Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 75

I was still lying down on my stomach, crying my heart out when he was just standing there behind me and didn't move, didn't say a f*****g word and I didn't look up, why didn't he just f*****g leave like he wanted to do from the beginning before he went all f*****g psycho on me?! "You still love me?" He was sounding completely different from just a minute ago when he was just being an a*****e and making me cry. Now he sounded like when he told me he was nineteen, like he was really unsure what to do with what I just told him, that him being this criminal didn't matter to me, I still would love him.

I didn't answer him, my crying still was the only thing that was heard between us in the room when I felt my body being turned over, gently this time when I wanted to start to flee, him pushing me too hard and he knew it the second that he flipped me over, meeting my wild eyes that was just looking for a way out in his bedroom.

"Andrea... f**k... f**k... Andrea... I'm sorry... f**k I'm sorry babe... look at me..." He was pleading me when I closed my eyes, I didn't want to listen, not this time, what did I ever do to deserve him doing this to me?! I f*****g loved him, and he had no right to use me like that, he knew when he crossed over the line and just was being a f*****g sadist against me.

"Just let me go... please...." I still had my eyes closed when he let me go right away and I just yanked my arms back from where he had been holding me and got up, not giving a shit that he was looking lost when I was getting dressed and grabbed my phone without saying so much as a word to him.

I was getting out the door when he followed me, dressed in just his boxers and I was going for the stairs, I just wanted to get out, away from him and he knew that and still he followed me that bastard.

"Don't fucking touch me!" I was sneering it back, feeling his hand grab my wrist again, I didn't want him to be near me, he could go fuck himself, acting like a fucking child and just lashing out on me, when I didn't fucking deserve any of that hate he was carrying around inside him, him and me, we were f*****g done.

"Andrea, just listen to me! I just lost it, I'm sorry babe! you know that I never would hurt you..." He was rambling the same shit every fucking time he did something I realised, every time he hurt me, he just said that he would never hurt me, and I believed him. I was so f*****g stupid!

"YOU ALWAYS HURT ME! DON'T YOU GET THAT JONAH!?" I was so fucking sick of hearing the same f*****g speech, he did hurt me, clear as day, he did and I didn't care if he was aware of it or not, he hurt me the most of everyone!

He got quiet, knew that I was right when he was just standing there, the same guy that I adored, that had been the sweetest guy I had ever met was the same guy that was hurting me, making me terrified.

"We are fucking over; you got that Jonah!?" I said it calm like I hadn't been screaming in his face just a second ago when his own one fell and he just stared at me like I was not making any sense, like I never would leave him no matter how f*****g bad he treated me. "No.... No..." he was making a sound that I never had heard him do, like a complaining whining that was making me want to start to run because I knew that he was about to start to cry and I wouldn't be able to resist that and break apart just like he was about to do right now.

I was turning my back on him when he was still standing there, stunned by my words and I walked into the elevator not even looking his way, my body screaming to get back there and help him, but I couldn't, I just f*****g couldn't when he was too much darkness for me to handle, he was going to drag me down and kill me one day, I needed to get the f**k out of here before he realised that I was really missing.

I was snapping Tom, fast and shaky when the elevator opened and I walked out fast and determined when I heard the stair door being opened and I just started to run, catching Jonah's eyes that was angry now, he was not letting me leave when I picked up my pace knowing that I didn't have a chance a hell against him when he was faster and stronger.

"Andrea!" He was already getting so much closer when I was just trying to open my car and making small curses and crying from just not being able to get the key into the lock when my heart was pounding so f*****g hard in my chest, the pure fear of seeing Jonah catch me knowing that if I didn't get that door open right now, he was going to trap me and then I was f****d.

I made a small sigh of relief when I finally got the key right and swinged the door open before getting inside and just slamming it shut and locking it just seconds before I saw Jonah was that was grabbing the handle, yanking it hard mad as hell when he realised that I had locked it.

"Open the fucking door or I'm breaking the fucking window Andrea, your choice!" he was screaming it to men when I was crying again and just shaking my head, no, no I couldn't open the door, I had to f*****g leave and get away from him!

I made a loud scream when his fist connected to the window making a big crack and the blood that was coming out of his hand when he just kept puncing the window over and over again when I was holding my hand over my ears and crying, he was f*****g crazy and I was going to die!

"I said open the fucking door Andrea!" He was still screaming when I was just making small noises of whining and still crying, afraid to move when I saw the big black truck coming up and drifted into the parking lot, making Jonah look up for the first time since we got out here.

I saw Tom and Joseph get out, they both looking stern as hell when Jonah just snapped up at them and scowled like he was being betrayed when they only wanted to f*****g help and I knew that too, they where his most loyal friends, anyone could see that! He was walking over, still in his briefs and I just stared at the scene in front of me that I saw before me, the almost naked Jonah and the two guys that was his best friends, his brothers in arms having a weird standoff with each other.

He was screaming at them when I opened my door, against my better judgement, trying to hear what the hell he was yelling about when Toms eyes snapped to mine and he was shaking his head the slightest making Jonah look back and I just stared at him, he was the one that was looking crazy now, wild and just in a fucking frenzy.

"Get back into the car Andrea, we got this." Joseph was giving me a hard look when I just nodded, but I couldn't move, not when I heard Jonah's beautiful laughter that was so fucking mocking that I wanted to puke.

"Are you seriously thinking that you two can fucking take me?! Look at you, you are a fucking midget and the fucking slow mountain, I don't even have to break a fucking sweat taking both of you out!" He was still chuckling when I made a frown, he was always so fucking cocky and I knew that he could back it up, seeing that he had taken out four guys rather violent last night.

"Oh we know that you probably would kick our asses, at least mine, that's why I got this beauty..." I made a just a shocked face like Jonah did seeing the taser gun that Joseph had pulled out and before anyone had made a move, he shot Jonah, giving him massive shocks trough, his body making me scream seeing him just fall over like a goddam timber.

"Stop that! just stop you are hurting him!" I was screaming it running over to Jonah's body, he was still stunned when I was just about to pull the projectiles from his chest when Tom snatched me back making me scream angry back at him for hurting Jonah. "fucking let me go, he is hurting you bastard cant you see that!?" I was still struggling when Joseph stared at me like I was just as crazy when Tom was still holding me back when Jonah just made groining noises from the ground where he was lying flat on his face. "Andrea, fucking snap out of it! he was about to smash in your window and probably hurt you in the process, get a fucking grip already!" Josephs words where sharp and hard when I just relaxed and gave into the crying again, I didn't understand anything, why the f**k did they even bring that thing along with them? I just snapped to Tom that I needed help with Jonah.

"What the fuck is happening?!" I was standing on the ground again and just holding my chest crying, staring down at Jonah, he was moving the slightest still stunned when Tom and Joseph shared a look that made me want to kill them, I didn't want more secrets, no more!