Reject Me Again, My Alpha
Chapter 100

” Devon, she will have had her reasons. ” The former Luna said. I was fuming , marching up and down on the edge of the boundary. ” She shouldn’t have done that , anything could be happening now. All the people we love could be dead or dying and we are stuck here , helpless” I snapped, looking out at the path up to the battle. I heard someone gasp behind me. I turned to look and saw Abigail standing there with tears in her eyes and her hand on her mouth. s**t , ” Abi , I’m sorry ” I said .

” Go inside Abigail ” her mum said. She wiped her eyes and walked off back inside. Meanwhile, the former Luna was giving me the stink eye. ” Calm down Devon , before I smack you up the side of the head. The truth of the matter is , you were a liability up there. She got in your head and she threatened to kill you. Your mate did what was right and still went back to help protect your family. Violet is new here , she could have left them to it and hid out here with you. But she didn’t. I don’t know what has gotten into you younger generations when it comes to your mates , but you all need a good kick up your asses. You have been blessed with someone who complements you. So stop being an a*****e. And say that my mate could die again and I will show you a good old-fashioned beating ” she said, her hands on her h**s. And I can honestly say I have never seen the Luna act or speak that way.

It took me back for a second , until I saw her worriedly glance behind me at the same spot I had been looking at. When I actually looked around as well , I saw other women , looking out of windows , or out in front of the safe houses, the same as us. All looking that way. The Luna was just as scared as I was , same as the rest who had to stand by idle was. And here I was acting all pissed off. I mean I still was, I should be up there fighting. But once again, she had gotten to me , and it had nearly messed everything up.

I believe I was more angry at that , with a side order of pissed my mate dumped me and ran back into danger herself. Closing my eyes, I brought back the memory of the day I had marched into her room after a telling off from Enzo. It had only been a few days ago , my mate had every reason to hate me. I had acted like a first-class prick. With an extra scoop of douche bag added on top. My own self-doubts and fears had over ruled me and kept me away at a time she had needed me the most.

I had marched into that room like I had owned it and found her sitting on the window seat staring out. So she hadn’t passed out , more like just cried as much as she could. When she looked across at me, her eyes were red , her skin puffy around her eyes and she looked miserable. ” Finally came in the house then ? “she asked. Not spiteful or angry , just tired, she sounded tired. Soul deep kind of tired. I shoved my hands in my pockets as I went into the room and used my back to close the door so I could lean against it.

” I’m sorry ” I told her. She looked back out of the window and away from me. ” Sorry for what ? ” was all she said. ” For putting you through extra hurt and not being there for you when you need me ” she smiled and shook her head, but she still didn’t look at me. ” I do not blame you for not trusting the mating . She has caused so much damage and self-doubt in everyone. What I do blame you for is not acting like a nice person. Even if you doubted us , you handled it poorly. We could have just been friends , amicable until it was all solved. Instead, you treat me like I have the plague , you run from me and avoid me like I am about to infect you. Even if we turn out to not be fated mates , we are bonded ” she pulls her top down and shows me her mark. I wince as the memory of me doing that comes back to mind. But what seemed a perfect memory then , was now a nightmare.

I hod been tricked into morking someone I believed wos my mote , when, in octuol foct, it wos on imposter moybe in my mote’s body. ” As o bonded mote you could hove brought me o lot of comfort ” she finished off, with. I look down ond I feel onger ogoin swoon through me, not ot her , but ot the situotion. ” I feel like I hoven’t expressed myself properly, Violet. If I hod, moybe we wouldn’t be in such o mess right now “, I told her. All I hod spouted wos feor of the whot if. My broin wos too muddled up to convey exoctly how I wos feeling.

I had been tricked into marking someone I believed was my mate , when, in actual fact, it was an imposter maybe in my mate’s body. ” As a bonded mate you could have brought me a lot of comfort ” she finished off, with. I look down and I feel anger again swoon through me, not at her , but at the situation. ” I feel like I haven’t expressed myself properly, Violet. If I had, maybe we wouldn’t be in such a mess right now “, I told her. All I had spouted was fear of the what if. My brain was too muddled up to convey exactly how I was feeling.

” I am going to try now , so that you understand. Please bare with me , so I get my words right. I don’t want to hurt you more than I already have. ” I asked of her. She finally looked at me in curiosity and nodded slightly. I wasn’t any good at this , serious talk. I was the joker , the laughter and the one that kept things up beat. ” It is not that I don’t want you as my mate , you are beautiful and perfect . You are literally everything I had ever dreamed and hoped my mate would be. When I look at you I want to never stop , never look away. The sight of you to me will never ever grow old. My heart already beats for you. ” she interrupts me, ” You mean for her ” she says, and I c**k my head to the side and look at her in confusion.

She rolls her eyes. ” Our mating so far has been with her in the driving seat , her words, her actions , her k****s and her pleasure. It may have been my body, but very much believe it was all very much her. So , if your heart already beats with love, it beats for her and not me. You do not know the real me , you haven’t taken the time to even know me. We have barely shared a few words with one another ” she says, and it slices at my chest that she thinks that way , but then again, why would she not? I handn’t corrected her.

” No Violet , my heart was not beating like that until the spell was dropped. Before, I was as trapped as you were. My body , but nothing that happened was me. Not since I placed that mark on your neck , I remember now that is when the complusion started. On the mating grounds, as soon as I marked your body. I do not need to have long conversations with you to know the person you are. I may have been acting like a d**k and keeping away , but I haven’t been far. I have been watching you when you didn’t know. I see how you care for people. How kind and sweet you are. How your smiles make others smile with you . My heart beats for you, not her “, I told her.

” Then why ? ” she asks. Sighing, I pinched my bottom l*p with my thumb and pointy finger. ” To protect us both ” I told her. And her brows scrunched up in the cutest way. I let go of my lips and moved closer to her. I didn’t go too close. Just so I could sit on the edge of the bed. Closer to her. ” I need to explain what a fated mate would mean to me first. My parents were not fated , people don’t really talk about it around here, it’s not such a sad story or uncommon really. But my mum and dad were not careful , got caught pregnant with me and then. They bonded. It seemed the right thing to do. Until my dad found his fated mate, he couldn’t reject her. He said as much as he loved my mother , he couldn’t reject her for my mum. Fated trumped bonded. He broke off the mating with my mum and left this pack and went and moved to my stepmother’s pack. Not too far from here , but he still moved away. . He left me and mum alone , he would come see me as often as possible , he was an awesome dad and I love him. He isn’t a bad man. And things turned out well for my mother. She found her fated mate too , so even though this isn’t a tragic story , I have four parents who all love me. Step-siblings from my father. Unfortunately, my mother never got pregnant with another pup. They do not know why , but my stepfather took me on as his own. He was a good dad too. The point is , he still chose his fated mate. I still saw it break my mother’s heart for a while. And my dad still left us “, I told her.

” You do not want that to happen to us , one of us ends up with our hearts broken if we are not fated. Then if our fated one comes along ” she asks. And I nodded. ” Then why not just do it now , break the bond and stop all of the what if’s. Stop all of this pain because at least then we will both know where we stand ” she said. ” But what if we are fated mates ,real fated mates. And then our bond is broken ? ” I asked her. ” So what do we do with you avoiding me until we know for sure ? Because I have to be honest, Devon, I get it now , I really do. But this, how we are now is killing me. My body calls to be near you at all times. My soul needs you , I need you ” I looked at her and saw how tired she looked.

” Why don’t I lie with you , so you can sleep. I think we could both do with a good rest. And then we can talk more about it when we wake up ” I smiled sadly at her. She looked at the bed and at me. I could tell how conflicted she was and she couldn’t be blamed for it. Eventually, I think how exhausted she was won out, because she nodded. I stripped my shirt off and my shoes , but left my jeans on. And she got on the bed in the top and trousers she was wearing. We didn’t even get under the covers and at first we lay at opposite sides of the bed. She had faced her back to me. It took me a whole two minutes to decide that this wasn’t going to do. So I put my hand around her and pulled her back , so I was spooning her. She lay stiff to begin with , but eventually she started to relax. ” I won’t break the bon we have , because I am wishing, hoping with everything that I have , that we are fated mates Violet ” I heard her let out a breath she must have been holding and she finally relaxed fully into me. We slept pretty much the whole day. I had woken before her and just watched her sleep. I prayed with everything I had to the moon goddess and the fates to make it so that we are fated. And I promised her even though she didn’t know, I wouldn’t act like a jack a*s again. I wouldn’t get intimate with her until I knew for sure , but I could still be there for her. As a friend.