Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 92

I was crying so hard when I saw the car that was driving away and just stood there, not caring about the money that was blowing around in the wind around me, holding me own arms so tight that I think that I was losing my breath.

Get a f*****g grip Andrea... just get a f*****g grip! My fingers trembling when I was making hard sniffles and bent over and just started to pick up the bills, this was f*****g humiliating but what choice did I have? I need his f*****g money just like I always did.... F**k.... My cold fingers reaching out for the last one when I heard a car coming up and looked up, my face was destroyed by tears, and I wanted to die where I was kneeled over in the cold snow and just grabbing after money that I didn't even want. My heart going fast against my chest thinking that it was Jonah that had got some f*****g sense into his head and turned back when the strong hard fear caught me seeing that big black car that was rolling in, followed by two more. Oh f**k.

I don't know why I didn't move, I just didn't when I was still sitting on the ground just staring at the man that walked out and at first, he didn't even look at me, making me wish that he didn't recognise me like this, oh god I really hoped that he didn't. I bent my head down, looked away when he passed, two guys following him when he suddenly paused making my heart stop, I mean come on it wasn't like he couldn't see me, the crying woman in business clothes on the pavement, f*****g kneeled down with hundred dollar bills in my fists, grabbing them even tighter when the hard brown eyes locked onto mine, giving me a small smirk like he thought that I was right were I was suppose to be, on my fucking knees.

"Andrea? I almost didn't recognize you, but I have to say, I don't hate seeing you like this..." he was having a charming smile now that he knew that it was me, and here I was hoping that he had forgotten about me, just another bitch along the line of many women he f****d beside his wife.

"Austin......" He smiled even more hearing my trembling voice, not even trying to hide just how scared I was of him, he had made Kayla disappear and here he was just looking at me like he finally had something funny to do in this otherwise bored day of his. "My... look at you, here let me help you up, its cold outside..." He reached out his hand, he had a glove on that made me even more scared, they where black leather, just like a killer would have.

"Thanks...." I didn't even have the nerve to say no to him when he pulled me up and just continued to have this big stupid perfect smile on his handsome face that just made my stomach even more cold, he was here for Jonah, but he found me. "Money problem?" he looked down at my other hand that was bare and grasping the rolled up hundred of dollars that Jonah had thrown at me and blushed, fuck I really didn't need this too, Austin that I was scared shitless of making me feel even more humiliated than I already did when I just looked down at my hand like I had forgotten they were there.

"Oh... no.... no, I just..." I stopped when his eyes shifted, going hard like he wasn't even going to listen to my bullshit, he wasn't James that would listen and get me, now he was a fucking charmer that knew didn't have the patience to play charades with me that knew more then what I let on for people.

"Yes..... yes, I have money problem. I always do...." I just gave into whatever he was doing to me, pressuring me with the hardness in his eyes and looked down again, feeling like absolute shit when his face softened instance from my honesty.

"I thought that Sullivan was helping you, or did he dump you like I heard?" I looked up by his curious voice, I didn't even know that there was words and rumours surrounding me and my mind didn't get who he was talking about, I had never heard that name before. "Sullivan?" I made a wondering face that made him start to chuckle like I was the cutest thing he had ever seen and just reached out and tapped my chin making me flinch from the cold fear that was hitting me hard again, I didn't want to talk to him, whatever he was or did, it wasn't good.

"Oh right.... I forgot that he didn't want you to get involved, fought so fucking hard for it and here you are here again, life is funny like that isn't it Andrea, me and you we just keep bumping into each other, it must be faith..." He made a chuckle when I didn't smile, it wasn't f*****g faith, Jonah was a damn drug dealer and he had some kind of deal with Austin that clearly was above him in rank, or whatever you called it, I wasn't a f*****g expert on criminals.

"Jonah." I just said his name and realised, that I didn't even know what his last name was making me close my eyes a few second, humiliated even more, I didn't know shit and here I was still begging him not to leave me. I though that I was different since I left him, but standing here with the smirking Austin, I knew that I wasn't different and neither was him, we just were used to the other one and couldn't keep away, f**k.

"Yes, the one and only. Jonah Sullivan.... Good kid, bit of temper but who hasn't.... lucky his uncle is a friend of mine or else he would have been dead by now." He was smirking even more when my face lost all colour, the sheer terror that was inside me just radiating out and showing Austin just how f*****g scared I was of that, him killing Jonah, far more then I was that he would kill me.

"Oh, don't look so scared Andrea, I have no use of killing him, what good would that doo me? start a fucking war that I don't want and need, it just cost me time and money, I'm a businessman, not a fucking warlord." I still made a sound of shock when he was smiling at me like we had a casual conversation and not talking about him being a fucking drug lord and Jonah being his fucking pusher.... Oh god what the hell had I walked into?

"Did you kill her?" I don't even know where my courage came from when his dark eyes snapped down on me, he didn't like me asking made him annoyed, but I didn't care, I just wanted to know, that was it.

"No." he just said that and made a charming smile making my heart dropped. So, she was dead then. She was really dead.

My head falling down, and I just followed, letting go of the money and started to cry, not even caring about Austin when he looked at me sneering like he didn't want to deal with this shit right now and just back off and went back to his men that was not making a single emotion about me crying my heart out over the fact that my best friend was dead, and he killed her!

"You fucking murderer!" I didn't care anymore, what the hell did I have to lose, Jonah dumped me again and I had nothing more to live for, he killed my best friend, he fucking killed Kayla, and nobody seemed to care, not a single soul. But I did, she was my sister and now she was dead because of him!

"What the hell did you say to me?!" He sounded different now, like he really was offended when he had turned in his tracks and just stared at me like I was crazy, well maybe I was at this point, getting mixed up in this fucking world that I didn't understand. "I said that you are a fucking murderer, Austin! You killed Kayla and you don't even care, she was a human being, she loved to sing and she was the best every at making mac and cheese but I bet you didn't know that! you just want to fuck women and go home to that wife that you love so much when you are done sticking your dick inside of the girls that you kill when you don't like them anymore!" I was screaming like crazy, I bet the whole neighbourhood heard me when he snapped his fingers, did a small nod and before I knew it, two guys had grabbed me, holding me hard when I was panting from just going ballistic against the proper businessman, f*****g snake!

"You are so fucking lucky that I like you Andrea.... But honestly, I liked Kayla too, and she wasn't even half as much trouble like you are... whatever the fuck he sees in you...too much fucking trouble. well...... let's just see what he is willing to give to have you back shall we?" Austin's voice was dark and serious making me do a small whimper when one of the men holding me turned my arms hard, like he was about to break it for just looking at his boss wrong.

"Stupid bitch...." He was going back over to his car when another guy walked over and before I even knew what had happened, my vision was black, and darkness surrounded me.