His Unwanted Wife Again
Chapter Nine

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As he continues to speak on the phone, she slowly approaches him and stretches out her arm.

He stiffens when she touches his shoulder.

He turns quickly and harshly grabs her hand with one hand, and holds his phone in the other. He continues to answer the question he was asked by one of his employees but doesn't let go of her hand. He was trying to keep her at bay until he finished his phone call, and she was trying to take advantage of him being on the phone.

He lets go of her right hand then, shovels his fingers behind her head and grabs a fist full of hair. He bends her head back and glares down at her with seething eyes. She cries out from the sudden harshness.

He finishes answering his question and puts the phone back on mute once again. He tosses the phone on the recliner and focuses his attention on her. "What do you think you're doing?"

"I want you." She says grabbing his forearm with both hands asking him to slacken his grip a little.

He swallows hard and loosens his fingers a bit. He then closes his eyes and lets out a breath. She could tell he was trying to calm down.

She knew he would never hurt her, and she was going to take advantage of that knowledge.

She lets her hands travel down his biceps, and turns her head slightly to kiss his palm. Nathan loved when she used her tongue, and she was going to use that knowledge to her advantage. She very softy, and very gently, runs the tip of her tongue on the callus of his palm.

He breathes heavily and lets out a growling sound. He suddenly tightens his fist full of hair again and pulls her inches from his face.

For a few seconds, the only sounds were their pounding hearts and raucous breathing.

"You want sex?" He says like when you ask a child if they want punishment. He clenched his jaw clenched as he stared at her like he was in conflict with himself. "Fuck it." He growls.

He makes her squeal when he lifts her up and throws her over his shoulder. "You want sex, I'll give it to you." He drops her on the edge of the bed and begins unbuttoning his shirt. He pulls it off and rips off her clothes.

The way he was behaving was nothing like he was before. Taking his time and gently pleasing her, but she tried to ignore it. He slips off her panties quickly tossing it to the side. She could hear his name being repeated on his phone across the room. She could only imagine what all the managers were thinking.

Nathan pulls out his wallet and takes out a condom suddenly. She was surprised. They have never used a condom before. She tried to push out the hurt that came along with knowing that he was walking around with condoms and enjoy being with him.

A bit later.

As she lays on the bed coming down from her climax, she couldn't help but feel unsatisfied. It was just sex. Maybe even more like a quickie. He didn't make love to her. It was completely different than before. For some idiotic reason, she thought that it would be just like before. But he was different. As soon as he finished he hopped off the bed and went into the connecting bathroom. She just laid there frozen with disappointment.

"This isn't your bedroom." He comes out of the bathroom looking like he didn't just have his hands all over her. Like he was just back to business. "Get up and get going." He orders.

She bites her lips and grabs her dress hanging on the headboard. She slips it on and begins looking for her underwear.

Nathan picks up his phone on still laying on the recliner. He looks at the time and looks over at Sabrina. She was bent over on her knees searching under the bed. "What are you doing?"

"I can't find my underwear." She doesn't look at him. She stands up and begins flipping the pillows.

Suddenly, she felt cheap. This was the worst idea she had ever had. it was different. He didn't touch her the same, he didn't kiss her the same, he didn't even kiss her now that she thought about it, he didn't seem to be enjoying himself the way he normally did.

God, she was such an idiot. She wanted one last memory with him but if backfired because this wasn't what she wanted to remember. He finished faster and was a little more into his own needs than hers. She was supposed to using him for sex but instead, it felt like he used her.

"I know you're upset with me but you don't have to treat me like that."

"Upset doesn't even come close. And what did you expect? You wanted sex, I gave you sex." He runs a hand through his hair. "You're not special. You think because I gave you what you want that somehow you win? That you still have some sort of pull over me?" You're wrong. You are not the first woman who threw themselves at me that I didn't really want but I had sex with anyway. Release, is all it comes down to." He picks up his shirt from on top of the dresser and tosses her underwear, which was laying under it. "Now leave. I don't want to ever see that pretty face again." He turns his back toward her and begins putting on his shirt.

He intended to hurt her, and he succeeded. She had no idea that words could hurt so much. She was the fool to think that she could just slip into bed with him and think there wouldn't be consequences. She made herself even more of a slut in his eyes. Maybe she was a little bit, but it was only for him. If she had cheated on him, she would deserve this verbal abuse but she didn't and she was taking it like she did. In truth, she left that day to fix herself. Yes, she did it the wrong way, but how in the world could she have known that Judd would turn into a psycho?

She put on her underwear and slips back on her flats. She grabs her sweater and hangs it over her arms.

"You just slept with me to hurt me right?"

"I just gave you what you wanted." He snaps up the last button at the top of his shirt and begins folding down his collar.

"Because you knew it was your chance to hurt me."

He grinds his teeth moving on from his collar to his cuffs. Look at you, standing there like your feelings are important to me. You weren't thinking about me when you left our home to be with my cousin."

"I left to try and fix myself. I knew that I had an unhealthy obsession with trying to conceive and for some reason, I felt like I needed to be away from my life for a moment to get healthy again. Judd showed up at the house. I have no idea how he even got the address. I thought you sent him to bring me back or something."

"I told you to save it." He mutters angrily and moves past her leaving her by herself.

There was undoubtedly no fixing their marriage. It was just too late. She had to keep this memory of him and use it to try and truly move on. Maybe she should sell the mansion. It was just one big reminder of her failed marriage and Auden's death. But what would she do with all of that money? Maybe donate it, or maybe just try to do some good with it.

It suddenly dawned on her that she was supposed to be on her way to the airport.

"Crap." She runs down the stairs. She almost makes it out the door before she hears her name.

"Sabrina!" Vivian yells. She looked as she always did. Neatly put together, fingernails polished, the finest diamonds around her neck, ears, and fingers. She slowly approaches looking at her up and down suspiciously. The vicious side of Vivian showing on her face. She definitely hated her again.

She stops two feet away from where Sabrina was standing by the front door.

"I was just leaving." She tries to dart out quickly.

"Wait," Vivian commands. "What are you doing here?"

Sabrina noticed the subtle shifts of eye movement As Vivian focused on Sabrina's open skin. She must have seen Nathan come from the same direction she came in.

"Clarissa invited me." She answered even though she knew Vivian knew that already.

She nods and then gives her another look over. This time, like she was showing her dissatisfaction with her appearance.

Sabrina knew it was to make her feel insecure and low class, but she couldn't help but feel like that anyway. Nathan's words were ringing in her head.

"You still shouldn't have shown up here. You have caused my family enough heartache." Just a second ago there was a lack of emotions in her voice, now her eyes were welling up with tears. "My son is an angry person because of you, he does not speak to his sister because of you, and my husband is in jail, because of you. How dare you show up here?"

She took a breath and began letting all of her tears fall, holding back nothing. Two of Nathan's aunts and Baylee had entered the room from the back door hearing the commotion. "You have done nothing but destroy my family."

She yells, choking on tears.

"Come on." Baylee grabs her mother's arms. "You're going to upset Clarissa and the kids."

"Go back where you came from...Let my grandchildren forget that you even exist...And thank god they do not have any cousins that you are the mother of." She wrenches her arms away, intent on telling Sabrina how she felt. "Mom..." Baylee's yells. "This isn't the time or the place." But Vivian continues.

"The reason you don't have Auden is because God knew you don't deserve to be his mother, and God knows, that you don't deserve to be a mother at all..."

Sabrina's eyes fall to the floor. She was already feeling vulnerable from the echoes of Nathan's words. It was such a horrible idea to come there. She knew it might have been bad but, she had no idea how bad. Vivian not only hated her, but she also resented her and blamed her for all of her problems.

"Mom!" Nathan yelled coming from the back door.

What's going on in here?" Clarissa enters with Matthew on her hip the very next second.

"Nothing," Nathan interjects. "Sabrina was just leaving." He stands behind his mom and puts his hand on her shoulder pushing her in a different direction.

Something was wrong with the world because Nathan was annoyed by not only the sight but the sound of Vivian's crying. Now he looked as if he was consoling her.

He had told her stories of her sudden moments of sadness and her ways of creating drama. He had told her about the arguments she would pick with Desmond about the smallest things because she wanted attention from him. Nathan hated her behavior and emotionally disconnected himself from her. He became independent and resilient. Vivian would always try to reconnect with him but her behavior didn't change up until recently when she accepted their marriage. Even still, he avoided her as much as he could and was always suspicious about her agendas. But Sabrina tried to push him to be closer to her but he flat out refused.

Even though she knew that she was innocent she couldn't help but feel embarrassed and ashamed. "Excuse me." She mumbles and resumes her path out the door.

Once she got into the cab. She begins harshly breathing. Those were gut-wrenching words. Vivian needed someone to blame. She knew she was wrong for going there no matter who invited her. But this was the last time she would ever let herself be disrespected so highly. Unlike Vivian, Sabrina didn't cry when things didn't go her way, she got tough.

Those words were exactly what she needed to hear. This was all the more motivation that she needed to whole-heartedly move on from Nathan and never look back. No matter how hard she tried to move on before there was always a piece of her that couldn't. It was because she had hope. Hope, that the day if she finally did get to tell Nathan the truth that by some miracle he would believe her. Now she knew that there was no chance. There was no one else to blame but herself. She promised herself, from this day forward, she was letting everything go, and truly start a new chapter in her life. As much as it pained her, no more Nathan, or anyone in his family, including the kids.

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