he smiling at me for, I didn't want him, not anyone other than Jonah.

"I'm so fucking sorry, shit I didn't know you were even here, I thought you told me that you were going away and now you are here, in Jonah's f*****g apartment?!" he sounded both shocked, proud and confused about me being here, trust me, I felt the same way. "Yes well, here I am... so where is Joseph? And who is the new guy?" I was having my arms crossed and nodded towards the guy that seemed surprised I was asking about him making me smirk more, he didn't remember me from the club, of course he didn't, I was just another bitch around them, I guess.

"Joey is at home, and this is Brandon." He nodded to the guy that smirked back at me, and f*****g winked making me roll my eyes, I was standing here, in Jonah's clothes and he was being flirty, he was not going to make it through the night like that. "Hi..." he smiled more when I just made a face, maybe he just was flirty, what did I know, and I wasn't looking like a f*****g catch here either, still sweaty and looking like shit.

"....and that is Andrea, Jonah's girl." Tom just said that dryly, and I smiled back sweetly at the guy that seemed to have lost his nerve the second he heard that, looking more nervous than anything else making me smile more, that's right, I was Jonah's girl and nobody else's!

"Hello." I said it slyly when he seemed to get more nervous making me smirk more, not feeling so fucking bad about being caught naked all the sudden, actually it felt good seeing him sweat hearing that, oh god I was turning into such a bitch.

"I thought you said that he didn't have a girlfriend?" he was whispering it to Tom that was smirking too, he got it that Jonah had finally cracked but he wasn't going to share that, and neither was I.

"He does, and its me." I said the same thing Jonah had said to James making Tom start to laugh and I followed him, it felt good, being back here and talking to people that knew Jonah, knowing how f*****g hard it was to be his love interest. "Well, I guess that's it then pretty, you are back to stay?" Tom was looking happy when I nodded, yeah, I was back to stay, I knew that this wasn't going to be easy, but I wasn't going to give up on Jonah, not after he finally had started to open up to me. "Yeah...I'm back... still need to go to the fucking wedding since my dad already paid for me and the ticket.... I got quiet... fuck I needed to tell Jonah, about me leaving for the wedding that I really didn't want to go to. Great.

"What fucking wedding?!" I looked up seeing Jonah in the doorway and sighed when Tom got nervous when he knew that Jonah was going to blow up, especially about him seeing me naked.

"Why the fuck are you here!? get the fuck out, right now! I am not doing anything more other today then fucking Andrea, you got that!?" he was staring the two big guys down, almost making me laugh if it weren't for the fact that I was just as afraid as they seemed to be when he was around, okay I was more scared but still, it was hilarious seeing them, brawny, and Jonah was just tall and fit, he looked so f*****g hot, even more being in full dominant over the two guys in his place.

"We were just getting the ..." the new guy, Brandon, got a hard shove from Tom when Jonah turned his gaze on him, it was dark and furious over that he was opening his mouth, oh he didn't know that he wasn't allowed to talk about that shit to me, dammit! I could have made him sing like a fucking canary if I had known that before Jonah got to him.

"You where fucking what?! Coming here and wasting my fucking time that I could spend on Andrea?!" I was gulping hard seeing the bag in his hand, it was a brown paper one, and I knew that whatever was in it, it was nothing I had done before. "Hey, I wasn't the one that saw your girl naked, I'm not the one that should be getting all the shit here!" I gasped when Jonah's body got tense, like he was going to kill whoever did that, and his name was Tom, his right-hand man. "What the fuck did you just say to me?" he sounded calm again, like we all couldn't hear the rage that was underneath it, just waiting to erupt and go full f*****g psycho on us all, man that guy didn't know when the hell to shut up did he?!

"Yeah, she was naked, when we got here, I didn't see anything, but he did!" he pointed on Tom like he was five, telling on his playmate that broke the vase at someone's house. I just felt myself starting to shake, I knew that look, that was the same one he had when he had screamed in my face and I backed up, knowing there was nothing I could do more then just stand down, not pushing him harder like this guy was.

"Andrea, baby, go inside the bedroom, right f*****g now." He didn't need to tell me twice when I just looked sad at Tom that was clenching his jaw, not giving me a look back when the other guy seemed just to be confused over what was happening and I closed the door to the bedroom.

I saw the headphones that was Jonah's and took them quickly and connected to my phone still in my sweatpants, making my whole head being filled with rock before sitting down on the floor just breathing with my back against the bed, hard fear filling me up when I felt the hard thumps making the walls vibrated and I just sniffled.

this was not how this night was supposed to go, me and Jonah had just said that we loved each other and now he was going full f*****g beast mode and I knew it when I felt my first tear fall down making me wipe it fast, fuck it was hard being Jonah's girlfriend when he was like this.

It had gone about an hour when I made a small scream from the hand that was touching my head slightly and I looked up still scared to see Jonah, he was calm again, looking like he hadn't just beating the shit out of someone, f**k I hope that Tom was okay, whatever had happened on the other side, it didn't sound like anything that you could just walk away from with a small scratch on your skin, more like someone needed a fucking ambulance.

"Hey..." I just looked at him, standing there, face calm and relaxed, making me feel less nervous when he smiled at me, holding out his hand, it was cleaned off and bandaged when I took it and smiled back, coming right into his arms, fuck what the hell had he done to Tom to need bandages over both his hands.

"I'm too tired to fuck you right now, lets just go to sleep, okay baby?" I looked up at him and he smiled at me when I just nodded, sure I didn't want to do anything either, not after being scared shitless from what had happened.

I was in his arms and just having my eyes closed, naked again when I felt his hand stroking my face and I felt so much better already, just lying here, on his chest that was rising up and down, mellow heartbeats making me tired, oh I was so fucking tired, I was, seeing that it was almost midnight.

"You know I would never hurt you, Andrea?" his voice made me open my eyes and I nodded still lying down on his chest, I knew that, but he still scared the shit out of me when he was like that, going all psycho on me and anyone else close enough. "Yeah, I know Jonah..." I just whispered it back and felt his arms around me, keeping me closer and I felt safe, and I knew just how fucked up that was, but he did that, he made me feel safe and complete, he was my f*****g soulmate.