Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 57

I don't know why as thought he would be gone when I woke up, maybe because the other times, when we felt close, he bolted on me. So when I felt that I was still in his arms snuggling closer to my naked body against his, it felt like heaven. Shit.

I really, like really needed to pee when I gently rolled out of his calm asleep face and smiled at him, I could never get over just how peaceful he was sleeping, not a frown in sight, just bliss when I was reminded of my rush to pee when it almost was hurting me, walking over as fast as I could to the bathroom.

Shit again. I just sat there, naked and tired, I had no idea what the time was, and I was still tired as hell feeling the drowsiness when I walked up again and washed my hands and got back to Jonah, he was already reaching out for me, making my heart clench at the sight of him wanting me close, just like me.

I went back just lying down beside him, already feeling his arm pulling me back into his chest making me have this feeling of pure happiness that was expanding in my chest, he did love me.

When I woke up the next time, he was gone and I felt my heart drop, I don't even know why, I was so f*****g vulnerable when it came to Jonah, like one wrong word or look would shake my world, when everybody else didn't even matter to me anymore. Suddenly I smelt the whole place filling up and it was delicious when I was already up naked before snatching Jonah shirt and walked out to find him standing in the kitchen, dressed in just shorts, cooking pancakes and I smiled, he looked like he really was trying to make it right pouring the batter down in the frying pan like his life was depending on it.

"Hey...." I stood there, standing leaning in the doorway just smirking at him, looking all hot and sweaty from trying, I loved every part of it.

He turned and made a small frown that caught me off-guard, wasn't he happy that I was up? seeing that he was really trying to be nice.

"Andrea.... what the hell are you doing up? your alarm doesn't go off in thirty minutes, I know since I changed it." He was still frowning when I swallowed my sadness and shrugged, ignoring the fact that I had no idea how the hell he was able to get into my phone that had a combination of numbers I never told him.

"I woke up smelling the pancakes... but I can leave again I guess....." I was looking unsure at him when he made a small sight, flipping the pancake in the pan like a freaking champ, making me more impressed with his hidden talents.

"No, what's the point? I wanted to get you breakfast in bed since I was such an asshole yesterday to you...." He trailed off and took out the cooked pancake onto a plate, pouring more batter down the sizzling pan, shit he was making me want to stay here and watch him forever, and how the hell could him cooking make me so f*****g turned on?

"Oh...." My sadness was gone, just like that. he wanted to be nice and do something for me, fuck wasn't he the perfect guy there ever was? Yes, yes, he was.

I walked inside, still in his shirt when he smiled at me, I was covered in cum that needed washing off before work when I just sneaked up behind him and kissed his strong back lightly before leaning my head against it, I loved him so much. "You did great babe; I love that you are trying to do this for me." I felt his abs with my fingers when he just grunted back like he was still pissed at me for waking up making me want to laugh at his childishness, he was so grumpy right now.

"You really think I'm a psychopath?" I jerked back from his question, not ready for him to go all serious on me when I just had woken up, I didn't know how to answer that right now.

"No.... just... you got some anger issues that's for sure...." I didn't say more, feeling him tense up and I held him tighter with my arms around his waist and my soft body against his hard one.

"Just because I get pissed off, that doesn't make me a psychopath." He sounded so serious, making me let go off him turning around giving me a severe look that he was hurt by my choice of words.

I just stared at him; he was hurt. I had hurt Jonah, just like he had hurt me with telling me I was middle age and fat, great so we were just as awful people when all was said and done.

"I know that.... but seriously.... You have done some shit that scares the hell out of me...." I stopped when his eyes got softer, I wasn't going to lie and he knew exactly what I was talking about, him going ballistic on me, just unleashing whatever he was feeling at the moment.

My eyes flacking when his was just getting sadder, shit this morning was getting turned from super romantic to absolute shit in just a few minutes.

"I know that...... I fucking know when I done something wrong... I'm not stupid, I don't like doing bad shit Andrea, but sometimes I have to..." he stopped, and I knew he wasn't talking about me or the times he had blown up. No, he was talking about the shady stuff he never shared with me.

"You know...I'm not stupid either. just because you don't want to tell what the hell you are doing. I can make some assumptions from Austin, you not wanting to go near the police station and having Tom around as muscle and Joseph for brains." I stopped when he just was gawking at me, like I was the smartest girl in the world when it wasn't that hard to know that he was doing some shady shit, it really wasn't.

He started to chuckle like I was being funny and turned, giving me a plate with pancakes making my stomach rumble from the delicious smell, he really knew how to treat a girl.

"Just eat the damn pancakes I did." He kissed me leaning down and I smiled back, oh I was planning on doing just that.

I was shuffling them already when he came with his own plate and I stared at the pile, no, tower of pancakes, and I thought I ate a lot, I sure didn't, looking at him scoffing down like a wolf across the table. "What?" he stopped when I made a small laughter. He still had a full pancake in his mouth, not giving a shit to chew it before it when down.

"Big appetite...." I smirked when he grinned and winked at me, taking another one and just pushing it in, he sure was hungry.

"You know what I'm really hungry for? that pussy of yours...." I did a small cough when the pancake was caught in my throat making him reach out and give me some juice still grinning at me that bastard. "Jonah.... Shit I just woke up and you want to go down on me?" I made small, short breaths from getting turned on seeing his eyes roam over me, even when I was just looking like crap and had stolen his shirt.

He took another pancake and stuffed it inside his mouth laughing at me being embarrassed when he swallowed hard, having an energy drink in his hand making me sigh, he really loved those it seemed. "So? I don't give a shit that its morning, your pussy got some goddamn timer on it or what?" he chuckled again when I just gave up and leaned back, he wasn't going to let this one go, I knew that.

"You fucking love it, and lets be honest here babe, if I just tell you to climb the table and open your legs for me, you will do it..." he sounded darker already making me shiver, shit, he was doing this on purpose when I stuffed pancake in my mouth too, trying not to make any sounds of being desperate for him to do just that, command me.

"See, you already want me to do it..." he snickered when I got flushed and cursed myself for being so easy for him to read all the damn time.

He didn't say a word more to my disappointment, just ate the whole mountain of pancakes and finishing the stupid energy drink he had making me do faces of being annoyed, chewing slower and giving him glares for being a goddam tease all the time.

He just stood up, taking his plate and mine when I looked at him even more annoyed, I was still fucking eating and he just made me horny and left me hanging, not cool.

"Jonah for fuck sakes, I wasn't done with that!" I made a small sneer when he had changed and I could feel it, the small switch in his face that told me that he wasn't going to listen to me whining, he just wanted to fuck me.

"Don't Jonah me, get on the table and spread your legs for me, just like I told you to." He smirked when I gulped, feeling like that last pancake made my throat dry and even harder to swallow.

I got up, slowly and just walked around to his side of the table, seeing his eyes following me, hungry and surprised that I was going up to him instead of just following his orders.

My hands around his neck, I was reaching up all the way, standing on my toes and just smirking at him when he slapped his arms around me, holding me hostage, like I wanted to escape ever.

"Lift me up." I just stared into his amazing eyes, how the hell could he looks so breathtaking and have the prettiest eyes I ever seen? It just wasn't fair.

He didn't even hesitate to do it, lift me up, holding my ass and I wrapped my arms around him more, locking him in and finding his mouth against mine and feeling that sweet mint mixed with pancake together.

The warm hands feeling me all over and I pulled back, lips swollen and out of breath, I wanted to see him more, just more of everything when he put me down on the table and smirked like he didn't hate that I followed my own instinct instead of just listening to him.

"just lie back, you know you going to like this part Andrea..." he made a small growl attacking my neck when my breath was getting shallow and my hands on his toned arms, fuck I loved this, the part when his teeth was in my skin, even if I was bruised and hurt, the hard desire making my core start to pulsate over my body, him not stopping when I was on my back and followed me down still kissing and nipping at my skin, making me moan from the hard beat of my body getting hotter for him every second that I was underneath him, it was f*****g heaven.

His hand finding its way under his shirt I was still wearing and I made a surprised sound of pain when he slapped my thigh just like he did the first time he fucked me making me melt even more, still at my neck coming down at my collarbone, pulling down the neckline kissing the edges of my chest and outlines of my boobs making me push my hips against him, fuck he was really getting me wet, I don't know how much more I was going to be able to take without some release.

"Jonah.... just make me cum, please...." I was opening my eyes having them closed when he snickered in my ear, his d**k stiff against my body and my hand was already going for it when he pushed it back making me irritated, didn't he want me to feel his d**k that was already hard for me?!

"I never said you could do that, just because I let you do more things these days, doesn't mean that you can do whatever you want, break the rules and I will punish you baby... and I do love seeing your ass all red and swollen from my hand..." I gulped hard from that, why did it sound like something I wanted and at the same time, something I would do anything to avoid.

"I got it Jonah." I didn't even wait for him to ask if I got it making him smirk at him being so goddam predictable to when it came to him f*****g me.

"that's good baby, I know you always want to be a good girl for me...." He made a charming smile that made me feel weak in my knees before feeling lips against mine again, the heath rushing when I sighed from the way his hand was stroking my bare nipples through the fabric of the shirt.

His hands following my breast before hugging them and I made a small whine from the slight pain of his fingers gripping them harder making him stop right away, withdrawing from my face looking at me worried all the sudden when I just fluttered my eyes, what was he doing? I was just enjoying his tongue in my mouth and his hands over my body. Why the hell was he stopping now?!

"Jonah?!" I was still flustered and trying to catch my breath, hoisting myself up on my elbows staring confused at him standing up and just looking worried like something really had happened, I was just as confused as he was right now.

"I hurt you, right now, you were hurting, and I know it." He said it worried again when I sat up, my hairs a mess and I'm sure there where pancake in it somewhere but I didn't care, I just wanted to know what was wrong all the sudden.

"Baby... you know I like it when you go all rough on me, I don't care about that, and let's face it, it didn't hurt more then when my hip was bad or the bruises on my shoulder." He looked even more defeated over that, like everything I was saying just made it worse and not the other way around.

"FUCK! I'm going to find him again and kill him, motherfucker believing that he was some hardcore gangster when he just was a fucking lowlife hanging around me." His face was dark again, a hard scowl on his face and I knew he was talking about Chris, and I sigh, yeah...he really was an a*****e high on himself.

"Calm down... just calm down babe, there is nothing we can do about that now, and my hip is better, it really is." I stood up showing him moving my right leg like he didn't know that I had healed up fine, and it was just a small fracture, even if it hurt like a motherfucker.

"No! I'm going out right now and finding him, he had no right to do that too you, he knew that you were mine and he had no f*****g right to lay his hand on you, jealous f**k!" he was already out the kitchen with me following him, shit he really was going out to go find Chris and kill him?! No! I didn't want that!

Chapters 58

"Jonah, listen to me! Listen!" I was standing in the doorway of the bedroom, holding my arms over the doorframe, stopping him from going out, I knew that if he wanted to, he could just move me, shove me to the side and walk out, no problems, but he said he loved me, then he better fucking listen to what I felt about all this.

"Move Andrea." He was pissed and I shook my head, no I wasn't going to move, he was too angry, to fucking hotheaded and I didn't understand where all of this was coming from, he didn't seem that upset when I woke up at the hospital, he never said a word more then that he had taken care of Chris, that's it.

"No, I'm not fucking moving, you are not going out there and killing that son of a bitch, I don't want to lose you just because you get arrested for fucking murder, nothing is worth that Jonah, nothing." I made my own voice darker like he did, and he started to smirk like I was cute for standing up to him, well I was. standing up to him.

"Arrested? That the hell are you taking me for, some goddam loser that doesn't know shit?" he was still smirking, and I didn't like it, it was hard and raw, real darkness staring back into my eyes when I felt myself shaking the slightest of the hard eyes he had right now, oh f**k he was not kidding me wasn't he?

"Hey no, I don't take you for a loser, you are the best guy I ever met! You are sweet and I know you love me, long before you even wanted to tell me, so fucking listen to me! forget that bastard, forget he ever existed." I was still standing in the doorway, head tilted up and staring defiant into his merciless eyes that was only wanting blood right now, and I wasn't going to let him do that, he was good deep down, I knew he was, no matter what shit he was hiding from me.

He was dressed now, hoodie and everything, ready to go when his jaw was making clenching movements, like he was trying to decide to listen to me or not, oh god I really hoped that he did.

"I just.... You don't know how I fucking feel Andrea! Seeing you getting hurt, I never been so fucking angry in my entire life and he just got away with a simple beating since he ran like the f*****g coward he always was, sniffling motherfucker!" he was getting angrier again when I felt the air in my lungs deflate, did he think that I didn't know what it was like, getting so mad that I wanted to kill someone? he made me that mad, all the f*****g time.

"I'm not blaming you for it.... Jonah.... I'm not blaming you for what happened, sure it fucking sucked and the pain was horrible. but you took care of me, you did, I had nobody, and you stayed with me, my own parents don't give that much shit about me you know...?" I felt embarrassed telling him that, but it was the truth. when I said nobody gave a damn about me except for him, Tom, James and maybe Joseph... shit maybe he didn't give a crap either, but it didn't matter, I had Jonah and that was all I needed. I held my head down again, feeling even more ashamed of that, I told him before, but not like this, not that I was alone and he was the only thing that I was clinging on to, because I loved him.

"They are fucking idiots if that's true, how the fuck can they not love you!? you are the most beautiful girl I ever have seen, kind and smart... fierce as fuck... "he had come closer making me hold my breath, still not looking up. my tears burning in my eyes. shit it was like he just stopped caring about being nervous around me, just said everything that was on his mind, it was like getting sucker punched from his feeling from nowhere, and I f*****g loved it.

"No... they like Ryan more, always have... I'm just something they have to put up with...." I blinked away the first tear rolling down my cheek feeling his thumb stroking it away when I felt my face being lifted up, staring into his blue green eyes, all darkness gone, just pure love that was so bright it was burning me.

"Fuck them." He smiled when I smiled back still crying, how the hell did we end up talking about this from him going down on me at the table? shit I was just as fucked up as he was, no doubt about that.

"I don't want you to go, to the wedding, you don't owe them shit Andrea, you got that? not a damn thing." He was serious when I made a small smile of sadness, I had to go, my parents would kill me if I didn't show up when they already were counting on me to

come.

"No... I have to go.... Jonah... my dad already paid, I can't do that to them, even if they are assholes and I hate every minute of seeing Ryan marry the same girl he f****d behind my back. I said I would go and its just two weeks, I'm not going to be gone forever...." I made a hard gulp from saying that, even I didn't believe that I would survive two weeks, what the fuck had I been thinking?! I was going to die being away from Jonah that long.

He didn't say anything just staring into my eyes, his own being unreadable now, like he got what I said but he didn't understand either, why I was going to people that hurt me, believe me, I didn't understand either.

"Fine, then I'm coming too." He smiled from nowhere when I just dropped my chin down, still surprised by his words. He was what?!