My Arrogant Mate
Chapter 49

My gaze fell to the white ceiling above me. I found it difficult to breathe and I was still shaking uncontrollably as I turned my head to the side and saw Nathan, who didn't move anymore and seemed to have left us.

I desperately tried to move but I just couldn't move no matter how hard I tried, causing me to cry in terror. I wished for Devin. Wish I could argue with him about anything but the memory of him faded along with everything else. With great effort I tried to control my breathing, but I couldn't. I kept coughing and felt unbearable pain all over my body.

"Jade..", I then heard Silvan's voice and looked up again, where I looked at him smiling. His eyes seemed full of desperation and I would have liked to comfort him, but I couldn't get a sound out. "Everything will be fine.... everything will be fine," he kept saying in panic and I felt him carefully lift me into his arms.

He walked around the house with me. I recognized it from the passing walls, but then I fixed on his face again and never wanted to take my eyes off him again.

You are beautiful, I told him over the mate link, trying to put my hand on his cheek, but it was like I couldn't feel my body anymore. As if only my insides were there and everything else was gone. "You have to stay awake," his voice repeated, and I watched in fascination as his lips formed the words, which only muffled to my ears.

I'm so tired, I explained to him exhaustedly and wanted to close my eyes, but immediately I felt a pain on my cheek, which then disappeared again immediately. Did he really just hit me? "You will not leave me!"

When I then looked up, I saw the beautiful, dark sky above me with so many small stars twinkling and I regretted in this hopeless moment that I hadn't looked up more often in my life. "Help me!"

My eyes fell on Silvan's face again, but he disappeared, just like the sky above me and I suddenly felt an unbelievable cold that pulled through every fiber of my body.

The pain was slowly fading away and I just wanted to sleep, but then my head suddenly lifted up and I looked into those breathtakingly beautiful, green eyes.

"Hey," Bene whispered, stroking my hair soothingly. I was apparently lying in the back seat of the car, because I heard the engine noise very quietly, but I didn't pay any more attention to it.

I saw Miguel, I tried to tell him through the pack connection, but since I had never used it I didn't know if he could even hear me.

"He's amazing, isn't he?" he answered me softly, smiling while a single tear trickled from one eye. "You'll get to know him. You just have to stay awake," he added, then wiped away his tears while taking a deep breath and turning his gaze back to me.

I'm glad to have met you, I then thought and closed my eyes with a smile, but he immediately shook me in panic, which made me open my tired eyelids again.

"You won't say goodbye! Forget it!", he spoke softly but furiously and then glanced forward for a moment. "You see, we're here. You made it right away," I heard him say, but I didn't really notice it anymore and closed my eyes again. "Sylvan!"

"F**k... help me lift her out!"

SILVAN

I carried her to the office in my arms and kept trying to wake her up, but she just wouldn't open her eyes, which drove me crazy with fear.

"I need help!" I screamed desperately and Dr. Hutzfeld ran into the waiting room and widened his eyes in disbelief.

Why did he just stop!!!!

"Do something!" I yelled at him and he immediately ran ahead of me into his treatment room, where he instructed me to put Jade on the couch. I lowered her carefully, not stopping to look at her and something inside me died at the sight of her so lifeless. Something that would never recover.

"Mr. Campbell, you have to get out," I heard him behind me, but I ignored him. Did he seriously think I would leave her side for even a second???

With my shaking hands, covered in blood, I stroked her beautiful brown hair until I felt a hand on my arm and turned angrily.

"I won't go!" I yelled at Bene, but he didn't let go of my arm and pulled me further and further away from Jade, which made me cry bitterly.

"You have to let the doctor do it, Silla," he said sympathetically, but I broke away from him again to give her one last kiss on the cheek before leaving the room with Bene in desperation, while my heart kept missing a few punches.

I couldn't say anything, couldn't think, and sat down on one of the chairs that were in the waiting room. Putting my face in my hands, tears ran down my face while Bene sat down next to me and kept kissing me well.

I blamed myself, ignoring him, and went into a kind of trance, not knowing how to ever recover. It all seemed unreal and my heart ached at just the thought of losing her.

"She will survive this... She has to survive this", Bene repeated over and over again and even without looking at him I knew that he was crying too and was talking more to himself than to me...

Minute by minute passed and the longer I sat here and felt as if I was waiting for death, the more any hope of a miracle dwindled in me. There was only pure desperation, there was nothing more in me. There was no more joy, no good feeling, only sadness and unbearable pain.

It was my fault... I should never have kidnapped her...

Those were the last thoughts I thought about before the door finally opened after hours and my eyes sought out the blood-smeared doctor.

*****

Absolute darkness surrounded me as I tried hard to open my heavy lids, but nothing happened no matter how hard I tried, which made me whimper softly in desperation.

I felt helpless and completely alone, trapped in my confused mind and the longer I was stuck in this state between dream and reality, the more scraps of my memories came to mind that I would have liked to have immediately suppressed again... There they were again... The images of Nathan's lifeless body... My mate's hate covered eyes...

And then all of a sudden I saw her again, like she was right in front of me at the moment, and my heart immediately started beating wildly at the sight of her while I gasped for air like I was about to drown.

viola ....

Her dark eyes so emotionless as if there were no good feelings in her. Her mouth opened slightly as if she couldn't believe what she had done. Her words so full of hate, like she wants to kill me...

And she had, at least that's what it felt like, because if I were still alive, I would be able to perceive something outside of my body... wouldn't I?

Before I could answer that question, which made me cry inside, I fell back into the all-consuming darkness.

And I was thankful, because with that, the evil spirits of the past also disappeared...

I woke up again, but this time it was a very different feeling as my senses slowly seemed to return to me even though I was still terrified and didn't even know where I was.

I breathed very calmly and didn't dare to open my eyes for a while so as not to completely destroy my hopes for anything other than this deep black, but when I took a deep, steady breath out of sheer desperation, the most beautiful came to me smell of the world in consciousness...

Sylvan...

He was here and now, as I inhaled his scent of forest and freedom deeply again and again, I also felt his presence very well and all the fear, all the despair, all the sorrow and worries disappeared just by recognizing his existence.

All that remained was the longing for his closeness and the feeling of the purest love, which I wanted to consume immediately with every fiber of my body.

Full of anticipation for him, I slowly opened my eyes and the first thing I saw was the gray blanket above me, while I had to open and close my eyelids several times to get used to my surroundings.

It was dark in this cold, sterile room, and it took almost all of my strength to raise my upper body. I leaned on my weak arms, ignored the pain in my stomach area and then immediately recognized the practice room where I had been treated before.

When I finally sat up and held my head, which was pounding slightly, the first thing I noticed was Bene, who was to the right of my bed and seemed to be asleep.

He was sitting on a small stool, dressed in his usual black clothes, and leaning his torso on my hospital bed with his hand resting on my ankle.

It was just a small touch, but even that put a smile on my face and I wanted to cry with joy, but my eyes darted to my other side...

"Silvan," I then whispered softly and felt for the first time how dry my throat felt, but I didn't care at all. All my thoughts revolved around him.

He lay there just like Bene, his head resting on his arms and fascinated by the sight of him, a thousand fluttering butterflies formed in my stomach, which immediately drove away all the excruciating pain. I let my gaze wander over him curiously and realized that he was still wearing the white, blood-smeared sweater, which made it immediately clear to me that he hadn't left my side for a second.

Tears of joy formed in my eyes, but at the same time they were accompanied by deep sadness, because even though everything seemed fine now, so much bad was behind us and I knew it would be a while before we could do it together would overpower. His father was dead.. his sister wanted to kill me.. and his mother.. what about his mother after all that?

I didn't know, shook off these thoughts and looked through my veil of tears into his face, which was so beautiful that I took a deep breath.

So peaceful...

I stretched my hand out to touch him, but unfortunately I couldn't get that far, causing a soft, tearful whimper to escape my lips.

He must have heard it because he jumped slightly and his eyes slowly opened while my heart started beating like I was about to see him for the first time.

Yawning, he stretched his arms out and I smiled at how sleepy he looked, but when his eyes met mine, he suddenly seemed wide awake and my heart skipped several beats with joy.

"Oh my God, Jade," he whispered, and I wasn't the only one with tears welling up in my eyes.

"Silvan," I breathed, longingly reaching out my weak arms to him, causing him to immediately stand up and lean over me.

I closed my eyes, feeling the tears running down my cheeks, and wrapped my arms around his body as tightly as I could while snuggling my face into his chest for protection.

"I love you so much. You have no idea," he whispered in my ear, his voice shaking, and then kissed tenderly over his mark on my neck, making me cling to him even tighter.

I would never forget this moment. He was destined for eternity, just like our love...

"Hey," I then heard Bene's voice and glanced over Silvan's shoulder to give him a grateful smile.

"I thought... We thought... I'm so thankful to the moon goddess that you're with me again," Silvan said with tears in his dark eyes and broke away from me to gently take my face in his hands. He looked at me with an expression that made me catch my breath and I felt our bond more than ever as I lost myself in the darkness of his irises.

"I never want to be anywhere else," I whispered, smiling, putting my hand on his strong chest, beneath which I could feel his rapidly beating heart pounding.

"I love you too."