Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 73

"I'm a drug dealer." He was looking like he was about to puke right there on the carpet not even wanting to look me in the eye anymore when my eyes just got wide from the shock of what he had told me, what!? I just stood there, not being able to speak. He. Was. A. ***** Drug dealer. "What?" I sounded dead again, did he just seriously tell me that he was a f*****g drug dealer, what the f**k was up with that?!

"You heard me. “He looked up now looking more like he wasn't going to say sorry for it or even be ashamed, Jonah was a drug dealer, had been all along. Motherfucker.

I didn't answer him, this was not like when he told me that he was nineteen, it was bad enough and now this, I always knew that he was doing some shady shit, but I was stupid enough to believe that it was something far more innocent, not f*****g dealing drugs to people!

He made a big sigh again and just leaned back, staring at me, observing me like he wanted to know what I felt about him now that I knew the truth. that was just it, I had no idea on how to feel about it.

"Well now you fucking know; does it feel better knowing you are dating a fucking criminal?" He sounded almost more bored than anything else when I was just fluttering my eyes, arms crossed and jaw tense from what he told me, which was the complete opposite from his relaxed stance, almost lying back again on the bed, exhausted from finally telling me what the f**k he had been up to all along.

"No." I was getting mad again, more at him looking like it wasn't a big deal, like he was doing it because he wanted to do it more then he didn't have a choice. he always had a f*****g choice; he was young and why the f**k did he want to ruin his life with that kind of shit!?

"Well, you do. now tell me that I'm not trying to protect you! do you think its that's fucking easy just saying all that shit, do you?!" He was getting mad again when I just stayed silent, this was not what I had expected to find out, I just met his parents yesterday for ****s sake!

"Why?" I just said that when he looked up confused, he wasn't expecting me to ask why, but I wanted to know, why was he a f*****g drug dealer?!

"What the hell do you mean why?! I do it like everyone else Andrea, fucking money!" He made a face like I was stupid for even asking that when he got up restless for even talking about it, he was clearly not comfortable with discussing this with me. "Money?" I made a mocking face back, that was it?! That was the almighty answer he had given me that I should be grateful for, fuck him.

"Yes, you know that thing you never had since I met you!? Money Andrea!" I was still having my arms crossed and just watch him pace back and forth in the bedroom like he couldn't stay still or even look at me, so he was f*****g ashamed then, good, he f*****g should be.

I sat down on the bed again. I was exhausted of hearing him saying that to me, what the f**k did he want me to tell him?! That I was still in love with him even If I wanted to kill him for being so f*****g stupid to do that, deal f*****g drugs and still want to forgive him the second he said it? Because that's what I felt and I hated it, hated myself for it. Fuck!

"Fuck Jonah, fuck you and everything else!" I was just leaning back now, like we had switched positions, me on the bed and him standing when he just stopped and looked at me amused like I was trying to be funny, I wasn't!

"Fuck me?! you mean the one thing you wanted to do when you saw me, do you think that I'm that fucking stupid that I can't tell when a girl wants my dick, Andrea?!" He was looking like he was mocking me when I just flipped him off, fuck him, he wanted to fuck me too and lets just call it even at that.

"Are you fucking flipping me off?! You are such a bitch these days and you know it!" He was getting pissed when I just smirked back, yeah, I was, and he was the one to blame for that.

"I guess you become a bitch when your boyfriend is a fucking pusher!" I made a bigger smirk that he just stared at before looking dangerous again, but I wasn't afraid, so he was mad, who cared? I was the one that was supposed to be mad at him, not the other way around!

"You keep talking like that and I'm going to fucking punish you baby and you know it, don't think that I'm going to continued being nice if you act like that!" He was standing still now, being all his height when I made a small moan squeezing my thighs together feeling the small beats of my p***y, well it was about f*****g time he did something at least.

"Do it then, fucking punish me!" I was staring back into his own dark eyes that was getting a glint of approval and amusement over me just wanting him to fuck me, I just didn't know what to do with everything I felt inside me, all the rage and confusion. I was so disappointed and still turned on by him, it was crazy to say the least.