His Little Wolf
Chapter 62

Bethany

Whitney Houston’s I will always love you is blaring out of the speakers and I know the dance floor is full but I don’t see anyone else only him, the world seems to disappear around us as I stare at Liam’s face, his eyes drawing me in as always.

The gap between our bodies is painful, I just want to be as close to him as possible, he leads the dance and I stay lost in this bubble at this moment, it’s just me and him, just me and…

“Wake up Beth, wake up!” I’m pulled from my sleep but the hyper voices of two 2 years old as they use my bed as a bouncy castle, how they are so happy this early in the morning I will never know!

“Good morning monkeys!” Their cute excited faces soon have me laughing, no matter what time they wake me up I can never be mad at them even if it is 6.40 am on a Sunday! my bedroom door opens, and in walks a flustered looking Calvin.

“Sorry Beth, I left them alone for two minutes to grab Cami before she woke Brooke and Bella and these devils escaped!”

“Sowy daddy, sowy unkle Cal!” They both whisper out in their cute little voices but as always he isn’t mad at them, they have him wrapped around their little fingers, to be honest, they have everyone they meet wrapped around their little fingers!

“Come on my little devils!” He smiles at them as they dive off my bed, rush past him, and straight for the living room!

“How long have they been up?”

“About an hour!” Poor guy!

“I’ll grab a quick shower and get dressed and then I’ll be out to help!” He gives me a grateful nod before he leaves my room and I head for the bathroom, the hot water relaxes my tired muscles almost instantly but my mind soon wonders back to the dream I was

having before Levi and Willow woke me up.

I’ve been having that dream at least once a week since my 16th birthday party, it’s always the same dream of me and Liam dancing and it doesn’t seem to matter how many times I dream of it I always wake up with the same feeling.

I always remember the moment that I released I truly loved him! Until that moment I had always been sure that I had a stupid teenage crush but by the time the song had finished I knew without a doubt I was in love with him and honestly part of that reality was painful, knowing he could find his mate at any time while I loved him from afar felt like a tear to my heart!

It’s my 18th birthday in 4 days and the feelings haven’t gone away, if anything it’s worse now as over the last year my thoughts have started wondering past more than just my love for who he is, both my mind and body has become very aware of how unbelievably sexy he is, he’s a wall of complete muscle and owns a fine fine a*s!

He still hasn’t found his mate yet either which I was always so grateful for but after paying close attention lately I’ve started to have some fears about that, mind f*****g fears that won’t leave me alone.

he’s 22 and he doesn’t seem to mind that he hasn’t found his mate yet, most wolves crave nothing more than finding their mate and he’s of Beta b***d so he should want it even more. what if he doesn’t want a mate? It’s rare but it happens.

I’ve also noticed he doesn’t seem interested in any of the girls in the pack neither does he ever go out to the club with the wolves that want to find themselves a girl for the night. I may not know much about s*x but I do know that wolves are very s****l and male wolves even more which is only increasing my struggle to understand any of this.

I even considered for a while that maybe he was gay but he’d have no reason to hide it, not in this family or in this pack.

I used to pray for him to be my mate but now that my birthday is closing in and I’ll be of age soon to find my mate I’m not so sure about it anymore. What if we are mates after all but he just doesn’t want me?

I recently found out that a wolf can sense their mate even if their underage but there’s a wolf law that stops them from telling the underage wolf, they have to wait until they are of age, I’m not sure how I didn’t know this but there are a lot of wolf laws.

If Liam and I are mates that means he would already know and I haven’t seen any signs from him to suggest anything other than brotherly love, honestly sometimes I wish I could just love him as a brother because the love I have for him is painful.

The thought of us being mates and him not wanting me and rejecting me shatters my heart! Maybe he won’t be my mate, maybe I will meet my mate at the annual blue moon ball and all these feelings I have for Liam will leave me and I can be free of this pain and confusion.

I step out of the shower as soon as I’m washed and make quick work of getting dressed so I can go and play with Levi and Willow, they are always the perfect distraction and right now I need it more than anything because even as I think that maybe finding my mate and losing my feelings for Liam is for the best the thought still slices my insides up and tears threaten to break free.

I’m not sure what I’ll do if he isn’t my mate or if he is but doesn’t want me but one thing I do know is I won’t have long to find out either way. The ball is in 4 days, my 18th birthday is in 4 days. it doesn’t help that I haven’t seen him for 2 weeks, he’s away helping out at Alpha John’s pack and I hate how much I miss him, it always messes with my feelings when he’s not here.

Beta Liam

These Rogues are f*****g relentless, we have killed hundreds over the past 2 weeks but they just keep on coming, I just don’t understand where the f**k they are coming from? We have had warriors out searching the forests every single day and night but we ain’t getting any luck finding their hideout.

We have been fighting for hours in pitch black and if it wasn’t for our advanced eyesight we wouldn’t be able to see a thing and I know everyone is getting tired but they won’t win, we will rip them to pieces before they can get what they want.

Finally, after what feels like days, the final one is taken down by a worn-out Ashley, every single one of us is ready for a shower and bed but first, we need to check for any deaths or injuries of our own.

Sadly, Alpha John has lost two of his she-wolves warriors and two of his men are seriously wounded, thankfully we didn’t lose any of our pack members although a couple has some pretty rough injuries.

“Breakfast has been served, please help yourselves, Beta Liam and Gamma’s Jack and Ashley would you join me in my office for breakfast?” We all quickly agree and head inside after him while our men go to the kitchen and John’s men start clearing out all the dead bodies.

John came to see us a month ago after he had started getting threats from Rose’s old pack, threats from the Beta informing him that he knew where Rose and Danielle were and that he was going to get them and poor Rose was beside herself with worry.

The Beta turned up a few days after the threat with two hundred warriors but John’s pack wiped them out with ease, well all of them aside from the Beta himself, the piss poor excuse of a wolf ran and hid while he let his men fight.

And then when that failed he enlisted the help of Rogues and they just kept on coming and coming! Once John realized they weren’t going away any time soon he came to us and asked for our help which we were happy to give.

John has tried to contact the Alpha of her previous pack but it’s just a waste of time he either doesn’t answer or he’s not there, well that’s what we’ve been told anyway. I don’t know what that prick has offered the Rogues for their help but it instantly reminds me of Marcus and gives me a feeling I hate.

I’ve been here constantly for the last 2 weeks and so has 30 of my men but everyone else has families and children back at the pack so we’ve been switching them out every couple of days, Jack and Ashley have been doing the same so they can see willow and will head back home later tonight.

As soon as we are done, everyone heads to their rooms for a shower and some sleep but I’m too worked up to sleep so I head out for a walk around the parklands, when I’m fighting or meeting with any of the guys I’m fine but the moment I’m left alone my mind instantly wanders to Beth.

I’ve not seen her in 2 weeks and I f*****g miss her, her smile, her laugh.. f**k I miss everything about her. I’ve face-timed with her a few times but it’s not the same.

Just over a year ago, I had another meltdown but it was the worst one by far, I destroyed my entire floor and would have kept going if Cal and Jack hadn’t stopped me, Time hasn’t gotten easier for me when it comes to Bethany it’s just got harder.

She may be underage but for some reason the moment she turned 17 all the restraint I had went straight out the window, I started to notice more than just her beautiful face and bubbly personality and its f*****g torture and Jonah isn’t doing anything to help me.

I was struggling bad so I decided to ask Cal to send me to do any work that was needed outside of the pack, usually, Jack and I would share it but he was happy to let me take the lead and he steps in when Cal needs extra hands at the pack and I’m not there.

I never stay away from home for long, it’s usually just a night or two but it does me good, I always miss Bethany when I’m away so when I get back home I’m so concerned about making sure she’s good and doesn’t need anything that the anger takes longer to hit me.

It may not make sense but it’s working for me however this is the longest I’ve been away from her and it’s hell but I just keep telling myself that she’ll soon be mine, 4 more days and she’ll know the truth and there’s nothing that will stop me from being there on her birthday… NOTHING!